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i miss my friends. I miss my old life. It hurts so much with how much i yearn to go back to it after i worked to hard to build my life there from scratch. I was doing so good. I was improving. I had people that cared about me and i knew my place in that area.

i feel like i dont belong here. Im not meant to be here. Like im the thing thats wrong.

sometimes i think it would have been better if i did off myself last year. Lately ive been feeling like ive been annoying even my closest friends. Most days it feels like it doesnt even feel like my meds do anything. I hate it. I hate being this way. I wanted to be happy. I have everything i need to be happy. Why cant i enjoy things normally. Why do i always have to be the one to ruin all things good. Like im tainting them with just a single touch. Im ruining it. I want to go home. I dont know where home is.

i just want to sleep forever i think. I think i would adore that the most in this life. I know those that watch over me are disappointed.

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Fuck it im using this blog for vents now

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“skip dinner and become thinner” more like “skip dinner and you have an eating disorder please get help”

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Reasons to Recover from Your Eating Disorder

You won’t have to go through life worrying about every single calorie and every single meal. 

You can enjoy dinner with your family without panicking about it. 

You can live life without it revolving around food. 

You won’t have to lie to the people you care about anymore.

You can actually have fun on your birthday.

Fighting with people you care about over whether or not you’ve eaten is boring and painful. 

Because there is more to life than food. 

Because losing friends is not fun. 

You can enjoy social occasions without worrying about food.

You won’t feel so constantly exhausted and drained all the time.

Thinking and dreaming about and being consumed by food is no way to live.

Feeling dizzy and cold and tired keeps you from living a happy, fulfilling life.

Recovery will give you the chance to LIVE and to be alive, rather than just existing.

Because you deserve to have happy thoughts in your head, instead of numbers. 

Your recovery can inspire and aid the recovery of others. Instead of passing on disordered behavior, you can pass on health and support and encouragement. 

Your skin will improve, as will your mental clarity. Eating right (and enough) can greatly help symptoms of depression and anxiety.

Because you don’t deserve to cry yourself to sleep anymore.

You deserve to be able to genuinely smile again. 

You deserve to be able to go outside and enjoy your day without worrying about what you’re wearing and whether or not you look okay. 

You won’t have to waste money on food to binge on anymore.

Your feet and legs will stop falling asleep and going numb when you sit down.

Your hair will stop falling out.

Your skin will finally be able to heal itself. You deserve to be glowing. 

It’s nice to not feel like death anymore. 

It’s nice to not smell like vomit anymore. 

It’s nice to be able to go out and actually enjoy yourself again. 

Your general health will improve and you’ll be less susceptible to colds and viruses. 

You won’t have to feel guilty about breaking your promises. 

You won’t have to lie to everyone around you. 

You’ll be able to go out and dance at parties/bars/clubs without feeling weak and dizzy.

If you’re fortunate enough to still have healthy teeth, recovery will prevent them from rotting. 

You are worth so much more than just a number on a scale. 

It’s nice to not be constantly cold and nauseous all the time. 

Because crying in your room is never a good way to spend a Friday night.

You can finally live without guilt. Guilt that you ate when you didn’t think you deserved to eat. Guilt that you haven’t eaten and you’re letting loved ones down. Guilt that you binged. Guilt that you purged. Guilt that deep down you’ve forgotten how to love yourself. 

Your bones won’t be brittle and easy to break anymore. 

You’ll be able to sleep at night without hunger pains keeping you awake.

Be confident again. 

So you don’t feel like a complete & utter hypocrite when trying to help someone that is in the same position as you.

So you can enjoy “family time” & not worry about eating “bad food”

So that you don’t spit up after eating because your esophagus is so fucked up from purging. 

So you don’t miss out on life. 

Because it’s nice waking up and thinking about what art you can create, what places you can explore, what books you can read, what people you can meet, what songs you can sing, what sports you can play, instead of thinking about what you’re going to eat and not eat that day.

Watching Netflix is a lot more fun than watching “thinspiration” videos. 

It’s nice to wake up in the morning with energy, instead of waking up tired from not eating, or sick from binging. 

So that you can get up in the morning and see clearly, instead of seeing spots or having black vision as you try to sit up. 

You deserve to love yourself again. 

You deserve to accept love from those around you again. 

You deserve to be able to go shopping without having panic attacks and breakdowns in the changing room. 

You can eat your favorite foods without guilt and anxiety. 

You’ll have enough energy to do the things you enjoy. 

You can be active, and run or play sports for the fun of it, not for weight loss. 

You can have a life again. 

You’ll be able to sleep at night. 

Aren’t you tired of feeling worthless and guilty?

You’ll be able to go out without thinking that everyone is staring at you. 

Go into a grocery store feeling safe. 

You won’t have to be scared of going to the doctor anymore.

You won’t have to excuse yourself from work or social events to purge.

Recover so you don’t have to see the scared, heartbroken look on your mother’s face when she hears you purging. 

Recover so you can go on a date and feel happy and not worry.

Recover so that you can share your story and help others recover. 

You won’t have to waste any more money on laxatives. 

Your eating disorder won’t be feeding your anxiety and depression anymore.

ALL of us deserve a better life than ED hell. 

You’ll be able to have children someday if you want to. 

So you can make spontaneous plans to go out, and not have to check or worry if they’ll “fit in” with the eating disorder.

So you can spend time having interesting conversations with people, without your mind wandering off to do calorie counts.

You don’t have to feel guilty when people buy you food, because you won’t have to waste it anymore. 

So you can live a happy, free, fulfilled life. 

So you can feel unafraid for the first time in a long time. 

So you can have and actually sustain healthy relationships with people (family, friends, significant other) without the eating disorder causing fights and pushing them away. 

You can walk around town with a friend or go to events without worrying about passing out. 

You don’t have to lie awake at night worrying about the damage you’re doing to yourself. 

When you give your body the fuel it needs, your physical AND mental health will improve. Your self-confidence will improve. 

You can get your natural skin tone back, and not look gray and sickly pale all the time.

Your blood pressure and heart rate will go back to normal. 

You’ll be able to enjoy hot baths and showers again.  

You won’t have so much gas or bloating or stomach pains anymore. Your intestinal and digestive health will slowly heal itself. 

You can stop punishing yourself for eating. 

You can sit up for more than 10 minutes without your stomach hurting.

You won’t have to debate for an hour before eating an apple. 

Your room won’t smell like vomit and moldy food. 

So you don’t get up in the middle of the night feeling as though you need to do 300 sit-ups before you can sleep and then spend all day feeling tired, and ill.

You won’t trigger others anymore. 

So you dont end up in hospital at 3am because your bowels are bleeding due to your ED

You won’t be constantly dehydrated anymore.

When you look back on your life, you’ll have happy memories too, not just empty memories of anorexia / bulimia

You won’t have constant headaches anymore.

You won’t have to isolate yourself anymore.

Because life can, and should be, so much more.

Please feel free to add onto this list, and share your own stories and reasons for recovery. I love you guys and my inbox is always open. 

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not my pictures

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I literally have only two workout moods:

I’m too depressed/drowsy/lethargic to do literally any exercise

or

I’ve been exercising for two hours and I don’t feel like stopping

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bread purgers are braver than any us marines

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mia: you hate eating, don't eat that

also mia: SIKEEE you love eating piggy now go purge fat ass

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How it feels trying to throw up bread

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🖤 ~ ❤ ~ 💜 ~ 💙 ~ 💚 ~ 💛

reblog to break that plateau and lose some weight! i believe in you!

💛 ~ 💚 ~ 💙 ~ 💜 ~ ❤ ~ 🖤

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Just saw Uber facts post this on Twitter, and I felt it 😭

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Chocolate pudding overnight oats

this is a perfect start in the morning for everyone who loves chocolate just as much as me It is filling and pretty much for only 200 cal pro serving

makes one serving: 25 g oats 125 g plain yogurt (I always use Skyr for more pudding like consistency) 60 ml unsweetened almond milk 10 g unsweetened cocoa powder 9-14 g sweetener of choice handfull of berries

mix in the order below, put in a bowl with lid and in the fridge over night, top with the berries the next morning

Enjoy <3

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Just made these beauties! Spinach tarts- super healthy and tasty! Message me if you want the recipe :)

For one tart: 60 calories 3 grams of fat 3 carbs and 10 grams of protein.

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Skyr y'all

One of my safest food ever, and I think this yogurt is really underrated and deserves recognition

Very low fat, low cal, high protein yogurt

~ 50 cal / 100g

~ 20g protein / 100g

🍓Comes in fruity/vanilla flavors (good for sweet cravings, breakfast, snack, overnight oats)

🥛Or just plain (good to avoid binges while having protein, healthy dip with veggies, low cal dressing, anything)

You can buy it in 100g tub so it's a perfect portion, or in big pot!

When I was really underweight and my parents would keep a close eye on what I ate, they never suspected it to be an "Ana food" bc it's not labeled as "low cal" or "0%" or "diet"

I said I wanted to gain muscle mass and protein was good, so I was allowed to eat them :)

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FOOD CHART

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hi lovelies! so i know a big thing in the ed community is diet coke. i would definitely recommend replacing this with sparkling water if you can! if you’re like me and you don’t really like sparkling water, definitely try these. the flavors are great. this way you can have a carbonated drink that’s 0 cal without putting aspartame into your body, which is super harmful. stay safe 💖