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Was I ever happy?

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Do you remember the taste of your own blood?

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please, i want so badly for the good things to happen.

- Sylvia Plath, 3 months before her suicide.

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My least favorite thing about major depression is when everything you love is suddenly completely boring and unenjoyable so you just have to wait for the day to end so your brain can try again.

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I hate my analist

She put words in my mouth and thinks she knows me

She knows nothing

I hate her, I want her to die like the character in the book I'm reading

I just want to find someone who believes in me

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“It is a night of disaster when a man sees the truth. And an hour of delusion when he believes in the common sense of the human race.”

— Bertolt Brecht - Life of Galileo (Leben des Galilei)

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I am divine

I am celestial

Above it all

Thou shall fear me for I am thy god

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I can do anything!!!

I am powerful

I am god

I feel this energy running through my veins

I feel grandiosity

I feel I walk towards something great

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I hate to relate

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me: I want people to be both afraid of me and like me

my therapist: I don’t think it works like that

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I was angry at my psychiatrist cause she said there's nothing wrong with me

There's nothing wrong with me still I can't do stuff for school

Nothing wrong with me but I often find myself wanting desperately to die

Nothing wrong, I just have my suicide planned for over a year now

But maybe she and my analyst are right

Maybe there is nothing wrong with me

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How do you do it?

How do you keep on going?

How do you live when you hate every breath that you take?

How do you smile at your parents and laugh with your friends when you haven't felt real happiness for so long?

Why do you keep on living when all you want to do is give up?

How do you do it?

How did I do it?

How do I do it now?

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there is a point in your depression where you just give up on getting better but you still won’t kill yourself. you just float around in this state of nothingness and don’t notice anything around you because you’re just so numb and you just don’t want to anything about it anymore

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For God's sake I need to die