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So flipping cute! I would gladly share an airplane with these two,lol

Jensen and Zeppelin Ackles

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So I am really bad at tumblr and always forget to share my fan videos here. This one won at Phoniex Con 2017. I had a few people ask about it and realized I forgot to post it on here. If you wanna see my other videos simply search Crowleys Hellhound on Youtube. @seenashwrite 

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This photo and moment has been in the making since I went to DallasCon16; this was the con where Misha Collins first told the beautiful story about his daughter Maison. Its a long post, but I wanted to tell the full story.

If you have not heard the “I Wish For This” story here is a Youtube Link to Misha telling it to a good friend of mine at Dallascon.

This story hit me and so many others really hard.  To me his message was that we all take things for granted in life. We forget to live in the moment and enjoy the little things. That no matter what you are doing in your life as long as you are happy then that’s what matters. Misha had always been an inspiration to me and with me just starting my new Group, WeAreSPNFamily, I decided I wanted to spread a little kindness of my own. I was all set to go to the last Houston Convention, the last Texas Con. I decided I wanted to do something Misha would not forget. So 5 months later after so much careful planning, it happened.

I had over 2,000 bright orange fliers printed up with on the front the message #IWishForThis and on the back the story behind the signs because a lot of people had never heard the story. We gave the crowd enough time to read the fliers so when he came on stage it was more than a simple sign hold up. There was so much love directed his way, that it nearly overwhelmed him. In the first 5 mins of the Houscon17 panel you can watch his reaction.

Later at autographs I handed him one of the fliers that I had had every volunteer who had helped me pass them out sign so that he would know all who had helped. I apologized for nearly making him cry and he smiled at me and said “No. Its ok. It was a good feeling, thank you so much.” I also gave him a beautiful drawing my friend had done of his daughter blowing out a dandelion and once again he looked deeply touched. I had a binder full of love and messages to give to him but I didn’t want to take up more time so I bought a Sunday auto ticket to give it to him. He was also deeply touched by this, so much so that he honestly couldn’t speak. I have come to learn that when Misha goes quite like that its because he is at a loss for words. This was also the first time he learned my name because he was personalizing stuff. He grabbed my hand before I walked away and thanked me so much for all the kindness I had brought to him. I simply said, it was a team effort. I just want to make the world a kinder place. 

This photo is a combination of several photos taken at Houscon at Misha’s panel

After Houscon it seemed that the “I Wish For This” story took off and never slowed down. At my next con I brought my orange flier in and he recognized me and smiled when he saw the flier again. 

Now lets jump ahead to October, the New Orleans Convention. I had been wanting to get an I Wish For This tattoo. But I wanted it in Misha’s handwriting. I was terrified to ask but my new friend, who had seen Misha too many times to keep count, told me to just do it. As I walked up to the table, bright orange flier in hand Misha smiled down at it and looked back up at me; now recognizing me. I said, "I have so many of your autographs. I was wondering if you could just write 'I Wish For This' I was want to get it as my next tattoo.” Once again Misha got that look upon his face. The one that words can not describe but the best I can do is say love and kindness. But that really doesn’t do it justice. He just looked at me, sharpie in hand. So I looked him in the eyes as I put my hand over my heart and said, “This story, this message means more to me than you can possibly know. I truly want this as my next tattoo, it would mean the world to me.” He then smiled at me and slowly wrote out I Wish For This. To make sure I left him with a smile on his face I showed him our silly photo op and he was laughing as I walked away. Only 6 days later did I have my tattoo.

We have now reached the point where I can talk about the first photo above. So the time came to reveal it too him with dozens of people who had seen it over the course of the con telling me how stunning it was. So I walked up and his eyes lit up and he practically yelled "Hey" at me and was grinning from ear to ear. He was like "what do you wanna do." I said, as I started to turn, " I had your write this for me and NOLA and he went " Oh yeah that's right" and then he got quite. I felt his hand touch my tattoo and pull back, realizing photo ops don't give enough time to talk. He said very carefully, I could tell he was trying not to let his voice crack, he said " That...is... so...beautiful." I said "Thank you" and went on to say, " So I want your head on that shoulder and I'll place my”... before I could finish he said "I understand completely." We did the pose and I said "Thank you so much" he looked at me, touched my shoulder and said, " No, thank you." I have never cracked with Misha ever, but as I walked away it hit me and I had to take a few breaths and shake it off. I didn't realize how much that exchange seemed to have affected me until I had walked away.

Lastly, the auto story. I had printed up a photo of my tattoo and had written down what each component meant, I will repost the photo at the bottom with all that info. But anyway I had stepped out of the theater to grab a snack. They were still doing Castiel photos so I thought I had time. I came back ten minutes later and the person at the mic was saying “Ok, everyone say good bye to Misha.” I started sprinting and fell in front of the stage looking up at the woman saying, “Wait, please I have a ticket.” She gave me one look and then grabbed her mic saying they had one more. Misha hadn’t even left the room yet, he had just gone behind the curtain. He walked back out trying to be all sarcastic and funny. He was like, “Are you f*cking kidding me? I was so close.” But then he saw me gasping for air, still on my knees on the ground and he stopped. I got up and set my bag down, apologizing over and over again as I tried to find my photo op for him to sign. 

I told him I was running late because I had been writing down what all my tattoo meant and that this early sketch of the tattoo was given to me by my artist to give to you. I was still panicking, could not find that photo op to save my life. 

But unknown to me and told to me by several people afterwards. When Misha saw me when he came out from behind the curtain his body language shifted. He waved his handler back, apparently she was like 6 feet from him. He sat back down so that he was at my level. And he looked at me thoughtfully and appeared to be listening to every word I had to say. (Now I don’t know if this is all correct, but a few people believed it to be so...). Anyway I finally found the photo and he gave it a good look before he signed. I said, “ I just want you to know that you have inspired me to be a better person, to help others, and make this world a better place by simply being kind. Thank you so much Misha for coming back out and just being you.” He started to stand up and as he shook my hand he said, “No. Thank you Kirby. It was great to see you again.”

How he remembered my name I will never know. I had written it on the small piece of paper with my tattoo pic, which he refused to have shipped to him he wanted to take it with him, but he there was just no way he saw it and remembered. He said my name like he had always known it, as strange as that sounds. 

Then all my adrenaline begin to calm down and I broke for the first time at a con. Like full on crying, but my friends helped me realize how special that moment was. That all my hard work to spread kindness and love had not gone unnoticed. 

This entire story is hard for me to tell, in fact I teared up many times writing this. Misha has inspired me in so many ways and for a man like that to remember me not because I have been to a ton of conventions, get tons of photos with him, or do all his meet and greets; but for him to remember me because of the good I have tried to do. Well I don;t know very many people who wouldn’t cry at their role model acknowledging them like that. 

I do not know when my next con will be, it could be a year, it could be two. But I got what I wished for. And I will never forget it.

Here is the photo again with the explanation for why I got a feather instead of a dandelion. 

So I went with a feather because a single feather represents freedom. It represents that one wishes to go higher and go further than one thinks is possible. For me that's a big thing. I went with a black feather for 2 reasons, one it does represent Castiel. But two it represents to me the black sheep, the out of box thinker. And that's who I am. I chose the blue flowing off the feather for 2 reasons, 1) I showed him misha's eyes color because it's basically my favorite color of blue so we got close to it and 2) I wanted a magically potential to be shown. That just because something looks ordinary, like a feather, doesn't mean it doesn't hold unknown beauty inside. Finally the heart in the tattoo is from one of Misha’s autographs. To represent that no matter where life takes me I will always have what I have learned from Misha in my heart.

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I am gonna fuck up... but it's because I'm human

@officialbrianab post inspired me to write this post. Her post "I have a confession....I don't belong here" made me wanna grab this beautiful, inspiring, deserves all the love in the world woman and give her a hug. This is my little confession because I think all of us at some point in our lives have felt many of the things briana brought up and I wanted to share because Briana and anyone else who reads this, you are not alone. In relation to briana' s post, I can relate to the feeling of ' don't fuck up.' I look at where I am in my life today and all I have done to get here and repeat to myself more times than I would like to, ' don't fuck up. You have people counting on you, looking at you to guide them,to help them, to what ever' I may not be an actress, hell I'm not famous and I can not even begin to comprehend the pressures that actors and actresses have pit upon them all the time either from fans or from employers. So I can only relate to what I have experienced. A little over a year ago I was no one, like no joke. I could have disappeared and the only people in my life who would have showed concern would have been my parents and dog. I have walls higher than the damn great wall of China that I don't let down. I kept my head low, kept my opinions to myself, and just moved through life with as little contact with others as I could. The less people around you the less they can hurt you. Then I decided that maybe I could get involved with SPN fans online. No one would no me and I could be social at a distance until I saw others suffering. I saw what I had been hiding from, pain inflicted on others; just bullying and hate. So I made a choice I pulled my head from the sand and stood up for people I didn't even know and told people to stop. That this is not who they are and if it is they need to work on changing that. Then things sorta got bigger and now I have this large group of people who look to me for guidance and I'm not gonna lie, it scares me. And that's where the 'don't fuck up' repeats itself again and again. I give so much of myself to others, but I too have trouble accepting love and thanks back. A part of it is my over controlling modesty and the second is I don't feel like I deserve it. While in my life I have been lucky to finally be able to say I have people who actually care about me, it came at a cost. I still have those that say cruel things, that seek me out just to make a point. But you know what I have begun to realize, I'm not the problem. I do not pretend to be someone I'm not. I don't expect everyone to like me but this is where I can say to myself 'I didn't fuck.' There are always going to be people out there that are going to want to tear you down, but you have to find the strength inside to pull yourself back up and walk away with a smile. I am wayward in more ways than one. I fuck up sometimes, I don't take credit for things, and sometimes I hide in my little shell of safety when the world seems like too much. But as long as I crawl out of that shell stay true to myself and keep on the wayward path then I'm ok with fucking up every once in a while because that's what make me who I am; human.

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This beautifully written post hit me right in the heart!

I have a confession... I don’t belong here.

I’m not usually one to to say how she feels, let alone write down how she feels, but recent events have made it hard to hide where I’m at, so I thought I’d take a page from my good friend’s book and lay it all out here. To see if it helps.

Over the last few months really exciting things have been happening. Some things you know about, some you don’t. Suffice it to say life is good. And I’m terrified. I am utterly a fish out of water. I am lost and confused. And no one knows it. My life used to be small. I was a sun flower in a small garden. I thrived on what water I had and was fine. Fine. ish. I wanted more. I pretended that I knew more than I did so that I wouldn’t seem like such and outsider to my peers. Fake it till you make it, right? I knocked down doors that were locked and found opportunities that were hidden away form me. I was succeeding at the unimaginable. And then I pushed. And I pushed. And I pushed. Until I found myself weeping from a broken back because I had been pushing at brick walls that wouldn’t budge. I’d pushed too hard. And I became so terrified that I would be discovered as a fraud that I became selfish and insensitive. All to conceal a devastating fact. I don’t belong here.

I grew up on a small farm. We as kids worked the farm to help out. My mother moved us around where she could find work when my father lost his eyesight. we struggled always but we survived. This isn’t meant to be a pity party. My folks are strong as fuck. My point is, none of this is supposed to happen to girls like me. I was just a girl who loved to make people laugh, who loved the theatre and was terrified of being invisible. But recent events have put me in a position where lack of anonymity is making my screw ups more prevalent to some. And its an awful feeling. I try really hard to appear to be a person that is supposed to live in this kind of situation I’m in, because I love it here. But the secret is, I have no idea what I’m doing. So I fuck up. And I perhaps come across as self-absorbed and opportunistic as a sad attempt to look mightier than the small town girl that I really am. This is my way of keeping people far enough away that they wont see the cracks in my armour.

Here’s my other big secret. I love a lot. Like A LOT. I cant help it. My attraction to good humans can not be harboured and I am not ashamed. You look at my phone and I generally have 7 text threads going on any given day. I want to know everything about you at all times. I want you to share your deepest passions and griefs with me. I wanna know you inside and out! Here’s the thing, I don’t like to let people love me. Fucked up right? I want to love you but I don’t want you to need me. Cause I’ll disappoint you and you’ll go away and then it’ll all be for nothing. If I’m really scared of your love i’ll be unemotional, or distant, or if you’re really lucky- I might even be mean. 

Anyway this is my point: This exact life I’m living right now is a combination of my greatest dream and my most terrifying nightmare. I am not invisible and I can’t escape the love and the loving needs of others. I’m living a life that many including myself have only dreamed of. And I’m terrified that I’m just going to screw it all up.

So I’m writing this to let you know I’m going to work really really hard and do my absolute best to not fuck this up. Any of it. This is the steepest learning curve I’ve ever had in my life and I can no longer hide the fact that I feel in over my head. But stick with me, K? I’ll figure it all out really soon. 

Thank you for everything that you’ve given me and the patience you continue to give me. I’m sorry if it seems like I’ve taken your love for granted. It’s actually just the opposite. I just didn’t want you to know ;)

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I know this was 3 years ago, but i wanna thank you and your friend for being just amazing people. You both felt something was off and saw that misha came as a friend to help his best friend in need. It breaks my heart in a good way to hear that your friend asked Jensen if he was ok, because so few fans do this. I actually asked Jared at the creation Dallas convention after is having fun and laughing at his auto table as I was walking away. Don't know why I felt like it was right. I asked him, " Hey Jared you know your enough right?" The way he looked at me made me realize we as fans so rarely ask how the actors are doing and seeing him realize I actually cared about him as a person and not a celebrity still gets me. He smiled such an honest smile and said yeah and asked me the same thing. I said yeah as well and walked away. I've seen him barely at the last two cons i went to after that but he remembered me on sight. Like didn't even speak a word he just knew me. I like to think it has to do with the fact that on one moment I didn't look like a fan to him, I looked like a normal caring person. I male sure to treat the entire cast with the utmost respect and care about how they are doing. So once again thank you and your friend for getting that too☺

I love this picture. And it isn’t just because they’re hugging. It’s because you can see how much Misha is trying to comfort him. Anybody that knows what happened at (JIBCON)knows how bad of a day Jensen was having. Misha literally came to the rescue when he realized his friend best friend was having trouble on stage. This really proves how close these two are, there’s no doubt that they love each other. It warms my heart to know how much they care. Misha knows how shy Jensen can be and he helped him. HE MADE SURE JENSEN WAS OKAY.

These two are amazing. I have nothing but respect and love for them both.

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I swear Richard just defines sex appeal to me,lol! Or as Rob Benedict said to me at Dallascon16 when I was asking a question, "This man is a sex symbol!" Amen Rob 😍

EYES.

Pic by Krista (@kreespa) https://twitter.com/kreespa/status/860927747723476992

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The truth behind this possible event in (12X21) Spoilers ahead

So before I explain this possible quote from Dean to Mary, I wanna say this. To all the Mary haters out there, while Dean saying this to Mary might make you happy. It really shouldn’t, due to many reasons but due to my follow explanation is the main reason. So if you do not like Mary this post is not gonna make you happy, if you are on the fence it might help you understand her better, if you like her well your gonna read this anyway. 

But please I hope I read this because its piecing together a story line people seem to keep forgetting. Let’s begin!

As for the possible confrontation coming up between Mary and Dean in episode 21 of this season, that doesn’t surprise me. 

I was at Houscon17 and we were the first convention that got Samantha Smith since her coming back on the show. Me knowing she is an avid fan of the show and wanting to see if my perceptions of Mary were on the same level as Samantha’s I got her meet and greet; I am so glad I did because it was amazing!

We all had so many questions, but I had one that I wanted her opinion on and it relates to this quote nearly exactly. I asked Samantha this, “ How much is Mary aware of when it comes to what Sam and Dean have been through?

We already saw her afraid to face Sam in episode 2 of this season ( I am adding this in as a reminder, I didn’t quote the show to her, lol!) when she told Dean ‘ And when we do find Sam... how am I gonna face him? 

Dean: What do you mean? 

Mary: That yellow-eyed thing would never have come for him that night if I... I started all of this.’

Does she know all the facts?”

Samantha said this, “ She doesn’t have all the facts. She knows that Azazel killed her and whatever he did caused a ripple affected in the boys lives, but passed that she doesn’t know anything that is not written in Johns Journal.” Also as an aside; she was about to film the episode “The Raid” at the time of this conversation.

So I would say she may or may not know more now that she has been at the BMOL; but we do not know if she decided to look up her boys history and the BMOL may have been keeping it from her; but those questions are not the point of this post.

The point of this post is to explain how what happened on November 2,1983 was not all Mary’s fault and by Dean saying this to her its affect is to hurt her emotionally. While I understand there is probably a very good reason for him to state this, I wanna show the fandom the story line of how Mary was just a pawn in a complex game of chess.

Let’s begin:

Mary is still holding on to that guilt that she started all this, hence the reason I believe Dean says it to hurt her. Dean and Mary are very much alike and she has not let go of this belief that she caused Sam and Dean to be hunters. But we are gonna go by the time line of facts!

1. Season 4 Episode 3 “In the Beginning”- what “really happened”

Dean is thrown back in time by the angels to the November 1973 where he finds out that Mary used to be a hunter. By Dean going back in time and trying to save his mother he set off a small ripple of effects. His interference and I hate doing a Kutcher reference but, “You totally Butterfly-Effected history.”-Sam (6.17). One could say that if Dean had not been sent back in time, then Mary would not have landed on Azazel’s radar, therefore she would have never been targeted. But let’s play devils advocate here.

We can go “Occam's razor” approach. Meaning the simplest solution is the right one. So let’s say that Dean going back in time doesn’t make a difference, Azazel and Mary still would have met and all events would have occurred. Which leads us to the next obvious issue.

2. The birth of Sam and Dean Winchester was top priority in Heaven

We learn in Season 5 Episode 14 “ My Bloody Valentine” we learn some back history from a Cupid.

Dean: Why does heaven care if Harry meets Sally? 

Cupid: Oh, mostly they don't. You know, certain bloodlines, certain destinies. Oh, like yours. The union of John and Mary Winchester--Very big deal upstairs, top priority arrangement. 

Dean: Are you saying that you fixed-up our parents? 

Cupid: Well, not me, but... Yeah. Well, it wasn't easy, either. Ooh, they couldn't stand each other at first. But when we were done with them--Perfect couple. I'm sorry, but... the orders were very clear. You and Sam needed to be born. Your parents were just, uh...meant to be. 

So add this to your information. Sam and Dean HAD to be born. So one can conclude that while yes on the surface you can just blame Mary, but if your willing to look deeper you see its more complicated. It wasn’t Mary’s, Dean’s, Azazel’s, Heaven, or Hell’s; it was destinies fault. 

Destiny caused the Winchesters fate. Because up until Chuck aka God decided to let free will into the picture sadly destiny was playing itself out.

Also it says that Sam is not in this scene. I am going to be completely honest here, Sam doesn’t blame Mary because he understands what its like to make bad decisions if he believes it for the ultimate good; “cough” Season 4.

So take the clues I have pointed out and either accept them or ignore them; you are entitled to your own opinion. I have been rewatching S12 and I liked Mary from the start. I like that the writers did not make her this perfect mother that Dean always remembered. That she is human. She has flaws and just like Sam and Dean sometimes it takes someone some time to realize what decisions are the right ones and which are the wrong. 

I can already here people going, but she joined the BMOL! They tortured Sam, they put Sam and Dean in danger, she left them, this was a bad choice. I saw this to you.

If you woke up tomorrow morning and it was 33 years later and you were now talking to your older children, everyone including your husband is dead and gone. Would you be ok? You say you wouldn’t walk out of your kids lives, but your not in her position. To me she didn’t leave them, she need time to adjust.

As for putting Sam and Dean and Castiel in danger in Season 12 Episode 12 “Stuck in the Middle (With you); she made her point to Ketch very clear.

Mary: Anything like that happens again -- anything -- and I will burn you down. All of you.

Ketch: Is that a threat?

Mary: It's a promise.

Lastly, everyone seems to forget what she told Sam in front of the BMOL set up in Season 12 episode 14 “The Raid”- this scene right here told me all I needed to know.

Mary to Sam: “A world where you and Dean don't have to hunt, where you can have normal lives. I chose this life. I know. But you were going to school, to college. And I get why you gave it up. But what if you didn't have to? What if there was a different future for you, for us? That's why I'm doing this. That is what I'm fighting for.”

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He speaks the truth!

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Seriously I loved this moment so damn much!

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I love Sam's awkward, "play it cool, we are normal" wave to other people! LMAO

Sam’s awkward, unreturned wave | for @seraphmisha

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So adorable!

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Oh my good he is amazing! I'm laughing and smiling so hard I'm crying!!!!!

David Haydn-Jones talking about his dancing career at the Fantasy-Con in Basel. He was so handsome!

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Theory about Lucifer’s Love Child(Spoilers for 12X19)

So after the latest episode, “The Future”, I have become quite curious about Lucifer’s love child in the sense of the bigger question the writers of Supernatural are asking us; are you born evil or are you made evil? The classic Nature v. Nurture argument.  So I decided to investigate specific color choices since in film specific colors are chosen to represent certain emotions and messages. But in television programs this is even more apparent and used more often because they typically have only 42 minutes to get the information in the episode across. 

I am nearly finished with my degree in film production and I have quite a bit of time learning how to look at film and there is one thing that I have learned that has hit me the hardest; not a single thing in TV or film is done by accident. every line of dialogue, every camera angle, every color, costume, action, etc. has a purpose.

So I am going to do a color analysis because I believe the golden eye color that we saw when the baby connected with Kelly and Castiel is not by accident. That color was chosen for a specific reason. So in order to give evidence to my theory I am going to bring up the few other eye colors we have seen over the seasons when we saw certain characters, so lets begin!

Let’s first start off with the baby’s father Lucifer. To go back to my first like quip about Nature v. Nurture I feel like Lucifer proves that one is not born evil, but becomes evil; sort of. I mean he does say in the series his dad made him this way, but if your dad is God and he can make you do anything that doesn’t really count. But he had choices and he always chose the bad path. Anyway back to main point. 

Since his return in Season 11 we have gotten a new feature on Lucifer; red eyes.

So in film the color red can mean many things:  RED – anger, passion, rage, desire, excitement, energy, speed, strength, power, heat, love, aggression, danger, fire, blood, war, violence. Think about when we see Dean wear his read shirt, we immediately relate that to violence and anger, same thing with Lucifer. His read eyes make us feel uneasy and a sense of danger.

Ok lets move on to two Princes of Hell; Ramiel and Dagon; their eyes are yellow, most of the time the entire iris is cover and one time we see Dagon with her iris yellow, but her pupil still visible.

So the color yellow can mean many things in film: YELLOW – wisdom, knowledge, relaxation, joy, happiness, optimism, idealism, imagination, hope, sunshine, summer, dishonesty, cowardice, betrayal, jealousy, covetousness, deceit, illness, hazard. Its obvious to tell that here we see more of the bad sides of what yellow can mean than the good.  Also when dagon was killing the angels the power from her hand was Orange.

Orange in film means this:  ORANGE – humor, energy, balance, warmth, enthusiasm, vibrant, expansive, flamboyant. And since it was seen as a powerful energy to kill with, the color choice makes since here. 

I am getting to my point, stay with me!

Next lets look at Angels and how similar there blue eyes are to the color of human souls: both are a light blue. Their smiting color is also white.

The color Blue in film means this:  faith, spirituality, contentment, loyalty, fulfillment peace, tranquility, calm, stability, harmony, unity, trust, truth, confidence, conservatism, security, cleanliness, order, sky, water, cold, technology, depression. I mean one doesn’t even need to show the connection here, even with souls it makes sense. So what does it mean that their smiting power comes out as white. White has many different meanings depending on the culture so in film it can get a tad confusing.  

WHITE- Yes, protection, love, reverence, purity, simplicity, cleanliness, peace, humility, precision, innocence, youth, birth, winter, snow, good, sterility, marriage (Western cultures), death (Eastern cultures), cold, clinical, sterile. The difference in the energy used here v. Dagon’s is where it comes from. Angels use it for a specific purpose and they themselves can be seen as cold and clinical in the show. But to smite something can almost be seen as an act of purity or protection; not a simple killing for pleasure like Dagon.

So now we come to the golden color. What struck me first was the color and the way the energy moved seemed familiar to me. So I went back to the Season 11 finale; “Alpha and Omega” and realized where I had seen a similar form of this energy. When Chuck and Amara joined hands

and when Amara gave Chuck back his light energy.

Its similar, yet different. NOW I AM NOT SAYING THIS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH CHUCK AND AMARA; MORE OF LIGHT AND DARK ENERGY.

So what does Gold mean when it comes to film:  GOLD – precious, riches, extravagance. warm, wealth, prosperity, grandeur. 

So it leaves one to think is this baby really only doing what it takes to survive or is there a deeper meaning? A lot of people believe that Lucifer was manipulating the situation through his child, but from what I saw he could only communicate with Dagon and even then he could only hurt her mentally. It would seem his connection to his son is weak and he can only sense him or he would have told Dagon where his son was or he would have already known. So if Lucifer was not acting through the child then we are left the with question I stated at the beginning; can one be born evil or if raised the right way they chose the right path. I mean Jesse, the Antichrist or Cambian, from season 5 is part demon and he chose to remain good. So while its not odd that us Supernatural fans immediately jump to the conclusion that this baby is bad and Castiel has made the wrong choice, well what if we are wrong. All I am saying is, when you look at the subtext ( folks subtext is everything unsaid;not just what some believe to be unspoken sexual tension) it sends a different message to me.

Anyway just thought I would put this concept out there!

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This is a group I started 1 year ago today. David Haydn-Jones gave us a shout out on our Twitter. If this group sounds like something you wanna be a part of check out our Facebook group, WeAreSPNFamily, our Twitter @WeAreSPNFamily, and our Instagram as well we_are_spn_family2016

Today marks the 1 year anniversary of our group. We have grown so large and are now growing even bigger than to the amazing David Haydn-Jones who tweeted this message out that nearly brought me to tears. This group started with a simply message: no more hate for each other or the cast and crew of supernatural. And it has grown into so much more. David summed up what our group stands for perfectly and I could not be more proud of every single one of my admins; Brianna, Valerie, Ashley,Gwen,Michelle, and Amber. I am also proud of our group members as well because it can’t be the group it’s meant to be if everyone is not on the same page . Thank you everyone for all your love and support and here is to another year!

[crowleyshellhoundspn]

I'm so happy that you're interested in the pin! If you check out one of my most recent posts, you'll see that I have a Ko-Fi set up to try and raise the funds to get the pin made. The sooner I reach my goal, the sooner I can order them and sell them for everyone to buy! Again, thank you so much for being interested! I hope I can reach my goal soon!

I can share, if would like in my large Facebook group, there is at least 15 threeps/Ketchings. But the group has 1,415 members as of yesterday. So I would love to share this there with your permission

[crowleyshellhoundspn]

Reblog if your a Threep and/or Ketching!!!!

The other day I made a post about making a pin inspired by the Supernatural character Arthur Ketch available for pre-order for those within the USA (I would make it international now but I want to see how the first 100 batch goes and if there’s a large demand for it outside of the states (shipping internationally is hella expensive, why?!)).

I’m making this post again because with David posting a close up photo of what the cross looked like, I went back to the drawing board and revised the cross to get what is above (the manufacturer will obviously clean up the lines better then I did). You honestly don’t even have to like Mr. Ketch to buy this, it’s a pretty nice cross without linking it to someone either way, ya know?

The pins would go for 10$ (shipping is included in price).

What do you guys think? 

(Please reblog to spread the word, I need 100 people to definitely want to buy this pin in order to set up a pre-order.)

Tagging My (I Think?) USA Babes: @with-eyes-turned-skywards @wayward-mirage @raspberrymama @goldenangelbloodcastiel @iowarose @rowdyhooliganism @dailydavidhaydnjones @the-mrs-deanwinchester @zeannastardust @growningupgeek @icecream-and-gadreel