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Bo Burnham “Perfect”

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we all deserve love, even on the days that we aren’t our best

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by CelticBotan

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back at it

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↳ happy 30th birthday freddie!

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Pokémon Hockey League

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I may love hockey teams, but their goalies own my heart.

Also I don’t know what has me more dead, Tuukka’s little smile, Dobby being a lil bean or Holtby being done with life.

Gif Credit: All gifs belong to NHL’s Official Giphy.

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@marnerassistfund: Gearing up for the day with John Tavares. Let’s go!

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Auston Matthews v. Toronto media (part 302945905903)

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stoner gets the semifinal in ot | quarterfinals: can vs. sui | 5.23.19

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There were two things Brock McGillis knew from an early age: he loved being a hockey goalie, and he was gay. The Sudbury native started playing in net when he was seven years old and immediately felt he’d found his calling. He relished making a contribution to his team. “Every time a goalie makes a save, everyone cheers,” McGillis says.

When McGillis was six, he asked his parents, “What if I’m gay?” — the answer for which he hoped might provide some comfort. While his parents promised to accept him, he worried about his teammates’ reaction, and never mentioned his sexuality in hockey circles. He knew it wasn’t safe: even at 10 years old, he heard teammates using words like “fag” and “homo” on a daily basis in the locker room.

As he moved up the hockey ranks, joining the Great North Midget League in 1998 when he was 15, McGillis did everything he could to fit in. He put on a hyper-masculine guise, chewed tobacco, used a more rugged voice and walked around with a cocky swagger. He slept with as many women as he could, specifically choosing women his teammates found attractive. He even used homophobic language himself.

McGillis became what he calls a “bro,” a method of self-preservation. And the facade worked: he was a friend to his teammates and extremely popular at school. He felt like he was the object of female desire and male envy; once, he even had an autograph session at his high school. “I thought I owned the place,” he says. “I thought I owned the world.”

Internally, however, McGillis was suffering. Throughout his hockey career, which included professional stints in the United States and Europe in the early- to mid-2000s, he would get angry with himself when he felt attracted to other men. He drank heavily to suppress his thoughts and numb his pain, but the alcohol made him feel worse. He struggled with major depression, and attempted suicide on a number of occasions.

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