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More from Las Vegas 🌵🏜️☀️

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Photos of The Runaways when Vicki Blue (Victory Tischler-Blue) was the bassist

📷 Brad Elterman

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(ignore the crossed over dyke march this was taken from a tiktok screenshot) this is the greatest thing ever and i wish i was there

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Las Vegas

Hey 😁 so. My spontaneous trip to Vegas to see Joan Jett ended up being everything I ever wanted and more.

There were 3 things that I wanted out of this trip:

Front row at the concert

A pick

A setlist

The above photos are slightly deceiving, because I got 2/3 - I didn’t get a setlist, but the nice couple I met and stood next to during the concert let me take a photo with theirs 🥹 but I DID get front row and the bassist threw me a pick at the end of the show!! The show itself was AMAZING - Joan is so fucking cool dude. She talked a bit between songs and just her attitude and the way she carries herself is so badass, but also very endearing, I was literally enamored lol. She’d often come up to the front of the stage on the sides RIGHT IN FRONT OF US and at one point during a guitar solo she was right in front of me and said something, maybe “how’re you doing?” or something, but all I could do anytime she was within my vicinity was smile and reach out to her like ✋😁‼️ it was so fucking cool. (She’s also even more beautiful in person, and I loved seeing her enjoying herself on stage 🥺)

BUT WAIT.

I woke up the next day in tears, feeling very bittersweet. The concert was over, my trip was over, and I had to get ready to catch my flight home (I didn’t want to leave).

After landing back in Ohio, as I was waiting for my ride at the airport, I checked instagram, and I had a handful of notifications from Joan’s account saying I’d won a signed setlist from the concert I attended 😭😭😭

SO.

I started out with 2/3 of my goals, and somehow ended up with 3/3 by the end of everything 🥺 I saw this and was literally holding back tears at the airport. I still feel like crying.

I cannot stress enough just how much this trip meant to me and what Joan and her music mean to me right now. The way everything fell into place is so unreal to me, and I feel more alive than I’ve felt in a long time. The trip itself was my first solo trip, and I had so much fun and have gained so much confidence from it. During the concert, I made sure to be 100% present, so I didn’t get a ton of photos or videos, but I feel accomplished in my mission to enjoy the concert as a fan who only wished to thank one of their favorite artists who has helped and inspired them so much.

I’m gonna be delusional for a sec and say that there was a moment near the end of I Love Rock N Roll (like the entire part where the ending lyrics are repeated) where Joan was looking in my direction and it felt like we were singing to each other lmao. I was squirming inside but made sure to stay in that moment and IT FELT SO FUCKIN COOL. She was likely looking at my general section, but still, in my head I was just thinking, “thank you thank you thank you” 🖤

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Welcome home, Jungkook & Jimin 💐

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i'm seeing joan jett this week, 4 more members of bts (including jungkook, my bias!!!) are finally out of the military, fandoms are alive, there's so much going on, my fangirl ass is so overwhelmed lmao

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Can never tell if my makeup looks intentionally messy in a good way or just messy and bad 💀

Trying to figure out what makeup I wanna wear to a concert 🥀

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hey so I just watched Portrait of a Lady on Fire and now I’ve just been sitting in silence for 30 minutes 😁

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Flew a little too close to the sun and now I'm seeing Joan Jett and the Blackhearts in Vegas in a few weeks 💀 weird little reflective personal rant under the cut

I've just been so sad and disinterested in everything recently, like I just feel bored of being alive. That sounds so dark and weird, and I honestly can't really explain the feeling very well...and I know this is cheesy as fuck, but genuinely listening to Joan's music and learning about her as a person and everything has given me a spark of life? Like, I'm inspired for the first time in ages.

I've always known who she was, growing up with parents that raised me on classic rock, but I didn't know much about her until I looked a little closer (I don't even know how I began spiraling, I just casually fell down the rabbit hole one day as I do with these things lol). She's the role model I didn't know that I needed but I always wanted. In the least parasocial way, I feel like I can relate to her on some level - I grew up being obsessed with music, became a musician from an early age, and music was all I thought about growing up. Like on an obsessive level.

She's literally miles cooler than I'll ever be, and I'm a classical musician first and foremost, so we're much different in that regard, but I also live for music and feel that I was born to play, which seems to be how she feels as well. I've never felt that way about anything else in my life, and it's so intense that it makes me emotional sometimes, especially when I'm struggling trying to blend into a corporate job and don't have the time or energy to be creative...so seeing that quality in her is so meaningful to me, because sometimes I just feel so alone and like no one will every truly get me. Like I'm just existing in this world trying to find my passion again, but everyone around me is complacent (or coping - both of which are understandable, but I feel like my spirit is dying sometimes and I'm unable to ignore it like other people around me seem to do sometimes). Idk. I could write so much more about my internal thoughts and feelings recently, but I need to stop before I get carried away lol.

Anyway, I'm stoked. I literally booked my flight, hotel, and bought the concert tickets on a whim at 2am the other night lmao. And I actually feel alive. The show will be amazing I'm sure, but even the experience of traveling and fucking doing something is filling me with so much anticipation and joy. I'm trying not to hype it up too much in my head, but I just have a good feeling that the trip as a whole will be a turning point for me (I love being dramatic).

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added more to the sleeve the other day 🖤

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(ignore the crossed over dyke march this was taken from a tiktok screenshot) this is the greatest thing ever and i wish i was there

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Joan Jett

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"tumblr's the only social media without algorithms!" "you can still be anonymous on tumblr!" "tumblr's so nice because you don't have to show your face!" WRONG tumblr is special because you can have 3000 followers and still get an average of seven likes a post. i'm doing stand up comedy at a packed venue and one person is laughing

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been hanging on by a thread recently, but I took a mental health day and it’s been really nice 🤍 morning self care routine, errands, and a nice long walk with Peaches (and it was finally sunny after raining for like a week straight 😭)

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i forgot to post this but which one of you lame ass nerds works at my dentists old office