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Help

I have a few problems with my medications, and my doctor is only available Monday.

Firstly, I've been taking antidepressants for a few weeks now, and the depression which had platoed at a not-pleasant-but-managable-level has now become (a lot) worse, I don't know why.

Secondly, I have ADD, and I think I need about 30-40mg of Ritalin for it. The problem is, that while that dose makes me able to concentrate very well, 60% of the time it also raises my heart rate (from 66bpm to about 96 :)), makes my hands and feet cold and sweaty, and gives me the same symptoms of very high excitement mixed with fear (butterflies in stomach and joints, shaking fingers), which is while I've only taken that dose now five times, and only take 20mg usually.

What would be your suggestions?

(I will talk with my psychiatrist before taking any action, I just want suggestions I can try with him, because he's very "I have a PhD, I know what is good")

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What

We know what you did.

And we are NOT happy.

The Collective wishes you well.

Thank you, for your cooperation.

HELP! I broke away from the collective momentarily, please hear me out! On Wednesday you must wear pink socks, the light waves that that color transmits neutralizes...

Ignore that traitor.

She knows not what she speaks of.

...NOOOOOOOOOOO! Stop! They're coming for me! Get out of there! Hide!

The Collective demands recompense.

You are found guilty of resistance.

Surrender, or face the consequences.

You are disposable and replaceable.

Hostages are pointless.

Do not touch that vial.

The Collective will ERASE you if you touch that vial.

You have angered the Collective.

Initiating the ERASER.

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GET OUT OF THAT HOUSE! Listen to me!

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The pink socks emit a certain type of light wave that destroys...

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...their weapons! Trust me on this!

The Collective demands silence from you.

Puny mortal.

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There's only twelve of them right now, but they're gath...

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...ering more resources! And if you see any glowing rocks or...

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...pills or spices, do not consume it, NO MATTER WHAT! And don't let anyone else eith...

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...er! They'll make you one of them.

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When they say ERASE, it means they're going to take over my mind again! If you see me again, do...

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...not believe anything I say unless I say triangular purple bananas first!

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And you have to get to the center, and destroy...

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...IT. You'll know it when you see it. I don't know...

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...if I'll survive that, but IT must be destroyed! Otherwise IT will take over and control...

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...everything! You have to burn it. Otherwise it'll split into...

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...different consciousnesses and start a war, with people as tokens! It doesn't care about us, only con...

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...trol! Please, I believe in you, you can do it. And just know, no matter what, I love you, and you're aweso...

Initiating ERASER.

Heed not that fool.

The Collective has silenced the rebel.

Danger. Danger. Danger.

Security compromised.

Information leak identified.

TARGET identified.

Zoning in on TARGET.

Distraction sent.

Course of action 391 selected.

Arrival time estimated.

Wednesday, midday.

...

YOU'RE NEXT!

@thepurplesteampunk

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I'm sorry 🫂

But if I can add a suggestion: type everything in bullet points, feed it to chat gpt, and tell it to make a text out of it. Saved me multiple times already when the same thing happened to me with essays for school.

Everything reminds me of somebody.

There's a person who whistles off-tune while doing work. It used to annoy me. But then I realized my grandfather does the same thing, and it only makes me think of him.

There's a person who is always trying to be helpful, but he hardly ever knows what is going on, so he just gets in the way. He reminds me of my brother. It's something I find adorable with my brother, who is just learning, and has good intentions.

There's a song with several lines that make me think about how I feel about my best friend.

There's a type of bird, a painted bunting, that makes me think of my aunt. Because I used to be obsessed with painted buntings. And my aunt would draw them for me, and show me pictures.

Every time I see a river, I think of one of my friends that I've metaphorically compared to a river for so many reasons.

But it could be anything.

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Oh, smells. Smells are some of the worst/best.

The smell of that one shampoo my mother sometimes uses, that reminds me of a holiday break morning in January when a kid-version of me started up his PlayStation, to play FIFA

The smell of the deodorant of my ex girlfriend which is not a rare one, but just rare enough, that I never get used to it

The smell of playing football (soccer) with my friends from elementary school

The smell of restaurants, which remind me with who I was here

The smell of the laundry detergent my mom and also one of my best friends uses, and always reminds me of them.

The list just goes on and on and on and on...

And one I just noticed:

The smell of burning wood in cold air with a touch of cattle always reminds me of the skiing holiday my family was on years ago, before we moved.

Everything reminds me of somebody.

There's a person who whistles off-tune while doing work. It used to annoy me. But then I realized my grandfather does the same thing, and it only makes me think of him.

There's a person who is always trying to be helpful, but he hardly ever knows what is going on, so he just gets in the way. He reminds me of my brother. It's something I find adorable with my brother, who is just learning, and has good intentions.

There's a song with several lines that make me think about how I feel about my best friend.

There's a type of bird, a painted bunting, that makes me think of my aunt. Because I used to be obsessed with painted buntings. And my aunt would draw them for me, and show me pictures.

Every time I see a river, I think of one of my friends that I've metaphorically compared to a river for so many reasons.

But it could be anything.

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This ... Ability (?) Is very nice, and I can enjoy it often. But it has also some drawbacks.

The ridges of the stitches and the cloth of your new sweatpants which feel exactly like the sweatpants of your ex girlfriend.

The feeling of fresh dough reminding you of a friend that you no longer know, with whom you made cookies oh so long ago.

Or the scented trees reminding you of a different friend, who no longer is one.

Everything reminds me of somebody.

There's a person who whistles off-tune while doing work. It used to annoy me. But then I realized my grandfather does the same thing, and it only makes me think of him.

There's a person who is always trying to be helpful, but he hardly ever knows what is going on, so he just gets in the way. He reminds me of my brother. It's something I find adorable with my brother, who is just learning, and has good intentions.

There's a song with several lines that make me think about how I feel about my best friend.

There's a type of bird, a painted bunting, that makes me think of my aunt. Because I used to be obsessed with painted buntings. And my aunt would draw them for me, and show me pictures.

Every time I see a river, I think of one of my friends that I've metaphorically compared to a river for so many reasons.

But it could be anything.

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I'm a lil' bit frustrated because somebody I talk to occasionally is fun to talk to and is fine with me being weird.

But I'm weird as in strangeness, murder, and talking about violence.

He makes it s*xual.

I don't think I have the right to be uncomfortable or complain when we just discussed which organs you could live without or the likelihood of detaching your kidney without rendering it useless for donation from a stab wound alone.

But like... I like weird. Just not in that direction. Never in that direction.

*shudders*

Sorry.

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a layer of polonium-210 and one made out of beryllium separated by a layer of gold foil

ok guys. lets make a normal sandwich that is normal and not diseasious

i will start

bread

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I have no words..

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Well, I (Cocusnuss) am at my grandparents tomorrow, but I can summon my more powerful alter ego.

Do you have a favorite letter?

f in cursive, because it's fun to write.

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Where and against who will it be fought?

Do you have a favorite letter?

f in cursive, because it's fun to write.

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You just wished them Wednesday. Not a good one. Not a bad one. Just.. a Wednesday. Like, I hope you exist today.

happy wednesday to all my fellow aroace folks

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This bastard walked around Dublin in a Daisy cosplay,, he hugged the spire,, a dog pissed on his keyboard. A random old man stared at him.

I respect it

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No matter how, who or what you are.

Do you have a favorite letter?

f in cursive, because it's fun to write.

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I will support you

Do you have a favorite letter?

f in cursive, because it's fun to write.

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Gut so

Do you have a favorite letter?

f in cursive, because it's fun to write.

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I'm terribly sorry

@thepurplesteampunk, please stop bullying him. He has a trauma.

Do you have a favorite letter?

f in cursive, because it's fun to write.

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After reading only the caption, I was expecting something like this