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KIND

The power of words

The strength of a smile

Acknowledging presence

Sitting for a while

The touch of a hand

A laugh at a joke

Helping a stranger

Sharing a look

With simple kindness

Anyone can be

A saviour, a friend,

Help someone be seen.

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STUCK

I don't say goodbye cause you can't.

I can't say goodbye cause you don't.

Stuck in memories of all that could be,

Yet forever aware that it won't.

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I'm in your arms every night,

But for some reason you're never there.

Clutching onto hope that's not real,

Wishing if only I dare.

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Stolen kisses linger the longest,

Or was it only a dream.

Better to have known these feelings,

In my head though it would seem.

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You may well be my downfall,

Stuck deep in this abyss.

Oh the anguish of being in love,

With an idea and a near miss.

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Regretting days that never were,

Unashamed of all I've felt.

Too comfortable in your warming gaze,

But I take the cards I'm dealt.

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Stuck here in this thought of you,

At night it keeps me warm.

Trapped by my own admission,

In this lie and truth I'm torn.

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I don't say goodbye when you leave,

I can't say goodbye at the door.

Still waiting on the sidelines,

Silently hoping just for more.

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HOLDING OUT

Your anger builds inside you,

Until you finally scream.

I can't relieve your pain,

When I can't be on your team.

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You push and push for answers,

But never say your truth.

You reminisce in the past,

So focused on your youth.

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You lead a path to nowhere,

Never owning your mistakes.

Blame everyone around you,

Ignoring all the stakes.

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Absorbing all my energy,

Disregarding all I do.

Ungrateful, unforgiving,

With focus just on you.

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I see the hate in your eyes,

I feel it in your stare.

I can't ignore the undertone,

Yet how can this be fair?

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Where did my lover run to,

Why did they disappear?

How did the magic fade away,

Love replaced by fear.

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I stumble on the cracks,

And keep out of the way.

Stay silent through the screaming,

With nothing left to say.

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Sparkle turns to dust,

The storm has settled in.

Holding out in hope,

But will your anger win...

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DARKNESS

The darkness gives me comfort,

When daylight pounds my head.

The mystery of nothing,

My deepest dreams well fed.

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Possibilities are endless,

When the future can't be found.

All my senses come alive,

Silence is the only sound.

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For what is in the shadows,

No one knows it seems.

I hold your hand behind the light,

So my heart is full in dreams.

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The stars shine with their brightest,

And guide the way ahead.

So far and never constant,

I struggle with their dread.

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The darkness gives me comfort,

As time ticks by so fast.

The mystery of nothing,

But nothing really lasts.

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Miss you Dad

Time now stands between us, a clear line in the sand.

Crying out for comfort, I cannot find your hand.

I replay your message, so I can hear your voice.

Breaks my heart in pieces, but still I have no choice.

It's hard to imagine, I won't see you again.

Taken from me early, I cannot fight this pain.

Focusing on good times, the love, the hugs and laughs.

Lessons that I'll follow, you're with me on my paths.

Then right out of nowhere, remembering you're gone.

I won't hug you again, my mending heart re-torn.

I look in the mirror, and see your eyes in mine.

My tears, they come slowly, I only want more time.

You knew that we loved you, we knew that you had tried.

So while you were sleeping, we softly said goodbye.

Father and friend to me, a strength I could depend.

Carrying you with me, proudly until my end.

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Fragile

I'll go away when you ask me. I close both my eyes when you call.

I don't remember the impact. But I have flashbacks to my fall.

I'm stuck right between decisions. That are unimportant to me.

A person on a random train. Escaping my reality.

I'd forgotten I was fragile. Without my armour I'm a mess.

I'm a poor hopeless romantic. But I bet you'd have never guessed.

Now I pull into my station. While the rain it begins to pound.

You hand me your black umbrella. I walk passed and don't make a sound.

An unforgettable moment. So painful and now I feel free.

Yet the uncomfortable truth is, You got that umbrella from me.

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My heart can lie

Do you love me now I have given in? Now that your words provoked my sin?

I've lost you, I'm empty. Lost at sea. Love trapped forever in a sweet memory.

Elaborate tales and romantic fires, Described as moments of weakness and lies.

Left with a nothing so full of meaning. These illusions of eternity keep eluding.

My mind can't state my state of mind. My least favourite you is all I can find.

I gaze above at the blackened sky. Aware at last that my heart can lie.

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INDECISIVE I DECIDE

Two sides to every story. Or shall we flip a coin. We're halves to a whole. You give then you recoil.

A beginning and an end. A good and evil war. Like Yin is to Yang. A closed and opened door.

Two paths stand before me. But is it left or is it right? I'm neither young or old. Peacefully ready for a fight.

I could be right or wrong. Do I remember or forget? Flying high while I fall. Is this life or is it death?

In silence I hear music. While dancing I stand still. I find lies in your truths. Is this my fate or just my will?

My thoughts race in slow motion. I feel alone in this crowd. Distraction leads to clarity. Am I brave or just a coward.

Is ignorance my power? Is courage my demise? My eyes open in darkness. My lows are still my highs.

I find what I'm not looking for. I stay but choose to go. Perfection or disaster? Yet I don't know what I know.

I am sad yet feeling happy. Is this love or is this hate? Am I blind to what I see here? I'll leave unless I wait.

So backwards I go forward. I find and lose my mind. I give but am so empty. It's all painfully kind.

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Wait for cards to fall

I’m sorry I messed with your mind. I know I fucked with your head. I didn’t mean to steal your time or invite you into my bed. My mind it doesn’t listen, to what I have to say. It has its’ own opinion and changes day to day. You tricked me into falling, without a promise or a lie. You whispered in my ear and now I pay for what I buy. Ignorant of motives and blind to what I see. I didn’t think of consequence. I only thought of me. I’m sorry for the dreams I had, and words I spoke to you. I don’t regret. I hope to learn. Yet determined to be true. I can’t predict the future, although I’ll often try. I can’t make any promises but will continue to ask why. I only have one life to live and will fight to have it all. Now I volunteer to back away while I wait for cards to fall.

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My stolen enemy

Enough. I have had enough. Afraid of all these thoughts. Too close to falling in love with you.

Empty. You’ve left me empty. Dreading my own feelings. I’ve watched my heart turn inside out.

Alone. For once so alone. How did you get under my skin? I don’t remember how or when.

Waiting. You see me waiting. For moments that may never come. So you push me far from sight and sound.

Nothing. My faith in nothing. Just silent intimate moments. I’ll win this battle against my stolen enemy.

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Somewhere here

Do I sacrifice love for an independent life? Or escape the torment under that knife.

To experience 'love', and truly know. Compromising my needs, letting things go.

I'm not made that way, and neither are you. Open your eyes to what you know is true.

Blindly we trust in our hearts not minds. Yet aren't we alone at the end of the line?

I hold your hand. I kiss you goodbye. Yet who tells the truth. Who tells the lie.

It's lonely and cold. Yes, sometimes I fear. But it's honest and real, somewhere here.

I do like the sound of my lonely fate. Or am I convinced I just have to wait?

Do I sacrifice me for this life as us? Or accept my fate, and ignore my lust.

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Every tale

I want to know all your secrets. I want to keep them safe. I want to know your story. Every tale. Every moment that defined you. The hurt. The love. Your joy. Your sorrow. I want to feel it all as you did. I have never wanted to know someone more then I want to know you. And I have no idea why. And no idea how.

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Inspiration to be free

Where do you get courage, to be exactly who you are. Without fear you live your life, leaving regret at the door. You hypnotize strangers, while chasing rainbows and stars. No care for the future, content playing truth or dares. The wind it just takes you, to the places in your dreams. Never alone in the dark, but in light to be seen. You treat every moment, like it was meant to be. No consequence or worry, inspiration to be free.

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Something

My mistakes don't define who I am. But here I am making them again. I keep getting pulled back in by you. By your truths, by your eyes, by your soul. Sometimes I just need to see you smile. I guess that's why I can't let you go. Out of nowhere, everything made sense. I'd been waiting so long for nothing. At last, I'd heard a song worth singing. I'd found something that was always there. A love I could never call my own. Feelings my soul could never forget. All those things I love most about you. Are attributes that drive us apart. I need to wash you away, some day. One day, something will have to change. For now, it's enough that you just exist. Far from my reach, close enough to touch.

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Where the wind will blow

I cry out for existence I scream but you don't see All I need is you. And all you need is me.

I curl up in a ball I hide from prying eyes. You cannot hide away. No matter your disguise.

Your eyes tell a story. Of all the lies you told. Your eyes tell the truth. Of all that you stole.

I mean what I say. I say what I know. You hide in your words. Don't know what you know.

I can't feel you near. Can't hold you so. I'll sail with the tide. Where the winds will blow.

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Nowhere left to hide

Do I control my feelings, and if so for how long? In every stolen second, so much it could go wrong.

With every interaction, I'm left here wanting more. My usual distractions, they fall straight to the floor.

I'm lost in my sanity, there's flooding through my mind. My thoughts they seem to run to you, every chance they find.

The more I am around you, our gravity it grows. My heart beating fast, while every cell within me slows.

How is it that I feel all this? Just how can this be? How do you have power, over every part of me?

These feelings they are not just lust and nor are they love. This road is not my destiny nor from up above.

A natural occurrence, a stormy night at sea. I just see the real you, and somehow you see me.

I don't really understand this and nor will I try. I can't say that I am smiling but know I won't cry.

Pandora's box is open and now I see inside. Nowhere left to run and I have nowhere left to hide.

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What am I supposed to do

How many take my steps each day? Why do we think it's all ok? It isn't and will never be. Why can't everybody see?

How, do we make the same mistakes? Why do we always raise the stakes? Nothing matters, nothing ever will. Silent moments, time is standing still.

Why didn't I see you standing there? How on earth did I catch your glare? I didn't mean to startle you. To be honest I just had no clue.

Why wouldn't I try to forget? How come I can't beat regret? I didn't mean to fall for you. But what am I supposed to do.