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slightly older piece i forgor to post, here's rowan basking 🏖️

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Hypersexuality.

I hear a lot of people throw it out there. Ya know saying "omg guys im hypersexual" or something like that. Just using it to describe them being a particularly horny or sexual person. In the same vein as people saying they have ocd because they like to have their phone in a specific spot.

I struggle with hypersexuality. I live with it everyday. It greatly impacts my daily life and ability to consent. It causes me to have horny thoughts when I don't want to. Makes me feel and want sex when I dont actually want it. Makes me imagine sexual scenarios with people I don't want to like some kinda intrusive thought. It makes me feel like I owe people sex. Making me feel bad if i didnt have sex with someone when we hang out, not that i missed out, its that i didnt offer myself to them. That my worth as a human being is dictated by my sexual worth. It attempts to protect me in unwanted sexual scenes by telling me I enjoy it, making me feel horny and aroused. Only to realise months later.. i didn't want it.

Hypersexuality isn't some fun thing. You dont want hypersexuality. Hypersexuality is a mental illness.

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Fuck...

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Sketchpage for @/CherryPopsyCat

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✞ 666 ✞

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OH another thing that happened. I got this awesome custom character drawn by @izzypaw based on a kidcore moodboard i found. Izzy absolutely knocked her design out of the park and im sosososos happy with her. I've decided to name her Starburst!

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Love the dissociation protection mechanism in my brain stopping me from actually getting better. You want affection? You wanna have something make you feel better? How about make everything feel like nothing, that works too right.

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Custom design commission <3

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more doodle page commssss

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bnuuy

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