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Chapter four done! 8000 words later! What!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65813584/chapters/169512259

Linking is not working oh well. GOOD GOD THIS CHAPTER TOOK TOO LONG-

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Am I doing something wrong?

Should I have rated it 'gen' or 'teen'?

Yeah I guess the description kind of sucks but it's no worse than some I've seen

Are the tags what throw people off?

Is it my writing on the whole?

I don't like to chop my chapters up it feels a little scummy

but my view count is taking the toll

Feeling like a bard on the street corner or in a little-visited pub

Serenading my heart out to the drunkards and the doves

My grammar isn't the best sometimes

I used the word 'looked' like seventy times

if you could toss a few views my way

That would be all that's needed to make my day

Sixteen hours for sixteen views

And maybe a kudos or two

When you don't write about the popular stuff

You can expect to have to be kinda tough

Sixteen hours for sixteen words

In a comment just for you,

"I really love this story

I'm so excited for the

next chapter when you get through."

Just that little nudge was all I needed to get back to writing again,

i swear I write for myself but sometimes I need to know that I even can

its hard when you shout into the void and the void just ignores you too

So I won't feel guilty for wanting some engagement and assurance of the things I do

Well the writers block set in

My view count stayed the same

A month or two or more has passed

And I feel a little lame

Better pull out the keyboard again

Better try and just pull through

I'm surprised by all the engagement

That similar works obtained too.

am I doing something wrong?

should I resort to the popular stuff?

Sure the ships are real crazy and so is the porn but surely someone likes a little fluff?

is the title way too long?

Is the word count still too low?

I don't like to advertise, it's

manipulation in disguise

I don't want to put on a show

sixteen hours for sixteen views

And maybe a kudos or two

When you only write hurt/comfort and fluff

You can expect to have to be kinda tough

sixteen hours for sixteen words

Which sometimes aren't the nicest to read

"Ten out of ten

Would not recommend

Your writing sucks and it's a sight to see."

This shouldn't even matter

Why do I even bother to try?

Maybe this isn't the story I'm meant to write

Anyway, motivation has started to die

feel bad it's not finished yet

feel bad it's just sitting there

the two people who liked it have left long ago

why does it matter ? why do I care?

its stupid that I even tried

it's stupid i thought that I could

But I got a cold shower

Sat down for six more hours

And decided I'd just pull through

Sixteen hours for sixteen views

It's a gift I gave myself

If you write for the attention it's a little rough

You can expect to have to be kind of tough

Sixteen hours for sixteen words

In a message you left yourself

"It's about expression

It's about your passion

Nothing's for nothing

No effort wasted

I love you."

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Oh the air conditioners busted

It's a hundred and seven degrees

The humidity is record high and I swear there ain't a breeze

The water's all room temperature

And my freezer has sprung a leak

The fans are runnin' and the air is thrummin' I just can't get out of this heat.

Thought the pool would cool me off but I was soon surprised to see

They had closed it early due to someone's girl and they'd be out until next week

And I thought myself a think

I went right up to the kitchen sink

Tried to wash my face but the relief was fake my water was shut down that week.

Oh the air conditioners busted

It's a hundred and seven degrees

The humidity is record high and I swear there ain't a breeze

The water's all room temperature

And my freezer has sprung a leak

The fans are runnin' and the air is thrummin' I just can't get out of this heat

Spent a sleepless night all sweaty

The record low was 90 degrees

Woke up the morning next just a little perplexed as to how I could even breathe

But there was a silver lining

I could drive to work that day

Put the key in the ignition but dang my ambition 'cuz I couldn't get it started that day

I walked to work

As the sun came up

I forgot my hat and wallet and my keys and stuff

But I finally reached the lobby

I was ready for relief

But the air was down and it was eighty all around and the repairman was vacationing.

Oh the air conditioners busted

It's a hundred and seven degrees

The humidity is record high and I swear there ain't a breeze

The water's all room temperature

And my freezer has sprung a leak

The fans are runnin' and the air is thrummin' I just can't get out of this heat

If this ever happens to you

Just stop and take a breath

Nothin's so important

That it's worth risking your health

The deadlines can all wait

It's your life is on the line

Cuz heatstroke sucks it isn't worth a few bucks

There's other options to get cool

(find a library close to you)

((or try a shopping mall or two))

(((even visiting a friend will do)))

((((and if you think you're sick the hospital should have air conditioning too))))

Cuz when the air conditioners busted

And it's a hundred and seven degrees

When the humidity is record high and there ain't a hint of breeze,

It's real easy to get overwhelmed

It's real easy to just carry on

But just know your limits so you don't get sick and can survive till autumn comes.

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Sometimes the delusion

Is so strong it rallies the people

And when the fantasy is challenged

Their focus redirects to you

humanity forgotten

In the face of blind rage

Perspectives are scorned

In the face of blind rage

And you soon will be told

By countless angry faces

That your entire self is invalid

A book torn from a page

So be silent and still now

Lest your fingers feel the cage

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That's chapter three up of the Cousin Casey AU that isn only kinda an AU. Focused on the turtles and Splinter for this one, and tried my best to represent a Japanese traditional funeral for Karai cause she deserves to be honored. Also tried to make Splinter going 'blue you are the leader now' make more sense. Because he sees that he has put too much weight onto Raph and is trying to intervene to make that better (but in reality he is just causing his sons more stress.)

I"m really trying to make sure it ties into the movie but it's hard. It's also as hot as all get out and I got writer's block for the last part so maybe it sucks idk I'm autistic I can't tell if what I've done is worthy to exist or if it is a literal cringefest dumpster fire that everyone is just being nice about only so they don't hurt my feelings.

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Kind of what I imagined Cassandra's poorly drawn poster looks like in my fic (I am filled with the rage of a thousand suns)

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Casey's murderbot roomba now has a name, courtesy of @stahrrleight . For my Cousin Casey au (I Am Filled with the Rage of a Thousand Suns).

Casey found it in the trash and strapped some knives on it as a part of a foot recruit training challenge. But the trainees were super rude to the poor little cleaning bot and their abuse awoke the evil spirits that exists in anything powered by artificial intelligence. Now Pucklee and Casey share a special bond over destruction and chaos (and cleaning) 🧹🧼

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Okay, that's chapter two of my Cassandra au posted. We introduced the first OC in this chapter, a little malfunctioning roomba that has a thirst for blood! Casey has adopted it but it needs a name... Any suggestions? We also revealed Foot Brute and Foot Lieutenant's names as well: Yin and Yang! This is based off of my own headcanon that these characters were originally going to be revealed to have a name just like Cassandra and that it was going to possibly be based off of Karai's two henchmen in the 2003 series.

Now these guys never got an official name in the show, but throughout development they were called Yin and Yang so I figured why not? Casey was fulfilling a role sort of like Karai anyway so I think it works.

Also it makes it easier than constantly writing out 'Foot Lieutenant' and 'Foot Brute' be cause that is a PAIN.

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the insecure urge to delete everything you've ever shared online with anyone ever

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💥🙌👏

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I was gonna start out the next chapter of I Am Filled with the Rage of a Thousand Suns with an insight into the managerial position of Foot Lieutenant and Foot Brute and how they were really just supervisors filling int for an absent boss who (when he is resurrected) becomes a tyrant and then dies, and how that has brought a bunch of stress and drama in the Foot Clan. I have a scene typed out of him handling all the sick day approvals and insurance claims and complaints and drama that is stacking up in his office because the foot clan are all PISSED that the shredder, who was the built up symbol of power of the clan, was so easily defeated. I really wanted to tap into my knowledge of office jobs and make it kind of funny.

But then I remembered that when the Shredder was resurrected Casey, brute and lieutenant were the only current members 0-0 soooooo back to the drawing board I suppose. I'm sure I can still find a way to sneak in some office job jokes tho

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So obviously Leo's the medic for the Mad Dogs. And I also agree that in other iterations of the turtles that Donnie would pick up the job if Leo were incapacitated. But am I the only one who thinks that in Rise, Mikey would be more likely to take up the medic mantle?

Yes Donnie is "the smart one" and would be better suited to actually learning all the medical knowledge, but in practical application Rise!Donnie is ill suited to the task.

I mean, c'mon, just look at *gestures wildly to all of Donnie's canonical sensory issues and difficulty coping in the face of traumatic injuries (vomitello anyone?)*

I suspect Mikey would make a much better medic. He's not as smart as Donnie but he's certainly not dumb either. (If we decide that April's captions in Lair Games are canonically factual, which I know a lot of you do, then he has multiple degrees) And Donnie would help out in other ways, such as designing and building custom medical equipment.

Am I the only one who sees it?