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SOFT EYES

themes/warnings; fluff & mentions of sexual assault

pairing; Steve Harrington x reader

You wouldn’t consider yourself alone, you had friends. Not many friends but the ones you had were the only ones you needed. Yet there was something in your mind that was telling you the opposite, telling you that you were alone or is going to end up alone.

That everyone would leave you, that they would grow tired of you or simply just not wanting to be around you anymore.

”You okay, sweets?” Eddie Munson, one of your very dear friends said and pulled you out of your own thoughts that you didn’t know had taken you away from the present.

”Sorry?” you said, your voice soft and just above a whisper as you looked over at him. He looked at you with one of his dark eyebrows raised in confusion.

”Are you okay?” he asked once again and you started to fumble with the hem of your hoodie while nodding.

”Yeah, I’m just tired.” you lied, giving him a small smile though but you could see that he didn’t believe you. ”I promise, Eddie.”

He opened his mouth to speak but was cut off by the sound of something or someone falling down the stairs that were going down into the basement that you and Eddie were currently in.

”Damn it.”

Eddie laughed and stood up, walking over to the stairs and helping the person up. You of course knew who it was immediately, Steve.

Steve Harrington was the one of your friends that you hadn’t grown very close with yet. You had only known him for a couples of months thanks to him helping you with your car as it had broken down. He just happend to pass by as the darkness had fallen over Hawkins. Steve had always made you nervous, since day one which everyone had noticed, he himself had noticed it as well and he loved it. You didn’t know that though.

”Hi there, Cherry.” Steve said with a soft smile once he and Eddie joined you by the couch. He was wearing a simple white t-shirt that was half covered with his military green bomber jacket with his blue denim jeans that fitted him perfectly. God he looked good.

”Hi Steve.” you smiled.

He was sitting next to you, your knees almost touching and you hated that he without having to do anything, made your heart flutter and your pulse race.

”I still don’t understand the nickname you have for her.” Eddie told them, opening a beer and taking a sip of it.

”You don’t have to understand it.” Steve said simply and looked over at you, poking your cheek. ”She does and that’s all that matters.”

Steves words and touch made you blush slightly, letting out a giggle as you looked away. You hated yourself for feeling like this because of a boy and not just any boy; Steve Harrington.

”AY DINGUS!” Robin called from the hallway on the floor above them, her voice clearly telling you all that she was irritated but not mad though.

You looked at Steve, who’s eyes had gotten wide and his eyes showing some kind of realization. ”Shit.”

”Did you forget something, dingus?” Robin said as she walked down the stairs and towards the couch. When Robin appeared in front of you and Steve, she crossed her arms over her chest and glared at him. ”Hm?”

”I-I’m so sorry, Robin.” Steve said quickly, his body tensing up and he was gripping the couch with his right hand in nervousness. ”I thought you were already here!”

”That’s what you’re going with?” Robin asked with an playful annoyed tone in her voice and her eyes looking at you for a brief moment. ”A bad excuse, Harrington.”

You did your best to hold in your laughter that wanted to escape your lips as you watched Steve practically freaking out with fear of what Robin’s reaction would be.

Steve opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out so he closed it again and that’s when both you and Robin started to laugh. He looked at the two of you surprised and confused.

”I’m messing with you dingus.” Robin finally said before sitting down on the free spot next to him. ”You did forget to pick me up though, I had to walk here.”

”I’m so sorry, Robin.” Steve said before letting out a breath and leaning back against the couch while running his fingers through his hair, closing his eyes as well.

”That was something you don’t see everyday.” you giggled and it made Steve open his eyes, turning his head slightly so he could look at you.

”And what do you mean by that, Cherry?”

Once again his eyes on you made your heart flutter and you put some of your hair that had fallen over your face behind your ear. ”It’s not often you see the Steve Harrington scared and speechless.”

”I wasn’t scared!” Steve exclaimed quickly, sitting up straight quickly and pretended to be hurt by pouting and putting one of his hands on his chest.

”If you say so, Harrington.” you teased back and he chuckled while your eyes met, neither of you breaking the gaze.

”Hey lovebirds!” Eddie said out of the blew, clapping his hands next to your faces and taking you both out of the trance you had gotten in. ”Are we watching this movie or should me and Buckley go so you can keep flirting?”

You felt yourself blush again and you once again quickly looked away, your eyes now instead glued on your hands that rested in your lap.

”We’re not flirting, Munson.” Steve said with a small laugh at the end but all Eddie did was scoff. ”We’re not!”

”Mhmm.” was all Eddie replied before sitting down on the floor by the couch, his back resting against it and his head leaning on your left leg. ”This okay?”

”Yeah.” you whispered softly. ”It’s okay, Ed.”

Steve watched as you leaned back on the couch before taking the remote in your hand to start the movie that he still couldn’t remember the name of. The only thing he focused on was the smile you had given Eddie and the smile he gave you back before getting ’cozy’ against your leg.

He couldn’t help but feel his chest tighten at the sight, something inside of him making his skin hot and his body tense. He didn’t like the feeling, he didn’t like how a small thing like Eddie having his head resting on your leg could make this feeling appear so quickly.

”You’re staring.” Robin whispered to him, careful so you and Eddie wouldn’t hear. ”And not with a happy face.”

”I’m not staring.” Steve mumbled, looking at his best friend before taking the bowl of popcorn away from her hands and putting it on his thighs instead.

Robin took the bowl back into her hands, putting it in her lap and then gave Steve a look. ”Yes you are, dingus.”

Steve just shook his head, taking some popcorn in his hand and into his mouth as he moved his eyes to the TV. Though he couldn’t help but take small glances at you from time to time, especially when you laughed at something.

As the movie progressed, Steve noticed how your eyes got more tired and it looked like you did everything you could do to keep them open. Your head looking much heavier too and he smiled to himself before putting his arm on your shoulders and gently pulling you to him.

”If you fall asleep like that-” Steve whispered when you looked at him confused but not pulling away once you were close to his side, his arm around you and his fingers gently moving up an down your arm. ”You’re neck will be killing you tomorrow. We can’t have that.”

You smiled at his words and leaned into his touch, letting your head rest gently on his shoulders and your arm laying over his stomach and your eyes closing. ”Thank you.”

”Of course, cherry.” Steve whispered back and let his cheek rest on top of your head softly. He felt eyes on the two of you and that’s when he noticed both Eddie and Robin looking with smirks on their faces.

”Shut up.” Steve mumbled while looking at them and then turning his attention to the TV again but hoping that you didn’t feel how fast his heart was beating.

As the credits came upon the screen of the TV both Eddie and Robin were quick to stand up from their seats. The smirks from earlier still on their faces as they looked at you and Steve.

”I can drive you home.” Eddie said to Robin and she agreed. Steve nodded at them and then looked down at you, a small smile on his lips when he moved away some of your hair out of your face.

”See you tomorrow at work, dingus.” Robin said and he smiled once again, then whispering a quiet goodbye to them before they carefully walked up from the basement and out the front door.

Steve hated the fact that he had to wake you up or well, risking to wake you up at least. But he knew that no matter how much he wants to stay like this, his body won’t enjoy it tomorrow and he wants you to be comfortable.

Carefully, Steve managed to stand up without moving you way to much. Then he scoops you up into his arms and your head rests against his chest as he carefully heads up from the basement and towards your bedroom.

When you slowly opened your eyes, you were confused. You were moving or it felt like you were moving and yet your body was still. But then that familiar smell of cologne brushed over you and you looked up, realizing that you were in Steve’s arms.

”Steve?” you whispered, your voice hoarse and groggy from your sleep. ”What are you doing?”

Steve stopped walking, looking down at you with a small smile. ”I’m sorry, cherry. I didn’t mean to wake you.”

”It’s okay.” you mumbled and you felt him move again. Then not many moments after, he dipped down and gently laid you down onto your bed.

”There.” Steve whispered as he pulled the covers over you and gave you a kiss on your forehead. ”Good night, cherry.”

”Steve?” you began, but hesitated for a brief moment and just looked at him as he stood in the doorway of your bedroom with a smile. ”Will you stay with me?”

”W-What?” he stuttered out in a whisper, you almost didn’t hear him but his face said it all.

”Will you stay with me?” you said again, your voice more shaky now than before. ”Please?”

He stayed quiet at first, too stunned to speak and he swore his heart stopped for a second but then he cleared his throat and closed the door behind him. ”Yeah, of course.”

You smiled at him as he slowly walked up to your bed again, taking off his hoodie and then climbing into the bed next to you.

”Hi.” you whispered once he laid next to you, his body facing yours and his eyes connected to yours. Those gorgeous brown eyes and softness shown in not only in them but in his whole face.

”Hi.” he whispered back and then he reached for the covers, opening up for himself and putting it over him before looking back at you. ”This okay?”

You nodded at him and started blushing once again, which made him smile. ”Just don’t feel pressured to stay, if you’re uncomfortable or something it’s okay. Don’t feel obligated to stay just because I asked.”

Steve just smiled at you and then moved some hair out of your face. ”I was just surprised that you asked. Of course I want to stay here with you. Whatever you need.”

”Thank you, Stevie.” you whispered and closed your eyes, taking a step further and leaning your forehead against his gently. ”It means a lot.”

”No need to thank me, Cherry.” Steve responded softly and you nodded slightly. ”Do you wanna go to sleep?”

”Yeah but uhm Steve?” you said, your voice shaky once again and you leaned back to meet his eyes. ”Forget it, it wasn’t important.”

Then you quickly turned around, your back now facing him and you heard him let out a small sigh before he gently placed his arm around your waist, pulling you closer to his body and you went into slight chock. ”Is this okay?”

”Yeah.” you managed to breath out and then Steve gently laid his head in the crook of your neck, his breath on your skin making goosebumps appear on your body.

A part of you were scared that his hands would start to roam your body, like guys always did on you no matter if you said you wanted it or not. You did know in your heart though that Steve would never do that to you but memories of your past slowly came back into your mind and it made you tense up.

”Cherry.” Steve whispered softly and put his hand on top of yours that you didn’t notice were gripping the sheets hard, turning your knuckles white. ”What’s wrong?”

”N-Nothing.”

”Please don’t lie to me.” Steve said, letting go of your body and sitting up so he was slightly hovering over you so he was able to see your face.

You looked at him over your shoulder, your eyes now filled with silent tears and you sighed before sitting up, your back resting against the headboard and your knees pulled up against your chest.

”One person knows about this and that’s Eddie. He only knows because he intervened when it happened so please don’t tell anyone.” you said or more like begged.

Steve nodded and moved so he sat in front of you, searching for your eyes but you avoided his. ”I won’t tell.”

You took a breath and one of your hands took a hold of the hoodie you were wearing, Steve’s hoodie and held it tight as you closed your eyes. ”Last year, I went to a party with Eddie and Robin-”

”This guy came up to me, started talking to me and he seemed nice. He was a bit older but I didn’t think much of that or the signs I realized afterwards. Like how he tried to touch me all the time even though I kindly rejected him each time.”

”Y/N-” Steve whispered, knowing already what had happened and anger building up inside of him but he knew that wouldn’t make anything better. ”I’m sorry if I-”

”Steve.” you said and finally looked into his eyes, making him instantly shut up. ”You need to know this.”

He nodded at your words and you took another breath before continuing. ”I don’t know how but he managed to make me agree to go upstairs to talk where the music wasn’t as loud. And well up there he charged at me, pushed me against the wall with my hands pinned above my head-”

Tears were now rolling down your cheeks and Steve noticed how you struggled to talk about this so he put his hands gently on your cheeks which made you meet his eyes once again. ”You don’t have to tell me the rest.”

”But-”

”No buts, Cherry.” Steve said softly but firmly. ”You tell me the rest when you’re ready and not just because you feel the need of me knowing this.”

You just nodded at him, leaning into his touch and he moved to lean his forehead against yours just like he did before. ”I’m sorry if I made you uncomfortable.”

”I know you would never do that to me.” you whispered with a small smile. ”That’s part of why I asked if you could stay. But I guess I’m still recovering and my body reacts in one way and my heart another.”

Steve let out a small soft chuckle, his eyes closing just as yours did. ”What’s the other part?”

You stayed quiet, your lips parting slightly and your breath touching his face. His thumb slowly started to rub your cheek gently as he waited for a response.

”Because I have feelings for you, Steve.” you finally admitted, the words just below a whisper and you are sure that if Steve wasn’t this close to you, he wouldn’t have heard it.

You waited for his response, for his rejection but it never came. Instead a few moments after, you felt his lips touch yours in a innocent and gentle kiss. It only lasted a couple of seconds and when Steve pulled back, he opened his eyes and so did you.

”I have feelings for you too, Cherry.” he admitted with a smile and you felt your own smile grow quickly but you were blushing as well. ”I have for a while now.”

”Really?” you whispered and he nodded before leaning up slightly to let his lips kiss your forehead softly.

”Yes, really.” he said against your forehead before pulling away. ”You ready to try and sleep again?”

You nodded at him and laid down gently on your side once again.

”This time, you take my arm and put it where you feel comfortable okay?” he said. All you did was smile softly at him with a smile nod before he laid back down behind you.

Slowly you let your hand search for his, interwining your fingers with his and then gently pulling his arm over your waist. He was careful not to place it against your skin, he didn’t want to make you uncomfortable again but all he wanted was to pull you close and never let go.

”Is this okay?” Steve asked and you nodded your head while closing your eyes. ”I need words, Cherry.”

”Yes, Stevie. It’s okay.” you whispered. ”Just don’t move your hand further or anything like that.”

”I won’t.” Steve reassured with a soft voice. ”Only if you tell me to.”

•••

When you woke up the next day, your head was resting on Steve’s chest with his arm wrapped around you to keep you close to him. You smiled to yourself as you listened to his heartbeat while soft sounds left his mouth when he breathed out through his parted lips.

It was weird, being in this position that you had longed for and it was actually happening. But you were scared at the same time you were happy, scared that your trauma would effect this, that it would make him leave and you’d be alone. But being alone isn’t the worst part, the worst part would be loosing him.

”Good morning.” Steve mumbled pulling you even closer to him and let his head rest on the pillow with his face slightly facing away from your face.

”Good morning.” you whispered back and snuggled up to him, letting your fingers draw circles on his stomach just above his bellybutton. ”How did you sleep?”

”Like a god.” Steve chuckled and then turned his head, his eyes finding your face. You felt him staring at you which made you look up and being met with his soft eyes and beautiful smile. ”You?”

”Like a god.” you quoted him and giggled which made his smile grew wider before kissing you on the forehead.

”Good.” he whispered and then leaned his head back against the pillow, closing his eyes once again.

You both remained quiet for a while, hearing a few birds singing outside and it made the whole situation feel even more peaceful and you loved it. But just like everything else, it scared you.

”Thank you.” you said, sitting up slightly to lean on your elbows so you were eye level with him. ”For understanding everything and being okay with taking it slow. Step by step.”

Steve turned to look at you, his eyes still soft and a few strays of his brown hair in his face that had fallen down as he turned to you. ”Of course I understand and you have nothing to thank me for.”

After that, Steve and you were practically glued to the hip but he always let you take the lead on where and how he could hold you close to him. It was sweet, really sweet but after a few weeks of it, you kind of got annoyed with him.

You wanted him to know that it was okay for him to take you close to his chest while watching a movie, you wanted him to take his hand and gently rest it on your thigh as he sat behind the wheel in his BMW. But he never did, he always let you lead him.

”Steve.” you said softly, looking at him as he drove down the street towards his house.

He turned to looked at you with a smile before looking back at the road. ”Cherry.”

”I love how understanding you are about my past.” you began and you saw his face expression change, filled with some worry and confusion. ”And you’ve been so sweet to me but-”

Steve quickly pulled over, turning off the engine and turned his body towards you so he could look into your eyes. His heartbeat quicken its pace. ”But what?”

”I don’t want you to feel that you can’t touch me without me guiding your hands.” you blurted out, his eyes wide in surprise at your confession. ”I want you to pull me close to you, to hold my hand and basically show me affection if you want to.”

”Cherry-” Steve began, his voice soft and gentle but you were quick to interrupt him.

”If you don’t then-”

”Then what?” Steve said and watched you close your eyes, breaking the eye contact you had.

You stayed quiet for a few seconds, seconds that felt like hours. ”It’ll feel like I’m making you be close to me, like you just do it because I want to.”

Slowly but still quickly, Steve moved his hand to your cheek which made you open your eyes again. His eyes were soft and he had a small smile on his lips while his thumb gently stroke your cheek. ”All I want is to have you close to me, god it takes everything inside of me not to touch you. But I don’t want to make you uncomfortable.”

”I know.” you whispered. ”But I’m telling you now that I am okay with you holding my hand, holding me against your side with your arm around my waist. If something feels wrong, I’ll tell you ”

Steve smiled at you and leaned forward so his forehead could rest against yours for a brief moment before he pressed his lips against yours in a gentle kiss. The feeling of his lips against yours made goosebumps appear in your skin, it made your heart beat faster and your pulse race.

Slowly and carefully, you let your hands move to the back of his neck where you played with his hair while your lips moved together. It wasn’t rushed or pushed, it happened naturally with the innocence intact.

”You drive me crazy, Cherry.” Steve whispered against your lips as he pulled back just an inch, his lips brushing yours as he spoke.

His words made you smile and you gave him a peck on his lips. ”You drive me crazy too.”

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I’m sorry [cole walter]

PART THREE

It had been weird between you and Cole since the kiss, there was no denying that and the others had been starting to notice it too. Especially Jackie and Alex.

It wasn’t like you and Cole avoided each other, you just didn’t want to be alone with each other as the awkwardness was still there which was rare when it came to you two.

”Okay.” Jackie said, closing her bedroom door as you laid out the dress you were supposed to wear at Will and Hailey’s wedding. ”What’s going on between you and Cole?”

”What?” you asked and turned around to face her.

”You know what I’m talking about.” Jackie answered and walked up to you, sitting down on the bed in front of you.

”We kissed alright?” you finally admitted.

”YOU WHAT?!” Jackie almost shouted.

You took your bottom lip in between your teeth, feeling your cheeks grow warm and looked down. ”Yeah.”

Jackie opened her mouth to speak but before she had the chance, the bedroom door flew open and it was the last person you thought; Cole.

”Uhm hi.” he said, scratching himself in the back of his neck and tilting his head. ”Uhm could I talk to you for a minute crackers? Maybe go for a ride and pick some flowers for Hailey’s bouquet? Albert ate it.”

Jackie flew up instantly, running out of the bedroom and calling for Lee. Today was not going as smooth as she had hoped for.

”Uhm yeah sure.” you replied, standing up and then walking towards him. ”I’m riding Custard as usual?”

Cole chuckled and nodded his head, closing the door behind the two of you. ”Yeah, I’ll take Benji.”

You nodded at him before the two of you headed down the stairs, hearing Jackie freaking out in the kitchen with Lee and Isaac, Alex trying to calm her down.

To your surprise, both Custard and Benji stood ready outside of the stable. You smiled at the sighed and went to the horse, patting him on his forehead. ”Hi beautiful boy.”

Once you both had mounted up, you started to head for the place that Cole had told you that there were the perfect flowers for Hailey. The ride there was quiet, not awkward this time but neither of you said a word.

Once you were there, you looked at the field in awe and then at Cole. ”It’s beautiful.”

”Yeah.” he nodded with a smile before handing you one of the scissors to use so you wouldn’t hurt yourself or the flowers. ”Nobody but you knows about this place.”

The two of you worked in silence at first, stealing glances at each other from time to time. If Cole wasn’t looking at you, you were looking at him and all you wanted to do was kiss him again. You wanted to tell him about the feelings you have for him and have had for such a long time.

It wasn’t until you handed him some flowers and his hand touched yours that you looked at each other, your eyes connecting and your cheeks growing hot.

”I know things have been weird between us since the kiss. And I don’t want it to be.” Cole said gently, not taking his hand away from yours.

You gave him a small smile, breaking eye contact for a brief moment before looking at him again. ”Me neither.”

”But I want you to know that-” Cole took a breath, looking down at your lips. ”It meant something to me, it wasn’t just in the heat of the moment.”

”It meant something to me too.” you admitted, which made him smile softly. ”I was just afraid you didn’t think or feel the same way about it.”

”I love you, crackers.” Cole said and moved closer to you.

”I love you too.” you smiled and leaned closer to him.

He put his hand on your cheek, just like he did on the truck and looked into your eyes. ”No, I love you.”

Before you could answer him, he pressed his lips against yours. This time it felt like you were in a movie where the main characters finally got together with flowers all around them. But this was reality and it scared you, how simple it seemed to be.

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journey [steve harrington]

part one

MEET

You stood outside of the entrance of the school in Hawkins, the third school this year that you’ve attended to, the third time this year where you are the new girl.

You hated being the new girl, even though you were getting familiar with it now. You had started to accept it as well, not that you had any other choice since your fathers job made it hard to stay put in one place.

You took a breath and held your new books close against your chest, books that your mother had thankfully gotten for you the day of your arrival to Hawkins last week.

You felt your feet slowly taking you closer and closer to the entrance, your hand slowly opening the door once you reached it and then you were inside.

The hallway was filled with teenagers, both younger and older than you which was no surprise. You had hoped that the hallway would be in someway empty, since class were about to start but of course it wasn’t.

As you walked down the hall, it felt like all of the students had their eyes on you, whispering about you as you went towards the principles office. Or at least what you hoped was the way to the principles office.

When you arrived at the end of the hallway, where you had to decide if you were going right or left, you let out a breath. The memory of the way your mom had told you earlier this morning completely fading away.

”You lost, new girl?” a firm and deep voice said from behind you, making your body jump in surprise as you turned around. The books in your hands falling down onto the floor in the process.

You quickly moved down, gathering your books and then stood up again to look at the person that had scared you.

It was a boy, who looked around your age. His eyes were light brown that was quite mesmerizing and his hair was a darker brown colour. It was shown quite quickly that it was styled, styled beautifully in your opinion and were the kind where you gladly would like to run your fingers through it but at the same time not wanting to since it should ruin it.

”U-Uhm yeah.” you whispered back, your voice shaky and the nervousness easy to hear. ”What way to the principles office?”

The boy chuckled at you lightly, putting one of his hands in his front pocket of his light blue jeans and the other one gently pointing down the hallway to the right. ”That way.”

”Thank you.” you said softly and the boy gave you a small smile, a smile that wasn’t forced but clearly given in the moment of being polite.

Slowly you turned around, letting out yet another breath and just as you were about to head towards the direction he had kindly given you, he put his hand on your shoulder gently.

”I’m Steve by the way.” he said as you looked at him over your shoulder, surprised at the sudden soft contact. ”Steve Harrington.”

”I’m Y/N.” you replied and he gave you yet another small smile, opening his mouth to speak once again but were cut off by a girl calling his name which made him turn around.

He then quickly walked away from your and towards the girl, taking her into his arms before leaning down to press his lips against hers and then turning around to face you again as he laid his arm over her shoulders. ”See you around, new girl.”

PROJECT

As you sat down at one of the empty seats in the classroom people were still staring at you like you were some kind of ghost but a ghost that was seen. It made you uncomfortable even though you were used to it by now.

As you opened your history book, you felt eyes on you as the sound of a chair next to you being pulled out and you carefully looked over at it.

”Hi there new girl.” It was Steve, the kind boy who had helped you the morning of your first day. It surprised you that he had chosen to sit on the seat next to you and it made you feel some kind of warmth but at the same time you got nervous.

”Hi, Steve.” you said softly before turning away from him, looking down at your books again. You felt his eyes being glued on you still, making your heartbeat go faster and your pulse racing.

You were so caught up in your nervousness that you didn’t even notice the teacher walking in, telling you about the project you were suppose to start with today. It wasn’t until the teacher told everyone about their partners for the project that you paid attention.

”Y/N and Steve, the subject is up to you to decide. The deadline of the project is December 1.”

Your eyes got wide immediately, looking over at Steve instantly who were looking at you with a smirk. But his eyes showed something else, something that looked like excitement.

”You wanna meet up at the library after school?” you whispered gently and took your bottom lip in between your teeth as you waited for his response which felt like hours even though it was only a few seconds.

”Yeah.” he nodded with the smirk still planted on his face but then he realized something at it disappeared quickly. ”I just need to talk to Nance first, so she doesn’t get the wrong idea.”

”Why would she get the wrong idea?” you asked in confusion, your voice louder now than before.

”I kind of had a reputation before we got together which makes her worried sometimes.” Steve admitted and then sighed. ”Not anymore though.”

You nodded as his response and then turned your attention away from him, listening to the teacher now instead but you couldn’t help yourself as you looked at him in the corner of you eye from time to time. And when he caught you looking, you felt your cheeks grow hot and you instantly took your bottom lip in between your teeth while looking at the teacher again.

When the end of the day finally came, you went to the library where Steve was already waiting for you. He was leaning against the wall with his arms crossed over his chest and his eyes glued on the ground. As your eyes took him in, it was obvious that something was bothering him. His body was tense, his eyebrows furrowed in thought and when you approached him, you heard a sigh leave his mouth.

”You okay Steve?” your sudden sentence made his body jump slightly and he looked up at you. ”Sorry I didn’t mean to scare you.”

”It’s okay new girl.” Steve smiled at you and stood up straight, opening the door into the library for you. He avoided your question though, only watching you tilt your head slightly before walking through the door.

The two of you walked into the library in silence, your eyes searching for an empty seat and once you find one of the tables in the corner, he pulled the chair out for you which made you give him a small smile.

”Thank you.” you said before sitting down, laying your books on the table as he sat down in the chair in front of you.

”You didn’t anweser my question.” you stated, looking up at him and your eyes connected. You could stare into this beautiful eyes forever, they had some kind of spark in them which made them even more beautiful.

Steve cleared his throat before taking off his jacket, breaking eye contact. ”I’m fine.”

”I don’t believe that.” you said gently which made him look at you again. ”You don’t have to tell me what’s wrong, we barerly know each other. But I am here if you feel the need to get it off your chest.”

Your words stunned him. He didn’t expect your kindness, though he was glad you showed him it. It was clear that you had a good heart, even though you were kind of quiet but that also made you observant to other people and surroundings.

”Thank you.” he said after a few seconds of silence, his voice gentle and soft. ”I might take you up on that.”

The two of you then worked in silence, talking to each other from time to time as you tried to decide which subject you would have in the project. Not that you came in conclusion on anything.

”I give up.” Steve said with a sigh and you looked up at him with a playful grin. ”Can we please continue this tomorrow or something? We aren’t even near choosing on a subject.”

You giggled slightly at him, which made his eyes grow wide. It was the first time you had let out some kind of laugh, he found it adorable which made him realize that you were kind of adorable. He wouldn’t admit that out loud though.

”Yeah, we can continue this tomorrow.” you said to him as you closed your book. ”I should go home anyway before my parents go looking for me or something.”

”They get worried easily?” Steve asked as he stood up from his seat and putting his bag on his shoulder.

”Yeah.” you sighed ”I understand them though but sometimes it can get kind of, exhausting.”

”What do you mean?”

”One day, I might tell you.” you smiled and then you slowly walked away from him, looking at him over your shoulder before going out of the library.

Steve was intrigued by you, he found you interesting and something inside of him made him want to be near you. It was something he had never felt before and it didn’t only confuse him, it scared him.

HALLOWEEN PARTY

”Ay new girl!” Steve called, walking up to you as you stood by your locker. His girlfriend, Nancy were next to him and his arm were on her shoulders.

”Hi Steve.” you said and then looked at Nancy, who gave you a weird look. ”Hi Nancy.”

”Hey.” Nancy muttered and leaned into Steve, her body tense.

”What’s up?” you asked and then closed your locker, putting your bag onto your shoulder.

”There’s a halloween party tonight, you should come. Perfect opportunity to meet some new people.” Steve asked, hope in his eyes.

”Parties aren’t really my thing.” you admitted, your voice low and hesitant.

”It might be fun, you can hang with us.” Nancy said, offering a smile that did looked forced and her body still tense but you appreciated the effort from her even though it was obvious that she wasn’t your biggest fan.

”Maybe.” you smiled and the couple nodded.

Låter that day, you sat on your bed, debating if you should attend the party or not. Steve had a point, the party is a great opportunity to get to know more people and you would have him there if something went wrong. Not that you would consider the two of you friends but he was the only one who had noticed you and actually been kind to you since you came to Hawkins.

Slowly you walked over to your closet, hoping you would find something to wear but there wasn’t much to find. You rarely attended parties, especially where you had to dress up.

When the evening arrived, you stood in front of the house where the party was being held. Loud music was heard from the inside and the front yard were filled with teenagers with red cups in their hands. Some people were talking, some were throwing up and some were making out.

You looked down at your black dress that you picked out, feeling anxious about it and nervous about what people would think. It wasn’t really a costume, you had put some blood on your neck, looking like some kind of cut just blend in the crowd.

You took a breath before heading inside, the music being even louder and people were dancing everywhere. Your eyes searched crowd, searching for some familiar faces or more specifically; Steve.

Once you saw him, he was laughing and dancing in the living room with Nancy by his side. He was wearing a black suit with the black pants, a pair of sunglasses and his hair styled like it always was. A small smile crept up on you at the sight of him.

He spotted you not long after while you walked into the kitchen, looking for something to drink and he instantly went after you.

”Well hello there new girl.” he said with a smile once he was by your side and you turned to look at him, smiling.

”Hello there, Harrington.”

Steve raised an eyebrow at you while giving you a playful smile at the nickname, the nickname everyone had for him but for some reason he liked it more when it left your lips than others.

”Didn’t think you’d come.” Steve said, filling his cup once again before taking a sip of it and leaning against the kitchen counter. ”I’m glad you did though.”

You smiled at him, feeling the blush creep up on your cheeks and then you took a sip from your own cup so you didn’t have to meet his eyes.

You looked towards the living room, seeing Nancy dancing with a cup in her hand and she was clearly drunk. Like very drunk.

”Is everything alright between you and Nancy?” you asked carefully, looking away from her and at Steve instead.

”Yeah, why?” he asked with furrowed eyebrows.

”Nothing, sorry.” you said quickly, not even knowing why you blurted out the question in the first place. You didn’t know Steve that well yet and you definitely didn’t know Nancy so you didn’t really have the right to ask him about their relationship.

”Well well well.” a deep, cocky voice said which made you look up in front of you. A boy was approaching you and Steve, a boy with long blonde hair and a leather jacket. You could almost tell immediately that he was one of those cocky guys that thought they were the best there is.

”What do you want?” Steve muttered and took a step closer to you, his body almost now standing in front of yours like he tried to cover you, like he tried to protect you.

”What’s with the attitude, Harrington?” he laughed and took a step closer with his eyes glued on you. ”And who are you?”

You tensed up, not enjoying the look in his eyes as he took in your features. ”Y/N”

”I’m Billy.” he said and licked his lips. ”But you probably knew that already.”

You stayed quiet, your hand taking a hold of Steve’s arm without thinking. You could feel how tense Steve was with each inch Billy moved closer to you.

”I think you should leave, Hargrove.” Steve said firmly, irritation and anger clearly being heard in the tone.

”Steve there you-” Nancy said, appearing by their side out of no where and stopped mid sentence as she saw the situation. Her boyfriend, standing basically in front of you, protecting you from Billy and your hand holding a tight grip on his arm.

You, Steve and Billy looked at her, surprised or well you and Steve was, Billy just smirked while letting out a small chuckle and put his hands up while backing away.

”Good luck, Harrington.” he said and then he was gone.

”I was looking for you.” Nancy mumbled, glaring at you before taking a sip of her drink and almost falling over but managed to ground herself thanks to the table.

”Okay, I think that’s enough.” Steve said, moving up to her and made an attempt to take her cup away from her but she quickly pulled back. ”Nance-”

”Stop.” she said firmly. ”We’re having fun, everything’s like it should be right? That’s what you wanted.”

Her words made Steve stay quiet, looking at her surprised and his breathing getting heavier.

”Nancy.” you said gently, walking up to her side and putting your hand on her shoulder. ”Maybe you should drink some water?”

”Don’t act like you care.” Nancy muttered and glared at you with cold eyes.

”Okay, that’s enough.” Steve said once again but more firmly this time and grabbed her cup again but this time, she wasn’t as quick to pull away. This time, he got a hold of it and as she tried to pull back, the drink slipped through both of their hands and landed on her chest.

She only glared at Steve.

”Shit, Nance I’m sorry-”

”Don’t.” she said and walked away, furious. Steve looked at you then quickly ran after her.

You watched him follow her, going through the living room and then disappearing in the crowd. You felt bad, even though you didn’t know what went wrong.

Slowly the evening went on and you were getting less sober with each passing minute. Your eyes looked for the beautiful brown haired boy every now and then but he was no where in sight.

Your head was spinning like crazy as you stumbled out through the front door, taking a hold of the chair that was on the porch. You felt sick, like you would throw up any second.

”You okay there new girl?” Steve

You looked up, the boy standing in front of you with a concerned face and quickly leaned towards to, taking a hold of your waist gently as you felt yourself losing balance again.

”I-I’m fine.” you mumbled.

”You’re drunk.” Steve stated and then pulled you up so you were stranding straight, holding you close to his side so you wouldn’t fall. ”I’m taking you home.”

”You don’t have to.” you slurred and looked up at him, meeting his eyes. ”You should be with Nancy, we both know she isn’t a big fan of me.”

”Apperantly I am bullshit and so is our relationship so I don’t give a fuck about what she thinks. I’m taking you home, no objections.” Steve said, his voice low and firm with a hint on darkness you hadn’t heard before from him.

”Steve-” you whispered as the two of you headed towards his car, him avoiding to look at you now.

”I’m fine.” he whispered and then opened the car door, helping you inside before going to the driver seat and getting in himself. ”I’m fine.”

You looked at him and even though your vision was kind of blurry because of the alcohol, you could see the pain in his face and how tense his body is.

As Steve slowly and carefully drove down the road, you could see how his hands were gripping the wheel tightly. And he did not look at you once, not even when he asked for your address.

When you arrived at your house, he helped you to the front door and even into the house and your bedroom. Which was a surprise to you.

”Do you wanna talk about it?” you asked gently, a little more sober now than before and Steve looked at you while you sat down onto the bed.

”It’s simple.” Steve sighed. ”She doesn’t love me, our relationship is bullshit and I’m bullshit.”

”You’re not bullshit, Steve.” you said softly and he closed his eyes, running a finger through his hair while taking a step closer to you,

”Yes I am, Y/N.”

You reached your hand out for him, telling him to sit down next to you on the bed and he hesitated at first but then say down.

”I don’t think you are.” you said and your hand was still in his. ”I think you’re kind, sweet and caring. You have this fasad sometimes but that’s high school.”

He squeezed your hand and looked at you, a small smile appearing on his face. ”You’re sweet.”

”I know this may come out wrong but don’t take it the wrong way. But do you wanna stay? I don’t want you to be alone when you’re feeling like this.”

His words surprised you which made him stay silent for a few moments but then he answered. ”I’d like that.”

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I’m sorry [cole walter]

PART TWO

It had been over a week since you last spoke to Cole, you were ignoring him completely. Just the thought of him made your heart ache and everytime you saw him in the hallway in school or at the Walter’s house when you went to see Jackie, you wanted to cry.

”You can’t ignore him forever.” Jackie said, breaking the silence at the coffee shop that Will owned with his fiance where the two of you often went to study.

”Maybe not but I can right now.” you mumbled and closed your chemistry book with a sigh. ”He hasn’t tried to talk to me or fix this since the day after at the house.”

”I know.” Jackie nodded and toon your hand in hers, making you look at her. ”Maybe he’s giving you time? Sure we all know he’s a dick but he has always been different with you. At least that’s what I’ve noticed since I came here.”

”Not anymore.” was all you said before looking at the clock on your arm. ”Shit, Danny is supposed to pick me up and drive me to the fair. Do you need a ride too?”

”No, I’m waiting for Alex.” Jackie said with a small smile and you nodded, finding it cute how she would smile at the thought or mention of Alex. You were happy for them.

As you walked out of the coffee shop, the car was no where in sight and you sighed while looking around. And that’s when you saw him, Cole.

”Hi crackers.” Cole said with a gentle voice, his hands in his front pockets of his jeans while he leaned against his truck.

”What are you doing here?” you said, your voice shaky and filled with hurt and annoyance.

”Danny asked me to pick you up since I was in town already. Benny wanted him to read him his bedtime story.”

You just nodded, your body tense as you slowly walked towards him. He was the last person you wanted to be around at the moment but you really did need a ride and it was better than nothing.

Cole opened the door for you, something he had done for as long as you can remember and he gave you a soft, gentle smile as you looked at him that you did not give back. Just looking at him made his words from that painful night come back into your mind, making your heart ache.

He gently closed the car door once you was seated in the passenger seat and then he went around, getting in himself.

He looked at you before turning on the engine and he hated the fact that you hated him, he hated himself for what he had said to you. He had no good excuse either to why he had said them, him being drunk was an awful excuse and yes you knew about his pain from his dream ending but that was no excuse either. He was an ass, he knew that.

The car ride was quiet, neither of you spoke. You could see in the corner of your eye how he’d look at you and open his mouth, like he wanted to say something but then quickly closing it again.

”I’m sorry.” Cole then said, his voice gentle and soft but shaky as he looked at you for a brief second. ”I really am.”

You stayed quiet though, closing your eyes and leaning your head against the window. A part of you wanted to hear him apologize but another part of you didn’t. It wouldn’t make the pain in your heart go away.

”Please talk-” he then began but the sound of the engine stopped him, smoke slowly starting to leak from underneath the hood. ”No, no, no.”

”What’s happening?” you asked, sitting up straight and looking out of the front shield.

Then, the engine got quiet and the car was still. The sound of the hood opening itself was heard and when Cole walked out, opening the hood more smoke appeared and the sound of something being broke came out.

”Can you fix it?” you asked and finally looked at him, though his eyes were glued on the engine.

”I don’t have my tool box.” he muttered out with a sigh, leaning over to see better. ”I was about to get it when I was asked to pick you up.”

”So it’s my fault right? I mean I only cause people pain and misery after all.” your words made Cole’s heart sting and he looked at you for a brief moment.

”I’ll call Will to pick us up.” was all he said back, closing the hood and taking out his phone from his front pocket as he watched you get back into the car.

•••

The darkness had come over the sky and it must have been hours since Cole’s truck broke down. He was laying on the hood of the truck, his back against the window while you were still in the passenger seat.

Your body was getting colder and colder, starting to slightly shake as you closed your eyes.

Cole looked back at you over his shoulder, seeing your body shake inside the truck and even though he felt guilty as hell, he couldn’t help but smile slightly to himself at the sight of you. You were beautiful.

He then gently jumped down from the hood, walking to the back of the truck and getting one of his spare hoodies that he had with him. Once it was in his hands, he walked over to the passenger door and gently knocked on the window, making you open your eyes.

Slowly you rolled down the window, just looking at him with pain in your eyes as they connected with his.

”Here.” he said, handing you the hoodie that you slowly took from him. ”I know you hate me right now but the hood is still warm from the break down. If you want, you can join me up there.”

You just looked at him and then sighed, putting the hoodie on. ”Just so I don’t freeze to death.”

Cole smiled lightly at your words, stepping back and opening the door for you before the two of you walked to the hood. He got up first, then he offered his hand to you and helped you up.

The two of you stayed quiet for some time and you felt yourself getting warmer, feeling safe in his hoodie and your heart beating faster.

”I really am sorry.” Cole said once again, breaking the silence and you sighed. ”I didn’t mean any of it. And I don’t have a good excuse to why I said the things I did but-.”

”But what?” you asked, now turning your head to look at him. ”You were drunk and your true feelings always come out once your drunk.”

”They aren’t my true feelings though.” Cole said, sitting up and letting out a breath. ”I guess I felt the need to push you away. Everything good has been taken away from me and my mind made me think it’s better if I push you away now before you leave me.”

”Why would I leave you, Cole?”

Cole just looked at you, you now as well sitting up with a confused look.

”Because I’m a screw up.” he stated and closed his eyes.

Your heart broke even more at his words, hearing the pain in his voice and before you could stop yourself, your hand were on his cheek. ”You’re not a screw up.”

Cole opened his eyes and looked at you, his eyes moving down to your lips for a brief second before connecting with your own again. It made your heart stop.

”I’m sorry crackers.” he whispered and you sighed slightly.

”You really hurt me, Cole.” you admitted, tears slowly beginning to form in your eyes. ”You broke my heart saying those words.”

”I never meant to hurt you.” he responded, letting his own hand move up to your cheek which made you drop yours so it could grab his wrist instead. ”I love you.”

His words were something he had said before, you had told him those words as well. But he never meant them in the way that you did, which hurt but you had learned to live with it.

”I love you too.”

You two stayed silent, just looking at each other. It felt like something changed in between you two, not only because he had told you about his reasons but because of something else. You couldn’t figure out what though.

Cole moved his thumb gently on your cheek in comfort as he stared into your eyes. ”I have to do something.”

”What?”

Slowly Cole leaned forward, his face just a few inches from yours and you could feel his breath on your face. ”This.”

Gently he pressed his lips onto yours, connecting them into a soft en gentle kiss. His move surprised you, making your body freeze and your eyes wide.

”God I’m sorry.” he said after pulling away from you quickly because of your reaction.

You stared at him for a moment before you moved your hand from his wrist to the back of his neck, pulling him back to you and connecting your lips again. You felt him smile against your lips and you felt your whole body forming goosebumps ontop of your skin.

Once you pulled away to catch your breath, you leaned your forehead against his and slowly opened your eyes. Cole was already looking at you with a small smile.

Before either of you could say anything though about your sudden kiss, the sound of a honking broke you apart quickly and the sight of Wills car getting closer on the road came into view.

Once Will had arrived next to Cole’s truck, he and also Alex got out of the car. Jackie came out from the backseat not long after them.

”You guys okay?” Will asked and you nodded while Cole helped you down from the hood.

”Is everything okay?” Jackie asked as you walked up to her, noticing your face expression.

”Yeah.” you nodded. ”Just tired and cold.”

Jackie nodded and looked at Cole for a brief moment, his body tense and then she looked back at you with a raised eyebrow. ”Did something happen between you?”

”What? No!” you replied quickly, too quickly and you looked at Cole who was talking to Will and Alex. ”We just talked.”

”Mhmm.” Jackie said, watching how you put your arms over your chest and your hands gripping the hoodie tightly, Cole’s hoodie.

The car ride home was quiet, too quiet in your opinion. Jackie had fallen asleep on Alex shoulder and Cole was in his truck that was being pulled by Will’s. And Will himself stayed quiet as well, you were not quite sure why though.

”You’re awfully quiet.” Alex stated, looking over at you over Jackie’s head.

”I’m just tired.” you said ”and kind of bummed that I missed the fair.”

”I get that.” Alex nodded and then looked down at Jackie, smiling to himself before kissing her head gently. ”Is everything alright between you and Cole?”

”Uhm yeah, kind of.” you said, sighing. ”We talked about it, slightly anyway. Why?”

”I’m just surprised you decided to go with us and not with Cole.”

You didn’t know what to anwser to that, how do you tell his brother about the kiss and the awkwardness that came afterwards because they showed up to the rescue? It would all just be weird, at least according to you.

But all you could think of was the feeling of his lips against yours, how good it felt and it felt like they were meant to be connected with yours.

God you were screwed. So screwed.

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i’m sorry [cole walter]

PART ONE

You never thought that he would hurt you the way he did, you never that you’re best friend would use your history against you because of his own anger and pain. Yet here you were, sitting in the middle of the woods by the lake with your knees up against your chest and tears rolling down your cheeks.

His words echoed in your mind ’i’m not the one who killed my little sister.’

’Maybe your father is right, all you bring to people is pain and misery.’

The pain you felt as the words replayed in your mind was unbearable. Cole was the only one who knew about your guilt you felt about the death of your little sister, how you blamed yourself no matter how much he used to tell you that it wasn’t your fault.

You wanted to hate him but you couldn’t, the feelings your had for him was to strong and you wished that you could turn them all off.

As the darkness came upon the sky, so did the cold and you knew that you couldn’t stay here much longer. The light blue dress you wore not being especially warm and your coat was left at the gala that you had attended to with the Walters. But you couldn’t get yourself to stand and walk away, you didn’t know where to go. You couldn’t go home, your father would probably just raise his hand to you since you were out after curfew, he would probably be drunk as well which would make his hand even more powerful than in his sober state.

So instead, you took out your phone where no message or call from Cole was on your screen. Which made your heart ache even more and more tears roll down your cheeks. But you had made your decision.

As you put the phone against your ears and the signals went one, two and three before the person you had called answered the phone.

”Y/N?” his soft voice was filled with confusion but slight worry in them as well.

”Danny?” you said, the tears clearly heard in your shaky voice. You didn’t really know why you had decided to call Coles twin out of all the Walter boys. Maybe because he was one of the them that you were closest to expect Cole.

”Are you okay?” Danny quickly asked and you heard him looking for something in the background. ”Where are you?”

”I-I’m fine.” you stuttered out, not wanting to tell him about the incident with Cole. At least not over the phone since you was unsure if someone else of the Walters would hear their conversation. ”Can you pick me up? I’m by the lake.”

”Of course.”

”But don’t tell anyone. Especially Cole.” you said quickly.

”Why-”

”I’ll explain when you get here”. you cut him off quickly and you heard Danny sigh as you heard him grab the keys.

”I’ll be there in 15.” Danny replied.

Once Danny arrived, which felt like hours later, you quickly got in the car as your body was shaking because of the cold. And you avoided Dannys eyes, not wanting him to see your puffy eyes.

”What happened, Y/N?” Danny said as he leaned towards the backseat to grab one of the blankets and then putting it on her shoulders. ”Why are out all the way out here?”

”Me and Cole got into a fight.” was all you said and Danny didn’t push anything else from you. He knew that by the sound of your voice and you avoiding his gaze, that you either wasn’t ready to tell him or you didn’t want to.

”I already asked Jackie, you can stay with her tonight. I don’t want you to go home right now.” Danny said softly and you looked at him just for a brief moment, offering him a smile.

”Thank you.”

When you arrived at the Walter house, you felt nervous and scared about the possibility of running into Cole. That was something that you had never felt before, he was your best friends since kindergarten after all. But once you saw the light in the barn, you knew that he was there, probably working on his truck.

”Come on.” Danny said softly. ”I know you already figured it out but he’s at the barn. He doesn’t even know you called me.”

You nodded in response and once you quietly walked inside the house through the backdoor, Jackie was waiting for you by the stairs with a sad smile on her face.

”Oh Y/N.” she whispered and walked up to you, taking you into her arms and holding you close.

You and Jackie had gotten close, at first she was quite cold against you and mostly ignored you which was confusing. But once Cole told you about her past and the reason she came here, you understood her. And once you told her about your little sister, she warmed up to you and you became closer by each day that passed.

”Let’s go up to my room.” Jackie whispered and you nodded before going up to Danny, taking him into your arms.

”Thank you.” you whispered and Danny hugged you back, holding you against his chest before letting go.

You and Jackie then walked up into her bedroom, that once were Kathrine’s art room. But she let Jackie take over it, not only so she would have her own room but also because she didn’t have time to draw anymore no matter how much she loved it.

”Do you wanna talk about it?” Jackie asked and handed you some clothes. You just sighed in response before sitting down on the bed.

”Cole-” was all you said at first, closing your eyes as you felt the tears build up again. ”He said some really hurtful things to me at the gala, when I was just trying to help him and be there for him. Things that I thought he would never say or use against me. And I know he’s in pain but-”

”But what?” Jackie asked, sitting down next to you.

”I never thought he would make me feel this way, not when he knows everything. He’s my best friend, at least I thought he was and yet, here I am with my heart broken in more ways than one.”

Jackie didn’t know what to say to your words, so all she did was take you into her arms as you let the tears roll down your cheeks again.

•••

The next day when you woke up, Jackie was no where to be seen which wasn’t a surprise to you since she most days went for a morning run with Nathan. She had offered you to join many times but it wasn’t your thing.

You felt your eyes still being puffy and slightly swollen from all the crying, which wasn’t a surprise really and all you could think of was how you would get out of the house without seeing Cole.

You stood up from the bed, walking quietly up towards the bedroom door and took a breath. You were praying that Cole was out doing his chores or in the barn if he wasn’t at Tony’s, working.

When you opened the door, your fears became real as it reveled Cole with his hand up, which made it look like he was about to knock on it.

His blue eyes got wide, filled with surprise as they connected with yours. There were dark circles underneath his eyes, telling you that he hadn’t slept anything and his blonde hair was a mess, his white tank top revealing his tanned skin with some dried oil on it.

His eyes left yours to study your face and you knew that he could see that you had been crying, you knew that he could see the pain in your face and that you had barerly slept as well.

”Y/N I-” he began, his voice soft and slightly deep as he took a small step towards you but you instantly backed away from him while shaking your head.

”Don’t.” you whispered and looked at him with tears now filling up your eyes. ”Just leave me alone, Cole.”

”Please let me-”

”Let you what Cole?!” you exclaimed, your body tensing up and you tears rolling down your cheeks.

”You made it clear last night about how you feel about our friendship, about me. And I can’t even look at you, just leave me alone.” you said and then you pushed passed him, running down the stairs and out of the house.

As you ran passed both Lee and Isaac, the two looked at you confused.

”Y/N!” Cole called as he tried to run after you and both Lee and Isaac kind of understood immediately that he had done something, something bad.

”Don’t man.” Lee said, taking a hold of Cole’s arm to stop him from running after her. ”Leave her be.”

Cole looked at the two boys, pulling his arm away from Lee and looked at him. ”Don’t tell me what to do.”

Then Cole walked away towards the barn where his truck was being held and once he was inside, he screamed slightly and closed his hand before hitting it on the wall. His fist got red, some blood rolling down from his knuckles but he couldn’t feel the pain. All he felt was guilt and regret, he didn’t remember everything from the night before but the little he did remember told him that he had screwed up.

He screwed up bad.

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rugby ball [nick nelson]

Y/N watched her boyfriend play around with his adorable dog, Nellie while she herself sat on the blanket they had brought with them with a smile on her face.

If someone had told her last year that she would still be in a relationship with that one boy she had a small crush on in year eleven, she would���ve said you’re crazy and laughed. But yet here she was, happier than ever and she couldn’t stop thinking about their first meeting. The meeting that would change her life completely.

Y/N sat in the grass next to the rugby field, her pen in between her teeth and her eyes glued on the book infront of her on the ground. She hated math, she always had even though she was quite good at it.

You may wonder why the hell she’s studying next to the rugby field, well it’s simple. Fresh air and privacy.

Yes the boys on the team often had practice so she wasn’t exactly alone but no one disturbed her here, they all left her alone since she was not their focus. Rugby was.

And because she knew that, she didn’t hear one of the boys call out, telling her to move away. So suddenly something hit her head, making her fall backwards slightly and a pounding pain starting.

”What the-”

”Oh my god, I’m so sorry!” A boy said, running up to her as she spoke. But it wasn’t just any boy, no. It was the rugby kind Nicholas Nelson, though everyone called him Nick.

”It’s fine.” Y/N mumbled and looked up at him, who looked truthfully concerned as he leaned down so that they were eye level.

”Are you okay?” Nick asked quickly, carefully letting his hand go up to her head where the ball had hit her to look for some kind of visible injury.

”Yeah, I’m fine.” she said, now offering him one of her small but kind of fake smiles to reassure him. She wasn’t sure if he threw the ball or anyone else, like Harry but she didn’t really want to chat with either one of the boys.

”Okay.” Nick nodded and stood up straight, offering his hand to help her up which she for some reason accepted.

”Thank you.”

”I-I’m Nick by the way.” he told her while scratching the back of his neck and giving her an kind of awkward smile.

”I’m Y/N.” she said, them both realizing they were still holding each others hands and she blushed. To not make it more awkward they shook hands, in some sort of greeting.

”Wait.” Nick said and tilted his head slightly. ”You’re friends with Charlie Spring right?

”Uhm yeah.” Y/N said slowly, raising her eyebrow in suspicion.

”I sit next to him in form, he’s told me a lot about you.”

”Oh god.” she whispered to herself and hid her face in her hands in embarrassment. ”Only good things I hope.”

Nick chuckled and then continued to smile at her. ”Yeah don’t worry. Only good stuff. And actually, would you maybe be interested in helping me with math? Like tutoring? I am failing, like bad.”

”Uh yeah, sure.” Y/N said and they continued smiling at each other, just staring at one another.

”What are you smiling about?” Nick said as he and Nellie came back to her, sitting down next to her.

It was hard for her to understand that she was in this amazing position because of a freaking rugby ball. She just smiled at him and kissed his cheek once he was at the same level as her.

”I’m just happy.” Y/N told him and he leaned forward, resting his forhead against hers as he closed his eyes.

”I remember when I kissed you for the first time.” Nick whispered and moved his hand up to her cheek, she on instinct leaning into his touch. ”How nervous I was.”

”I was nervous as well, it was my first kiss.” she replied and Nick chuckled before gently pressing his lips onto hers in a sweet kiss.

”It’s weird.” Y/N whispered when they pulled away and Nick looked at her confused.

”What is weird?”

”That this-” she said and pointed at her then at him with a smile. ”happend and turned out like this just because you hit me with a rugby ball.”

”On accident!” Nick quickly filled in and they both laughed before Y/N kissed him again.

”Well, it was worth the bump I got. And I’m glad it was you who threw it.”

”Me too.” Nick said and then pulled her close to him, laying down on his back with her head on his chest and then Nellie laying down beside them. ”Me too.”

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i love you [kit connor]

Kit sat by the kitchen table, leaning on his elbows that was placed gently onto it as he watched you dance around in the kitchen. You were wearing one of his flanel shirts with your hair up in a messy bun and airpods plugged in.

He was almost 100% sure that you hadn’t noticed him walk into the kitchen and sit down, the music in the AirPods probably too loud and taking you into your own world.

It was moments like this, that Kit was so confused on how he managed to get so lucky. How he out of all people in the world was the one you decided to give your heart to.

As you turned around, a bowl in hand where you preparing the ingredients for the pancakes you had decided to make today you saw him. A small scream escaped your lips as you jumped backwards, dropping the bowl onto the floor in the process.

”Oh my god Kit!” you exclaimed while putting your hands on your knees and slightly leaning forward. ”Don’t do that.”

”I’m sorry, love.” Kit said softly, letting out a small chuckle as he stood up and moved up to her before kneeling down in front of her so he could take up the mess on the floor.

”How long have you been watching me?” you whispered and looked into his eyes, his beautiful hazel brown eyes that you could stare into forever.

”Not very long.” Kit replied and then stood up, taking your hand in his once both of you were standing up straight.

”Hi.” he whispered as their faces were now only inches apart.

”Hi.” you whispered back, blushing slightly. You were still amazed by how Kit would make you feel like this, even after being together for a while. You’re stomach was always filled with butterflies, just the thought of him.

”Are you doing an Nick Nelson on me?” you teased with a smile on your lips.

Kit tilted his head in confusion with an small smile on his lips as well. ”A what?”

”A Nick Nelson. That soft, gentle ’hi’ and that beautiful look in your eyes that you use as Nick when looking at Charlie.” you giggled and let your arms go around his neck, him putting his on your waist with a gentle grip.

Kit chuckled and leaned forward, pressing his lips onto yours softly. ”I look at you with that look everyday.”

”Is that so?” you whispered against his lips, playing with the hair on the back of his neck.

”Mhm.” he mumbled, connecting his lips with yours again and then when he pulled away he whispered. ”I love you.”

You looked at him with your eyes wide, your face growing hot as he stared into your eyes. It was the first time those three words had left his lips, the first time either of you had said them and it made you heart flutter. Va

”I love you too.”

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it was always you [steve.harrington]

”Here comes your dream girl, dingus.” Robin teased, making Steve quickly open the glass door behind the register and revealing himself.

”Shut up, Robin.” Steve said quickly, afraid that you would hear the comment she had made but by the look of your face he was in the clear.

”Ahoy.” Robin joked and you laughed, leaning on your elbows that you rested on the counter once you arrived at the register

”Ahoy my two favorite sailors.” you replied, looking at them both with a smile. Though when you looked at Steve, you felt yourself blush slightly. You hoped though that he didn’t notice it.

”You only like us because of the ice cream.” Steve joked and you giggled. ”Am I wrong?”

”Well-” you began, pretending to think about it with a teasing smile. ”The ice cream sure is a big plus.”

Robin laughed, bumping her shoulder into Steve who looked at her and rolling his eyes.

”That’ not the only reason though.” you continued, feeling your cheeks grow hot as Steve turned to look at you again. His eyes were searching yours and when he found them, he had a hard time concentrating because of the beauty of them.

”Yeah?” he said, leaning to rest on his elbows as well to be eye level with you. ”What’s the other reason?”

His voice was soft and it made you break eye contact, taking your bottom lip in between your teeth as you blushed. As you looked up again, you noticed that he still had his eyes on you and giving you all his attention. He didn’t even notice Robin leave them with a satisfied smile but then again, you didn’t notice it either.

”Am I making you nervous sweetheart?” Steve teased, his voice low and gentle but at the same time you could hear both seriousness and playfullnes in his voice.

”N-No.” you stuttered out, trying to sound normal but it didn’t go as well as you had hoped which made him grin.

”That didn’t sound very sure.” he whispered and leaning forward, his pulse racing and he tried his best to act confident even though he was freaking out inside. He was always freaking out around you. ”Wanna hear something that might make you less nervous?”

You nodded at his question and he leaned forward even more, his lips gently moving to the side of you ear and you could hear his slow breathing. ”You make me nervous too.”

You didnt know what to anwser to that, it was like you froze and you let out a breath you didn’t know you we’re holding. As he pulled away he smiled at you, a teasing smile as he noticed your pink cheeks.

”You’re cute when you’re blushing.” Steve then said, his voice gentle and soft. ”Like really cute.”

”Thank you.” you whispered as he was still close to you and you smiled. ”You’re kind of handesome in that outfit.”

Steve raised an eyebrow at your comment, kind of chocked since he thought he looked ridiculous in it but he kind of only cared about your opinion.

”Well thank you.” you smiled at him.

”Please just kiss already!” Robin shouted from behind, making both you and Steve looked at her as she watched them with a teasing smile.

”Ignore her.” Steve muttered and turned his attention to you.

”What if I don’t want to?” you said, nervous as hell when the words had left your mouth.

”What?” Steve was sure his heart had stopped at your words, though he wasn’t sure what you meant by it but he hoped he understood it the right way.

”Maybe I want you to kiss me.” you said gently and moved your hand to run through his hair gently. ”What if I’m just waiting for you to make a move.”

Steve stayed quiet, processing the words that had left your mouth. Which made you regret the words you had said, making you feel embarrassed and thinking he didn’t want to kiss you.

”J-Just forget it, I can see that you don’t feel the same so just-” you started saying but you were cut off by Steve moving his hands up to your cheeks to hold your face and gently pressing his lips against yours.

It wasn’t how you had thought your first kiss would be, you had thought maybe after a date of some sort. But you didn’t care, the feeling of his lips against yours felt amazing. It felt like they were meant to be connected.

”I do feel the same.” Steve then whispered against your lips, only pulling away a few inches. ”I’ve just been scared that you’ll reject me.”

”It’s impossible to reject you, Steve.” you admitted and he smiled, his cheeks growing a light shade of pink.

”Don’t boost my ego.” he joked and you giggled at his words. ”So could I maybe take you out on a date?”

”Yeah. I’d like that.”

•••

Your heart was beating quick as you looked yourself in the mirror, waiting for Steve to pick you up. You had been on dates before but you had never been this nervous which you knew was a good thing, well at least that’s what your older sister told you.

”God.” you whispered to yourself, not feeling really confident at the choice of clothes which were a pair of black skirt and a nice top. You wanted to take it safe, not wanting to be too dressed up but also not underdressed.

A soft knock on the front door pulled you out of your thoughts about clothing opinion and brought you back into reality or whatever you would call it.

Slowly you walked out of your room, your hands almost shaking once they reached for the door knob on the front door. You took a breath before opening, revealing Steve who was giving her that beautiful smile that she loved.

”Hi.” you said gently and smiled at him softly.

”Hi.” he said, one red rose in his hand that he gently gave you. Your smile got bigger and you started to blush slightly.

”Thank you.”

”I remembered how you told me about your love for roses but not in a boquet. You said ’it feels more personal and meaningful if it’s only one. Like you only have that one person in your mind.’ ”

”Steve.” you whispered, your heart melting. You never thought he would remember something like that, something that cheesy. You stood up on your toes to lean up and kiss his cheek seeing how his cheek getting pink at the small touch. ”Should we go?”

”Y-Yeah.” Steve stuttered and cleared his throat before taking your hand in his gently, pulling you to his side.

You and Steve walked up to his car that was parked on the street outside of your house, his dark red BMW that you loved even though you had only seen it.

Steve gently opened up the door for you, bowing as he did and said. ”Madam”

It made you giggle and you gave him a small bow before sitting down in the passenger seat. He closed the door once you were seated comfortably and then went to the other side, sitting down in front of the wheel.

”What a gentlemen.” you said.

”Of course.” he said while putting the key in, starting the engine.

”So what is the plan?” you said, still holding the rose in your hand, looking at it as your heart fluttered.

”It’s a surprise.” Steve said ”But I think you’ll like it.”

The rest of the drive was in quiet silence, both of you nervous. At least that is what you thought but the silence was comfortable, the radio was on and played in a low tune.

Steve carefully moved his hand to your knee, looking at you in the corner of his eye to see your reacting, nervous that you might not be okay with it. But once he sees the smile on you face and the blushing once again, he relaxed and smiled to himself.

It wasn’t a long drive to where Steve has planned the date. Maybe 15 minutes from your house and when they pulled up on the parking lot of the Hawkin’s lake, he saw your eyes light up.

”Steve?” you asked and looked at him as he turned off the engine before turning his body so he was facing you, smiling. ”Are we having a picnic by the water and under the stars?”

”Mhm.” he nodded. ”I know it’s cheesy but I remember how you told me about your dream date and well I decided to give it to you.”

”You’re cute.” you said, taking his hand in yours with a smile. ”Thank you”

You and Steve then got out of the car and headed towards the small beach that was next to the lake. Your stomach was filled with butterflies as he held his arm around your waist.

Once you reached the spot that Steve had picked out, a blanket was already laid out with a small basket on the side of it and believe it or not, small candles around it.

”Candles?” you said and looked up to him.

”Robin might have helped me with that one.” Steve admitted. ”She was here right before we arrived, lighting them up. So it wouldn’t get out of hand or something.”

You smiled at him, leaning your head on his shoulder as you walked the last bit before sitting down on the blanket. You sat next to each other, your head still on his shoulder as he gently took the food out of the basket, doing his best so you wouldn’t have to move away from his shoulder.

He as well had never been this nervous about going on a date, god he was freaking out inside. He wanted to get this right, he wanted to give you the date you both dreamed of and deserved because in his eyes; you deserved the best.

”I can’t believe you did this for me.” you said after eating a strawberry that Steve gentle had handed to you. ”I can’t believe you remembered me even saying this.”

”Why’s that?” Steve asked and you took away your head from its position on his shoulder, looking at him before letting out a sigh and closing your eyes.

”Nobody has been this thoughtful or dedicated to me before. Nobody has put this kind of time for me and to be honest? It kind of scares me.” you admitted.

Steve was surprised by your confession. So he gently let his hand move up to your cheek which made you look at him before he spoke. ”I’ve been wanting to take you out for weeks, months. And you deserve everything, everything good in the world.”

”Steve-”

”And I can’t believe I am the first one to do something like this for you. ” Steve continued, cutting you off. ”But at the same time I am kind of happy about it, happy that I got the chance to do it first and I hope the last.”

You smiled at him before gently leaning in and pressing your lips against his, his thumb rubbing gentle circles on your cheek. ”I hope so too.”

”This is how I imagined our first kiss.” he whispered against your lips and you giggled.

”You’ve imagined our first kiss?”

”Of course I have! I’ve been waiting for this for so long. I’m just happy that Robin said something, that you took that first step that I didn’t have the guts to take.”

”Me too.” you whispered before he kissed you again, this time a bit more force and passion. Though still gentle.

”Steve?” you whispered once you pulled away.

”Yeah?”

”It’s always been you.” you admitted. ”since the first day I walked into the school of Hawkins, seeing you leaning against your locker with those black sunglasses.”

”Y/N-”

”And when you spoke to me that first day, letting me borrow your history book and not even knowing who I was expect that I was the new girl, I knew I was screwed.”

Steve felt his heart skip a beat at your words, surprised at them but at the same time he felt beyond happy. How didn’t he see the mutual feelings between you two?

”And the more I got to know you, the more I fell for you and still is-” before you could continue, Steve kissed you again and gently laid you down onto your back. He was leaning on his elbows as he hovered above you and when he pulled away, he put some of your hair behind your ear.

”That day, your first day, I had no idea that you would be this important to me and god when I saw you…I just knew I had to know you. I knew right away that you were something special.”

You blushed at his words, your fingers running through his hair in the back of his neck which made him shiver.

”We’ve been blind idiots.” you said with a giggle.

”Yeah. But it has been worth it.”

”Definitely.”

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this love came back to me [steve harrington]

Y/N hadn’t seen her best friend, Steve Harrington since he had left her house to go down into the Upside Down with Robin, Eddie and Dustin.

’I don’t want you to get hurt.’ he had told her on the pourch of her house as he held her. She had tried to talk him into allowing her to come with him, even though it was dangerous but Steve being Steve told her no.

So here she was, pacing in her room back and forth, worried sick about him. The others too of course since they were her friends too, especially Robin but the only one on her mind was Steve. She hadn’t slept since he had left the two nights ago, she had tried but all she saw when she closed her eyes were him in the word scenario that she knew was a possibility.

”Please stop pacing.” her sister said, coming into her bedroom door with worried eyes. Y/N didn’t even react, her sisters voice echoing slightly in her mind before quickly disappearing.

”Y/N.” her sister said softly, walking up to her and gently grabbing her arms which made her stop.

”What if something happens to him?” Y/N whispered, looking at her sister with tears. ”I can’t bear the thought of losing him. I won’t survive it.”

”You can’t think like that, okay?” she answered and put her hand on her cheek. ”I mean, he’s always come back from everything else like the Russians?”

Y/N let out a small laugh at her statement, remembering how she had found him and Robin at the movie theater on drugs. How she had helped the two of them into the bathroom in hope that they could throw whatever they had gotten out of their system.

”But he doesn’t know that I know.” Y/N then said, closing her eyes. ”He doesn’t know that I heard his confession to Robin about me. ”

”What confession?” her sister asked.

”He confessed feelings to Robin about me, at least I think it was me.” Y/N admitted and then moved over to her bed sitting down. The flashback of it returning in front of her eyes.

”You two stay here alright? I am going to find something for you guys to eat.” Y/N said as she kneeled next to Steve who leaned over the toilet, throwing up everything inside him which Robin did as well in the stall next to him.

When she came back with some snacks she had bought by the entrance, she heard the two of them talking. They didn’t sound as out of it anymore but they sure wasn’t sober just yet.

”Have you ever been in love?” Robin asked.

”Yep.” Steve answered back without hesitation. ”Nancy Wheeler, first semester, senior year.”

”Seriously! Nancy Wheeler?” Robin laughed and Steve chuckled form the other side of the wall.

”Well, lately I’ve kind of figured out that it may not have been real love. If that makes sense.” Steve admitted

”It makes sense.” Robin told him. ”How did you figure that out though?”

”I realized that there’s someone else, someone who’s way out of my league when you think about it but who is better for me than anyone else can ever be.”

At his words, Y/N slowly and carefully closed the bathroom door behind her, leaning on the bathroom counter on her hands. Her heartbeat increasing and her pulse racing.

”It’s crazy.” Steve chuckles. ”Ever since Dustin got home, he’s been saying ’you gotta find your Suzie, you gotta find your Suzi.’

”Wait who’s Suzie?” Robin asked, stopping him with her voice filled with confusion.

Steve sighed. ”It’s some girl from camp, I guess his girlfriend. To be honest with you, I’m not 100% sure she’s even real. But that’s not really the point.”

”Whats the point then?” Robin asked softly.

”The point is that this girl that I like-” Steve stopped, sighing. ”Is somebody that I’ve know my entire life basically. Somebody that stood by me through everything even when being the asshole ’King Steve’. I honestly don’t know why she did. ”

”Maybe she knew that ’King Steve’, wasn’t really you. That the pressure of popularity got the best of you?” Robin said.

”Yeah maybe but I should’ve been there for her as well. The best part about her isn’t just how caring she is though. She’s hilarious, no matter how I am feeling she always manages to make me laugh. She’s smart, god she’s smart. She has a solution for everything. She’s just, amazing.”

”Have you told her this?”

”No.” Steve whispered. ”I doubt she feels the same way about me and I don’t wanna lose her. I can’t lose her.”

Her sisters hand on her shoulder brought her back to reality and didn’t even notice the tears that were rolling down her cheeks. ”What if he dies and he has no idea about me feeling the same way back?”

”You haven’t told him?”

”I-I was scared. I told myself that it was the drugs talking, that he didn’t know what he was saying. I mean he was so out of it.”

”He knows.” her sister whispered. ”He’s an idiot if he hasn’t figured it out yet. I mean, think about all the moments you’ve had with him where it is quite obvious.”

Y/N smiled to herself, images coming into her mind as she closed her eyes and hid her face in her hands.

”What are you doing out here, pumpkin?” Steve said, appearing on the balcony of his house and the music from the party getting silenced as he closed the glass door.

Y/N and looked at him with a soft smile. He had his black shades on still that matched his black suit and pants perfectly. He looked perfect, something that she had always thought when it comes to Steve.

”Just wanted some peace of quiet. It’s getting kind of loud in there and well, Nancy is kind of being a bitch.” Y/N admitted which made Steve pull his sun glasses off of his face and look at her surprised.

”Nancy? A bitch towards you?” he asked and walked up to her, standing next to her and leaning on the railing.

”Wouldn’t be the first time, Stevie.” she said, letting out a small laugh and looked at him.

”Why haven’t you told me?” Steve asked, taking her hand into his and rubbing circles on the top of it with his thumb. The touch making her blush and she was glad the darkness had arrived so he would not notice it.

”Well, it’s kind of weird admitting to your best friend that his girlfriend thinks we have feelings for each other.” she giggled, taking a sip of the drink in her cup.

”Wait what?” Steve laughed ”You and me? That’s crazy.”

Y/N nodded at him. ”That’s what I told her as well.”

”Totally crazy.” Steve whispered as their eyes connected, they both realizing how close they were. Their faces were just a few inches apart, the space between them getting smaller by each second.

”Totally.” Y/N whispered back and his eyes looked at her lips, hers doing the same and just as they were about to make a drunken move, the sound of a loud crash stopped them. The sound making them both jump away from each other.

”Moments that he probably doesn’t even remember.” Y/N whispered.

Her sister opened her mouth to speak but the sound of an engine outside on the driveway caught their attention. Y/N knew the sound of that specific car everywhere. The sound of a BMW, his BMW.

”Steve.” Y/N whispered and before she knew it, she was running out of her room and towards the front door.

When she opened it, she saw him climb out of the driver seat of his BMW with a relieved smile on his face. Even though there was still distance between them, she could see his tired eyes, she could see both blood and bruises on his face and neck.

As he walked up towards her door, she ran up to him and jumped into his arms that quickly wrapped around her waist, holding her close to him as he buried his face in her neck.

”Hi pumpkin.” he whispered and she felt tears of joy roll down her cheeks.

”You came back.” she whispered and pulled away to look at him. She saw the bruise around his neck, a bruise that revealed that something had taken a hold of it and probably closing his airway. ”Steve-”

”I’m okay.” he said leaning his forhead against hers, closing his eyes. ”I’m okay.”

Before Y/N could stop herself, she leaned forward and closed the small distance in between them and connected their lips. Her move surprised him at first but once he realized what was happening, that he finally had your lips against his, he kissed you back.

”I love you.” she whispered against his lips and then connected them again, feeling him smile against her lips in the kiss.

”I love you too.” he mumbled against them, feeling her fingers playing with the hair on the back of his neck, making him shiver. ”God I love you.”

”I know.” you said once you pulled away to breath and he leaned back, letting you down onto the ground again. His eyes filled with confusion as he let one of his hands move up to her cheek.

”What?”

”I heard you and Robin talk in the bathroom a few months ago.” she admitted. ”When you were drugged by the Russians. I just…I was scared to tell you I felt the same in case it was just the drugs talking.”

”Pumpkin-” Steve said smiling. ”I was high on truth serum. All of it was true.”

”I’m such an idiot.” she laughed.

”Maybe but you’re my idiot.” Steve said smiling and then kissed her again.

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The edges of your soul (I haven't seen yet) ⭐︎ S.H.

⭐︎ Warnings: 18+ mdni! post apocalypse, character death, angst, mean!steve, grumpy!steve x sunshine!reader, blood, wounds -- all the gory stuff, smut in the future chapters, hurt/comfort

⭐︎ Pairing: Grumpy!Steve Harrington x sunshine(fem)!reader

⭐︎ Summary: Everything he once knew, is gone, dead and buried, burned to the ground and turned into ash. All he has known is loss, death and pain, he despised this world, until it brought you to him -- the sunshine he had long forgotten. Light he will follow till the very end.

⭐︎

Prologue ☀︎ When the sun hits, she'll be waiting

Chapter one ☀︎ Welcome and Goodbye

Chapter two ☀︎ Can you see right through me?

Chapter three ☀︎ You’re the greatest thing we’ve lost

Chapter four ☀︎ While I'm alone and blue as can be

Chapter five ☀︎ Watching cityscapes turn to dust

Chapter six ☀︎ The killing time. Unwillingly mine.

Chapter seven ☀︎ Fall back into place. Fall back...

Chapter eight ☀︎ Dead-eyed. Dead weight.

Chapter nine ☀︎ Pull the trigger on the gun I gave you when we met

Chapter ten ☀︎ Turn me into something tragic, just for you, I let it happen

Chapter eleven ☀︎ And I'll fear no evil because I'm blind to it all

Chapter twelve ☀︎ You’re a bandit like me. Eyes full of stars

Chapter thirteen ☀︎ Then this heart would break and fall as twice as far

Chapter fourteen ☀︎ The devil in your eyes, won't deny the lies you've sold

Chapter fifteen ☀︎ Every print I left upon the track has led me here

Chapter sixteen ☀︎ One day I am gonna grow wings...

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tell me this is real [steve harrington]

Y/N sat next to Robin in the small boat that was clearly overloaded but nobody cared as they let the boat slowly move away from the beach, leaving Dustin behind with Lucas and Max.

”I think this is it.” Y/N said, looking down the compass in her hand that was going crazy, making the boys stop the boat instantly.

”Woah.” Steve whispered as he looked down at the compass and watching how the arrow was going crazy in fast circles.

Before anyone could say something, Steve started to take off his shoes and socks.

”Steve, what are you doing?” Robin asked, making Y/N, Eddie and Nancy turn their attention to him.

”Somebody’s gotta go down and check this out.” Steve began.

”Unless one of you four can top being a Hawkins High swim co-captain and a certified lifeguard for three years then-” he continued, looking up at them all and stopping once he looked at Y/N.

”It’s gotta be me. No complaints, all right?”

”Hey, I’m not complaining.” Eddie admitted.

All three girls stayed quiet with both Nancy and Y/N watching Steve stand up carefully in the boat, taking his jumper off with his back facing them as he looked down at the water beneath them.

Y/N knew Steve was handesome, she had always thought that about him and even though they had been friends for years, she had never seen him like this. Only wearing pants and it made her heart skip a beat, her pulse racing and her cheeks grow hot. She was thankful of the dark so nobody would see.

What Y/N didn’t know though, was that Robin saw how she looked at her and smiled to herself. She had figured out from the moment she saw them together, that she had feelings for him. She also knew that Steve had feelings for her even though he hadn’t admitted to her or even himself.

Eddie handed Steve the flashlight that was now protected from the water with a plastic bag and once Steve had it in his hand, he collected himself and calming his breathing as he knew that he would be underwater for a few minutes.

”Steve.” Nancy said, making him turn around slightly and look at her. ”Be careful.”

Steve gave her a gentle smile and nodded his head before quickly diving into the water before anyone could try stop him, well more like Y/N would try and stop him.

Y/N was slightly shaking, bouncing her knee up and down while biting on her bottom lip. It felt like Steve had been down there for years even though it had only gone a few seconds since he dove in.

”So you and Harrington?” Eddie asked as he took out a cigarette that Robin quickly took away from him.

”What about us?” Y/N asked, feeling Nancy’s eyes on her. She couldn’t deny that she had seen Nancy and Steve have some moments during the day, moments that made her mind go crazy and her heart ache.

”Seriously?” Eddie laughed and shook his head.

”Don’t be an jackass.” Nancy mumbled and looked down at her feet.

”I’m not!” Eddie answered quickly. ”It’s just obvious.”

”There is nothing going on between us.” Y/N said gently, her words making Nancy look up. ”He’s one of my best friends and yes, I love him. But that’s all there is.”

”That’s all?” Robin butted in.

”Yeah.” Y/N whispered and then before the conversation could go any further, Steve appeared from the water with a gasp as he gently grabbed the boat.

”I found it.” Steve said in between breaths, putting the flashlight into the boat again to get a better grip on the boat.

”You found it?” Y/N repeated and Steve nodded.

”Dustin you’re a god damn genius!” Robin said into the radio. ”Steve found the gate.”

”It’s pretty wild.” Steve told them. ”It’s more a snack-size gate than the mama gate but still, it’s pretty damn big.”

”I don’t care about the size of it.” Y/N said and let her hand rest on top of his. ”I’m just glad you’re okay.”

Before Steve could answer though, something pulled him down from the boat for a quick moment but he was quickly up again, looking at then confused.

”What the-” he said but then he was dragged down under the water again, something pulling him down and this time not letting him come up to the surface.

”Steve!”

”What the hell was that, man?!” Eddie called out in panic.

”Nancy, what the hell happend?!” Robin shouted.

Before Y/N knew it, she was standing up in the boat and taking a breath, prepared to jump after him.

”Wait, wait, wait.” Eddie took a hold of her arm, stopping her. ”You’re not going in there, are you?”

”You bet your ass I am.” Y/N said, pulling her arm away from his grip. ”Just wait here.”

Then she jumped in, hearing them calling out for her but she didn’t care. All she knew was that she had to help Steve.

When she pulled herself through the gate, she coughed and then she let her eyes searched for Steve and the sight she found made her heart stop.

Steve was on his back, some kind of bats biting him on his waist and stomach with one having a hold around his throat with is tail. Before she could think, she took a hold of a oar from the boat and hit the bats away from him.

”Hi there.” Y/N said before hitting the last one, trying to get it away from Steve’s throat and keep it from strangling him. But it sure was determined so when Eddie, Robin and Nancy she appeared she was more than thankful.

As the group fought the bats, Y/N could mostly only think of Steve and his injuries but she had to keep her head in the game. And then before she knew it, a bat got a hold of her back and put its claws into her flesh. She screamed and tried to get it off of her but with no luck.

”Y/N!” Nancy called out and acted on her instincts, trying to get the bat off of her and she managed to with the help of Robin before they managed to get it off of Steve as well.

When the bat was on the ground, being the last one left, Steve went up to it and took a hold of it’s tale. He banged the evil creature onto the ground once, twice and then put his foot onto its neck before pulling its head off.

He looked at it, breathing as he watched its dead body and then spitted out blood that had appeared in his mouth which was a sign of injuries inside of him. But that didn’t matter to him at the moment. All that mattered was Y/N.

”Oh my god Steve!” Y/N called out, running up to him before he had the chance to run up to her. ”Are you okay?”

Steve looked down at his waist where her hands were gently placed and let out a breath. ”Well they took about a pound of flesh.”

”Steve-” Y/N whispered, looking at his injuries in chock.

”But other than that, yeah never better.” Steve whispered and looked at her, their eyes connecting.

”Uh, do you think these bats have, like, rabies?” Robin stuttered out as she looked at one of the dead ones.

”What?”

”It’s just that rabies are, like, my number one greatest fear. And I think we should get you to a doctor like really soon because once symptoms set in, it’s too late. You’re already dead. ” Robin rambled on and the others just stared at her.

The sound of howl though made them turn around, looking at the sky where more bats appeared. Eddie, Nancy and Robin ran up to Steve and Y/N, them all now standing together.

”The woods!” Nancy called out. ”Come on!”

They all ran towards the woods, looking for shelter and they found a big rock where they could hide underneath as it was like a sort of cave.

”That was close.” Robin breathed out.

”Too close.” Eddie pointed out.

”Steve are you okay?” Y/N asked as they started to walk out of the cave slowly but she got no answer, all she heard was a thud. When she turned around, Steve was leaning against the rock wall with his head hanging low.

”Steve!” she quickly walked up to him and looking at his waist.

”I’m fine. I’m fine.” Steve repeated.

”No you’re not, you’re losing blood.” she stated and Nancy walked up to them, giving her a piece of her torn off clothing to use as a bandage. Better than nothing right?

”Thank you.” Y/N said softly while Steve almost fall down onto the ground while groaning in pain. Not showing all of it though. He didn’t want to worry her.

”So the good news is I’m pretty sure wooziness is not a symptom of rabies.” Robin started as she kneeled down next to them. ”

”Robin-” Y/N started but she continued to ramble on.

”But if you start having hallucinations or muscle spasms or you start feeling aggressive, like you wanna punch me, let me know.”

”Robin?” Steve whispered.

”Yeah?”

”I kind of wanna punch you.”

Both Y/N and Robin let’s out a small laugh at his response, though it quickly faded. ”Sense of humor’s still intact, that’s a good sign.”

”Okay, I’m going to wrap this around your waist to prevent blood loss. It’s going to hurt though.” Y/N whispered, looking into his eyes and he nodded at her.

As she began to wrap, he groaned out in pain again and put his hands behind his head while she continued to mumble out ’sorry’.

Being this close to him, in this kind of situation once again made her cheeks grew hot and her heartbeat quicken its pace. What she didn’t know though was that Steve felt the exact same things as she did and was scared that she would hear his heartbeat.

”Too right?” she whispered, looking up at him.

”No, that’s good.”

He then leaned back, resting his back against the wall once again and their eyes connected. He let his hand move up to her cheek and she closed her eyes at the touch.

”I-I thought-” she stuttered out.

”I know.” Steve whispered. ”I’m okay, you don’t have to worry about me. I’m not planning on dying just yet.”

•••

Steve walked next to Eddie in the Upside Down, the jeans jacket vest on his shoulders as he felt the blood still leaving his body underneath the bandaid that Nancy had made with some of her clothes. He was awfully quiet, for being Steve Harrington.

”You okay there, Harrington?” Eddie asked.

”Yeah.” Steve mumbled. ”I’m alright.”

”Those girls really care for you, one of them especially.” Eddie said, making Steve stop walking and look at him confused.

”Y/N, the girl over there that you can’t keep your eyes off of. ” Eddie said, pointing at her and leaning closer to Steve’s ear. ”She didn’t waste a second to go after you, not one second. She just dove right in.”

Steve stayed quiet, not knowing what to respond at Eddies words. Of course he knew that Y/N would always try to save him but to actually hear her do it, warmed his heart more than he could explain.

”I don’t know why something hasn’t happened between you two. But if I were you Harrington, I would get that girl. ’Cause that was as unambiguous sign of true love as these cynical eyes have ever seen.”

Steve just turned his attention to Y/N, watching her walk with Robin and Nancy, looking around them as they moved forward. Had he really been this blind? Did she really feel the same way as he did but just as scared to confess them as he was? He stayed quiet though as they kept on walking until they reached the Wheeler’s house.

”Y/N?” Steve said and grabbed her hand gently, making her turn to look at him. ”I need to talk to you.”

She nodded as he led her to the bathroom, closing the door behind them so they wouldn’t get interrupted.

”Is everything okay?” Y/N asked, letting her hands gently move to his waist and making sure the bandage was still intact. ”Does it hurt?”

”I love you.” Steve blurted out, making her look up at him with surprised eyes.

”W-What?” she managed to get out like a whisper as she stared into his beautiful eyes, his hands moving up to her cheeks to hold her face gently.

”I love you.” he whispered. ”I’ve loved you since the day I first met you. I’ve just been a coward for not having the guts to admit it.”

Y/N let her arms gently and carefully go around his waist, avoiding the wound on it and took a small step forward with a soft smile. ”I love you too.”

As soon as the words left her lips, Steve leaned down and let his lips touch hers. It was gentle at first, careful, almost like he was scared that she would disappear if he made the wrong more or seemed to eager. But all he wanted to do was show her how much he’s been wanting this, wanting her.

As they slowly pulled away, their forheads leaning gently against each other, Y/N smiled and opened her eyes. Steve though kept his eyes closed. ”Tell me this is real.”

”It’s real, Steve.” she whispered and connected their lips once again.

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come back to me [tommy]

Y/N stood in his living room, watching him pack up the last of his things with his military clothes on that she hated to see him in even though he looked incredibly good in them. Because everytime he had them on, she knew that there was a chance that she would never see him again.

Her arms were crossed over her chest with her hands gripping the sweater she was wearing, his sweater. Her eyes were filled with tears and she did her best at holding them back, she didn’t want to cry infront of him.

”That’s everything.” Tommy said, standing up straight and putting the bag over his shoulder before turning around.

He sighed slightly at the sight of his girlfriend and walked up to her, putting his hand on her cheek. ”Don’t cry.”

”I’m not.” Y/N replied and leaning into his touch, closing her eyes.

He leaned forward to rest his forhead against hers and closing his eyes. He hated to leave her, it was one of the hardest things he had to do but he knew he had no choice and she knew that too.

”Please come back to me.” she whispered and Tommy leaned down, connecting their lips in a soft and gentle kiss.

He knew he couldn’t promise her that he would, there was always a chance that the war would prevent him for keeping that promise by taking his life. That’s why he always stayed quiet when those words left her lips.

”I love you.” he whispered against her lips once they pulled away.

”I love you too.” Y/N whispered and kissed him again, this time with a bit more force as she wrapped her arms around his neck to pull him closer to her. She wasn’t ready for him to go, she wasn’t ready for the car that was supposed to soon pick him up pull up outside of their house.

Tommy put his bag down on the floor and let his hands rest on her waist as their lips moved together in perfect synch like they had always done.

The sound of a car on the driveway followed by a honking made the couple pull away from each other, their forheads resting gently against each other.

”I have to go.” Tommy whispered, feeling her body tense as the words left his lips. He hated this part of the job, the part of leaving the person he cared for the most.

Y/N pulled him closer and hid her face into his neck as his grip on her waist got tighter, neither of them wanting to let go but they knew they had too.

”I’ll see you soon, love.” Tommy whispered in her ear before pulling away, drying away one of her tears that was rolling down her cheek with his thumb.

Then he kissed her forhead before letting go of her body and reaching down to take his bag once again, putting it on his shoulder before he slowly walked towards the front door.

When he opened the door, he looked over his shoulder and gave her one last smile. ”I love you.”

She smiled at him, more tears now silently rolling down her cheeks. ”I love you too.”

Then, he walked out of their house and gently closed the door behind him. She wanted to see him get in the car and leave but everytime she tried to she would break down completely. So badly that she wasn’t able to breathe.

•••

Months went by and everytime someone knocked on the front door, Y/N panicked. She was so scared that when she opened the door, it would reveal soldiers from the navy that had arrived to deliver news about Tommy. So when the sound of a light knock on her door reached her ears, her body got tense as her eyes turned towards the door.

Slowly she stood up from her position on the couch and slowly walked towards the door, her heart beating faster with each step. Slowly she opened the door while letting out a breath and when she saw who it was.

”Tommy?” Y/N whispered, her body freezing up in shock at the sight of him.

”Hi pumpkin.” his voice was gentle and low, just above a whisper and a soft smile was planted on his face. He was wearing the same clothes he had left in though this time they were kind of dirty and so was his face. His eyes were the same, beautiful eyes that she loved expect this time they were filled with tears.

After the shock settling down, she jumped into his arms with her arms around his neck and legs around his waist. He immediately caught her and put his arms around her waist, holding her close to his body. He could feel her tears on his neck where she had hid her face and he did his best to soothe her.

”You came home.” she whispered and leaned her head back so she could look at him, resting her forhead against his before closing her eyes.

”Did you ever doubt I would?” Tommy answered back before connecting his lips with hers in a gentle and passionate kiss.

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and everything is peaceful, love.

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FINALLY (n.nelson)

summary; the night before Nick goes to UNI, Y/N finally decides to come clean about something that she had been keeping to herself for oh so many years.

•••

Y/N was currently helping one of her best friends, Nick to pack away the last of his things as he was going away to UNI early tomorrow. She was not prepared to be without him, sure she would still have Charlie and the others in the group but it would not be the same without Nick.

”Y/N, are you okay?” Nick asked, making her look up from putting his photos from the wall into a small box. Her eyes met his and he looked worried.

”Yeah of course.” she smiled at him, it was forced but hoped that he wouldn’t notice it.

”Are you sure?” he walked towards her as he spoke and stopped once he stood in front of her, letting his hand move up to her cheek. ”You haven’t talked much since you got here.”

She leaned into his touch, her heart aching as she knew this would be the last time she would feel it. At least for a while.

”I’m just…” she started but stopped herself, biting her lip lightly.

”Just what?” Nick whispered, his eyes staring into hers filled with worry and searching for some kind of emotion in hers so that he could understand what she was trying to say.

”I’m gonna miss you so much, Nick. The thought of you not being here, hurts.”

”Y/N…” he started ”I’m going to miss you so much.” He pulled her into his arms, holding her close to him and not wanting to let go. She took a grip on his grey sweater, afraid of letting him go.

Y/N heart started to beat faster, as she tried to find the courage to open up to Nick about something that she had been keeping to herself for so long. It was funny actually, everyone knew about it but Nick. Their friends used to joke about him being blind and him being the dork he is, never understood what they meant. She wanted him to know though, before he left, if not she would never forgive herself.

She buried herself in his shirt, taking a deep breath and then she pulled back, looking at him with their arms still wrapped around each other.

”Nick?” at her words he looked down at her, giving her a gentle smile that always drove her crazy. Their eyes stayed connected the whole time as he waited for her to continue.

”I have to tell you something.”

”Okay” he nodded and they let go of each other, both of them instead sitting down on his bed next to each other and their shoulders brushing against each other from time to time.

”I’ve wanted to tell you this for so long but then it seemed like you and Charlie was starting something so I stayed quiet. Then nothing between you two happend and I have been debating if I should tell you or not but now you’re going to UNI and I…” she was rambeling, not even breathing as she spoke and Nick took a hold of her hand.

”Slow down, Y/N.” he chuckled as he spoke. He couldn’t help himself, he always found her adorable when she rambled on about something. He could watch it forever. ”What is it that you want to tell me?”

She took a deep breath, looking into his eyes and this was the moment she had been waiting for. The moment she at the same time had feared, the chance of him rejecting her was big. Well big in her opinion, everyone else had always told her that he felt the same way back. She had a hard time to believe it though.

”I Iove you.” she blurted out, her cheeks growing pink and hot as the words left her lips. It was like the room was filled with the words, like they were flying around them and getting bigger with each movement. Nick though, stayed quiet for a moment. His eyes showing how surprised he was at her confession. Then after what felt like hours for Y/N, a smile crept up on his face.

”You do?” he asked and Y/N nodded, not being able to speak. She wanted to run away from there, even though he was smiling she was just waiting for the rejection.

But the rejection didn’t come, instead he leaned forward to rest his forhead against hers and both of his hands moving up to her cheeks. She closed her eyes at the touch, her breathing slow as she was slowly calming down.

”I love you too.” he whispered and before she could react, he put his lips onto hers. She was surprised at first but then she leaned into the kiss. It was soft and gentle, sending shivers down her whole body and she once again gripped his sweater tightly. As they broke apart to catch their breath, they both opened their eyes and he was smiling at her.

”I’ve wanted to do that for so long.” Nick admitted and Y/N smiled, pulling him into another kiss. This time though it wasn’t slow but not rushed either. It was passionate and she let her hands move up to his hair, pulling him closer to her if that was possible and he moved his hands to her waist. Their lips fitted perfectly and moved together like they were meant to be put together.

Y/N moved herself to sit on Nick’s lap, their lips never breaking apart and he leaned his back against his headbord. As they slowly pulled apart to catch their breath once again, Y/N pulled back slightly to look at him and he was looking at her already, taking in her beautiful features.

”I should’ ve told you earlier.” Y/N whispered, her hands still in his hair. ”You’re leaving tomorrow.”

”I feel the same, but you had the courage to at least say it. One of us finally had the courage. And yes I’m leaving tomorrow but I’m only four hours away.”

”What do you mean?”

”I’m for long distance if you are.” he smiled and moved some of her hair out of her face. She smiled and leaned in to meet his lips once again before whispering ”of course.

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secrets // winter

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