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Honestly sibling dynamics in fiction crush me so hard because I don’t have the same relationship with mine and it kills me.

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Here we go again. The saga continues

Today is not the day and I AM NOT THE ONE TO GO THROUGH THIS AGAIN.

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Of course I’m one of the unlucky fuckers whose ao3 is down. OF COURSE ITS ME. God has favourites and I am not one of them.

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Pining and jealous Eddie Diaz!!! I have PRAYED FOR DAYS LIKE THESE

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If we even get a hint, a teeny tiny little smidgen of gay Eddie at the start of season 8 I fear I will never recover.

But I will say that if we are getting gay Eddie I want him to breakdown in that confession booth like I was the angst and the tears but I want him to have that little breath of ‘oh, I’m free’ and the end of it like Buck did in season 7.

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Ryan following the hot priest on instagram, could mean absolutely nothing…

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Just thinking about how (canonically) Buck is a yapper and Eddie loves to listen to yapping

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it's been said but I've gotta say it again bc I'm still not over it. eddies introduction in season 2 is so fucking wild.

ep 1: enemies to lovers speedrun, episode is 60% eddie thirstraps from bucks pov, episode ends with them committing to each other???

ep 2: eddie MENTIONS chris. it's so fucking over for buck. the die is cast, the prophecy is written.

ep 3: buck SEES eddie and chris from AFAR. he is... I mean how can you describe his face, he's enamoured. besotted. it is so over for this man.

ep 4: buck has officially decided the diaz boys are his responsibility. hes going with eddie to see his grandma in the hospital, he's meeting the family, he's making care arrangements for chris. they've known each other for maybe a week.

at this rate of acceleration they should've been fucking raw live on USamerican primetime television by episode 8

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Once again I am in the depths of despair

Today is not the day and I AM NOT THE ONE TO GO THROUGH THIS AGAIN.

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Ao3 has stopped working for me and I neeeed my angsty super heartbreaking bed time story to go to sleep. God I am not your strongest soldier don’t give me this battle.

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Buddie Week Day 1: Secretly married

Hen is relatively certain she has their new probie, Buck, figured out. Him saying he has a husband throws her for a loop, but who hasn't lied to a naked man in handcuffs flirting with them before? But Buck only gets more confusing from there.

Or, Buck talks about his husband so much and so weirdly that no one is sure if he's actually married or not.

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Evan. Evan knows how to hurt deep. So deep into his bones he makes himself bleed for an ounce of relief from the pain that exists in his body, in his mind, in his soul.

But Buck. Buck runs into fires with no thought about himself. He gives a dying man his own oxygen mask and he jumps into the waves of a tsunami to save his best friend’s son. Because he doesn’t make himself bleed anymore but he will spill his blood for everyone else he holds dear and give them everything so they don’t have a single second to feel like they are nothing, to feel like a ghost or to feel like they shouldn’t exist.

Evan and Buck are two sides of a misshapen coin. Evan bleeds to feel something and Buck bleeds to make sure no one else feels haunted.

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I think about Half Bad on Netflix daily and the fact it isn’t going to have a season 2 when it was so fucking good. If you haven’t seen it pls even though there is only one season please watch it ITS SO FUCKING GOOD!!

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BUCK deserves to be a bridezilla and plan his wedding with the most clipboard buck batshit insane intensity possible and for eddie to look at him with rosy cheeks and heart eyes while he does it god bless and amen

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I think about this poem all the time and it reminds me so much of Evan Buckley that it actually breaks my heart.

Every time he hurt or injured himself to get affection from his parents, to the way he climbed up that ladder when the sniper was shooting firefighters and how he waited so long for Abby to come back.

I see you Buck and I love you so much but my god you make my heart ache so much

“there isn’t much that scares me more than my own heart, a monster of tenderness if there ever was such a thing. it sounds strange, but I have an irrational fear that one day I’ll wake up to find it (it being my heart) perched at the foot of my bed in a cloud of desperation, begging to be torn apart and consumed in the name of compassion. and that’s incredibly terrifying for a few different reasons, but mainly because I’d do it. I’ve never needed an excuse to sacrifice myself for love; I’m a martyr for everything soft. I confess to you: I’d bleed for anything if it held me the right way. I confess: I have. I have. I have.”

— phantom pain, by Caitlin Conlon

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oliverstarkk: Taken on my Pentax 67 using @/ilfordphoto Delta 32001

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hi guys :)