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[chaosduckies]

So um is Devon's hearing okay because in part 3 during that big fight he was bleeding a bit from his ears

Oh yeah he’s fine 🙏 he’s starting to heal but not all the way 100% so yes he will have a few hearing problems for a few weeks but it’s not too big a deal when he doesn’t have anyone but Kieran to talk to-

(yes I looked it up before I wrote the scene to make sure I was okay doing this)

Thank you for the ask anon!

[chaosduckies]

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[chaosduckies]

who are your favorite ocs? and do you have any least favorites?

absolutely love your stories btw ☺️❤️

Whattttt who said I had favorites? I love all my ocs equally *cough* Kieran *cough*

whattt who said that- but honestly if I were being honest my least favorite so far is Casper mostly because I really want to do a redesign with him (and I mean a REALLY big redesign) and that's the main reason I haven't continued their story in such a long time- I might just restart it at this point-

But thank you so much for the kind words! They really mean a lot to me ❤️ :) Thank you for the ask anon!

[chaosduckies]

Silence in the City (5)

Sorry for the long wait but I (think) I'm back! Went for a little bit of hurt/comfort cause idk I'm in a mood

Word Count: 2.9k

CW: None!

This human was… different, to say the least. Instead of treating me like the monster I was… Devon trusted me? That’s what it seemed like. The idea was absurd itself. Someone trusted me? Of all peo- monsters. How come he trusted me? There wasn’t a reason to. Just because someone saves your life doesn’t mean that they’re good. Not that I’d hurt him of course! Not on purpose at least. It was just that I couldn’t see why he’s stuck with me this entire time. I know they’re forcing him to stay here, but he didn’t have to talk to me. Or try to convince me that he wasn’t scared.

Trust was just something that I rarely had left of. Every. Single. Time, I placed it in someone, they’ve either lied to me or have hurt me more than just physically. For some reason, though, I’ve placed my trust in someone who I just knew was going to think of me as the monster everyone knows I am. Including me. I guess some part of me still hoped to have a friend in this world. Even if people only see me as a weapon to use. Devon didn’t seem to think of me that way.

When I woke up, groggily opening my eyes, it seemed as if nothing had moved from before. The lights were still on. I was still in the same position. Devon’s stuffed animal was still in my hand. I very briefly felt my face go red from embarrassment, but I do admit I have been sleeping a lot better. No nightmares ever since he gave me what I could only guess was a dog. Too small to see, but I somehow kept it intact.

I glanced around the room, spotting Devon looking at the tablet that all the other people used to trigger the collars. I just stared, my heart beating hard and fast. Of course the other day I said he could keep it even after throwing it away from himself, but that still didn’t help the uneasiness it caused me. Too many times have I seen them just click away at the screen and that burning pain that seemed to be under my skin would start again. I’d try not to claw at my wrists or neck, but sometimes the pain was just unbearable even for someone like me.

When Devon spotted me staring, he placed the torture tablet down quickly and started standing up. I lifted my head up, being extra careful not to try and bang my head against the metal roof. Every time he set down the tablet it made my heart skip a beat. Why wouldn’t he use it to protect himself? I had no idea. He had the power to control me, and yet he just didn’t use it. Sometimes it even seemed like he was afraid of it.

“Have a nice nap?” He had asked, walking up a little closer. The urge to push myself backwards and as far away from him as possible was strong. I’m not used to someone willingly climbing onto my hand or even coming close to me like I was just another ordinary person to them. Though it did feel nice to think that finally someone wasn’t terrified of me. There was no way that could be true though. Devon was definitely afraid. Just hides it better than others. They’re always afraid.

I slightly nodded to answer his question, my eyes feeling a little heavy but that would go away in a little bit. My face usually looks tired and irritated all of the time but that was because I didn’t want anyone bothering me. Well, anyone besides Devon I guess. Sure, at first it was a little tiring but did I really want the clueless human to die? No, no I didn’t. Especially when the same human has been so nice. Not that I’d wish that upon anyone. Except for the sadistic monsters that only want to murder everyone. I huffed through my nose and groaned a little bit, feeling a yawn. Before I even opened my mouth, I covered it so he wouldn’t have to look at my fangs. I knew that it bothered him. Even if he was good at hiding everything else that scared him, there were just some things that were a little too terrifying to see past.

What really sucked the most about this place was that there was no room. At least for me. I liked being able to stand up and walk around, when no one was here, but there was also no space for me to stretch comfortably or barely any room to actually crawl out and out. I hated being treated like some- some science experiment. I understand the other kaiju, but I don't think I've given them a reason to be so cautious about me. It was hard to wrap my head around everything when everything else was piling on top of one another.

I groaned, resting my head back into my arms. My whole body ached. I was still tired, but I didn’t think it’d be nice to just leave Devon by himself all day. I nearly laughed at myself. What has been going on with me lately? I save one human, and everyone thinks he’s just another tool to use against me to do their bidding. Well, they were right. He was like a little brother to me. He reminded me so much of someone, I just couldn’t piece it together.

“Are you… okay?” He asked, stopping in his tracks at a comfortable distance between me and my face. Do I wish he would stay further away? Yes. Sadly, I don’t think he’d listen to me if I said anything.

I nodded my head, lying before finally picking myself up and stretching out as much as my prison would let me. It was cold here. It nearly always was. It hasn’t been lately. Devon sat down right where he was as I started to lie back down, an uneasy look on his face. Did I do something wrong? Why was I even worried about that? This really wasn’t like me to care what anyone thinks of me. Usually, I just assume they’re afraid or too disgusted to be around me like everyone in that hell of a control room.

Little time had passed. My eyes were shut, and I was exhausted like usual but for some reason I couldn’t let myself fall asleep. Maybe it was just because I would feel bad for letting the one person I could actually stand be left alone. Or maybe it was just because all I did was sleep. I’m rarely ever fed so sleeping helps keep my energy, not that I have to eat nearly as much as a human does. Maybe once or twice a month if they were feeling generous.

“Is it hard keeping up with all of your arms?” A quiet, yet unwavering voice. I opened one eye, seeing the hesitancy on Devon’s face about asking the question. I wasn’t one for much small talk, but I have to admit I really do enjoy his company. Even if the questions and talking were a little annoying at first, he really rubbed off on me later. Though, I still used as few words as possible just to avoid being disciplined again.

“No.” I looked away for a second, debating if I should at least explain how it feels. It’s just like another extension of myself. I knew when I was younger it was harder to control myself, but now it just comes naturally. Actually, I think it’s weird to only have one pair of arms instead of two. Or… maybe it was because they didn’t need to have certain advantages when fighting like I did. Did they even have to fight on a regular basis? I had no idea. Maybe it was a question for Devon? I huffed playfully at the idea.

“I-I’m still sorry about earlier.” He started, looking down at the ground. I lifted my head up and stared at the tiny human who was struggling to apologize for no reason. He was talking about when he just climbed onto the back of my hand with no warning. I wasn’t angry or upset with him at all. It was just… strange. I hated when people touched or even relatively came close to me. No one ever really tried it without being cautious or using some kind of protection for themselves like I was going to hurt them. I could’ve, but that would’ve just made things a million times worse. Devon just did it without having a care in the world. I wouldn’t ever purposely hurt someone like him, but still. It kind of made me uneasy and also a little heart-warming that someone actually trusted me enough to have their life literally in my hands. Or on my hand if you want to be technical. But still. I wasn’t sure how to feel about it. But definitely not upset. In all honesty, I think I was afraid of accidentally hurting him more than anything else.

As quickly as it had happened, I shook my head slightly and rested my eyes, studying Devon before speaking, “It’s not a big deal.” It was a little uncomfortable, but that was because it was new to me. Everything about this was new to me. A human half-willingly staying here and talking with me. Or at least trying to, and all of a sudden I wasn’t being treated so much like a monster that was only going to be used to fight battles that others couldn’t. Best of all this has been the longest time that I’ve gone without some kind of punishment.

“It’s a big deal to me! I made you uncomfortable, didn’t I?” I blinked a few times, staring at how worried his face was, and chuckled. Devon was really good at reading people, I had to admit that.

“Yes,” I mumbled, my voice still sounding tired, “It wasn’t bad.” I shrugged my shoulders slightly, staring at the bracelet around one of my wrists before turning my attention to the worried little human who was slowly walking closer. I bit down hard on my cheek, tasting blood, but I didn’t stop gnawing on my skin until he stopped only a few feet away from my hand. My hand started shaking, but I tried not to show the involuntary fear, keeping my face calm and tired per usual.

Devon looked up, his neck probably hurting, “Why can’t you just accept the apology?” He stuck his tongue out at me and crossed his arms. Even when he tried to hide how scared he was after it, I noticed the way his legs trembled. Like the other day when they released that kaiju. A shiver ran through my spine at the memory, a hand clutching the area where my side was punctured and winced at the memory. It didn’t hurt at all now, but I could definitely feel the stinging pain when I remembered how it just drove itself right into me. At least Devon was safe though. The kid always seems to get into trouble.

I laughed softly, mindful of my volume no matter how much I wanted to stop being cautious, “Okay, apology accepted.” He uncrossed his arms and let out a sigh of relief.

“Thank you.”

I didn’t reply, just absent-mindedly moved further away to keep my sanity intact. It wasn’t like there was anything to respond with it either. It was boring here. It always was. They could’ve opened up the gates to let me out. But they haven’t. Something was happening. Whether they were planning it or not. It’s little changes like that I didn’t trust.

“Why do you sleep so much?” He asked, turning back up to me. I sighed, “What’s with the questions?” He flinched like he wasn’t expecting a question in return, but he just stood.

“Sorry,” He nervously laughed, “You’re just nice to talk to I guess.” My whole body froze for a second. Nice to talk to? Was he being serious? I huffed and looked away. Was he in his right mind? Being nice to talk to and being nice company were two different things. Was he sure he didn’t just enjoy not being alone? Such a confusing kid.

“Just tired.” It wasn’t the full truth, but the answer would be good enough. Talking about eating in front of others made me feel uneasy. A lot of things just felt that way around people now. It was either my lack of trust or just blatant discomfort. I could never tell. Plus, from how Devon reacted to being around me the first few days, I wasn’t sure what was okay to do and what wasn’t.

 Devon fidgeted with his hands, sighing, “I can’t stand it here.” I grinned.

“Am I not good enough company?” A snicker escaped my lips, my hand involuntarily covering my mouth. He gasped dramatically and plopped himself down onto the ground with a smile on his face, “You are.” He giggled like a child, though the mood still felt off. I smiled softly for a split second, shutting my eyes but still kept on listening.

Devon didn’t ask any questions, just talked about what he would be doing right now if he weren’t here. He talked about things he used to do, but I didn’t know what half the things even mentioned were. It sounded familiar though. Almost like I’ve heard it before. Or somehow done it. It just felt weird. It was kind of like getting deja vu except with words. Despite not knowing I still listened and didn’t interrupt. He seemed to like going on and on about his life outside of here. It sounded nice.

“-and my parents would always try and go watch me but there wasn’t really much to watch when you’re benched the whole time.” Devon nervously laughed, rubbing the back of his head. He talked about his parents a lot. There wasn’t a single bad thing said either. Even though I was getting tired again, I still forced myself to keep at least one eye on him to show that I cared, which I did! It was just hard for me to stay awake when I was conditioned to be asleep right now.

“Your parents sound nice.” I smiled, stretching a few of my limbs out before getting comfortable again.

“They were,” He sadly said and groaned, “I miss them. Do you think they could’ve come with me? It’s lonely back in the room they gave me.” I winced at the sudden melancholy. Maybe I shouldn’t have stayed on the topic of his parents. I’d miss my parents too if I were him. Devon was young and he seemed to depend on his parents a lot. Why would they separate them? It must be hard being away for as long as he has. Especially with everything that’s already happened. Heck, if I knew who my parents were I would feel the same way.

Hesitantly, I moved my hand and wrapped it slightly around his small frame. My fingers twitched. At a moment's notice, I was ready to pull away if he looked uncomfortable, but it actually seemed like the opposite. He pressed his back into my cold skin and hugged his knees close to his chest.

It was silent for a while. Nothing but the hum from the vents was making noise. A few minutes had passed, and Devon looked like he was about to pass out. To be honest, so was I but I don’t think I have the heart to fall asleep on him. I looked in the palm of my free hand and remembered that I had his stuffed animal. I dropped it over him, a small smile pricking my lips when he reached out and hugged it close.

“Thanks.” His voice cracked and was lower than usual. I hummed in response and fixed my position so that my hand cupped over him like I was protecting him. There was nothing to be protected from here, unless you counted me-, but I just thought he wouldn’t mind if I could offer a little more comfort than I was offering, which was none regrettably.

“You didn’t sleep when I did, did you?” I asked, already knowing the answer. He sniffled, wiping something off of his face before shaking his head. Sometimes it was hard to notice the gestures, but when he was close like this it wasn’t so bad. Especially when I could already see pretty good.

I sighed and closed my eyes, making sure that I stayed awake until I heard or saw him sleeping. If you were to tell me I’d be taking care of some small human a week ago, I probably would’ve called you crazy. Though, now that I’m actually doing it, it wasn’t bad at all. Devon was almost exactly like a child. Just a little older and more mature, but otherwise, he was like any other child I’ve seen while out fighting wars that they couldn’t.

“Kieran?” I flinched and looked down, surprised to see him rubbing his eyes with a yawn. I tilted my head to ask what was wrong before he continued hesitantly.

“Thanks for this. I know you’re probably uncomfortable, but still thank you.” He sighed defeatedly. I blinked a few times and rolled my eyes, scoffing.

“I’m not. Now sleep you crazy insomniac.” I teased, earning a quiet laugh before he lay down. Well, at least I knew I would make a pretty good older sibling.

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I wish I wrote it better but I guess this is just like a little bit of Kieran backstory I guess? Extremely vague but I wanted to do a little more on him :D

Hopefully next time I write I won't rush myself as much and keep it going for longer than a few weeks lol

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[chaosduckies]

May or may not have something planned for tomorrow 🤭

but who knows!

I’ve been doing a whole lot of story writing and planning for how I want this story to go lately so I guess now I have to actually write it 🙏

but thank you anon for your kind words and for the ask! 🫶

[chaosduckies]

Which of your OCs from two different stories do you think would get along the most?

If I had to say it would probably be Ryker and Liam- Mostly because they're both really good listeners and would definitely help each other out if they really needed to. They're also pretty much interested in the same things like music and art and things like that. Ryker is also very careful with everything he does so that would definitely help with Liam's megalophobia, and Liam would help Ryker when he's going through something and doesn't want to tell anyone else about it because he knows everyone would overreact. Of course there would be a few things they'd disagree with, but otherwise they'd definitely be best friends :D

Thank you for the ask anon!

[chaosduckies]

is the discord server still around? all the links have expired

yes it is! If you just dm me I’d be happy to give you a link!

[chaosduckies]

What if I finished all the unfinished playlists I have for each fic/ OC I have and posted it here? Just a thought

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Out of all your OCs which would be the most likely to purposely hurt someone?

Most likely Kieran! Sometimes he gets extremely angry and would definitely not mind trying to hurt the people that have kept him in a prison for most of his life. (If he were able to of course he has a lot of pent up rage he just never shows)

on the other hand, he also would accidentally hurt people. When he was younger he didn’t exactly know his own strength and couldn’t control his own limbs sometimes. He’d feel sorry afterwards of course because he didn’t know any better! Even now that he’s grown up he tries to be extra careful around people (even though most are extremely mean to him) but sometimes there are accidents 🙃

Thank you for the ask anon!

[chaosduckies]

Do you have any refs us artists can use to draw your amazing OCs?

Reluctantly yes- I’m no artist whatsoever but here’s a few of what I have (we listen and we don’t judge):

(WE LISTEN AND WE DONT JUDGE)

yeah so anyways i give you amazing artist my poor attempts at character designs (because im better at writing them out than drawing what they look like in my head-) and of course there is a few drawings that I’ve done and even more amazing art from others ❤️

Thank you for the ask anon! I can’t wait to see what you come up with! (I’m VERY excited cause I love all the amazing art everyone makes it means a lot 🫶)

[chaosduckies]

What are some things that REALLY piss off your OCs?

This list might actually be a little long so under the cut!:

Ryker would absolutely commit murder if someone ever hurt his friend or family, because well they're all he has left. And of course he hates it when things are a mess because he's a little ocd about that or small things like no one listening to him when he asks for something or taking his food (mainly sweets) without asking (he's going to say no he loves sweet things too much)

Nathan isn't really an angry person but he is bothered when people aren't careful around others since he knows that even something small could hurt them. Really he just gets angry when he forgets something important or if someone says something mean to his family

Devon will absolutely tackle you to the ground if you ever call his best friend a monster cause he's just overprotective like that lol. On the other hand, he hates it when people take his things or when his parents go through his things without telling him. Basically he has a thing about privacy, and small things like chores and forcing him into high-stress situations make him a little mad (and overwhelmed of course) he just gets angry when you force things on him

Kieran has a very long list- Being mean, irritating him, treating him like a monster, not letting him sleep in, getting tazed, forcing him to sleep, forcing him to stay in the same small room, turning on the light without a warning, banging his head on the ceiling, people touching him, being cold, people talking to him, other kaiju, himself, and of course the list could pretty go on and on because he absolutely hates his life (with the exception of Devon since he's like the little brother he's supposedly never had and loves his company whether he likes to admit it or not)

Liam gets angry when people bother him too much or overwhelms him to the point where he just can't handle it anymore. He hates any talk about his parents and probably wouldn't talk to you for a few days if you ever bring them up in a conversation. Driving also makes him angry which is why he nearly always takes a taxi (because let's be honesty city traffic is TERRIBLE)

Casper isn't really one to get angry because he doesn't like shfiting, but on the off chance that he does let something make him angry it would be when people don't listen to him or push him to do things he isn't comfortable doing. He also really hates having to be so careful all the time and is jealous of other shifters since they have complete control and he doesn't. Mostly it is self-hatred but that's pretty much it since he doesn't really like to be angry.

I'm sorry for the vague answers anon and if there's anyone that you really wanted me to explain then please let me know because honestly I can probably add more to these lists I was just rushing to type all of this-

Thank you for the ask! I'm loving these oc questions lol they're giving me back my motivation little by little (guys it's worse than I thought-)

[chaosduckies]

I need motivation to write too, we can peer pressure each other 🤝🫡

perfect. NOW GO WRITE. OPEN UP A DOC OR WHATEVER IT IS YOU USE TO WRITE AND GO WRITE WORDS. And I’ll do the same :D we, yes WE, are getting out of this writing block

thank you for the peer pressure anon 🙏

[chaosduckies]

How was mcr??

don’t even get me STARTED. I cried a little (a lot) and of course my camera quality decided to quit on me the second they started playing but THATS OKAY CAUSE I STILL HAVE AMAZING PICTURES AND FOOTAGE and guess what I’m forcing you to look at them:

And of course my merch (minus the tour shirt)

I can say that this concert was AMAZING. I had such a great time and met a lot of really cool people and I had the time of my LIFE 🫶❤️🫶

thank you for asking anon and sorry for not answering sooner 🙏

[chaosduckies]

omgggg i looove your mer au’s!! are you ever going to make more chapters? —u—

ahhhh thank you!!! Im so sorry it took me so long to answer but I do have a few more ideas for the mer au but I’d love prompt ideas or really anything that you’d like to see! I do enjoy writing them a lot too (even though I have no motivation to write currently) and I’m hoping that I can get back into writing soon enough before school starts again because I really need to write down all these ideas before I forget them 🙏

thank you for the ask anon!

[chaosduckies]

Need you guys to peer pressure me into writing. Idk just flood me with asks or prompts or just ideas if you want to 🙏 Need to write to distract me from the crushing weight of school and responsibility (I’ve hit a very minor slump this is what I get for taking a break for too long lol)

[chaosduckies]

AHHHH thanks! I love your art and ocs 🫶 They’re just sillies (and of course the lore yknow)

It is REALLY hard to portray ‘extreme’ size differences so it is definitely annoying to try and show sometimes especially in drawings (which I’ve given up on) and tbh writing is hard too. It makes it a little easier when you compare both sizes but even then it’s still a little annoying Though, this does make for some great angst in a few scenarios and maybe a little bit of fluff too? I guess it just kind of depends on how you draw/write your ocs

Heyo! I love your characters and I was wondering if you know anyone else in the g/t community who also does extreme size difference stuff? Bc you actually introduced me to this concept and I. WANT. MORE. but i can barely find any content 😭💔 the only other creator that i’ve seen make it is chaosduckies 🐤🐤

HI THANK YOU SO MUCH sorry i took forever to answer your question anon

unfortunately I don't really know anyone who does extreme size difference (like Gabriel and Laurent, who I'm guessing youre referencing) and I think that comes from the fact that it's kind of difficult to portray in art and writing lol 😔😔

I've briefly mentioned it before but drawing extreme size difference can be annoying sometimes bc when your character is SO tiny they just appear as a dot or you have to be really creative with composition to properly portray that kind of size difference (which I'm not. lmao). I've seen sentiments in the G/t community that making a tiny that small can diminish the appeal of interactions between a giant and tiny, which I can sort of understand. but I like tiny tinies so... LMAO

so yeah, shoutout to @chaosduckies who does both art and writing, so if anyone else is interested in extreme size difference go check out their blog‼️i believe her characters Kieran and Devon fit into this criteria of 'extreme' size difference. and if anyone else who is reading this post draws or writes that kinda stuff feel free to share.

i guess 'extreme' size difference would count as the tiny being equivalent to a centimeter or smaller?

[chaosduckies]

Currently 3 hours into this 5 hour drive to the concert. Guys I’m so excited to see MCR this is amazing im ascending. I’m working on writing on the way too (wow it’s hard to write on your phone without your parent seeing) so I’ll hopefully get back to posting soon 🙏

Now you get to enjoy staring at my Mikey Way buttons and some others while they were being made last night: (and my many many bracelets)

(I forgot to take a picture of everything I was too tired)