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VEGETA IS BAE THAT IS ALL

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Honestly, best friends from high school is such fucking bullshit. I thought my hs best friend was gonna be in my life for a long time through the good and bad, but no. Once depression hit me my senior year and I stopped going to school half way through the year, my so called best friend completely ignores my existence. Once I stopped going to school, she became more popular and social. She lost weight and got much prettier and active on social media. She got accepted to UCLA and did a pageant at school (which honestly she wasn’t even really qualified for but made it in because she was on student government and they did the auditions looool. for her talent she literally just took a dance choreo off of YT....) I wasn’t bitter about this stuff until a few months ago. I was actually cheering for her and happy. But having my brother passed away really showed me who gave a shit about me. I had this friend who I stopped talking to 1.5 years ago due to drama and bad blood between us, but even she had talked to me and reaching out to me since I lost my brother. But from this so called best friend? Nothing. Not a single word. Not a “I’m sorry for your loss”. Nada. I’m fucking sorry you’re doing so much better than me which automatically makes you better than me. I’m fine with it. At least you’re out of my life now. It’s funny; the only best friends I have are those from my  childhood like 5 years old and another from early middle school. (yes I have different best friends is that weird? cause I have best friends from different phases of my life and none of them know each other.) I rarely even saw them but I knew they were there. When my brother passed, they were there for me... I noticed that most people I know, their best friends are from not high school, but more towards childhood and early school years. Looking bach now, high school years were probably the worst years of my life even though I hadn’t realized it at the time.

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The Signs as Repeated Lines in Naruto

Aries: Believe It!

Taurus: The most important thing… is a spirit that never gives up!

Gemini: My only goal in life… is revenge

Cancer: In the Ninja World, those who break the rules are scum, that’s true…but those who abandon their friends are worse than scum!

Leo: What a drag.

Virgo: You should give up…on me giving up!

Libra: To be Hokage…is my dream.

Scorpio: I am an avenger!

Sagittarius: A place where someone still thinks of you; that’s a place you can call home.

Capricorn: Sorry I’m late; I got lost on the road of life.

Aquarius: *Whispered* Sasuke.

Pieces: I’m never going back on my word. That’s my ninja way!

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tfw when your house burns down

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My car’s name is Dante, after Dante from Devil May Cry <3

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↖Zitao fucked me up squad

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SoCal’s bipolar ass weather has been fucking me up bad...............................

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finally got me car today after waiting a week and gonna go to the apple store tomorrow to upgrade my tiny iphone 4. what a good week hehe

now to just start looking for a job and enrolling for classes 

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*sees drama*

*slowly closes tab*

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Since I’m heated af rn, I’m unfollowing anyone who I see on my dash reblogging fanart that is reposted, has no source, or has no permission granted. I don’t know how many people have to shove this down your throat but stop reblogging that shit. You’re contributing towards reposters who are fucking thirsty for notes, and taking away the hard work of the original artist.

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abuse is when you push 100% of the blame onto your wife for the death(suicide) of your child and then constantly telling them that every fucking day. no no, it’s not the dad who verbally and physically abuse the child before he was even fucking born. the mom who supported the child and tried to protect him all these years is to blame because she cared and loved him too much.  

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“yOUNG LADY THAT IS  HYUUGA PROPERTY!”

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A post about romantic relationships

so I’ve been in a relationship for 5 years now. And I see a lot of posts about how people think relationships mean having butterflies forever, your heart beating faster when they walk into a room, about cuddling together every night, legs intertwined, that you’d be so happy to live together you’d sleep on a double bed with each other every night.

And its not really like that, at least not to me.

You stop getting the butterflies when you live together. Your heart no longer speeds up when you see them, but instead, everything calms down. When youre in the room with them, you feel calm, and secure. When you cuddle them you feel your heart beat slow, and the sound of their breathing carry you towards comfort. It doesnt feel like a roller coaster anymore, it feels like home.

You don’t sleep curled up with each other every night, legs twisted between theirs so tight its hard to tell where yours begin and theirs end.

Instead, you sleep comfortably, side by side, sometimes facing different directions. But every night, you find yourself scooting backwards on the bed so you bump into them. You snuggle against their arm, or stroke their hair as they fall asleep. There are nights when my boyfriend, in his sleep, reaches around me and pulls me to him, like a child with his teddybear, like I am his comfort.

 In the wee hours of the morning before the dawn breaks, when the world is blue and you see through cracked eyes, you curl into their chest and inhale their scent before drifting back to sleep. 

Kisses aren’t always romantic and firey anymore. But there are so much more of them now. There are cold kisses when you’re eating ice cream in the summer, and sticky kisses over breakfast pancakes. There’s “im leaving now” kisses, and “one more kiss before you go” kisses. There’s sleepy morning kisses before work, when you don’t remember the alarm going off but instead the press of their lips against yours is what brings you into the day.

There’s kisses before sleep, and, you are so sweet with the things you do kisses. There’s kisses because you treat animals so tenderly, and I’m so glad i’m with you and not someone else kisses. There’s quick kisses in the aisles of the grocery store, when its loud and you gravitate together, when instead of having your own personal space and their own personal space, its both of yours together, and you step into their chest to take up less area together. 

You don’t always text each other with confessions of love and care like you used to, because that’s a given now, and you’ve moved on to quirky inside jokes about the life youve built together. You share looks of exasperation and amusement in public, your own little world against the outside one. 

Relationships aren’t always a fairy tale. They’re not always fireworks and sparks, at least, after the start.

But they are a quiet rhythm and hum of love and care. It’s not a fire in your soul, but one in your hearth, keeping you warm and comfortable, comforting you as you drowsily drift into sleep.

And I love that.

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saishii oliviaa-helen I’ll let you guys know how I like it :3 

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Meet Sushi, my little baby ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ

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okay okay gonna start FT as I go car hunting