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I think I might start posting some of my older fics on here. A few of them are still on my old blog and I kinda wanna keep everything in one place..

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Guarded - ch. 16: tipped balance

links to chapters in masterlist on pinned post ♡

Pairing: Sevika x female reader

Warnings: none

Summary: Things have been peaceful for you, as far as one can live peacefully in Zaun. Recently, you and Sevika made it official. But she seems troubled, worried about things beyond the control of both of you. Sometimes, you feel as if all that you’ve built in recent times might come crashing down at a moment's notice. But you persist, and so does Sevika. Where will your journey take you?

Word count: 680

Notes: Hey there, it’s been a while. Remember when I promised I’d finish this fic? Yeah, I haven’t forgotten. I’m just slow.

Quick little life update. (I guess I already talked about this in my last posts, this is copy pasted from AO3) It's been treating me with ups and downs. Long story short, things when to shit at my job but after putting up with a lot of bullshit, anxiety and uncertainty I’m once again in a good place. I also got into an actual real life relationship and I couldn’t be happier with them. They've really changed my life for the better <3 as a result I did lose a lot of interest in fic writing but this series is so special to me, I’m gonna finish it one day, hopefully soon. Please enjoy this slightly shorter chapter as I work on finishing the last chapters of this series.

“Over here.”

You look around you, but don’t see anyone. You’re in a dark place. Alone, with nothing but faint lights from an invisible source and a disembodied voice to guide you.

“Come here..”

This feels familiar. You’ve been here before. Not in this room, but this place. This.. scenario. You start walking, trying to follow the direction of the voice. A familiar, warm yet commanding voice that you know all too well by now. Instinct tells you to follow it.

“There you go..”

But something doesn’t feel quite right. You’ve followed the voice and are standing right in front of where you expect someone to be. But there isn’t anyone. You’re alone.

“Wait..”

Her voice has changed, but you still can’t see her. The friendly, warm tone making way for something much less familiar, and therefore, much scarier.

“You aren’t..”

Fear.

She’s afraid. She’s never afraid. And of what? Or.. who?

“You aren’t safe here.”

You see her metal arm shoot out from the darkness, reaching out for you. But she misses, and you fall. Down into the void. Darkness surrounds you, terrified screams echoing from some place far away. The screams slowly morph into the sound of rushing water, and suddenly you’re falling down a waterfall. Sickeningly pink shimmer-stained water that tastes like cough syrup and smoke and fire fills your lungs as you gasp for air. You feel the metal of Sevika’s mechanical hand around your throat, but you can't tell whether she’s trying to push your under or pull you out. As your vision starts to darken, you’re suddenly out of the toxic water and on your back.

A large figure looms over you, their shape outlined by a brightly lit sky. They say nothing, you cannot see their face. Did they save you? Are you safe now?

“Sevika?” you whisper through labored breaths.

The looming figure stays quiet.

It’s not her.

Then darkness. Nothing.

…

You gasped loudly as you awakened, your hair stuck to your forehead and the sheets damp from your cold sweat. A dream. It had all been a dream. No, a nightmare. And a horrible one at that. You instinctively reached over beside you, expecting the warm, safe presence of Sevika beside you that you had gotten so used to over the past few weeks. But she wasn’t there. In her place was a note, neatly left on top of her pillow.

You let yourself fall down onto the bed again. Just a nightmare. Just. A nightmare. You tried to comfort yourself in lieu of your girlfriend, your rock, who never seemed too bothered by your nightmares but never hesitated to hold you in order to tell you that you were safe. She’d keep you safe.

Things between you hadn’t changed after you’d made it official. But things around you did. Zaun was restless, crime was spiking and Piltover officials kept putting their noses where they didn’t belong. Sevika and you both knew something was wrong, but you didn’t know what. Or maybe she knew more than she was letting on and was keeping the truth from you in a feeble attempt at keeping you safe.

You sighed, the panic from the nightmare slowly subsiding until you felt calm enough to start your day. Even though it was still early, Sevika had seemingly gotten up before you and left without ever waking you. What was she doing up so early? Would she be staying out late again? She’d been doing that a lot lately, waking up way early and staying out late. Sometimes she wouldn’t come home at all. Your mind filled with worries and doubt, you wished she was just here to hold you right now. To tell you everything would be alright. You reached over and grabbed her note from the pillow beside you, checking if there was any residual heat from her body left as a quiet reminder of her in the sheets, but there was none.

“Had to leave early again. Won’t be back on time for dinner.

 I promise we’ll sleep in again one of these days. Looking forward to it.”

 - S

Notes: well, that was kinda depressing.

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Gonna drop a new chapter of Guarded very very soon (⁠・⁠∀⁠・⁠)

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Marathoned a show with a friend tonight and felt compelled to make this

Hope this clears things up

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Oh sweet sevika

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hi Cass, hope everything is ok <3

Hi kind anon, yes I am ok <3 thank you for checking in!

I made a post explaining where I've been lately.

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missing u hours :(((

hope ur doing well!!!!!

To know that I've been missed.. ugh, too kind anon. <3

I've been doing well, I hope you have been too! I just made a post explaining where I've been.

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Hey boo everything okay? You disappeared here!!! Hope everything is fine :33

Your timing is amazing, how did you know I was gonna post on here less than 24 hours from now? Was it the chapter I posted on AO3 recently?

Thank you for checking in, I'm doing well 💜 How have you been?

I just made a post explaining where I've been. TLDR: job took a lot of time and energy and I got into a relationship. It's been an exciting time for me, but my interest in fanfic type content has decreased a lot.

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I was gonna just drop a new fic like WHADDUP BITCHES IM BACK but I'm just now seeing that people have been leaving messages on anon asking where I've been and I just-

(I just wrote a really long heartfelt paragraph and tumblr just deleted it all. PAIN.)

Thank you to the people who have been leaving messages, it's really nice to know strangers on the internet can and will care about you. <3

so let me elaborate..

So about where I've been. First of all: I'm fine, I'm totally fine. My reasons for leaving have been positive ones. One of the reasons for my absence has been my job. It was a really fun, fulfilling job which took a lot of time and effort, but that left me with less energy to write. Currently I'm taking a bit of a forced break from that job. Luckily I'm in a safe and stable situation, so I'm making the best of my break by catching up on life stuff. That includes revisiting my writting hobby, so hi!

The other reason for my absence has been that I got into my first ever serious relationship. So far it's been amazing, experiencing romantic love has been a long time dream of mine. My S/O makes me so happy and I feel like such a lucky gal every second I spend with them. <3

The downside (mostly for you guys) is that my new relationship has drastically reduced my interest in writing. Drawing, writing and fantazising have been some of my biggest coping mechanisms for as long as I can remember. Now that I finally feel fulfilled in the romantic/sexual love department, I no longer feel such a strong urge to create and consume content regarding it. Which I, to be perfectly honest, kind of expected.

Does that mean that I've stopped writing? Or that I'll permanently leave the community? No, probably not, because I get overly attached to my hobbies and find it extremely hard to let go of these things. But I've already taken a big step back and I don't see things going back to the way they used to be for me on this platform. At least not until season 2 of Arcane comes out.

TLDR: got a job (but currently taking a break), got a S/O, lost energy and interest in consuming and creating fanfic type content. I am fine. I am not gonna stop writing permanently. I am gonna continue to be less active for above reasons.

I am gonna write a new short fic and finish writing Guarded. That is something I really wanna do, regardless of above reasons.

Thanks for reading all this, if you have. Love, Cat 💜

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no-purpose flour

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gay af to be a spy. whose cover are you blowing 🤨

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collection of art wisdom

sources: 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5

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can everyone reblog with the interest of theirs that was the most intense or continued for the longest because i’m so curious

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So um hi like I was saying-

Sorry for disappearing. It will happen again. Turns out I'm that annoying person who vanishes the second they start dating someone