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Constantly being in the prescense of my mother has made me realize how many triggers are just from her
#vent tw#personal vent#before she moved back in i would see her for little bits throughout the week#and by god i took that for granted#now shes constantly here and im reverting to old habits especially with the state of the world now#first week she had triggered my slight ed habits by implying i was fat when i was in fact losing weight#my anxiety and paranoia has been through the roof now that shes back#i want to leave#i cant handle this#i dont wanna go back to my old habits and coping mechs but theyre the only things that make sense to me#fuuuuck#shes here and i cant
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If you're uncomfortable and you know it clap your hands
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If you're uncomfortable and you know it clap your hands
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If you're uncomfortable and you know it and you can't really tell them No
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#im :) screaming :)#wHAT MAKES YOU THINK I WANT TO DO SOMETHING IF IM NOT AGREEING TO IT#IF I DONT CLEARY CONSENT THEN ITS NOT A YES#LIKE YOU CAN SEE I DONT WANT TO BUT YOU K OW HOW TO FORCE MS TO DO SHIT FOR YOU BECAUSE YOU CANT PLAN#I DO T WANT TO GO#I DONT WAMT TO DO IT#I DONT CARE FOR WHATEVER THE FUCK ILL GET PAID LIKE FUCK OFF#YOU KNOW I CANT SAY NO BECAUSE OF YOUR FUCKING GASLIGHTING AND MANIPULATIVE WAYS#FUCK#my mother doesnt really care for my opinions or wants unless it suits her and i cant verbally say no to her she assumes im okay with it#she knows i dont want to go withher but she already agreed and planned ahead and i cant say no#fuuuuck this#im trying my best like leave me alone#personal vent#vent tw
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When you gotta eat in you room because you dont want people commemting on the weird way you eat :)
#hhhhhhhh#and i cant even make my food because it feels like im being watched and judged#and routines around food are getting messed up#i am not having a good time#and the only times i feel okay to make my food and eat it when are when theyre gone#and they barely leave#:)
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You know some things just don't add up now that i think about it
#like i havent talked to my sister in over a year#and she mentions me being nonbinary in front of someone she just met and my brother#like you could have asked me in private about it???#she did this on purpose#oh fuck#i shut the convo down but she acted like nothing happened#im upset#like why#what do you get out of outing me#personal vent
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Sometimes I wonder why my mom decides to make commemts like that
#she was saying i was getting a double chin again#and like my sibs have noticed ive been getting skinnier and ask if i eat#but she just makes a comment about my weight#lol this is why i had an ed at 15#ed mention#and now its because none of my snack foods are available and my executive dysfunction makes it dificult#but yeah thanks for you commentary mom#personal vent
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