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You can either spend this time starving feeling good about yourself or you can spend your entire summer fat and ugly wishing you had.

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I’m sadly back, another failed attempt but at least I won’t be dying fat….Idk what the fuck I was on when I said I was okay with that

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We’ve never directly interacted before and it’s probably not my place, I know, but I just felt I should say this- I think you should really try to look for reasons to keep going, someday you might look back and be thankful you did because maybe you’ll have found happiness or at least serenity. I’m just a stranger but I do care, and there are probably many others who care about you. I know that I don’t know your exact situation or anything, but I can empathize with how you’re feeling. I know it’s hard to keep going, but there are just so many possibilities for the future and it’d be such a tradgedy to waste a life like that. I sincerely hope you find peace.

This life was a waste the moment I was “gifted” a “ family” that never EVER CARED about me, the moment that my friends only cared about themselves, the moment I put a piece of food in my mouth and said it was delicious, the moment I started cvtting, the moment I let my grades drop and stopped caring if I made it to graduation, the moment I allowed one of my friends to take advantage of me when I trusted him so much. My life has been over for so long, it’s been a waste since I could remember…. But thanks for trying to get me to stay ❤️

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I’ve set the date I’m going to die, I don’t care anymore if I’m fat when I die. I simply just want to die now. I’m tired of life, I’ve spent 18 years of my life just fight to live and breathe….after a while it gets too much. The friends I’ve made and the people I’ve met have been amazing sometimes and horrible others

But I’m tired

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This song is so real

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It’s breakfast. I did breakfast. 😑

(Terrible meme by me.👍)

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I hate how mean I have gotten. The irritabilty aspect of depression and anxiety is no joke. I just snap at people.

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My problem is me. I can’t socialize for shit. All i do is self sabotage. There is something wrong with me that no one can fix.

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my favorite conspiracy theory is that they regret what they did to me

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I should have been dead by now……

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I get so depressed around the end of the year because it just means I have another year ahead of me, another year of struggling, feeling miserable, not being able to cope. I don’t want to keep going.

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Bianca Stone, from What Is Otherwise Infinite: Poems; “Cutting Odette’s Fingernails”

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my ultimate fantasy is having a brain that lets me enjoy being alive

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reblog if it's okay for your mutuals to message you and create an actual friendship, not just interactions

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Me rn

stuck between "i wanna be alone" and "i want someone who i can talk to"