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alexander
ive missed you. all the way to my bones, chilled when i remember how your hands felt. i almost don’t remember but i also know ill never forget. instead ill remember the feeling. like a light at the end of a tunnel, ill run towards it. and run and run and run. it wont get any closer but it wont get any farther. i wont be able to figure out if im moving towards it or away.
ive missed your room. a bubble. where time didn’t matter and all that did was getting closer. closer to you, closer to me, closer to the edge, jumping off of it. the walls that sounded like the inside of a church. begging and pleading and crying out to God. i almost don’t remember what you sounded like but i know ill never forget. my soul has cut off your energy. i feel when you mourn me but i won’t let you feel when i mourn you.
ill stay here though, a skeleton in a church pew. looking for the light at the end of the tunnel. screaming at the wall im building between us. i love you. i loved you. i never want to see you again and i can’t wait until i do.
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are you muslim?
i am not, thanks for the question :)
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i always hated that you ruined so many things for me. when someone touches my face the way you did, i cower. when i smell your stupid fucking cologne i shiver. when i taste sweet mint gag. i hate the color of your eyes, i hate the way your face felt on mine and that i remember it vividly. i hate that i romanticized you. and some nights i still do. i hate everything about how you made me feel and how you fucked up my head.
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