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Oh yeah, I can say essentially whtver the fuck I want on here (within reason due to my own principles, this place is as godless as ao3). I got used to TikTok and instagram’s boohoo baby bullishit, this is nice.

Twitter I always kinda treated like a least favorite side piece. Tumblr however was my favorite side piece, so I had to keep bbg secret, but she may have graduated to main status I’m nottttt gonna liiiieee

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Not that it was my choice, but watching Arcane in ONE sitting as an easy-split system during a particularly traumatic time period ontop of having media-specific hyperempathy from the autism was a BADDD idea.

Our system does/can not watch serious shows and hardly serious movies for too long bc of this, and my co-worker didn’t know this, but she INSISTED. (She was at my house and is hard to say no to in the way that it’s better for your ears and stress levels to just leT her, pause, not like that.)

Anyways yuh, we got damn near half the cast and SOMEHOW my isha didn’t arrive on the ship w the rest of these faggots 🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨

Hey God if ur gonna do me anal can u at least use lube next time thanks !

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I miss my sweet baby angel daughter Isha so fucking BADLY, faux mems this faux mems that, THEM BITCHES HUURTTTT OKAYYY!!

I’m not even exaggerating, I still cannot watch Isha edits with out getting irate and the first few months after my split they would make me burst out into real immediate tears. :’) I gonna eat BULLETS (not rlly haha chill chill chillll plsdont51/50meahahahahahaha)

I hold chunks, big and bad ones, of ALL my body’s trauma. (Pretty much everything under the sun except successful kidnapping, the church, and war.) So the part about us having raised our siblings (who ARE ALL ALIVE THANK JESUS CHRIST, at least the ones that made it out the womb) made Isha not living a really shit part of the faux mems bc losing our kids is our biggest fear. And when I split we were in the middle of ALL of our trauma being dug up, negative triggers from the disastrous results of an evil twink experience ALL being pressed. I’m talking for months straight we were shaking from the rage induced adrenaline, my blood felt like electricity, I was tweAKKINGF every second of every waking moment. Which was alot because I could hardly sleep.

Isha’s a reALLY big fucking deal for me and I miss her so bad, she didn’t split with me I don’t think :( I think she was forming but I haven’t heard from her, haven’t felt any presence.

Ugghhh that’s my KID. Losing both of my pops after my bio parents was hard yeah, but Isha??? Don’t even get me started bro. She was my rock :(

Anyways suh-llaayyyy!! Eat ur drugs do veggies !!!

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What if I rip my skin off and eat it (SAD)

to every Jinx i see here. missing me, Mourning me, grieving me, just greeting me. and i do see alot of you. I love you very much, i always meant it, and i always will. i miss you too, of course, and i understand perhaps, i was not the best father, nor the father you needed. but i always tried for you, and i am proud of who you became. do not regret for what you may have done, only hope for what you can do now. may life be kinder to you now - Silco, The Eye of Zaun (Fictive.)

✉

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First post on this acc to boast / clear the air that the pfp + banner art isn’t mine, HOWEVER, I edited them >:} Did em all while takin a real long shit

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Hey Strangers

Get To Know Me

,,,, C-4 // Jynx ,,,,

18-23 || He/It

[Species] Shimmer Mutation (diff than taking the drug)

[Height] 5’4

[Roles] Trauma Holder | Symptom holder

[Alter type] Fictive

[Source] Arcane

[Mediamates] sure thing sugar

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[Identifiers] Agender | Transmasc | t4t / nb4nb | + Queer Cis Women <3 | Ambi | Aroflux |

[Status] Single

[Yums] Neons | My room | Tinkering | Knick-knacks | Mosh Pit

[Yucks] My raging bpd | Squares | Pigs

[Extra] Bodily and In Source Creole