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A blessing from the gods

nsfw!!!

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p i c k y o u r b o y

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Officially broke my clean streak…

Broke skin and everything…

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Call of Duty: Modern Warfare II (2022)

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It’s so adorable 😭

I haven't had the chance to make much rainbow art lately but this is my favorite rainbow piece I ever made. Rainbow draggo says happy Pride <3

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pride 2025

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Actually kms it’s not even funny anymore

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Genuinely hate being alive

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So question for all my mentally I’ll baddies out there…

Does anybody feel physically sick when they are manic?

And I’m not talking like a cold or anything. It’s like it’s own specific feeling that I can’t even really put into words. It honestly makes me feel crazy. My eyes always feel like they are super wide and I have to physically try to keep them semi closed as to not look completely psychotic.

I think what makes it worse is that it’s so hard to describe the sensation, especially to people who have never felt it before. Or even like a doctor or therapist (mainly cause I’m too afraid to completely open up cause I’m convinced they will throw me into a padded cell and straight jacket)

Am I the only one who feels this way?

The closest I can get is certain songs, like Adi-Eu or The Black Mirror by REPULSIVE, or Blank Shell by Mike Klubnika. Those are the only ones I can find that come somewhat close to the feeling but I’m still searching for a song that just hits it spot on. Does anybody else know any other songs that might come closer???

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Cool guess we are strapped in for another week long manic episode!!!

It’s fine, I just have to get through to the 3rd and I’ll get a new tattoo and I’ll feel ok for maybe a week or so.

In the meantime I will not be responding to anybody unless i am at work or it’s my roommate. I will not be going out or drinking because that will lead me to hooking up with somebody AGAIN and then feeling disgusting afterwards.

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Happy Pride Month I wish all my trans friends "You are so powerful and cool I hope this makes you feel very powerful and cool"

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I can’t do it anymore

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I feel like if I started screaming “I want to die”

People still wouldn’t hear me

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I’m like actually reaching a breaking point

And I feel like nobody is really listening to me when I say that I’m not alright

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I can’t even put it into words anymore

The only thing that feels close enough is just…

Agony

This deep rooted despair that never stops. Even when I can act like it’s not that bad, it ALWAYS there

Slowly eating away at my organs, my emotions

It never stops

And when I said it out loud… it didn’t feel like you were listening. So I stopped

Now I just sit with it in complete silence

Hoping that one day it will get so bad it finally ends me

That way I won’t have to do it myself…

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It’s giving The Last Unicorn

illustration i did for my uni project !!

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It physically hurts me how I’ve convinced myself I’ll never have a happy ending

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T̷̨͔̥̳͍̻̹͆̀̓̃̀͌E̸̢̬̪̰̅̀E̸̝̅͌̿̅T̸̢̳͔̱̞̫̓͐̑͐̕H̸̗̱͌ ̶̢̘̻̣̓͊͘Ö̶͈F̴̡͓̻͍̗̂̈́̀̓̌̕ ̵̢̨̢̺͓̤̭͌̍͋͑̍̉͠G̴̩̠̘̖͂́̽O̴̩̼̯̭̳̿͛̎̌̌̀̕D̷̺̎̓͆͊͒͂̒

B̵̢͕͎̤̝̊͆̍͒͠L̴̰̽̎̕O̷̭͍̓͐͘Ơ̵̖͙̭̟͐͂D̵̗̣̖̘̎̇̆̇͜ ̷͔̊Ô̵̖͔̖̳̮F̴̡̪̠̄͗̓̌ ̶̖͖͆̂̓́M̴̱̫̩͙͝Ą̴͕̿̉̋̿͂ͅN̷̰̠̫̓͆͜

Ȋ̵̧̙̱̳͖̱̹͔͖͕̾̆ ̵̹͇̤͍̮̫̥̋͐̓̇̅́̋͆̀͗̚͜W̸̧̤̙̰͕̯͚͍̔̂̂̂̾I̷̛̖͊́͗͐͋̓̎L̶̨̨̘̹̦͉͔̩̂̄̔̍̀͆̾L̸̬̭̩͓̭͐͗̾͛́ ̵̡̛̰̮̺͓͖̜̩͕̠͂̒̀̂͝ͅB̴̧̂̊́Ė̶͖̎̆̏̐̓̀̐͝

W̸̡̨̨̻̠̼̫͚̼͓̻͙͖̖̏̓̀̾̆̆̚Ḩ̶̢̡̰̳͓̠̣́͊͆̃̂͐̄̆̓̂̿̑̔͘À̶̛̺̲͕̬̗̩̘͍̩͙̠͇̙̣̟͖̇̉͑̓̑͛̐̓͘͜T̸̬̩͚̠͖͔̘̮͉̦͉̤̈́̌̔̽͌͛͗̀̾́͆͑̎͋͑̑͋́̽̈́̈͛̔́ ̵̼̻̝̮̣̪̠͓͙͓͕͔̬̩̫͗̿̊̊̔̐̈́́̃̃͝͝͝Į̴̧̛̰̺̝̲̭̗͕͉͕͈͈̻̘͍͉͉̞͇̬̜͖͙̮͓̥̘̓̎̓ ̷͍̄́̏̎̽̈́̾̃̈́̂̀̒͆͑͗̊̈̏́͘͘̚͝͝͠͠ͅA̸̢̛̛͍͍̠͚̦͕͔̟͚̞̦̼̙͙̘̗̤̱̭͊̃̀̆̐̌̓̑́̈́̀̔͐̽̈́̽̍̄͐̚̕ͅͅM̸̨̥͂͐̐͜͠͠