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Holy shit I thought this was printed

Painted the house opening

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A relationship but instead of sex we sit as far away from each other as possible on a couch and talk about nothing.

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Fuck it, I'm writing a stupid fucking book.

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No because literally I was and am absolutely correct. I may be the second choice, but I'm a CHOICE. I know that.

I am NOT delulu. That shit was flirting. I know it was.

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Can I retract my statement again?

I am NOT delulu. That shit was flirting. I know it was.

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Fuck, I deleted a cringey post that I wanted to repurpose into a cringey story :(.

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I was delulu. It was not flirting

I am NOT delulu. That shit was flirting. I know it was.

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Trying to be healthy is crazy because I do a pushup or look at the nutrition label on something and my mom is worried I have an eating disorder and everyone just looks at me like "I wanna comment but I don't wanna stop them".

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Do you guys think there is an alternate universe where Trump didn't turn his head just enough at that rally?

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I've been super overwhelmed with everything going on in America and in the world. Especially the things about trans people since I am a trans teenager. And it's made me wonder: If I killed myself, would that be a political act? Would my note detailing my worries and my apologies to my loved ones and my warnings be put on the news? Would my parents listen to my note and dump my ashes in front of the White House's front gate? Would my death be debated on? Would some people say it was good that I killed myself? Would transgender kids sob and make signs with quotes from my note on it? Would I even be noticed or would I be another insane trans kid who wants attention?

It makes me think maybe that all I can do to protest is slit my wrists and hope people care enough.

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I have the urge to write an original works in which it ends so fucking tragically that I later release the "No therapy needed" ending to contradict the original ending and fix the mental issues I caused.

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The irony is I'd totally egg the White House if I could afford eggs.

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I want to read something so fucking gut-wrenching and relatable that it twists my organs and hurts my head and makes me cry until I come out of the whole endeavor an entirely different person.

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Some of y'all never learned to pretend that whoever you are talking about is listening to what you say through a secret microphone and it shows.

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Sometimes when I'm sad while reading tragic romance stories I just think "Well, not like this will ever happen to you. No one will ever love you dumby 🤣" and that shuts my brain up.

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Sometimes, I want to compile a collection of all the little things he says that have made me feel butt-hurt and tell someone so I can at least know if I'm just being dramatic or not.

Holy fuck I need friends.

I have no one to talk to anymore.

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I may want to slash my wrists open when people see me as a girl, but at least I know I'm not faking it. 🤷‍♂️