calypsos-territory-blog

[calypsos-territory-blog]

You

Fuck you.

Fuck you for tearing apart everything

And every idea I had about friends.

I let my guard down.

Now I have no idea how to trust anyone.

Fuck you for ruining my ideas about how emotions and everything works.

[calypsos-territory-blog]

This songs a whole mood

[calypsos-territory-blog]

Waste of space

I feel like there's no point in being alive at this point. I live for other people and to make them happy. I can't even do that right

I need to live for myself and stop giving a fuck about anyone else.

[calypsos-territory-blog]

[calypsos-territory-blog]

All the time

[calypsos-territory-blog]

What Could Be Improved?

I could be prettier

I could have more money

I could have friends

[calypsos-territory-blog]

Ive never wanted to disappear as much as I do now.

Divorce.

My parents stayed together since they were 16 and made it work.

I cant make a marriage last more than a year.

I cant manage to keep friends.

Everyone tells me thats because I keep shitty people in my life.

"Shitty people" say I'm the shitty one.

Ive never praid so hard to dissassociate...

[calypsos-territory-blog]

"What is going well in your life right now?"

Well, I have a beautiful home now in an okay neighborhood. I have job I don't cry everyday at, and kind of enjoy.

My family is good right now. I'm sleeping decently.

[calypsos-territory-blog]

[calypsos-territory-blog]

[calypsos-territory-blog]

I can literally feel my heart sinking the moment I wake up, every day. It only takes less than a second for me to fully realize I’ve just waken up and all the problems il life just rush back in my head again. Sleep is probably the only escape but I even dream about things that give me anxiety in my sleep

[calypsos-territory-blog]

[calypsos-territory-blog]

Numb

Sometimes I just wish I could stop breathing.

I wish I could just be enough.

I try so hard to remind myself that I'm killing it. Im forcing myself to go to school, and work almost full time.

Even with all this fucking shit going on. Alot of people are rooting for me, and think I'm very accomplishled.

Im just fucking trying to keep my head above water

[calypsos-territory-blog]

Stop letting people who do so little for you control your mind, feelings and emotions.

- Will Smith

[calypsos-territory-blog]

“How can you say i pushed you away when you were already stepping back?”

— c. k. reyes

[calypsos-territory-blog]

#mood

[calypsos-territory-blog]

“I don’t ask anyone to stay Not anymore The phone may tremble in my hand But never again Will I beg for someone to love me”

— @melindacarolinee