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AND THEN HER DAD WALKS IN oh shit her dad walks in.

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October 4th, 1989

i almost forgot about my diary. almost. i think i did a good job, nobody wants to mess with veronica since she’s under my protection.

i haven’t really been thinking about this thing since i’ve been hanging out with veronica . . every day after school. i’ll admit, i forgot about the other two heathers and how they would feel. but i’ll also admit; i dont care. i love enjoy having veronica around, i love like her.

even though everyone knows she has a dick, she still looks like a girl. people barely believe that shes a guy and i’ve been helping her look even more feminine than before, though she isn’t as feminine as me.. she doesn’t like being hyperfeminine i guess.

shouldn’t i be calling veronica a he?

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October 4th, 1989

i almost forgot about my diary. almost. i think i did a good job, nobody wants to mess with veronica since she’s under my protection.

i forgot to indent, fuck.

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September 29th, 1989

this month, i found out a shit ton of stuff can happen in a month. i thought it’d be a normal school year with me and the heathers, but then veronica comes along. then its revealed that veronica is a tran person, or whatever the term ls. and then i end up dating veronica.

we agreed that we’d be kept a secret, and i’m warning everyone to treat her the same as they treated before. weird of me, obviously. but they listened.

i’m still not telling her that i listened to her advice about getting a diary. because then she’ll probably want to read it and shit, i don’t know. but i’ll burn this thing before it gets into someone else’s hands.

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September 27th, 1989

oh my god i slept with veronica sawyer. i think its like one in the morning right now, and veronica is asleep on me. she’s so cute when she’s on under me like this. i dont want to fall asleep yet, and i think i’ve became addicted to writing in this diary..

the sex was amazing.. better than any other guy out there. but i dont know how to move on from now; i cant just publicly say i’m dating veronica, they’re a guy in a dress — i’d look gay if i do that shit! i’m not insane.

thats something we’ll figure out tomorrow, it’d probably just be one of those secret relationships, she can still be a heather i guess since she’s feminine for some one who has a dick (a big one at that.)

also i’m like, my body feels odd. my heart is beating because of the position i’m in with veronica, she’s laying on top of me while i’m writing, and she’s like cuddled into me which i absolutely love!!!! shes so sleepy after sex its cute. i think she was still a virgin before this.

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heather nodded, she shifted again, now straddling veronicas lap. “do you want to? i mean i know you’re surprised you have someone like me on your lap but, i assume it’d be overwhelming the first time i’m like this.” she spoke.

she placed a hand on veronicas shoulder, the other on veronicas cheek, softly touching veronicas skin while staring into veronicas eyes with undisguised lust.

Veronica dialed a number she knew by heart. She'd talked to one Heather, now she needed to speak to the real deal. As the phone rang, Veronica steeled herself to the confrontation sure to follow. She could do this. She was strong.

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heather hummed. “you pretend to be a girl good enough, i dont mind if you have a dick or a pussy. i just wanted you.” heather murmured against veronicas skin.

she pressed herself against veronicas side more, she kissed veronicas jawline. “i want you to be mine, i hated that jj girl because she took whats mine.” heather explained.

Veronica dialed a number she knew by heart. She'd talked to one Heather, now she needed to speak to the real deal. As the phone rang, Veronica steeled herself to the confrontation sure to follow. She could do this. She was strong.

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“i want you. i hate you because i want you. i blame you for this..” heather whispered, moving her lips towards veronicas ear, her soft, shaky breaths hitting veronicas ear. “ever since you’ve joined the heathers.. you made me feel shit i swore i would never feel again.”

she confessed, her hand moving from veronicas thigh to veronicas arm, there was a slight shake in her hand as she held onto veronicas arm. she then pressed a soft kiss against veronicas earlobe.

Veronica dialed a number she knew by heart. She'd talked to one Heather, now she needed to speak to the real deal. As the phone rang, Veronica steeled herself to the confrontation sure to follow. She could do this. She was strong.

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heather kissed veronicas cheek, then murmured, “mutual.” and that was it all she said. she laid her head on veronicas shoulder and pressed a soft kiss against her shoulder.

“i hate you so fucking much for the stuff you made me feel.”

Veronica dialed a number she knew by heart. She'd talked to one Heather, now she needed to speak to the real deal. As the phone rang, Veronica steeled herself to the confrontation sure to follow. She could do this. She was strong.

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heather froze, her suddenly confident and snarky self was silenced. “you’re fucking with me, theres no way.” heather whispered.

she just sat there now, wide-eyed and staring at veronica. this wasn’t true — well, even though she hoped and prayed for it to be true, it just couldn’t be! veronica was so much different than her and she was fantisizing about veronica and now that it was true that the feelings were mutual it feels so…

Veronica dialed a number she knew by heart. She'd talked to one Heather, now she needed to speak to the real deal. As the phone rang, Veronica steeled herself to the confrontation sure to follow. She could do this. She was strong.

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heather nodded. “will i ever know who said ‘mystery girl’ is?” she asked, tilting her head. “i’m definitely interested in knowing.” she got slightly closer to veronica, placing her hand on veronicas thigh.

she got a little closer to veronica, face to face to have a little intimate moment, to see if veronica would confess to heather who she liked — and heather will try and find a way to get them away from veronica.

Veronica dialed a number she knew by heart. She'd talked to one Heather, now she needed to speak to the real deal. As the phone rang, Veronica steeled herself to the confrontation sure to follow. She could do this. She was strong.

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“i guess, yeah. there was a boy i liked. he just liked the popularity, i was like, thirteen and he just wanted the title of dating me and . . my body. but i kissed him a lot, initiated them and all.” heather explained, leaning back and slightly swaying as she spoke.

she felt like a kid again, talking about secrets with the heathers and playing those stupid childish games. it felt nice with veronica, she felt comfortable.

“okay, um. i dont know what to ask.” she mumbled. “did you geniunely like that girl? the emo one who found out you’re a guy.. like, before she outed you and stuff?”

Veronica dialed a number she knew by heart. She'd talked to one Heather, now she needed to speak to the real deal. As the phone rang, Veronica steeled herself to the confrontation sure to follow. She could do this. She was strong.

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“myself.” heather joked, then she threw her hair back. “uh, i dont know.” she murmured, she’d chose veronica of course. she didn’t want to lie to veronica though.. so she just took the bottle from veronicas hands.

she took a shot, grimacing at the taste she still wasn’t quite used to — by her third shot, she’d usually stop grimacing.

Veronica dialed a number she knew by heart. She'd talked to one Heather, now she needed to speak to the real deal. As the phone rang, Veronica steeled herself to the confrontation sure to follow. She could do this. She was strong.

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heather chuckled. “awwe, too scared to tell?” she teased. “i didn’t bring a shot glass, my apologies, you’ll have to drink from the bottle, if that’s fine with you.”

heather nudged the bottle closer to veronica. she kind of had a thought that veronica liked her, but at the same time it scared her, she desperately wanted an answer so she’d know whether to get her hopes up or not.

Veronica dialed a number she knew by heart. She'd talked to one Heather, now she needed to speak to the real deal. As the phone rang, Veronica steeled herself to the confrontation sure to follow. She could do this. She was strong.

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“our families are friends.” heather answered. “they all just happened to name us heather or something, i don’t know the story, never asked. but we used to play together as toddlers and . . just been together ever since i guess.” she explained.

she then smirked. “my turn, uh..” she thought, thinking about some questions she was thinking of while talking to veronica.. some other questions she desperately wanted to be answered — “do you want me?” she wished to ask.

“who do you like? you said earlier you like someone who you’ll never be able to date, or something.”

Veronica dialed a number she knew by heart. She'd talked to one Heather, now she needed to speak to the real deal. As the phone rang, Veronica steeled herself to the confrontation sure to follow. She could do this. She was strong.

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heather went back upstairs after a while, a bottle of liquor in her hand. she placed it onto her bed and sat down beside veronica, crossing her legs.

“so who’s asking first?” heather asked.

Veronica dialed a number she knew by heart. She'd talked to one Heather, now she needed to speak to the real deal. As the phone rang, Veronica steeled herself to the confrontation sure to follow. She could do this. She was strong.

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heather shrugged. “sure.” she said. heather knew where some alcohol was hidden, and could go get it for the game. “as long as we aren’t too loud about drinking, my mom wont notice.” heather added.

she stood up and walked to her bedroom door, stopping for a moment to see if veronica had anything to say.

Veronica dialed a number she knew by heart. She'd talked to one Heather, now she needed to speak to the real deal. As the phone rang, Veronica steeled herself to the confrontation sure to follow. She could do this. She was strong.

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