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To Carmen with love from Las Vegas.

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whenever im lost and confused i turn to michael for help

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I think they're going to take me off of the topamax tomorrow because the side effects have been a bit alarming. I'm feeling really defeated. I dont know if I can be fixed at this point.

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Working list of things that make me feel better when I'm down that dont include alcohol because my therapist said to

Nice smelling things, incense, candles, perfume etc

Being in water (baths, hottubs, pools, rivers)

Animals I can pet, especially dogs

Listening to sad music and indulging in the sadness

Beds, hammocks, lounge chairs

Little bits of luxury, like a fancy meal/fine dining

Being comfortable but outside/lounging

Physical touch, massages and cuddling (sometimes)

Sex, porn, erotica and masturbation

Safe and controlled forms of physical pain via BDSM / rough sex

Safe forms of risk, like changing physical appearance, taking scandalous selfies, having fun/creative sex

Reading and writing poetry

Guided meditations

Zoning out to YouTube videos or Netflix

This list is a work in progress

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Weight loss

I gained quite a bit of weight from my foot injury and surgery, and have been suffering from lots of self image issues and depression because of it. I've always struggled with weight because of thyroid and hormone issues, but right now I'm at my highest weight ever. Its may 15th and my doctor wants me to start Topamax to help lose weight and manage bipolar. I'm hesitant to start it because I love to drink and you cant have alcohol while on it. Need to cancel my wine club memberships. I love drinking, but something needs to change because I'm literally suicidal as is.

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Documenting my medical journey here

Get ready for some TMI

I'm a 29 year old intersex person struggling to manage a severe foot injury, bipolar disorder, hormone imbalances and obesity. This blog is going to document my medical journey, medications, and effort to become a more healthy human.

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Feminist documentaries you need to see right now:

1. RBG: A documentary about the magnificent supreme court justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg, her life and impact on women’s rights in America. (She basically carried us on her backs for decades without any sort of acknowledgement, so we at least owe it to her to watch her documentary) You can find it on HULU.

2. She’s Beautiful When She’s Angry: A documentary about some of the most iconic women in the feminist movement from the 60’s-80’s. Very personable and emotional. You can find it on NETFLIX.

3. Seeing Allred: A documentary about Gloria Allred, a powerful attorney known for representing victims in high-profile sexual assault cases (like Bill Cosby’s case) as well as gender discrimination cases. She’s been called insane by anti-feminists for decades, but they’re also scared of her. Very cool. You can watch it on NETFLIX.

4. 12th & Delaware: A documentary following an abortion clinic and crisis pregnancy center located on the same corner in Florida. Honestly, this had me on the edge of my seat. It’s very gut-wrenching to see how far the anti-abortion protestors go to stop women seeking care, and how far the abortion clinic will go to help those women. One of my favorite movies. You can find it on HBO, HBONOW.

5. Reversing Roe: A documentary on the dwindling abortion and reproductive rights in the United States. Fair warning: it’ll give you [more] nightmares about our current political state. You can check it out on NETFLIX.

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Girls hit your hallelujah 

Girls hit your hallelujah

GIRLS HIT YOUR HALLELUJAH 

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For future reference.

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Feeling pretty disenchanted today

Send me some love

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Words to replace said, except this actually helps

I got pretty fed up with looking for words to replace said because they weren’t sorted in a way I could easily use/find them for the right time. So I did some myself.

IN RESPONSE TO Acknowledged Answered Protested

INPUT/JOIN CONVERSATION/ASK Added Implored Inquired Insisted Proposed Queried Questioned Recommended Testified

GUILTY/RELUCTANCE/SORRY Admitted Apologized Conceded Confessed Professed

FOR SOMEONE ELSE Advised Criticized Suggested

JUST CHECKING Affirmed Agreed Alleged Confirmed

LOUD Announced Chanted Crowed

LEWD/CUTE/SECRET SPY FEEL Appealed Disclosed Moaned

ANGRY FUCK OFF MATE WANNA FIGHT Argued Barked Challenged Cursed Fumed Growled Hissed Roared Swore

SMARTASS Articulated Asserted Assured Avowed Claimed Commanded Cross-examined Demanded Digressed Directed Foretold Instructed Interrupted Predicted Proclaimed Quoted Theorized

ASSHOLE Bellowed Boasted Bragged

NERVOUS TRAINWRECK Babbled Bawled Mumbled Sputtered Stammered Stuttered

SUAVE MOTHERFUCKER Bargained Divulged Disclosed Exhorted

FIRST OFF Began

LASTLY Concluded Concurred

WEAK PUSY Begged Blurted Complained Cried Faltered Fretted

HAPPY/LOL Cajoled Exclaimed Gushed Jested Joked Laughed

WEIRDLY HAPPY/EXCITED Extolled Jabbered Raved

BRUH, CHILL Cautioned Warned

ACTUALLY, YOU’RE WRONG Chided Contended Corrected Countered Debated Elaborated Objected Ranted Retorted

CHILL SAVAGE Commented Continued Observed Surmised

LISTEN BUDDY Enunciated Explained Elaborated Hinted Implied Lectured Reiterated Recited Reminded Stressed

BRUH I NEED U AND U NEED ME Confided Offered Urged

FINE Consented Decided

TOO EMO FULL OF EMOTIONS Croaked Lamented Pledged Sobbed Sympathized Wailed Whimpered

JUST SAYING Declared Decreed Mentioned Noted Pointed out Postulated Speculated Stated Told Vouched

WASN’T ME Denied Lied

EVIL SMARTASS Dictated Equivocated Ordered Reprimanded Threatened

BORED Droned Sighed

SHHHH IT’S QUIET TIME Echoed Mumbled Murmured Muttered Uttered Whispered

DRAMA QUEEN Exaggerated Panted Pleaded Prayed Preached

OH SHIT Gasped Marveled Screamed Screeched Shouted Shrieked Yelped Yelled

ANNOYED Grumbled Grunted Jeered Quipped Scolded Snapped Snarled Sneered

ANNOYING Nagged

I DON’T REALLY CARE BUT WHATEVER Guessed Ventured

I’M DRUNK OR JUST BEING WEIRDLY EXPRESSIVE FOR A POINT/SARCASM Hooted Howled Yowled

I WONDER Pondered Voiced Wondered

OH, YEAH, WHOOPS Recalled Recited Remembered

SURPRISE BITCH Revealed

IT SEEMS FAKE BUT OKAY/HA ACTUALLY FUNNY BUT I DON’T WANT TO LAUGH OUT LOUD Scoffed Snickered Snorted

BITCHY Tattled Taunted Teased

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Straight-laced 4.0 home before midnight 2017 me misses drunk in some parking lot street-rat 2011 me

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Plus-size master list

Me and @fluffyybabe decided to do a big list of plus size websites, there is a mix of UK, Australian and American/etc  websites. Feel free to add more onto our list, no doubt we’ve left off a few plus size sites! Some of these websites are a little pricey, just a warning.

A-

Asos Curve

Avenue

Asda

Amazon

Anna Scholz

Ashley Stewart

Attitude Clothings

Adoreme

Ann Summers

Alice & You

Additions Elle

B- 

Boohoo

Bravissimo

Black Cat Bikinis 

Big Smalls

Becca Etc 

Buxom

Beth Ditto

Bon Prix

Blame Betty

Bones Lingerie

Big Gals Lingerie

C- 

Chubby Cartwheels

Curvissa

Chic and Curvy

Carmakoma

City Chic

Collectif

Curvy Kate

Copper Union

Charlotte Russe

ChicStar

Curvaceous Beautys

Chi Chi

Catherines

Christian Ome’Shun

Cherry Velvet

Cabiria

Candy Strike

Curvy Girl Inc

D- 

Deb

Dorothy Perkins

Debenhams

Dirty Dolls Lingerie

Dream Diva

E-

Eloquii

Evans

Eshakti

Embody Denim

F-

Forever 21

Fashion to Figure

FiftyPlus

Fashion World

Fig Leaves

Fullbeauty

Freemans

Feminine Funk

G- 

Gs Love

G World Plus size 

H-

H&M

Hips and Curves

Holy Clothing 

House Of Fraiser 

Hissyfit

Harlow

I -

Igigi

J- 

Josephine Swim

Just my Size 

Jibri

Joe Browns

Jacamo

John Lewis

JcPenneys

K- 

Killstar

Kiyonna

Kohls

L- 

Lane Bryant

Love Honey

Lovedrobe

Littlewoods

Lala Belle

Leg Avenue

Little Mistress

Liesl Binx

M-

Marisota

Mod cloth

Monif C

Marks and Spencers

Mode Merr

MandCo

My Tights

Mango

My Size

Misguided

Mynt1792

Matalan

Myers

Making It Big

ModDeals

N- 

Nakimuli

New Look Inspire 

Navabi

North Face 

Nordstrom

Next

Neon Moon

Nasty Dress

O-

Old Navy

OneOneThree

Overstock

P- 

Poshshoppe 

Plus Cutie

Pin Up clothing

Pink Clove

R- 

Redress

Ready To Stare 

Rue107

Rue21

Rainbow

S -

Sick For Cute

Simply Be

SWAK Designs 

Sock Dreams

Stop Staring

Select

ShopStyle

Soft Kitty Clothing

Smart Clothing

Shavonne Dorsey

Size Queen Clothing

Shop Majour

T- 

Torrid

Taking Shape 

Target

Tkmax

Tadashi Shoji

U- 

UllaPopken

V- 

Very

W-

Wetseal

WitchWorldWide

Women Within

Walmart

Y -

Yours Clothing

Yandy

Z

Zalando

Z By ZEVARRA

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My baby Midgey!

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as we all know, the best vines are the ones with dogs. here’s a bunch of doggy vines!!!!!!

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