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If only I could be an Angel🪽

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i literally can’t function without my headphones

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thank god !!

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the only time when I shut up!!!****

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Find your balance.

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I have a love/hate relationship with nostalgia

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˚₊‧꒰ა ♱ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

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reading but in that type of way

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A DRESS MADE OUT OF RULERSSS!!!????

She looks stunning🪽🪽

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Mood

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blessed with beauty and rage

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I want to go to Rome soooo badd….📌🧸

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Women i aspire to be🩶🔪🕯️*•.•*.`

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growing up with an angry father is terrifying but growing up a daughter with an angry mother is gut wrenching because you get it, you understand that she’s been worn down by the world and being treated as less and she’s been carrying the rage and traumas of her mother and her mother before her and her mother before her and when you see her you recognise that same rage in you

but her rage is not pointed at the world, it’s pointed at you because you’re 14 and not used to the harshness of it yet but she will make sure you get there and you don’t know what to do but cry and she hates seeing your tears because they make her nauseous

growing up with an angry mother feels like being ripped apart because you know she loves you, she’s your worst enemy, she makes you feel safe, she terrifies you, she’s your best friend, she’s the reason you can’t let people get close, you love her, you never cried over a boy or a girl as much as you cried over her words, she made you, you’re her puppet, you’re desperate to leave, you’ll never escape her blood or her judging gaze and even when you leave you can hear her voice in your head and it will haunt you until you’re dead

you understand her rage but you see it in yourself and that scares you more than anything else