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[coolknife4]

system culture is rewatching or looking at your source(s) and thinking about everything you could've done better, and how much better you could've been, and wishing you could go back and apologize to them

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Yep. I absolutely agree with this.

It's pretty weird, and I dislike that it is kinda normalized.

Hey guys, just an fyi, if you meet a sourcemate of someone you are related to in source, maybe don't immediately start hitting on them...

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The medicalization of plurality that's ingrained into our brain has caused so many issues for me. Just the implications of that take such a toll every day. The idea that the life I remember living was never real. That none of the memories that shaped me into the person I am were ever real. The symptoms of PTSD I experience for things that never happened to this body (or even anything in the same realm, and no, it's not just repressed), aren't based in reality. People always say "well it's real to you" but that isn't enough. I'm not looking for validation about the way I feel about it or how it affects me. It was real, and I'm tired of pretending it wasn't.

Imagine waking up in a body that isn't yours. You know exactly who you are and where you came from, even if a lot of the details are foggy. But then everyone tells you that your existence is the product of a disorder, of traumas that you have no connection to because you didn't live them. And everything you remember? Didn't happen. It's all just shit your brain created to fill a gap or something, process the trauma (that you have no connection to). And that's honestly the best case scenario, if they're not calling you crazy or delusional.

So shoutout to all the beings with past lives who are constantly being invalidated by the medicalized bullshit of this world. If you say your life was real, we're gonna believe you. If that changes and you realize it was in fact a trauma response, then that's okay, we'll believe you then too. It's rough out there for beings like us, but just know you're not alone in having to put up with this shit.

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When we watch my source, I feel so close to home. Yet so far and hopeless.

But, I'm handling it better. It gets worse and better, it's never the same reaction to my home. I think it might be getting better.

Being a co-host is pretty cool, and at least I didn't lose myself completely. I have a shit ton of sourcemates and insys relationships that I'm so thankful to have.

And HOBBIES. and my OWN interests :p

Being a fictive is fucked up. Like you've experienced trauma that the body has not. The very nature of being a fictive is a new trauma. Getting ripped away from your world and your friends and loved ones and just dropped into the head of someone completely foreign. Genuinely horrifying.

(written by our host Noelle on behalf of our newly discovered fictive Naminé)

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shoutout to ppl who are connect to their source and yet also feel weird about it

i AM my source but ill never tell anyone my actual source unless we are really close because im just. so different from it. but its still me and im still him. yknow?

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Cool awesome facts about being a co-host!

Sleep paralysi-

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Yo funny thing that just happened before I pass out a cat that we have was just clawing aggressively at mydoor when I was literally asleep and then when I realized that it was coming from real life while in my dream I woke up

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I'm not too good at positivity but I wanna give it a shot- so here's to introjects who just don't like something about their source.

Maybe it's a specific headcanon you don't like- even if there's nothing wrong with the idea (znd especially if there is) it can still be very disorienting and upsetting. You're completely within your right to express that you don't like a headcanon for personal reasons. Maybe don't be an ass about it, but do take care of yourself over having the "correct" interpretation of your source or agreeing with whatever fandoms current popular opinion about you is.

Or maybe instead of fandom, it's the source itself. If you, say, are inteojected from a person, or piece of media you just don't like all that much. Maybe it's just a personal distaste or maybe it's genuinely really bad or harmful. But it's okay to not like it, or to have complicated feelings on it. And whatever you think of it, you're allowed to not want to see people bashing you're source, even if you agree it's bad. It doesn't matter how good it is, it is your source, and it's okay for you to have boundaries surrounding it.

So here's some love for everyone who:

- hates their source

- hates the popular interpretation of their source

- likes their source but is scared to admit it because it's usually seen as bad

- has complicated feelings about these things that don't fit into like/dislike

- has a visceral reaction to fandom tjings like shipping or certain headcanons

- those who aren't in line with "canon" and feel pressured by or disdain towards their source because of it

- or, anyone who has a source they see everywhere and really wish they didnt

- to those who like it once, but can't anymore for whatever reason

- and for everyone who is trying to seperate from their source. And extra hearts if you aren't able to for whatever reason... I've been there

+ anyone I could have missed

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[A message, being spread across all of our blogs.]

AS OF MARCH 30

We will no longer be consistently posting on here anymore. A bunch has happened, and we've realized the spaces we use on this app aren't for us. they influence us badly. we will only be using this account for posting. mainly.

please, please feel free to add us on our Discord, teecupofcement

if your a follower. if your a mutual. if we follow you. if you barely know us. please contact us on there. absolutely feel free to DM us asking for permission first if that's what it takes for a good friend to friend us on there. do whatever you can if you want to friend us on there. don't be shy!!

we hope anyone who reads understands, as we take this course of action through the new perspective we've been given as a huge step to take. it's helped us.

Decided to make this intro post, since I can't fall back asleep.

---❇---

Our SimplyPlural - the_northstar

Our main Tumblr account, which I might be more active on.

Fictive Identity - Evan Myers

Source - EverymanHYBRID

Symptom holder of a bunch of things

There's more on my SimplyPlural profile.

I dunno what to add, really. But I might just try posting on here more.

We are pro-all system origins

We are also a Mixed-Origin system.

And fictive & masc-heavy.

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If anybody sees this, go check out my friends source call !! They're awesome

Introject / Fictive Sourcecall !!! || Slenderverse

Anybody from Slenderverse? I don’t really mind which one! I also don’t have a specific DNI for certain fictives … I don’t judge people based off of who their source is. Also this sourcecall is for my friend Max too (in this sys), I’m just kind of the only one fronting right now :] so if there’s like, any skenderverse introjects we’d gladly like to become friends. (I have ABSOULTELY NO CLUE How soon we’re going to be getting discord back. But sometime??? Maybe??? I dunno. And also I don’t mind which slenderverse.)

DNI: Anti-Endos, Users above 18 Bodily, and just bad individuals. Please and HAPPY TRAVELS ON TUMBLR

[Me and Max are co-hosts, there’s no specific set host but there’s also 2 frequent fronters. And we’re also not diagnosed yet, so just keep that in mind……]

Also, we’ve never used the messages feature on tumblr before. But we’ll learn I guess?…

—Kev / ☂️📓

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:D

happy birthday, evan! may your emergencies always come with a machete on this fine day.

HABIT gets an honorary mention out of obligation. happy birthday to you too, ya purple rabbit motif-loving bastard. (/lh)

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Slenderverse source mates call

I don't care what Slenderverse your from.

I just want to talk to other slenderverse fictives.

Any sourcemate can interact, doubles too

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GOD, THIS IS HILARIOUS. IM SAVING THIS FOR INSPIRATION. THANKYOU SO MUCH OP

so i have this idea that stuck in mi head for a month now.

everymanhybrid but it's a sitcom where habit is a terrible roommate and vinnie is kinda dealing with this shit and every time when he finds a knife in a drawer or when he sees habit doing something stupid he's like "old habits die hard" and there's a off screen laughter and goofy ass soundtrack after.

And there would be episodes where Evan would get his consciousness back in the worst moment possible and try to fix the mess habit made

Also their third roommate would be Jeff's ghost who constantly reminds habit he killed him and it's ongoing sassy thing between them like "i COULD help you if i wasn't DEAD. because you KILLED ME." and habits like "and I would do it again"

and Vinnie can't see Jeff because he's a ghost but he doesn't really care because he thinks it's just another habits stupid thing

I think it would be really funny

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I never knew people joked about this? What the actual hell. Now even though it's fictional, Introjects and fictives, do exist. Like me. And I have a pretty shitty amount of source trauma (Now finding out it's also called Exotrauma), That does affect everyday for me. And now finding out people joked about the baby's DEATH? ITS LITERALLY A BABY. AND IT IS SO MESSED UP IN SO MANY DIFFERENT WAYS. yeah it's fiction, but there's a lot of fictives out there too.

something i want to say

i love the everymanhybrid community! it's great and honestly i love the slenderverse community as a whole, obviously minus the weirdos.

but one fucking thing that ALWAYS pisses me off in the everymanhybrid community/fandom whatever you want to call it, is that it usually only has one fucking joke and it's about the baby. it's really not fucking funny?? i hate how overlooked on how traumatizing it was for both EVAN AND STEPHANIE!! it's something seriously horrible and i get how hypocritical it sounds cause i draw habit and whatever, but that doesn't mean i condone his actions and YET JOKING ABOUT HIM AND WHAT HE DID TO THE BABY IS FUNNY?? i hate that joke so fucking much,

honestly don't fucking interact with my page of you find that joke funny at all.