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a desperate attempt to grasp at the void

hi, my name is cole hunter

im a 19 year old trans woman from north carolina

growing up, my father left when i was 11. my mother died when i was 16. i was taken in by other family members where i was subjected to years of emotional abuse. i was kicked out and disowned. then, i was met with more physical and emotional abuse by the hands of my roommates and landlords.

all my life i've wanted to be a musician. i started releasing music under the name dj deadhorses, but none of it contained my voice. when i release music with my singing or rapping on it, it feels like im fulfilling the wishes of my younger self. all ive ever wanted was to be a successful artist. i record everything myself, mix everything myself, do all the cover art, and i make every single beat. i've spent 7 years working on my craft and i've made thousands of songs. all in the attempt to make myself into the artist ive always seen myself as.

as of writing this im incredibly poor. ive been poor my whole life, but now im on my own. i have no support system, and my family has disowned me. i cant afford basic things like rent or food, regardless of trying to afford something like college. my struggles with mental illness have felt seemingly endless, especially after the passing of my mother. she was the most amazing person in the world to me. every day is a struggle to wake up, and i suffer from ptsd, manic depression, and extreme panic disorder. i can't afford treatment.

please, if someone out there is reading this, help me make my dreams come true. i desperately want to be a singer and help other people going through things that ive been through. i dont know how to kickstart a music career, and after years and years of trying it still feels like im stuck in the dirt. if you care about something like this, please check out a song or two. please reblog this, or post a song of mine somewhere. i desperately need help now. i cant afford to live like this much longer, and all i want is for my dream to come true.

i hope this finds u well, whoever u are. i love you.

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