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[chaosandsuns]

"RIVER TOPS!" I say into the microphone. The audience cheers. Someone comes up behind me and says "you're right". Its the clip of the tenth doctor from the doctor who vr game where he realises he gets a female regeneration in the future and goes "*giggle* oh i cannot wait to see river's face-"

The clip in question!

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Oh dont get me started on baby river, especially after she kisses the doctor for the first time (last time for her) and she is just so pure happiness because thats what they do, they fight and run around but he always gives her a kiss at the end because thats what they do! And then he doesnt and shes all like "oh what a cheeky bastard, fine, ill kiss you this time" and HER HEART BREAKS. Anyways 11 spoils river rotten and definetly gotten her gifts and taken her around the universe and wooed her, and baby river fell for him so hard and fast that when they got to the pyramid and she saw him and he said she embaressed him and shes just "?????" Because no matter how much they fought he never dared say anything like that, he loves her, hes proud of her, how dare he?! And she still married him because he saw in her eye and realised he had to say it, had to try and convince her, and when he saw she wasnt convinced he just gave up and decided to tell her the truth.

Anyways enough yapping about how much I love river song, go read the ruby's curse and a picnic on asgard yall!

My neurons randomly zipping around. I've seen people comment that Amy and River have this stilted relationship. That Amy is always called by River with a stiff and formal "mother". But! keep in mind that just like how a huge part of the Doctor and River's relationship plays out off screen, the same goes for Amy and Rory and River's relationships. Saying River calls her "mother" only is not entirely true anyway since in The Wedding of River Song, we see her call Amy "mummy".

I think the reason why people think Amy and River's relationship is stilted is because they only refer to their dynamic in The Angels Take Manhattan. Which was the reason why my brain suddenly starts yapping again lol. But I'd like to point out that a few episodes earlier, we saw Amy and Rory's almost divorce (still hurts me to this day). And I think it has mostly been forgotten that it's not just Amy and Rory anymore, you know (glares at writers). River would have been affected by their fallout. River would have been so guilty over their almost divorce. River, who, as Mels, pushed them together because it wouldn't be a universe worth living in if Amy and Rory weren't together. Because it would always be Amy and Rory. Together. Always.

"But, Tia, she did that to ensure her own existence!" Nuh uh! Nuh uh. Nuh uh, my beloved idiot. While there will be people who'll argue that River and Mels are different, I scoff at that notion. Sure, they look different. Sure, their mannerisms may differ a bit. But they're still the same person! It's like that argument that 12 loved River more than 11 lol don't talk to me. They're the same person, dude.

Anyways, point in case is Mels/River/Melody loves her parents dearly. In Time of Angels/Flesh of Stone, she shows off for Amy. Not the Doctor. But Amy. And it worked, Amy's admiration clearly shows on her face. She always makes sure Amy is alright. She comforts Amy when the angel in her eye is taunting her. She makes that teleport thing work to save Amy. She makes sure Amy holds on tightly. In The Impossible Astronaut/Day of the Moon, she does the same. Always checking on Amy, holds her back when the Doctor is shot, tries to comfort her as she mourns the Doctor's "death". Idk man there's so much. It's all laid right there. In A Good Man Goes To War when she comforts Amy first before giving the Doctor what I like to call "The Talk". In The Wedding of River Song where Amy kept her own timey-wimey diary and brought out wine because there was a freak meteor which was her usual indicator that River would be coming around. That doesn't speak of stiff and stilted. To know someone at that kind of level.

Remember, darlings. Context is important. The dynamics between River, Amy, and Rory in The Angels Take Manhattan should be looked at in the context of the elder Ponds' near divorce. It doesn't mean that it represents the entirety of the dynamics of their relationship.

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You knew you should be cautious when you watch her walk by and think "how would it feel like it touch those curls? Run my fingers through that hair?"

You knew you should be weary when you saw her lips wrapped around a wine glass, smirking and wanted to taste those lips on yours.

You knew you are heading down when you saw her walk into the kitchen, groggy and hair sleep-tousled and wanted to see that every morning.

You knew you were falling when she nearly dies and your heart aches and squeezes so hard you think if she did you might just go with her.

You know you are screwed when you are in the shower and wonder how it will be to wash her back for her, shampoo her hair.

You know you are gone when she sniffles and you automatically get up to make her tea, just the way she likes it, without even noticing until you hand the cup over to her.

You know you are hers when she looks at you with those bright eyes and smiles brightly, genuinely, up at you with what can only be described as adoration, perhaps love, making you gasp as she leans in to kiss you softly.

You knew you were River's when you woke up next to her in bed, sighed happily and curled closer to her, relaxing into the body of the one you love.

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Its always a good morning when you wake up curled around her. Your nose buried in her softly curls as she snuggles back against you, your arm around her waist pulling her closer to your chest as she tangles her legs with yours.

Its always blissful when you go to sleep, curled into her side, head on her chest and legs tangled together, breathing softly against her collarbone.

Its always hard when she has to leave for one thing or another, waking up before the birds do, trying and failing to slip from bed without waking you, shushing you back to sleep as you end up waking to a cold empty bed and a love note on the night stand declaring she will be back soon.

Its never been harder to fall asleep in the nights when she doesnt come back, staying away for a few days, or even weeks. You toss and turn and cuddle up to the pillows that smell like her, until they stop smelling like her, none of them reminding you of her soft curls and softer skin, the light breathing of her as she sleeps and the double pitter-patter of her hearts.

Its never better when you have her again in your arms. Finally, she is safe and back and youve never been more relieved, though you would say that again when she next goes on a mission, or expedition, or heist. You place her head against your chest and card your fingers slowly through her curls, softly raking your nails against her scalp, making her hum pleasently. She relaxes against you, and everything is right again in the world.

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Watching people fall In-love is always happy. Unless you are in-love with one of them. Which, of-course, was the case. Standing by and watching the Doctor run around the tardis, woo-ing River and the way she grins at him, a full smile that reached her bright eyes. Looking on as they flirted and circled around each-other, almost care-free with iust the lingering bit of edge about then, too trained in "something always goes wrong" to fully relax, even inside the Tardis.

And you stand to the side, watching, leaning against a wall and unable to look away as your heart is shattered over and over again. Unable to stop yourself from imagining how it could be you, flirting and joking and running around.

But its not. And thats how it always is, isnt it? The one on the side-lines while others get what they want. Maybe its because they arent too scared to reach for it, ask for it. Or maybe its because you are always in the shadows, always just out of sight, always just unassuming enough to not be noticed.

Maybe its better this way. You can stay on the side-lines. Be their silent protector. The unassuming and almost invisible ally who will be there for them.

And maybe one day your heart wont break when you see them happy together, without you.

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Let me teach you (how forever feels!)

(In which I listen to my river song spotify playlist and get inspo. Sort of a song fic based on "all of the girls youve loved before" by taylor swift)

Your past and mine are parallel lines // Stars all aligned and they intertwined

You and River knew each-other for longer then either of you remember. Well, no, you two remember your first meetings quite vividly, but its different first meetings for either of you. And now? Now you are past both of them, both of you older and stronger together.

I'm so thankful for // All of the girls you loved before // But I love you more

And you dont know how to express how much you love her. Well, you do know how to, and do so frequently, but not just how much you love her.

So you take her dancing. And to kareoke and you sing to her all the love songs the kareoke machine offers until your private room time is over and you have to extend it three times, and you sing duets together and you laugh and giggle together and run around the town in the middle of the night and its all quiet and silent and you can see her in the dim lighting and the moonlight and she just takes away your breath and you blurt it out, unaware you even said it.

"Marry me."

River turns her head sharply towards you, her eyes big and a bit confused. "What?"

You just stare at her for a bit, before blinking quickly and realising what you just said. And you freeze for a second before realising how easy and right it feels to say it, so you say it again. "Marry me, River Song."

And its on a random corner street and its not remotely a big romantic gesture, and you dont even have a ring! But River looks so beautiful and you cant help yourself from asking her right this moment.

Your mother brought you up loyal and kind // Teenage love taught you there's good in goodbye // Every woman that you knew brought you here // I wanna teach you how forever feels

"You... mean that? Really?" She looks at you, quite baffled at you randomly blurting it out on a random corner street but excited by the prospect nontheless because its you and she doesnt care if you propose without a ring or on a random corner street! You could propose to her in the middle of your joint execution and she'd still say yes. She just, wants to give you a chance to back down if you dont really mean it. She knows its not very easy being her partner, especially with the adventures and all of that. And yes, you did use to travel with the doctor before, but still, it could be hard for you to adjust to her running around time and space while you are mostly at a static home. And while you do join her, she knows you get anxious when she goes to expeditions funded by Luna. So she asks if you are sure. Just- just so you could back out. You deserve that, atleast.

"Yes. Im sure." You respond, eyes shining bright, so very confident and so filled with love for her it might spill out any second now.

And River looks at you and the penny finally drops and she just nods slowly because her mouth doesnt work and she doesnt know what to say.

So you hold her hands in yours and promise her forever. "I know that its been hard, but I feel like everything weve been through brought us here. Everyone weve ever encountered has led us to this moment, every interaction, kiss, fight and hug. And I want to show you what forever really is. Because I know we might not have an actual infinite lifetime together, but I know ill love you until my last breath leaves my lungs, River."

"Yes" River says, and she smiles so brightly at you its blinding and your heart flutters in your chest excitedly as she continues to nod eagerly.

And you both stand there, on a random street corner in the middle of the night.

At the start of forever.

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In which you know River

Imagine being a companion to the doctor that can see the future. But not everything, just small glimpses.

Imagine you end up travelling with him and donna to the library and you meet river song and you see the woman youve seen in so many of the future visions youve seen and your mind just suddenly relaxes. Like youve been searching for her everyday, looking in grocery lines and while running for your life. And there she is.

And the doctor is being rude to her and you cant stop staring because shes right there and you dont know what to do anymore because it feels like youve been searching for her your entire life. And then she says something, and calls the doctor "sweetie" and "pretty boy" and something in your mind and heart quivers and you dont understand why. Why is she so important? Who is she?

And you see her talk to the doctor and her smile wanes and her whole face just, becomes a mask. In the blink of an eye. And the doctor says "who are you?" And you want to scream at him because you know her. Youd trust her with your life. And her walls build back up and you struggle not to just go over there and shake the doctor because of course he knows her! Youve been telling him about the archeologist with the space hair since youve gotten onto his ship the first time! And its HER. And shes RIGHT THERE.

And the doctor leaves for some emergancy and you walk up to her and you see her breathing shakily and you place a hand on hers, over her tardis-blue book. And you tell her "I know you". And river whips her head upwards with hope and shining eyes and she looks at you and her eyes are confused for a second, like she isnt sure how-

And then it clicks. All those times you told her you knew her before she knew you. All those secret smiles you gave her in her past and your future. Those knowing eyes, seemingly knowing her every secret without being in the right time to be able to. And she remembers that one time she accidently evedropped on the end of a conversation between you and the doctor, where you told him "of-course we can trust river! I know her, doctor. You know that!" And the doctor goes on about how seeing someone in the future is not really knowing them and you stopped him and go "I know her. I promise. If you trust me, youd trust her."

And river looks at you. And she smiles brightly because on the day her hearts broke, they started again. With a smile and a hand on hers, you gave her hope for the future.

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So I know I havent done requests in like... over a year? I still have them in my inbox and the second I get into a moonknight mood I will definetly write them so dont fear!

I am currently in a doctor who/ river song hyperfix so if you have requests for that lemme know, sfw or nsfw is fine!

Seriously, go ham with ideas and send me all of them, poly is also perfectly fine

I wont write water sports and noncon tho, and maybe some other extremely wild kinks/genres :D (Ill maybe try and make a comprehensive list and link it in the master post)

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Why is there no river x reader fics? Theres like.. 28? On ao3, on here they cannot be found and I havent tried on ff.net yet.

I want to see river talk with someone about her feelings for once! Someone she can "show the damage" to, unlike with the doctor.

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The doctor doesnt mourn like normal people. They dont mourn in the long stretch of time and crying. They cant. They keep moving, they keep running because they have to save people, as many people as they can. They cant stop or slow down.

The doctor mourns in the little things.

Its in Donna showing him Rose's shirt, and his hearts skip two beats as he tries to breathe and dont show dont show.

Its in "Rose would know what to do" because really, rose wouldnt. But it would have been easier to know he isnt the only one whos experienced and still feels lost.

Its in seeing the daleks again and remembering them on that awful spaceship and jackjackjack and they know Jack is alive but they cant completely push it away, can they? The Daleks took away another person they cared for.

Its in walking past hospitals and thinking "maybe martha is working in that one", but she isnt, because we are on a different planet and time entirely. Still, its a nice thought that brings a smile to their face.

Its in walking past a DVD shop and turning to martha to laugh about it and forgetting she isnt there.

Its in seeing a funny hat and thinking how he should show Donna before remembering that she forgot.

Its in seeing a redhead walking down the street and feeling the relief-ache-dread that surges through them as they run the other way. Its silly, because it isnt donna, it cant be. but still.

Its in the little things. Fish fingers and custard even after the ponds are gone. Seeing a library and feeling a distinct pain, even if River is walking right next to him. Never looking at a raven the same.

So they mourn. All the time. And they run and they remember.

What more can they do?

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Moon boys reacted to reader denied their orgasm.

This is going to be all three of the boys, obviously nsfw and 18+ so minors dni :)

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Steven would whine. You would get him right. There. And he would breathe heavily and then there is nothing and he doesnt understand why.

He would look back at where he is leaning back against your chest and see you smiling sweetly at him and he would ask why and whine and if you kept it up for a few times maybe even start crying. But what he doesnt remember is that he asked for that just two days prior. "Love, uh, weird request, but um can you maybe surprise me one time and .... Not? Let me cum? Please? I uh I just want to know what it will feel like and we always use the color system anyways so it will be okay", and of course when he asks you, you cant really say no.

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Marc would be a bitch about it. Or at least he would try, after being rendered speechless from the wonderful stimulation. "Fucking hell, just make me cum already!" He would say as his orgasm gets ruined for the 5th time that night. But he was being reckless in a fight and nearly died *again*, so its his fault really. You told him not to and he didnt listen, and here he is, spread out on the bed, arms and legs bound, as he writhes about.

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Jake... Oh jake. The week before he said you have permission to wake him up with a sexual activity. So ofc you chose to tie his hands up and give him a blow job. Only he woke up when he was so close and he whimpered so beautifully, still half asleep, at you stopping that you didnt have enough will power but edge him a bit more (with his consent ofc, thats why we have the color system).

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ok but like imagine Steven, doing his s/o in front of a mirror and Marc is looking in (through the mirror yk) watching you and Steven go at it while he jerks off to the sight, giving Steven tips on how to pleasure you. ANYWAYS.

Disclaimer: not accurate D.I.D info, as this is based mostly on the show where they explain the inner world and inner conversation through mirrors, I tried to remain as accurate to the actual disorder based on what I know but im not an expert and likely to get things wrong!

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Even tho you wont be able to see marc in the mirror you'd be able to see yourself in it, and the sight of steven staring at you through the mirror.

Steven, however, can see both of you, and hear both of you moaning together, a whole symphony in his ears. He keeps Looking back and forth between you two, not wanting to stop to look for too long at one of you incase he misses the reactions of the other one.

Marc is sitting there on the bed, looking at the sight infront of him and explains to steven how to touch you, how to grip your hips a bit harder as you squirm in his grasp, how to hold your chest up so your back is against his chest, hand grasing lightly against your throat, what to whisper in your ear, to tell you how good you are for them, to explain to you what marc does to himself just seeing you like that, hearing you like that.

And you throw your head back, unable to keep eye contact, head resting against steven's shoulder and chest, back arching from the sweet words they keep whispering in your ears, accent slightly mixed as they co-front so closely to each other.

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Master list

All of my fics and drabbles are under the cut!

Requests are open but will take a bit to get to!

Everything is tagged with either 'chaos rambles' or 'chaos rambles but smut' :)

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Layla El faouly:

Makeup (drabble)

Show me what you got (layla x reader, explicit) [ao3]

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Marc spector:

Please... (Marc x afab!reader, explicit) [ao3]

Pegging hc (+jake)

Nsfw alphabet

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Steven grant:

Pegging (thoughts)

Random smutty thoughts

Switch (thoughts)

Bodyshot (thoughts)

Assertive (dom!steven x afab!reader, explicit) [ao3]

Nsfw alphabet + continuation

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Jake lockley:

Nsfw headcanons (thoughts)

Pegging hc (+marc)

Nsfw alphabet

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All moonknight boys:

Pegging (thoughts)

Switching (thoughts)

Mirrors (steven + marc, thoughts)

Reactions to edging

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Blue jones:

Pegging hc

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Johnathan levy:

How have you survived this long by yourself?(babysitter!reader x johnathan, PG-13) [ao3]

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River Song:

In which you know River (river song x reader, Drabble/Imagine)

Let me teach you (how forever feels!) (River x reader, mini fic)

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Obsessed with the idea of the mk system switching mid-coitus... I wonder if they'd fight over who gets to pleasure you, Steven wanting so badly to bounce on your strap, Jake wanting to bury his tongue inside of you, Marc wanting to pound you with his cock. It'd probably take hours to satisfy all three. Getting so dizzy with lust you can't even tell which one is fronting, all you know is you can't get enough of them. GOD I'm so disgustingly obsessed with them.

So I dont think they would fight between them as much. Definetly would at first, all three wanting different things and not cooporating with each other would be.. rough, on all parties involved, but especially on the boys with the constant switching probably leading to a massive headache and a lot of dissociation.

Evetually the boys between themselves figure out a system, and you do your best to satisfy and give each of them the attention and love they definetly deserve.

I think when you know them it will be easy to know who is fronting by general posture, their accents, the nicknames or simply the placement of their hands.

Marc would put his hands on your hips, gripping them and caressing all over, sometimes leaving bruises in the shape of his hands from how hard he is gripping them while pounding into you, shaking the bed and probably making the neighbours file numerous noise complaints. You put up padding to minimise those.

Steven... God, steven would love your chest and stomach. He would love putting his hands all over you, using your body as leverage to bounce on your strap, head thrown back or buried in your chest, kissing and biting between moans.

Jake would find every single way to be able to make you feel good. If you wanted to be used? He would use you. If you wanted to use him? He would be on his knees in seconds, awaiting your orders. He would lay between your thighs for hours if he could, he wouldnt even need to use his mouth, just simply being there would be enough for him if touch is overwhelming for you. He would press kisses and gentle bites and hold your thighs on his shoulders and absolutely WRECK you.

If they wanted to surprise you and switch tho.. you are in for a rollercoaster. One second it could be jake, going slow and steady, fucking you with one finger, and the next its steven, absolutely starved for your taste, burying his tongue in you, sucking and moaning at how good you taste.

Or it could be marc, fucking you till the edge, and you are RIGHT. THERE. and suddenly its gone, soft caresses along your body as you are being shushed by steven or jake, frusturated over your lost orgasm for the 5th time this evening.

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@ayatoshrimp Jake Lockley please

Hell yeah I've been waiting for this one!

Jake lockley NSFW alphabet

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A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Jake is VERY caring. I know it doesnt seem like it from first flance, but he would do ANYTHING for you. So he is very good at aftercare, making sure you have anything you need, fluffing your pillows, raking his fingers through your hair, whatever you need YOU WILL have.

It could be 5am and youd want pickles and chocolate and he will fly to another country and back just to get it for you if need be.

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B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

He loves your hands. Just- he wants to hold and kiss them and feel them all over him and give you the same treatment with the hands you seem to stare at for long periods of time, especially when they are in his gloves.

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C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

He loves seeing you lick your cum off his fingers. Like, a lot. It gets him going. Feeling your tongue on his fingers as you suck and lick them clean makes him groan almost as much as you do when he uses his hands to work you. And when you moan even more around his gloved fingers (it just tastes SO GOOD, jake) he almost loses his self control.

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D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

He loves when you dominate him. Even tho he is always in control, seeing you order him around gets him going. Especially if you are a bit condecending and demeaning? Fuck.

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E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

He might not have been about to front long, but god is he good at what he does. He doesnt actually have experience, but it sure feels like he does.

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F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

You riding him. He loves seeing you bounce up and down ontop of him, throwing your head back and exposing your neck, hands on his chest for support, moaning and groaning at how good he feels. He could stay there for AGES.

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G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

He isnt very humorous, but sometimes. God, sometimes he would laugh his head off as his kisses you, both of you melting into each other as the laughter turns you weak.

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H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Very well groomed, only very short hairs but not clean shaven or waxed.

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I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Most of the times sex is sex. But then sometimes he would lean in close and whisper how much he loves you, "mi vida", in your ear, and you are pretty sure you died right there and then.

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J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

He doesnt like to jack off much. Not unless its your hands on him, giving him a hand job with sweet kisses as he turns to putty in your hands.

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K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

He loves loves LOVES when you call him daddy or papi. He loves making sure you know who you belong to, whether it be marking or tying you up and making you say it again and again or he will stop fucking you. He doesnt mind using his gun (unloaded, ofc) and gloves in a particularly intense scene if youd like him to.

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L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

His car. Whether its you bent over the hood, in the back seat, you riding him while he is in the driver seat, he doesnt care. He wants it all to smell like you and remember how good he made you feel.

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M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

You. You, whimpering, drooling, tied up in his bed, incoherent from being so cock drunk you cant even think about anything besides him and how good you feel. Sometimes he wishes he could be there forever. Mayne next time he should take a picture.

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N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Anything that would cause lasting damage or scars. He cant bare to think he could ruin the perfection that is you. He likes the marks you have on your body, and he doesnt want to add another one and ruin the masterpiece that your skin writes out, the story of your life all there for him to love.

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O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

He is very much a reciever, he loves seeing you drooling as he fucks into your sweet sweet mouth, but sometimes looking up at you falling afart from the slightest change in pace, lick, or suck gives him so much satisfaction.

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P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Fast and rough. He loves fucking you rough enough that youll have bruises on your hips and thighs for the next week. If you cant walk, that means he did his job, in his opinion.

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Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

He doesnt mind quickies, but they almost never end up as quickies. He always loses control and ends up deep buried inside you.

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R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

He loves finding new things that get you going, so experimenting is definetly something he is all about.

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S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

He usually wants to milk you for as many orgasms as youll be able to give him, even if its just one.

Unless you were being a brat. Then you will get fucked within an inch of your life, until he decides he had enough and you learnt your lesson (unless you safeword, ofc).

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T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Oh yes. He loves using toys on you. Anything and everything he can, from nipple clamps, to dildos, vibrators, wanda, whips, whatever it is he probably got it hidden somewhere in his stash. "You just react so beautifully to new stimuli, mi amor"

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U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

He doesnt tease much. He likes to get straight to the point with sex. However, you will need to ask for what you want. Politely, preferably, tho sometimes he lets you slip by without a please and thank you if youve been good.

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V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

He isnt very loud, usually preferring to growl about how good, or bad, you are in your ear, knowing you get turned on by that more then loud groans from him.

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W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

He would film you if you let him. He would film and then leave it for the boys to find with a note about how they should watch it with you and see how worked up you get remembering the experience.

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X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Very well endowed.

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Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Oh, very high. He would have you every second of every day if he could.

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Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Not very quick, sex doesnt tire him out, surprisingly. He could stay up for hours after you fall asleep on him, head on his chest, just watching you sleep (and drool a bit) on him. You look so angellic like that.

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Read your Steven nsfw alphabet and it's very good but the kink part where there's degradation?? I can't imagine this sweet boy handling it😭😭 he would cry the moment you call him names how would that work? Can you give me a headcanon??

Okay so!

Steven at the start of the relationship isnt comfortable with himself and how people view him, he doesnt have his confidence or really anything put together, and with the constant switching out with marc that he doesnt know about yet, its all making him really go into his shell and not tell people a lot of stuff.

However, I feel that as you progress in the relationship and he finds himself and who he wants to be and becomes more cofident sexually and in himself, he wouldnt mind some degradibg nicknames (whore, slut etc) because he knows it would never be melicious, and he would have no doubt in his mind about that.

You would love him right, and he would open up and you guys will try it and he might like it and he will get more confident and share with you his wants and needs!

Also degradation with praise combined GET HIM.

"what a good little slut you are, look at you handling it so well"

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@harrys-tittie A steven one? 🥺

Steven Grant's NSFW alphabet

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A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Cuddles and kisses are a must with steven. He needs to be comforted and to comfort you in turn, making sure you both feel good even after.

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B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

He loves chests and bellies. Kissing, licking, sometimes biting if you allow him to, anything he can. He loves kissing your nipples and hearing the noises it draws from you.

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C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

He could eat you for days. He could sit there on his knees and suck and suck and suck until you cant give him anymore of your cum and he would still want more. "You just taste so good, darling"

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D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Hes more possesive then he lets on. He gets angry when others flirt with you because you are HIS. Cant they see you are his? He would later on make sure to kiss you extra hard and make sure you enjoy yourself more then usual just to assure himself no one would be able to make you feel as good as he can.

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E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

He isnt experienced in the slightest, but he is a VERY quick study. He has some muscle memory from marc slip in from time to time, but other then that he is just VERY eager to learn how to please you in every way he can.

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F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

You on your back, so he could see your face while he makes love to you. (Yes, make love. He doesnt fuck, he makes sure you love every single second of it).

Or.. if he ever gathers the courage to ask you to fuck him... Probably would want to be laid on his back, drooling into the pillow.

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G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Usually more serious (your pleasure matters to me, sweetheart!), But will definetly have moments where its all just laughing in a tangle of limbs, carefree.

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H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Just like marc, he is trimmed but not waxed or shaved smooth.

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I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Very romantic. He will be gentle and loving and very emotional at times, murmuring about how he loves you and how good you feel and how he wishes he could stay in that moment forever.

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J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

He didnt use to jack off much, but since youve sat there and instructed him that one time, he does it a lot more often, memories of your instructions guiding him as he moans your name into the empty room.

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K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

He definetly has the mommy/daddy kink combo, along with a praise kink. Not degradation until further in the relationship, tho. He definetly is more submissive in bed, but will gladly take control, being soft and kind to you if need be.

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L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

The bed. Just the bed. He likes to be comfortable and wants you to be comfortable in turn.

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M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Anything. Literally anything. From a cheeky smile his way, to a wink, or even a hand on his arm and his face burns bright red and he has to take a few deep breaths as to not lose it completely.

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N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Anything that hurts you. He would love being spanked from time to time, but he cant imagine hurting you. Its a big no for him.

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O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

He LOVES giving. So much so that he usually doesnt even want to recieve. He just wants to eat you as much as he can. He would drop to his knees in the middle of the apartment if you asked.

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P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

His pace depends on what YOU want. He likes slow and sensual better, but will pound you into the bed if you only asked.

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Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

He doesnt like recieving quickies, but would love to grab you into a random closet and have his way with you, eating you or using his fingers, mostly.

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R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

As long as its not something that hurts you directly, he is down to try anything at least once. He would probably like to be tied up, if you ever bring it up.

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S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

His recovery period is kind of long, but you find you dont mind because he finds other ways to make your night enjoyable. At first he used to cum quickly, but now he can hold himself back pretty well.

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T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

He didnt use to own toys until he saw pegging and gay sex porn online and figured his fingers just werent enough for him.

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U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

He doesnt tease on purpose. He just loves exploring every inch of your body with his hands and mouth and soon it was 10 minutes and you are writhing on the bed begging him to PLEASE do something about it.

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V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

He used to cover his mouth and stifle his whimpers and moans, but once you told him you wanted to hear him he got LOUD. You only got one noise complaint before you realised you needed to pull him close to you and stifle his moans with your body.

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W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

He likes being choked/suffocated. Not completely but just enough so he will be light headed. It makes him feel so good and he loves it when you wrap your thighs around him and allow no air in.

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X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Well endowed and more muscular then the baggy clothes will lead you to think.

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Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

His sex drive was very low. And then he met you and now its HIGH. He wants you as many hours of the day as he can get.

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Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

If he is subbing, he will be out like a light. If he is taking care of you he will stay away for as long as you need him to, cleaning you up and bringing you water and food if you want some.