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after all I knew the most debilitating feeling was that no matter how hard I tried  I still wasn’t enough

- never enough

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Cleaned, drying, almost ready to be stuffed

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“I survived because the fire inside me burned brighter than the fire around me.”

— Joshua Graham

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When you impulsively drop $200 on cloth nappies

I'm going to send my family broke with my addiction

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Maybe it's the 3 hours of broken sleep talking but being a mumma has got to be the most rewarding job I've ever had.

It's been up and down. It's been full of tears, love, laughter, guilt, pride, frustration, bravery, and craziness.

It's been overwhelming. Natural and unnatural. Hard and easy. And even through all these emotions and challenges, I wouldn't change this for the world.

There's nothing I'd rather be than your mumma, my baby.

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*texts bae at 3am* hey baby, according to this buzzfeed quiz you’re only 48% in love with me ????? hmm 📝

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Whew

When it hits you that you're getting induced at 6:30AM tomorrow... Now I can't sleep lmao

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38+4

Spent all day at the hospital 😪

Vaginal and cervix exam to determine where my dilation and induction was at.

Had to stay all day for blood pressure monitoring as it's apparently been on the up my entire antenatal period.

Back on Saturday for more BP monitoring and Monday is my set induction date (Tuesday if the hormone induction doesn't work and they need to break my waters).

We will have our baby here BY WEDNESDAY...

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Little mans room is set up and honestly, I'm so relieved because I'm 64% sure I'm in pre labour right now so...

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You know you're heavily pregnant when you're laying in bed questioning whether or not you're in early labour or if you just need to poop

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And we have an induction date 💞

My boy is so close to being Earth side

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It's either non-stop nesting and prepping or extreme fatigue and falling asleep while standing up

These 20 days need to fly by. This mama is impatient!