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Hi bestie. Can you draw me a Geoff from parx maybe 👉👈

hi yes of course ^_^ was just gonna do sketches for the requests i was given but i saw a picture of him with pretty lighting and then . well

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WWWY festival 2023 📸 chrisatconcerts on Instagram

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Maya Hawke | Tactless Tour: Amsterdam 2023, ph. by Christine Mooijer

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Waterparks @ Tivoli Utrecht, November 2023

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Grayscale @ Slam Dunk North 2023

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Barbie (2023) + details (insp 1/2)

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I am not a muse. I am the somebody. End of fucking story.

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All Time Low Cologne, March 2023

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I love how tumblr is reverse chronological order so when your mutual starts having a blorbo breakdown overnight you get to start with the insane conclusion and work your way back to where they first went off the rails.

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"Notice how the possibility of joy always starts with vulnerability. Don’t try to think about the future when you’re feeling depressed or defensive. Consider the future only when your heart is wide open. And when it is? Meditate on what you love and enjoy the most. Make room for fragility and sadness and grief. Clear out some space for mystery, for your body’s weird urges, for fantasy, for art, for music, for a future that vastly outstrips the defeated truisms of older people who never really figured out how to feel free. You’re not going to be like that. You’re not on a rocket ship aimed straight at the sun. You’re on a path to freedom and deeply felt connection. You have all the time in the world, and a world full of friends to make. Believe it."

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the saying you cant miss what you never had is so insane to me.... like um actually i am always missing what i never had. theres so much missing... i miss everything

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girlrotting is my new term thank u

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I miss you blockbuster I miss you cds I miss you little buttons that played song previews in walmart I miss you vhs tapes I miss you blocky tv with rabbit ears that only had 10 channels I miss you scratched dvds from the library I miss you envelopes of developed photos from a film camera I miss you flip phones covered in stickers I miss you physical media

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Palaye Royale

Amsterdam, February 2023

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"You are safe." ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Take your time, there's no rush. I know they mean well when they tell you to 'get back out there', but I'd prefer you didn't feel like you have to move on immediately. You can process your feelings, your thoughts, at your own pace. There's no timeline for healing. It's ok if you want to press pause for a little bit. 

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"You have to learn to be tough." ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Not everyone is always going to have your best interest at heart. You can't be sensitive in this world, or they'll eat you up alive. You're not going to make it, if you're wearing your heart on your sleeve. You'll have to be selfish. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I'm not the person you'll need, if you want me to go along with these things. I'm not cutthroat, I'm too kind for my own good and I am always led by emotions. The thing is though, I don't want to make it in a world that doesn't appreciate this. I'm creating a world that does.

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My dad and I once had a disagreement over him using the adage "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."

I said, "That's just not true. Sometimes what doesn't kill you leaves you brittle and injured or traumatized."

He stopped and thought about that for a while. He came back later, and said, "It's like wood glue."

He pointed to my bookshelf, which he helped me salvage a while ago. He said, "Do you remember how I explained that, once we used the wood glue on them, the shelves would actually be stronger than they were before they broke?"

I did.

"But before we used the wood glue, those shelves were broken. They couldn't hold up shit. If you had put books on them, they would have collapsed. And that wood glue had to set awhile. If we put anything on them too early, they would have collapsed just the same as if we'd never fixed them at all. You've got to give these things time to set."

It sounded like a pretty good metaphor to me, but one thing I did pick up on was that whatever broke those shelves, that's not the thing that made them stronger. That just broke them. It was being fixed that made them stronger. It was the glue.

So my dad and I agreed, what doesn't kill you doesn't actually make you stronger, but healing does. And if you feel like healing hasn't made you stronger than you were before, you're probably not done healing. You've got to give these things time to set.