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[claire4ever]

Main reason I made this blog is because of my bitch if a grandmother who'll be the death of my entire family

[claire4ever]

Things my narcissist grandmother said this morning(things in brackets are things I didn't say to her but are my thoughts):

"No one cares about me unless I'm dead!" (My mother even stayed up all night thinking about what she could make to make her healthy)

"I should have killed [my father/her eldest son] when he was a baby if I had known he would marry a 'horrible' person." (Does she think she's a k-drama villain?)

"You're such a thief, stealing your phone at night even though the next day you have school" (first of all, it's my own problem if I can't wake up in the morning. Second, I haven't been able to sleep recently thanks to her dry ass coughs. Third, you've said that like over 100 times at this point, why bother?)

"If I had known [my mother/her daughter-in-law] would make my son mean, I wouldn't have let him marry [my mother/her daughter-in-law]!" (Your son isn't mean, you're just a bitch. An addition from my own mother: 'Then you should've kept your own son by your side. You can keep him, you know, keep letting him suck on your tits for all I care.')

"[my father/her son] know that the land hasn't been sold, why keep increasing the price? Decrease it so I use the money to live well until I die." (Does she seriously want us to sell land for much less than its worth just so she can spend it in a short amount of time? We will be the ones suffering later on when she's dead then. Hell, she might not even die when I go to college. Selfishness to the max...)

"I'm not getting better because you're not giving me medicine." (From what I remember, you only ask for antibiotics. Antibiotics don't work like that. Maybe you shouldn't eat those chips and fried foods instead you dumb bitch)

Afterword:

I'm gonna fucking die from a stroke just by listening to her bullshit. As much as I want to ask for advice, we're an Asian family and even RESPONDING to her in a way she doesn't like means disrespect. My entire family is also suffering from her. She lives with us, which is why we basically listen to this shit 24/7 (I especially have it worse since I'm forced to sleep with her).

[claire4ever]

Everyday, I fear.

I fear of my family

I fear of the future

I fear of the past catching up to me

I fear I'll lose everything

I fear over the slight probability of anything

I fear. Everyday, Every little thing.

[claire4ever]

"What is a man to a king, or a king to a god? What is a god to a devil putting up a facade? I need an outlet now.... I need to write this down."

-Wanting Getting Wanting, Demondice

[claire4ever]

I'm recently losing motivation to play piano. Every time I touch a single key, I feel like my energy is getting drained. Yet at the same time, I don't want to lose the ability to play.

"That's pathetic," everyone near me will say. As much as I don't want to listen, my eyes swell with tears with every little word.