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For You, Ace ...

For You, Ace …

It’s driving me crazythe way youwent out …There has to bemore than onewho hurtyou so bad …In my mindthere isno doubt …It has madeall of usthat caredfor youextremely sad … We miss you❣️ Finding youwas a hugeand major shock …Seeing theunthinkableit blewour mind …Knowing nowwhat I’m notsupposedto know ofhow thatone devilwatched youlike a hawk …when allyou weredoing wasbeing a friendthat was very…

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Endless time ...

Endless time …

Scattered thoughts, Gleefully running Intense flashes Tiptoeing around, quietly Running, away from the scrutinizing eye. I can see each thought yet they won’t slow down long enough in order for me to look at them, To see what they are. Crashing isn’t far … hyper isn’t far … Finally, Smoke, swirling around each separately … to lay them down, once and for all … Cradled, Until the dawn…

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Make your Soul Happy

Why isn’t theremore time?Once we reacha certain age …more timehere withour peopleso that whenthe time does come,we will be turning the page … Through thebirth of babesand grands,even great grands too …Through manyfailed relationships,until I met my boo … It’s kinda hazylooking backat my entirelife as a whole …Bad decisionsand mistakes galorecover my existencebut they nevertouched my soul … The…

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🎸 rOCk candy QUEEN

You will find her dancing with the demons of addiction, heartbreak and pain – they know you will eventually give in to their strong demands once again – while you falsely think that they accept you – yet really they do not – … that’s just get you hooked so they are able to harass you relentlessly – down that vile path that you tried so hard to adopt … because by then – they are laughing at you –…

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Speculating Inside

Deep inside thoughtsRampaging through my brain …Darting here, thereand everywhereWanting to stopthem, yet they pull my chain … Stopping those recollectionshowever they won’t halt …Insurmountable emotionsCascade through my bodyWithering down, as I realizethey are my own fault … Ping pong reflectionsBouncing all aroundmy mind …Holding them downto see what theyhave to sayis what I will find…

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Cajun

Wow You are pricelessto meRegardless ofwhat others may say …It’s a real miraclewe bothbecame closeas we didn’t knowif the other would stay … Wow You are such anawesome true friendto me …I am so dumbfoundedyet filled withinsurmountable glee … Damn You and I really hit it offfreaking both of usout for real …Not believing itwas possibleOnly after going to Goddid I kneel … Wow I never really…

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Oh, what tangled webs we weave 🕸️

Narcissists are all about themselves and they feed on the sometime reactions and weaknesses you unknowingly show … They will soon take away your heart and your all around glow … You try to understand Why they are treating you so mean … There is no reason except they can only feel whole after they condemn and demean … The only explanation that thankfully makes any sense … Is the personality…

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Would TRUE LOVE allow you to cheat?

Here is a story about one of my many surfs through quora.com. I like helping people who I look for issues I’m qualified (from life experiences) to address.My RAW thoughts today are about cheating. As I coasted through quora.com earlier, I answered a couple questions about cheating so I thought I would see what your RAW thoughts were about this sensitive yet emotionally harmful subject well as…

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To scared to pray

To scared to pray

He is my world now, my unsung hero His depths are amazing to me a young woman’s hope of a true man materialized – finally, in my golden years With the patience of a saint He carries my rebel ass I’m not easy and sometimes I am overwhelming – unknowingly, of course, My disorder at it’s finest But he breezes through it and calms me down like a pro at the same time … Handling me perfectly, and…

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respect yourself ❤️

The importance of respecting yourself is MAJOR … If you don’t respect yourself, no one else is going to!

You can respect yourself by doing respectful things for yourself and to other people by your actions and in your reactions to certain things and situations.

Even in the midst of conflict and you feel at the end of your rope, never quench  the feelings of respect inside your soul because, it will…

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holding on - behind bars ...

holding on – behind bars …

I never realized that I would miss you to this degree … It is a gut wrenching dull but solid hard ache from your throat down to the pit of your gut … that doesn’t go away …

Loneliness grasps your soul and carries it away toward the billowing clouds … so you gather yourself enough to handle the daily tasks that you must, in order to just survive … Like quicksand that sucks you down into the…

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One day ...

One day …

There will be no more waiting on prepaid calls … One day …

There will be no more waiting on letters … One day …

There will no more hustling for commissary fund or time on my phone … One day … There will be no more nights without him close … One day .. There will be no more tears that miss his face … One day …

There will be no more painful heartaches … One day … There will be no more prayers…

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God gave me you ...

God gave me you …

This isn’t me being lazy … the fog inside my head causes all to be quite CrAzY … what in the world is wrong with me … I just want it all to make sense so I can be just be me … I want to be free and be normal like everyone else … I feel that my brain is locked up in it’s very own cell … everyday things are becoming more of a chore … not allowing me to be physical in ways I used to adore …

Recoll…

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Why

foreword: Let me first explain how this particular blog post was born. It was early in our exclusive relationship and I had mistakenly believed my BFWB had lied to me. Later on I figured out that I was wrong but I had already written this to him. I was so thankful I had been wrong …05-03-19 revised Why? Of all people … me! I’m broken beyond recognition … Why? You crushed my very soul … Put out my…

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Wisdom is gold

(revised 10-08-19) Wisdom comes with life’s experiences as well as with age … Be ready – to be thoroughly amazed …

Hold onto wisdom like it is pure gold … watch her as she breaks the mold … Helping people who’ve been struggling is a sign of wisdom on your part … letting them know all the pitfalls in getting there was truly very smart … helping especially, despite your inner pain … when you have…

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Perpetual madness of the mind

I feel lost … Alone…terribly alone … Fighting back is getting old …

I’m ready for someone to take my hand, telling me I’m not alone. Tears drop silently down onto the chilly, dark night ground. I’m so cold inside my soul, shivering through to my bones. I try to concentrate in hopes this apprehension calms down inside. It’s not a physical cold, it’s from the inside out. Shaky inside from my head…

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cOmpLeteLy me 👠

foreword: This post touches on people’s hurts and the walls they put up after being hurt, whether it’s emotionally or physically ~ when this happens they usually shut everyone out, especially if they have been hurt time and again, but if they are blessed, they have that one person who they let in … A lover, friend, sibling, etc … In my case, it is my best friend and beyond ~ my soulmate … I hope…