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[cephalofille]

yeah I know I haven't been drawing much, but that's because my personal and work life are complicated in these moments.

And I'd like to offer you art, and especially quality rather than quantity.

So this month I started doing a "week art challenge" (finishing at least one illustration every week) because that's all I can afford right now.

I hope you won't blame me, or forget me just because I don't draw as often as I did when I was a lot younger, like when I teen. I had a calmer life back then... Now I'm an adult have a more haphazard and chaotic life.

So, this week's drawing is Princess Rosalina (Harmonie in french version) as a mermaid because, well... there's no better way to create fan art than to turn everyone into a mermaid right! Dedicated to her fans with love!

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Oui je sais, je n'ai pas beaucoup dessiné, mais c'est parce que ma vie personelle et au boulot c'est compliquée. Mais j'aimerais vous offrir de l'art, et surtout de la qualité plutôt que de la quantité.

Alors me suis mis a faire un "week art challenge" (finir un dessin chaque semaine) parce que c'est tout ce que je peux me permettre en ce moment.

J'espère que vous ne m'oublierez pas juste parce que je ne dessine pas aussi souvent que quand j'étais ado. C'était une vie plus calme à l'époque...Maintenant j'ai une vie plus hasardeuse et chaotique.

Hé alors les potes, le dessin de la semaine cette fois c'est la princesse Harmonie, en sirène parce que bon...il n'a pas de plus beau pour faire un fanart que de tourner tout le monde en sirène ! Dédié à ses fans avec amour

[cephalofille]

Freedom the french class!!!

Y'know, No day goes by without one of my students asking me how to curse in french.

And then they feel amazed to realize there are so many expressions for that in french, and that all phrases sound like the most beautiful and wonderful thing in the world! 😂

I just can't get people's fixation on swear words in general 😂 And tecnically I'm not allowed to teach that on the school/colleges I've been worked on…but I do it anyways heheheh

Why?

But not cos I like to teach curses. But mostly because in most of french schools and academies, swear words are a taboo. (and also words who are sex and private body parts related...but nobody have asked me about those XD) And, as I always say, taboo has no place in the classroom when you're learning a new language😃 Taboo in languages learning shouldn't exist, in general, cos it spoils people's innate curiosity and thirst for learning.

[cephalofille]

Today I have stuff to share, something I drew back on september of last year. Isn't something like "super extraordinary" but it's been drawn with a lot of love...Voilà Polochon! :D (curious fact, that's the french name for flounder heheh)

Flounder is such a sweet, fun and compasionate character! It's because of that he have always been one of my favorites among all disney characters. But he's sadly, also a very underrated and unappreciated character.

I dunno why I've never drawn decent fanart of him if he's among my most favorite characters, but I'll try to mend it by doing more art of him,

[cephalofille]

The pain of my soul in HD: the more I try the less success I have I feel

I feel like the more I try, the more I struggle to keep motivated to reach my goals, the less I can do the artwork I'd like to do, folks.

For me making art was never difficult, the inspiration to make my art was something that came from my soul!

It was a flame that used to shine brightly, and gused forth fiercely and spectacularly, like lava from a volcano, in the form of art.

But I no longer have it....

I feel like that inspiration for me to do art it's gone from my heart since the that fateful day I met...

....une certaine personne...

.....mon ex-petit copain, qui a ruiné ma vie....

It's the end of the semester for my students whom I teach French classes to, and I've been busy reviewing assignments and putting in grades on them. Giving my students one by one, some personal notes where I give them feedback about their works, what they've done good and what I'd suggest to them to improve their french and learn faster.

I posted a tiktok about my cat, taking the chance he was being quite, cos I thought it was cute and people were going to like it, and that would help to cheer me up a bit today, but it wasn't popular.

For the rest of the day, I helped my mom doing house chores and I made meal. Then we ate together, and I started to tell her about my school and how my students are doing, because I wanted to hang out with her, but she didn't pay attention to me.

She was very busy with her cellphone, sending tex messages to talk to my sister, to my brother, to the landlord, to her neighbor and friend...with everybody but me. Plus! she was worried that about my sister and her baby. Since she got pregnant all the attention it's for her (and it's usually like that already, so imagine it, it's even more now!) So even if I wanted to cry, I contained myself, forgot the talking and just ate.

After that I sat down back to finish reviewing assignements.  I've took some of the time in the afternoon to try and make the animation I talked about on twitter some days ago, but I wasn't able to do much. So I started to browse pinterest for inspiration to draw, and I didn't find any.

I wanted to draw emma from one of my favorites series, Lou...

...a funny comic strip about a bee, a christmas pinup of a cool cartoon girl to post here, a new character desing of a character for my sci-fi saga of comic books (that I've left aside like for 7 years lol), more of Jupiter the gecko (other of my original characters, of other of my original comics that's also in hiatus) Ice Bear (from the cartoon show) saying mon dieu while he...well, if you've seen the art I post here, then you know what I mean XD

I also wanted to draw Tsuyo and Legoshi (from their respective animes) cos I think they're cool characters! And also I tried to make a drawing of one of my oc's giving chocolates to my dear friend LordValdarox, cos he have given me a lot of support and encouragement since we've met, and it was going to be an artgift to thank him.

...But I wasn't able to draw anything.

Nothing came out.

 All of the sketches I did were awful. And that made me feel even more sad and lonely than how I usually feel everyday due the fact nobody in the country where I live now talk french, or understands french. And I can't talk french with anybody!

So you can imagine, right now while writting this I have the impression of being worthless, unapreciated by my mom and the rest of my family too, for not being "sucessful" cos I don't earn a lot of money money. I feel like a waste on place in this beautiful planet that we call earth, and that today, it has been just another day of my mediocre, boring, french-less...purposeless life.

Don't get me wrong! I'm not saying all in my life is bad, there were good news in my family this week that gave me happiness and...some motivation to improve as a person and as an artist, to be a better person, to be a good role model for this little angel that have just came to this world.

And it's cool, teaching french it's cool, I'm not complaining of that either hein!

I just wish I could art the same way I used to do when I was younger, or some time ago....why I'm not able to?!? Why I can't recover my mojo with art anymore?

It's very frustrating to sit in front of the computer (or paper) and that your hand can't do what you're imagining in your mind! Is one of the most heartbreaking things for a visual artist.

Some of you fellow artists have any advice?

If you have done something that worked to recover the flame for making art I'd like to know.

[cephalofille]

I was working on a commission work and I just felt inspired to draw fanart of WoY. I don't know why but since a pretty good time I wanted to do fanart of this show cos it's really awesome! One of the few tv cartoon shows that recently came out, that I actually finished to watch.

And I thought it was going to be fun to make them as merfolks cos I love merfolks! Specially transforming character that are not merfolks, on merfolks.

[cephalofille]

Hey, mate. Indulge us a bit on this! Peeps who write these kind of fics are just hopeless romantics who realize we are getting old and haven’t yet found true love. And that’s why, being in love with a fictional character and being loved back by them in a fanfic it’s all what we can aspire! XD

Heheh, no but seriously, I don’t think writing a character x reader nsfw or sfw fic it’s a bad or a lame thing. Au contraire mes amis, it’s something really cool! :D

Why?

Because these fanfics are made by lonely and big hearted people who (like me) are aware they are getting old and haven’t yet found their true love yet, but, like me, they don’t want to date or have sex with someone if they aren’t in love.

So this helps us (the ones who write it and the ones who read it) a lot stay happy and positive, and don't dwell in despair and depression, cos those fics help us to keep the hope that one day they’ll find true love. And at the same time, it helps them to relieve the stress and piled up sexual energy they (we) probably have. Probably from a long time ago… like from 15 years ago (like me).

Reading the fictional character x reader fanfics that some artists make, helps peeps who (like me again) are in exactly the same situation than the one who wrote the fanfic, they feel lonely and hopeless, but don’t have time to write at the moment.

I’m an active nsfw/sfw romantic novel, character x reader fanfic and fancomic consumer. I also have wrote a couple of fanfics/comics myself of that nature for my own amusement. (I just haven’t shared them, and probably I never will. Due the fact that I’m a rated G illustrator. ) And I’m proud of it! ^^ Because there's nothing wrong with them, they don't hurt anybody, and they DO MUCH GOOD to people's souls! It's not "characters being sexualized" It's just a healthy way for people who are sad because they feel lonely cos they haven't found their "loved one" yet, to channel their feelings of love to someone who will never hurt them and feel loved back, and thus, improve their mental and emotional health.

For example, in my case; I suffer every day of my life since I started my teens cos I haven't found someone who truly loves me and who I can love, and this have always been one my most cherished dreams. And I swear to gog that those fanfics you satanize and judge, are the only thing that prevents me from going crazy and dwell in depression and desperation, when I realize I'm getting old and I haven’t yet found my true love yet. They have helped, and still help me to not despair and maintant a stable mental and emotional heal.

Because I much prefer to read fics, than to date and have sex with someone who only wants an affair for some days or months and not a serious relationship, and who will hurt my heart in the future.

I much prefer to read fics, than to give my heart and body to someone who will just use it for a while to calm his horniness and later toss it away like an old tissue they whiped their butt with. Or some jerk who would tell me "I love you" and later, break with me just because I didn’t want to wear a piercing or tatoo for him, or make a treesome.

I much prefer this, than to have sex with a random someone and getting pregnant and having an unwanted child. Or worse! Ending up having gonorrhea syphilis or AIDS.

So yeah, kudos to you peeps who have written, and who write character x reader nsfw fanfic! You folks are wonderful and awesome and your works of writting are a blessing to humanity! <3

*a character exists that is not sexualised or romanticised in any way, but is somewhat impactfully written*

Tumblr: I am romantically/sexually attracted to this character. I am definitely not unsure of where to channel strong emotions created by good character writing. I am actually horny for them. Time to write intensely nsfw character x reader fic

[cephalofille]

The pain of my soul in HD: Exhausted of chasing love

Hé salut les potes! Howdy?

Today I'd like to give a more intimate side of this artist you've known since two decades and a few more years now, cos I imagine you'd appreciate it. So here's this new section on this blog who will be called:

"The pain and Joy of my soul in HD"

Of course, HD here doesn't mean "high definition", but more precisely, "high detail". This section will feature some of the most saddest and most joyful moments of my life. Mostly the moments that occur today and in the future. But there might be also past moments written here if some of my present experiences triggers in my soul a flashback of old times that are either too joyful or too painful.

Allez c'est parti! Here's the first entry:

The pain of my soul in HD: Exhausted of chasing love

I still feel very sad due something that happened recently. I'll not give you details cos they're personal.. But a summary, cos I feel my heart is in pain right now, so maybe talking a bit, it helps me to feel a bit less sad? I've fallen for guy who reached me on twitter to be friends, at first he was really nice with me.

He is french, so he even talked me a bit in french, and with time, we realized we shared a lot of passions and tastes , he asked a photo of my face and he gave me one of him so we could know each other. With time I confessed my feelings to him, and he said he had a crush on me, but he wasn't sure about starting a new relation because of a personal tragedy, so I understood. I saw I'd wait, and that I still was happy to know him and I enjoyed his company, he said he also enjoyed talking with me.

Then it happened my accident when I broke my leg, and I woke up days later at the hospital. I was thinking of him, and this gave me the force to be awake and come back to be online. So of course, I was waiting for a warm welcome from him, but something changed.

Now he isn't as loving and nice as he used to and doesn't talk me with the same frequency either. And I have no idea of why! Things were cool before and we seemed to enjoy our company a lot.

The change is clear. For example, today I messaged him, like usual, and he preferred to do other things with other people, but had no time to talk to me, not even a hi message. When before he always made an effort to talk me cos he knew that cheered up my day.

One of my family members I've talked about, thinks that this is the kind of womanizer guy who doesn't respect or appreciate girls, and just wants girls for some brief fun, but nothing serious. And suggests me I should block him because he is going to hurt my heart a lot more later. And one dear friend says this happened cos I rushed and "I told him my feelings too early" or something, and that was bad cos I wasn't being "misterious" enough so that's why he no longer appreciates me. And she recommends me I should try "the difficult girl trick" and not send him messages of any kind for a while, and only talk to him if he talks to me.

But honestly, I'll not do that either. Those are teenager's games. I'm a grown up ass adull in her 30's, and he told me he has the same age.

So I just told him that I give him my love and it's sincere, and that it's up to him if he appreciates it or not..But I'm not sure if that will make him to reflect and start to appreciate me more...or if he's actually a jerk who's just playing with my feelings like people arround me say.

Honestly…I'm so exhausted of "chasing men"…

And "chasing love" in general… I'm exhausted that always at the end men break my heart, and being abandonned, not knowing why or what I did wrong.

And in some cruel irony of life, there's one dear friend of mine who have told me he would he fell for me and would like to be my boyfriend, and he does show it with actions and not only with words because it's really nice and attentive, and I can feel he cares about me for real....but he isn't native French and doesn't talk french either.

which...it's not a problem right now, but it will be if I decided to make a couple with him, cos:

1. we will probably never have intimacy, cos I'm francosexual and francoromantic (romantically and sexually attracted to people who speak french, no necessarily native french, but french-speaking people) I will never be turned on enough with him to actually climax, so I'll be unhappy and sexually frustrated, just like it happens right now that I'm single and celibatarian.

And 2. Cos french language, I cherish it deeply! So, it's very important to me to have in on my everyday life. It's already sad and painful the fact that where I live now nobody talks french. It will be even sadder for my heart to wake up every morning by the side of someone who doesn't talk french.

I really wish this other peep learned french....cos I can feel it's a kindhearted guy and truly loves me, so I wish I could have the same intense feelings for him, but I can't force things.. So...I feel like...love for me is like a mountain I wanna climb, but I'll never be able to... A river I wanna cross, but I struggle with the river flow which is on the opposite direction and will not let me cross....

[cephalofille]

A smart advice for my fellow artist!

#1 How to correctly promote yourself

I know art field it's difficult & we all struggle to earn a life out of our art..But if your first private message in social networks to a fellow artist (or anyone in general) is "I can make your profile pic better, cos the one you have sucks!" or "want a comission from me? I have ideas for you only for this price" out of nonwhere, your're doing wrong, cos is that is not nice at all.

And I thought I needed to talk about this particular subjet, cos I've received messages like these very often, and is really awkward! When people do this to me I usually gently tell them why this isn't a very nice behavior and try to guide them on how to do promote their work right, but most of artists will not be as kind and emphatic as me. They'll just feel offended and block you because they'll think you're wasting their time and you don't care about them at all.

So my advice on this it's, please don't do this peeps!

It gives you a bad image as an artist, makes you look not professional You give the impression of being a 12 years old kiddo who want to become an illustrator when growing up and has no idea of what they're doing XD

And I thought I needed to talk about this particular subjet, cos I've received messages like these very often, and is really awkward! If you do this to me. I'll usually gently tell you why this isn't good behavior and guide you to the good way to do it, but most of artists will not be as kind or emphatic. They'll just feel offended and block you cos they'll think you're just being rude and wasting their time, and that you don't care about them or their art at all.

Is specially rude when people's first messsage is to ask an artist if they want a comission or to promote their work without having even intro themselves and said something nice to the artist. I mean, least they could pretend to care about the artist they're trying to spam hein?

[cephalofille]

Hé salut les potes!

Oui I've finally realized I needed to expand my horizonts and make a tumbrl, alors voilà! Please feel welcome to my blog and I hope you have an amazing time!

I've decided to start this blog sharing this portrait of my original character, Brigitte.

She's one of my fursonas, the one who represents me, and is kinda an hybrid of an octopus and a nudibranch, two of my most favorite animals.

But I have two Oc's who represent me, sometimes I use the other (the one on my profile pic) but this one has been more popular among peeps who like my art for some reason. So, sometimes I use her more cos people recognize this one more.