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My father constantly switching between telling me that I’m fat and need to lose weight and that I’m way too skinny and should eat something

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in casw u go out w family or something and dont want to seem suspicious:)

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tw: descriptive ed behaviours

i know recovery is really hard, and not everyone is ready for it. that said, here is some harm reduction advice for eds

- laxatives generally take a while to work and your food will already have been mostly digested by then. they only remove waste material and can really mess up your electrolyte levels when abused. better to eat smaller meals after binging than abusing laxatives.

- purging by vomiting is similar to laxative abuse in the way that your food has often already had a lot of the calories absorbed, your teeth, nails, and of course your esophagus can be severely damaged and your electrolytes can also be thrown out of balance. again, better to follow up binges with smaller meals rather than purging.

- after an extended period of fasting, youre at risk of refeeding syndrome which is extremely dangerous. eat small things in small amounts and avoid salty or processed carbs. try fruit or veg with a lot of water such as melon or cucumber, or small amounts of high fat, phosphate containing food like cheese or yogurt, maybe with a multivitamin. reintroduce food slowly and do not let yourself binge after an extended fast.

- dont go straight from a large binge to a heavy restriction. go from binge to normal eating first or a binge-restrict cycle will be easier to fall into and harder to break.

- ideally you shouldnt eat less than 1200 calories a day, your brain needs 500 just to function and youll still lose weight on 1200. diets telling you to eat 200 a day long term are very unsustainable and put you at risk. eating 200 calories a day for maybe a day or two definitely wont kill you, but you should aim for a few days a week where you eat 1200 or above - or all days a week, but i understand that may be a scary concept for people who are struggling with restriction.

- dont fast for more than 72 hours. if i cant stop you from doing so, then please make sure you check your general wellbeing, vital signs, and blood pressure if possible.

- make sure you drink more water than you usually would than on normal eating days when/if fasting. try not to drink more than 4L on any day, and especially not in a short time period (drinking 4L in 1-3 hours puts your brain at risk) "Overhydration can lead to water intoxication. This occurs when the amount of salt and other electrolytes in your body become too diluted" Source: healthline

- after youve lost maybe more than 10lb, use tape measures rather than scales because water fluctuation is going to make more of a difference which may not make you feel that good.

- light exercise is good to retain muscle and keep your metabolism from dropping too much - doesnt have to be hard workouts, but a good walk or even laughter can help.

- try to eat more protein, fibre and healthy fats than you do carbs, however on an average day you do need a little carbs. keto diets only prevent water retention long term.

- caffeine is an appetite suppressant but also increases heart rate, blood pressure and anxiety. feel free to drink it but know your limits.

- artificial sweeteners may make you hungrier. doesnt mean you cant enjoy them on occasion though !! "Inconsistent coupling between sweet taste and caloric content can lead to compensatory overeating and positive energy balance." Source: ncbi

- GET ENOUGH SLEEP. lack of sleep significantly increases hunger and can reduce metabolism, making you feel worse throughout the day. "Laboratory studies have clearly shown that sleep deprivation can alter the glucose metabolism and hormones involved in regulating metabolism, that is, decreased leptin levels and increased ghrelin levels." Source: ncbi

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Losing weight youve already lost before hurts like a bitch

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restricting while working in food service should be an olympic sport

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Stolen from twitter, forgot the @

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LIKE/RB if you’re an adult with an active ED blog pls

I need more active accounts to follow

Minors please dni

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i really can't starve like i used to when i was younger lmao holy fuck i feel like shit

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cw: vent post

sigh.

im back here after 3 years of what i guess could be considered recovery(?)

its so frustrating honestly. i really did try so hard to avoid slipping into old habits but all i can do is think about how thin I was before(wild considering I thought I was horribly overweight at the time) and now i just stare at my fresh stretchmarks and regret everything. i honestly have no idea what i look like anymore because the image that i think of and that i see in the mirror is so distorted and all i can see is how weird and uneven my face is and how round i have become. I hate that I no longer fit into most of the jeans I could before and that all the shirts i have are a little too snug when I swear they were large on me before.

I dont track calories right now but im planning to. I barely eat anything in a day anyways and i just bought a scale that'll probably help(or worsen) things.

right now its just kinda unbearable to exist in my body and yes this is definitely a partial control thing because the other parts of my life seem to be spiraling out of control. I am going to try to keep it quiet and as hidden as I can. there are people that will worry if they find out and I just cant bear for them to worry about me. I just need to feel better about myself, and ill definitely feel bad as i lose weight(hopefully) but maybe when i come to and think i can stop(or is forced to) ill at least feel good that my old clothes fit again.

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Me at 13: "when i'm 22, i'm gonna be making so much money and i'm gonna be independent and love my job and no ones gonna tell me I can't do anything"

Me at 22: *working retail for $1 above minimum wage and setting my daily goal as lets just get through the day without throwing up once*

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Overweight Ana Problems

I tell people I want to lose weight and they’re happy for me

I ask for fat-burning exercises and everyone is all too happy to help

Losing any weight at all will be seen as a good thing

Eating less is not automatically a red flag

No one believes that I’m anorexic

If I crack jokes about being fat, people laugh

Knowing you’re fat but not knowing how fat. Is it dysmorphia or am I really that huge?

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When I was little

My mother would making me feel horribly guilty for being hungry. If I spent too long looking in the pantry for a snack, she would yell at me. Nearly every time I was ready for the next meal, she would say “You just ate! How can you be hungry?” And it would be nearly four hours after I’ve eaten breakfast. She would often say things like “its ok to feel hungry” “you don’t need to eat every time you feel hungry” “You look like you’ve put on weight”

When I was 11 I went to the doctors for a check up. When I got weighed she told me “thats how much I weighed with you when I was pregnant!” I was 130 pounds. 

My friends do the same thing, even though i’m one of the skinniest in the group. They’ll say things like “damn girl! Thats a lot of food!” Not knowing its my first meal of the day. My best friend in the whole world makes comments frequently about the food I eat and make fun of me when I’m hungry. One of my safe foods used to be BBQ lentils over cauliflower rice until one day, one of my friends told me “it was too many carbs” 

Today after I ate a sofrita bowl from chipotle I was still starving and I made a comment to my sister about how surprised I was that I was still hungry. She told me “its because you ate it so fast!” It took me thirty minutes. She’ll try to joke and tell me I’m fat nearly every day even though I weigh less than her.

My point in  saying all of this is stop commenting on peoples weight, food choices, and body size. You never know how it will affect a person. It isn’t worth it. 

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don't comment on my body.

don't comment on my body.

don't comment on my body.

don't comment on my body.

don't comment on my body.

don't comment on my body.

don't comment on my body.

don't comment on my body.

don't comment on my body.

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Some of my favourite thinspo

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