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This, pretty much this. In my case sometimes it's crying but that's at the point where I need to get away. BEFORE that point I completely lose control of my body. I already suffer from tremors at all times but they are manageable and I've grown used to living a normal life with those but when my emotions are a mess? oh boy, I can't even hold things in my hands or control my limbs (mostly my arms) or my voice even, I sound like I'm terrified even if what I'm feeling is anger or frustration and not being able to control it and growing frustrated at it actually makes the tremors worse to the point I've been asked if I need a hospital bc it looks like I'm having some kind of seizure.... while what I actually am is angry or sad or any strong emotion really. By the time I get to crying, I seriously need to remove myself from the situation... which isn't always possible. I always end up avoiding confrontation or any argument even necessary ones bc I hate losing control of my body like that. I think if someone tries to coddle me or accuse me of gaslighting I'd be so pissed that I'd lose even more control and actually need a hospital. Fortunately, I've avoided that so far... mostly bc I don't usually argue with strangers and most of my arguments are with family members who are aware of my tremors so they mostly ignore it.

Y'know, some people do have a strong crying response to stress, and they might cry (even against their own will) when faced with an upsetting situation and that doesnt mean they are "gaslighting" or "manipulating" you.

There are people who use crying as a manipulation tactic? Absolutely. But that doesn't mean that every person that cries during a heated argument is trying to get under your skin. They have their own emotions and issues, and frankly, not everything other people do is a personal attack on you.

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Look, I get it. But in one case I saw someone wish a person who bought the game for their unborn baby to be born malformed and to die an agonizing death... so you know there is a point where it's too much and criticizing and calling out people ends up being us becoming just as bad.

I prefer to take that energy and put it into something better like actually helping. Donating and sharing links to pro-trans organizations, educating people about the situation, among other things. But going into streams and wishing people death of them, their families (who probably have no idea about any of this), unborn babies still in the womb?(WTF?) Two wrongs don't make a right.

And I KNOW most people aren't doing this but I don't want to justify it because someone made the decision to buy the game then it's okay for them to be attacked that way. They already paid, they already made that decision and you cannot change it so in the end we end up just letting our own darker side out. And how is that better? It's cathartic? Maybe, but it'll just end up harming the Trans and Jew communities when all those horrible posts are shown all over to exemplify the "kind of people they are" because you KNOW that's how it'll be framed.

Disagree with me? OK, it's your right. But also every time y'all go to a streamer or anyone really to curse their families and children go donate first: https://translifeline.org/donate/ or here https://jcsfl.org/donate/ or both, or any charity of your choice. Or if you're broke, maybe go find someone who has no idea about any of these issues and educate them, be nice about it if they are confused. If you come off ass angry and show no patience they're probably not going to listen.

People/Steamers crying about getting shit over buying and playing hogwarts legacy vs trans people dealing with politicians and pundits calling for their genocide and being kind of understandably furious at streamers for enabling JK Rowling’s anti semitism and transphobia in the midst of fascists using any means to get legitimacy to kill people.

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808 my beloved…

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im literally going to post about this game nonstop. you guys can't escape it. i am Obsessed. this is a hi fi rush account now sorry

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Enid ‘ADHD’ Sinclair, during her inevitable sexuality crisis: I swear to god Wednesday sometimes I could just strangle you.

Enid: But I also kinda love you though. Like a lot.

Enid: No homo, obviously.

Enid: Okay it’s kinda homo, but I’m not ready to deal with that.

Enid: If I asked you to make out with me would you be down? LIKE I’M NOT! But if I was… would you be into that? *intense eye contact*

Wednesday, confused in autistic: You’re beautiful.

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This.

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Them 💗🖤

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Gómez approves.

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Hanahaki disease

I finally finished it! I'm so happy!

I wanted to make something for Christmas but well, I'm super late so take this as a Christmas comic lol

Btw this will be the last post about Wednesday, BUT, I still have some ideas that I might do in the future, I want to take a break now

So please stick around!

Happy holidays!

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This is just WONDERful

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#the original wednesday addams dance move The Addams Family (1964 - 1966) Wednesday (2022- )

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I mean look at their hands. I've always measured the intensity of a hug by what the hands are doing. They're not just resting on the other person's back. No, both Wednesday and Enid are almost trying to bring the other even closer than their bodies let them as if they could bring the other into themselves to keep them safe and never let go, okay?

I AM NOT OKAY!!

this scene was 10x more emotional and romantic than any scene between them and those boys

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The love triangle was so shit. Even Jenna Orgega agrees

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Small World huh? - Part 2

Part 1 AO3

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Chapter Summary: Alex remembers some fond memories, Steph thinks she's about to be killed, and Gabe has no idea what the hell is up with everyone today.

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“... that last performance was amazing!” Alex said with a shy smile on her face as she nervously approached her favorite drummer.

She had been following the band for a couple of months now and holy shit, she did not regret it one bit. What had started as another excuse to get away from Helping Hands for one night had turned into attending every single show in town and getting a fake ID so she could listen to the great music and maybe stare at the hottest girl Alex had ever seen. Chelsea wouldn't stop teasing her about it.

The taller girl smiled and said, "Thanks!" She stared at her for a few seconds before continuing. "You're Alex, right?"

"Oh..." Alex faltered. "Y-you remember my name?" She asked trying and failing to ignore how flustered she was.

"No way I'd forget a fan..." Steph replied, looking at her cute face. 'a really fucking cute one.'

Alex's eyes widened as the taller girl's thoughts suddenly flowed into her head. 'And you're fucking hot.' Alex thought to herself, blushing furiously. She didn't know what to say or do since she had never experienced this before. 

Angry thoughts? Sure.

People thinking she's weird or broken? All the fucking time.

Perverts wanting to fuck her? A few times over the years.

... but this?

Steph's thoughts while interested (holy shit...was she interested?) were not associated with anything that made Alex feel uncomfortable or anxious. If anything there was this something almost welcoming?

"Sure, gave you an autograph last week, didn't I?" The brunette replied and if the heat in Alex's cheeks was anything to go by then she was sure her face was so red that a tomato would be envious.

The tall, intriguing girl let out a soft laugh at Alex’s obvious embarrassment.

"You've been to a lot of our shows recently... enjoying the music...staring at the drummer..." Said drummer gave Alex a smirk so damn hot that the short girl thought she was going to melt... Musicians had always been her weakness, and a hot girl who knew how to slay the drums? Alex was screwed and she knew it. 

Then her brain caught up with what the other girl had said, and Alex felt like her heart was about to burst out of her chest.  Was she having a heart attack?

"W-What...? No! I--" 

"Hey, I can't blame you... She's pretty damn hot." The drummer moved a step closer and whispered. "Don't worry, she doesn't mind you checking her out..." 

"...She doesn't?" Alex asked, breathless. Her eyes darting to the taller girl's figure, attempting to catch a glimpse of her aura. Though there was a faint outline of something, she couldn't quite distinguish the color.

"Oh no, she's very intrigued...might wanna take you out tonight." She smirked. "You hungry...?" She asked, looking at her up and down like she was in the menu... when her eyes finally met Alex's, they sparkled with mischief that the shorter girl could not help but return with a similar one of her own. 

"Starving..." 

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"Steph, please!" 

"Just a little longer, baby... you're doing so good." The drummer murmured between kisses as her fingers moved teasingly, always slowing down when they felt the warmth around them signal the approaching peak. "You're doing amazing, just hold on for me, okay?" 

'So beautiful, so fucking beautiful...I'll make you feel so good...' 

Steph thoughts sending warmth through her body that did nothing to help her contain her pleasure, but Alex still nodded, whispering a soft 'Okay' against the older girl's lips then gasping as another finger gently joined the other two already deep in her core.

"F-Fuck..." Her walls clenching around the digits gently working her body, stretching her little by little but never hurting. She wondered how Steph could be so fucking gentle while wrecking her body at the same time...

The fingers pumped into her core slowly, reaching a little deeper each time and sending her closer and closer to the edge until they were as deep as they could go... then suddenly stopped and almost fully pulled out. 

Frustrated, Alex opened her mouth to complain only for Steph to silence her with a kiss and whispered "Hold on tight." then before Alex could ask what she meant, the fingers slammed deep into her core, pumping with a hard, fast, and relentless pace that made it hard for Alex to breathe, to cling to her sweaty lover as the brunette unleashed all her passion and fire into Alex. 

"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck..." Steph's fingers were stretching her, pounding into Alex and playing her like she would her drums. 

Wild and unrestrained.

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"Alex. Alex!"

The black haired girl opened her eyes to find her brother, a blond guy holding a record with the picture of a bird and Steph fully clothed and glowing purple and not at all how Alex had just been dreaming... her dream... memory sure as hell didn't include clothes or her long lost brother.

Shit.

"Gabe stop shaking me." Alex pushed him away. "First you crush my ribs now this? When did you get this violent?" She complained trying to distract herself from all the purple auras surrounding her. Her eyes, however, could not help quickly stealing a glance at Steph's frozen form as the drummer's --now DJ apparently-- thoughts got louder.

'Alex and Gabe know each other? Wait a minute... no fucking way.'

"Hey! You're the one who decided to take a nap in the middle of the record store." Gabe rolled his eyes at her, but his purple aura betrayed his worry. 'Is she okay? What happened? Is she sick like m--?'

"Whatever, just haven't eaten anything today, I'll snack on something later." She replied quickly before Gabe's thoughts went down an road she didn't want them to OR Steph had a panic attack.

Her brother narrowed his eyes, not quite convinced but didn't say anything about her obvious lie as he noticed her glancing in Steph's direction. "Right, we'll get you something to eat..." He trailed off and suddenly turned to look at Steph with suspicion.

"Wait a minute! So how is it that you know my sister? Ryan said that you only came out of the booth when she collapsed but you were calling her name when I came in!" He looked back at the blonde man-- Ryan apparently-- as if to have him confirm what he just said, and Alex quickly glanced back at Steph.

'Holy shit, holy shit. Alex is Gabe's sister. Alex is Gabe's sister. Gabe my best friend. Alex is my best friend's sister.'

The until now quiet DJ paled, her thoughts screaming and her purple aura nearly overwhelming Alex.

'I had sex with my best friend's sister. Fucking amazing sex... I had A LOT of amazing sex with my best friend's little sister... every day for a week.' The more Steph thought the more Alex blushed.

'I'm going to die. Gabe is going to murder me. This is not how I imagined meeting her again... getting murdered by her brother. ah fuck this means she didn't come looking for me...' Her eyes met Alex's and the shorter girl bit her lip unsure of what to do and still a little overwhelmed by Steph's emotions.

That seemed to be distracting enough to get the DJ to snap from her thoughts. 'Still so damn cute... stop that Gingrich! Try not to die first! Fortunately, the brunette managed to look away from Alex and compose herself enough before Gabe noticed.

"Well, I didn't know this Alex was your sister, dude. If I had I would have told you everything I knew to help you find her." She promised her friend.

'...well not the parts that'd get me killed'

Steph looked back at Alex and put on a fake but very convincing smile that probably only worked on Gabe because her next words distracted him with one of his favorite activities...teasing Alex. "I would have done anything to reunite my best friend and my biggest fan if I’d known."

Oh no...

Gabe looked at her for a moment then smirked. "Biggest fan, huh?"

Fuck.

"This one used to go to all Drugstore Makeup's shows.” The beanie loving jerk returned Gabe’s smirk and if not for her still purple aura Alex would have thought she was completely fine.

"I remember signing a few autographs after each show." The brunette nodded. "She followed m- us around for months so we got to know her and talk a bit. She was pretty shy; I mean after screaming all show 'Steph you're so hot!' she'd get so red afterwards."

Alex looked at her annoyed in that moment. "What!? I never did that!"

"Nothing to be ashamed Alex." Steph met her eyes. 'Please trust me even though I have no idea what the hell I'm doing...'

"Can't blame ya for fainting after seeing all this hotness again." She winked and Alex rolled her eyes as she tried to stop a blush from giving her away.

"You're still so full of yourself. It was Izzie I liked if you must know."

Steph winced at her former band mate's name. "Ouch... okay, okay I'll stop." For some reason Alex couldn't help but think that she had hurt her even though she was just trying to follow her not at all planned plan to distract Gabe.

Whatever Steph's reaction to Izzie's name meant, it seem to make Gabe wince as well and change the subject.

"Wow, I guess the world is really small huh? Maybe it was fate that you met and now we're all here together in Heaven Springs." Alex's brother gave them a big smile and now seemed to be trying to distract Alex...

"Anyway... Steph, you'll be at the Lantern tonight?"

"Won't miss it!" The other girl confirmed sounding still a bit nervous though Alex could see her purple aura now had traces of blue as well.

What the...?

What was the big deal about Izzie? Alex was now extremely curious and had to force herself to not look into anyone's aura. This had been a very intense day already and she wasn't sure she could take more.

"Great! We'll see you there. Oh hey, I almost forget! I had something on the hold list?"

"Right! Hold on..." Steph went to a shelf and got a record for Gabe.

Alex got a feeling she was relieved to look away from her best friend if only for a second. Alex thought that she was still fearing for her life and to be fair, who could blame her? Alex was sure Gabe would not be happy about all the 'Fucking amazing sex'... which could we stop a second to process the fact that not only did Steph recognize her immediately, even though Alex looked a bit different now and it had been over two years but she also seemed to have fond memories of their time together AND was disappointed that Alex wasn't in Haven for her...

Did that mean she wanted Alex to have come here looking for her? 'There was gold in her aura right before I fainted...I'd only ever seen that color with her before and I still think it was joy...

Does she still...?

While Alex was having a mini meltdown, Steph and Gabe must have finished talking because next thing she knew Gabe was nudging her with his shoulder to get her attention.

"Alex? We should go to the Lantern to get some food in you before you faint again." He looked at her strangely for a moment but the shrugged and started leading her to the door.

"Right. Let's do that..." And if Alex glanced in Steph's direction as they left before replying-- "...I'm starving." and making the other girl's eyes widen and her aura turn hot pink?

It was completely accidental.

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please shutup………..pleaee sh