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IT HAPPENED AGAIN!

Same friend. This time it's for SINNERS which I was really excited to see to make up for not being able to catch Nosferatu earlier this year.

It really be fool me twice shame on me.

I'm gonna go cry in a hole now.

Feeling deflated I missed Mickey 17. I finally got a friend to come with me to the cinemas but they had to keep pushing it back due to personal reasons. And we were finally going today but the cinemas have now stopped showing it. Can't deny I feel down.

I still plan to bring my mom to watch Elio in the future and I think, depending how it goes, may be the last time I try to bring someone with me to the cinemas.

Normally I go alone but on some blockbusters, I want to share the experience with someone close. Not many people in my life are fond of the cinemas and this friend was the closest I have.

I hate the situation. I mean why the fuck is the two cinemas in my city only showing it for 3 days.

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Watched the minecraft movie with my realm buddies, at first to hate watch it. We knew it was gonna be hot garbajj and I expected the writing to be cringey because it will try too hard to follow a kid-friendly story formula.

But the movie did not take itself seriously at all. Barely even followed actual game mechanics to have some fun with it (like the Vindicators fight club, chicken jockey scene). It has some heart but does not linger on it for too long. It was a lot of chaos, plot and audience-wise. I had fun.

The movie's soo bad that it's good for a minecraft player at least. General audiences would be so confused.

I still want them to do an animated film like their update trailers. I believe the medium does the game justice in terms of creativity.

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Okay I'm part of the crowd that's outraged they made a live action HTTYD especially since it's just a shot for shot remake BUT...

Bro I just love the animated movies so much 😭 lil me loved dragons so the first movie will always have a special place in my heart.

I am considering watching the film in theatres (never got to with 1 and 2) only in hopes of getting THAT feeling. And I just get chills imagining the Test Drive scene and listening to the score in huge speakers.

Counter to that though is that I'm basically being lured by nostalgia, the very thing studios are banking on with their sequel churning asses. AND nothing will ever beat movie 1, shot for shot or not. However I can't say the same for 2 (depends on how they handle Stoic's death) and 3 (if they take a different approach). In fact maybe this live action would be so disappointing that it makes the original animated film better.

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Crying right now. I stumbled upon a jayvik fan comic in twitter and it was all about Vik realizing he never saw Jayce angry. Then Jayce got angry on behalf of V to some investors and then saying "I'll never be mad at you" to Vik. Cut to the next panel of Jayce's "You didn't tell me they were from the undercity" scene and V feeling sad and like...THE DAMN APP REFRESHED ON ME 😭

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What is the women equivalent of men's "Roman Empire?"

True Crime

At least for me 🤷‍♀️

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Feeling deflated I missed Mickey 17. I finally got a friend to come with me to the cinemas but they had to keep pushing it back due to personal reasons. And we were finally going today but the cinemas have now stopped showing it. Can't deny I feel down.

I still plan to bring my mom to watch Elio in the future and I think, depending how it goes, may be the last time I try to bring someone with me to the cinemas.

Normally I go alone but on some blockbusters, I want to share the experience with someone close. Not many people in my life are fond of the cinemas and this friend was the closest I have.

I hate the situation. I mean why the fuck is the two cinemas in my city only showing it for 3 days.

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The disingenuous and dilution of the Nazi Salute is giving me the desire to read 1984 out of spite against these cowards.

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After seeing more previews by the contributing artist, yall I might just buy it for real. 🥹

Bruh I'd love to buy the Love.exe jayvik zine but wtf is that shipping fee 💀

It's way higher than the zine itself. Anime kitchen says the items are shipped from the US and knowing that whole tarriff issue over there (just guessing), maybe that's why?? I tried adding 1 more zine to the cart and the shipping fee increase is still mindblowing (saw some comments suggesting a bulk buy for PH so I checked to see if it's even worth it).

Gonna need to think it over before pre-ordering. I do hope they'll do a digital version even if it's way later in the year.

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Majority are debating about Shrek 5's animation and here I am praying to the heavens that this movie's writing is just as good as the first two if not better. Three and four were eh ok so I'm worried if it's all downhill after that. I mean if the comedy and social commentary don't land then I hope there's some heart to the plot instead.

Coz like Kung Fu Panda 4 was pretty bland and rushed despite coming out after Puss In Boots: Last Wish. So I have my doubts with this new installment.

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Bruh I'd love to buy the Love.exe jayvik zine but wtf is that shipping fee 💀

It's way higher than the zine itself. Anime kitchen says the items are shipped from the US and knowing that whole tarriff issue over there (just guessing), maybe that's why?? I tried adding 1 more zine to the cart and the shipping fee increase is still mindblowing (saw some comments suggesting a bulk buy for PH so I checked to see if it's even worth it).

Gonna need to think it over before pre-ordering. I do hope they'll do a digital version even if it's way later in the year.

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I'm calling it now...Don't put BBno$ on a pedestal. He may be a jayvik truther and that stream he did was pretty awesome for the Arcane community but, speaking as someone who got burned twice, keep your expectations moderate.

Don't make him the face of jayvik (to those who think he is). Even the guy who posts those reactions of jayvik clips. Same with Harry Lloyd.

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Gonna be honest, back when Arcane season 1 came out. I still had this cynical belief where Riot, a gigantic studio that has a lot of...toxic male players, wouldn't take the dive on certain character relationships. Meaning:

Vi and Cait would be canon but we'll only get bare minimum. Like how Korra and Azami were done dirty due to Nickelodeon's intervention in the last season.

They won't give us an ounce of romantic interaction between Jinx and Ekko. Tbh it seemed one-sided, Ekko's crush is clear but Jinx focuses more on the fighting and Vi. Maybe a crumb of friendship interaction instead, at least what was left of it.

Jayce is used as a plot device for Viktor's villain origin story. I was convinced in season 2 that Viktor would feel jealous/betrayed that Jayce gets all the credit for hextech. And Jayce's ambition gets into his head and they have a falling out. Season 2 will be their friends to enemies plotline.

The only plot I was confident will happen was the Warwick theory and Ambessa using her army for the war.

So imagine my surprise that we got sesbian lex, Ekko experiencing a what-if with an AU jinx, and that poetic jayvik ending. Mel doesn't get killed off and actually gets her own character development beyond Jayce. Lots of good songs and like...a pretty good, quite satisfying ending.

Although I saw some pacing issues, the overall end-product has me disregarding it.

I hope Riot does another show with Fortiche and I'm looking forward to Fortiche's Penelope of Sparta. ALSO praying for a director's cut version of Arcane. There's a bunch of scenes cut (Ekko and Jinx as they prepare their surprise attack and ahem Violyn extended scene ahem) from the show that now sits in a french harddrive waiting to be hacked lol.

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Okayyy so what if Viktor was ace Christian?

Ace can still have relationships so I don't think that counts as a dig.

In season one, I already was under the impression that Viktor was ace (or ace-coded in my eyes).

But even I can see the moments of "affection" (as Viktor says) he and Jayce had.

I don't think it changes anything.

Dare I say, it kinda adds to the romance because Jayce will still accept him.

The funny part is that this makes the MelxJaycexViktor throuple dynamic work even more.

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I binged all of the Attack on Titan anime in 7 days (May 18-24, 2024). I'm left feeling philosophical and existencial. The fans who went through 10 years of emotional attachment while I just breezed through them in a week, makes me feel like I missed out....

I missed out on not just being a part of the community during it's peak, but I feel like binging them left me little room to process my emotions of the series as I jumped from one plot to the next. I gobbled up the episodes like a mindless Titan and only halted when I was working. Only in Hange's death did I feel like taking a genuine break from watching.

While processing the emotions, I realized "huh, I must've really loved her character". I barely shed a tear but I made a sad face which was more than the reaction I had for Erwin's death. Speaking of his death, I didn't "feel" it when he was dead dead, I felt it when Levi made the decision to make it permanent. So I was more sad for Levi upon Erwin's death.

I had to rewatch her death scene via a clip on Youtube because I wanted to "feel" it again. It still hurts especially her afterlife scene. Erwin always being at the front of her and Levi's imagination when looking back to their fallen comrades, never fails to add more emotions. To cheer myself up I rewatched the video of a Hange cosplayer dancing to "talk dirty to me" hahaha iykyk. I won't watch her death scene ever again. I can't.

It's funny because that was the first ever scene I decided to watch a few years ago. It was a clip recommended on youtube. I never watched clips of the anime when it on-going. I put off watching the anime until it was completed because I thought to myself "I can't possibly suffer the waiting period in between seasons if the show was good". I don't know why I decided to break my rule just for this one clip. And looking back, I don't think I even understood why it was called her death scene because she looked so peaceful (note: it was out of context for me and I didn't know Erwin was dead). And it's funny because the me from the past didn't know it would affect me in a big way today.

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I never spoiled myself of plot points. I didn't know the ending but was very hopeful that it would be a happy one. Every character death left me thinking "it's okay, the ending's gonna be happy". Like a mantra to keep me optimistic. I read somewhere that Eren could travel back in time (but I didn't read further on how he could) so I was hoping that during the last few episodes, any time now, Eren will find the "happy ending" and go back in time to prevent the war. I much preferred he had altered the timeline where most of his friends never met if it meant that all of them led happy lives because I know Armin and Mikasa would still be with him. If not him, I was also hoping Ymir would instead. Changing her fate by letting the King die and maybe, the outcome would be happier (we'll never know).

But the thing is Eren did find the happy ending...for everyone else that is. I just wanted one where he got it too. Not an ending where Mikasa has 10 years of emotional baggage. God damn it.

A lot of comments/critiques say Eren's choices were done with free will but I'm left thinking that it doesn't seem that way. He chained himself to the only outcome where everyone is free from the titan curse. Feels like he was forced down this path...I guess because he wasn't selfish.

Arghh it would've been easier for me to process if his reason was simply "I want to do this for everyone's sake". At first, I thought his reason was because "protect Eldia, massacre everyone else" then it was "the outside world isn't filled with only flowers so I'll till the land myself and make it so". I think I'll revisit the ending in the future and maybe I'll finally come to my own conclusion.

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I binged the show on Netflix and I later found out that they altered the ending. For one, they played Call of Silence during the scene where Mikasa sat beside Eren's grave. After that it cuts to The End card. This ending felt a lot more sentimental both to the character and to the fans. However there was a post credits scene Netflix didn't include (in my region's version as far as I know) where the ending was...a lot more hopeless. Depicting a future where the cycle of war in Eldia never ends and Eren's efforts may not have changed anything. Because his grave is the next mysterious tree that may be holding the parasite that gives the Power of the Titans.

Anyway, I'm wondering if Mikasa married years down the line. The man she was with looks like Jean to me because it can't be Armin. Personally I hope she stayed single because she defied Eren's words asking her to move on just like how she never discarded the red scarf. It's still possible she married though because I caught a glimpse of a ring on her hand in-between the flowers. But married or not, both paths are bittersweet because she clearly never got over Eren and was even buried(?) on the same tree.

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Arghhh what a rollercoaster. I'm going to let these feelings simmer for awhile and won't be watching another anime for the next 7 days at least. I find myself watching analysis videos of the ending and random clips. Probably might read some fanfics too because I really want some ErenxMikasa romance, lord knows we only got crumbs in canon.

The show finished airing in November 2023 but it felt like it had been 2 years. I wonder what Isayama is going to do next.

I started watching the series on a whim and ended with eMOtional damage.

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I will be getting a wisdom teeth surgery tomorrow (both bottom jaw ones) and instead of feeling anxious of the healing process and pain, I am just preparing myself to not be able to eat whatever I want for the next 2 weeks. Maybe even more.

Food is one of the little things that spark joy in me in this day-to-day life. But it's alright, I'm sure my mind is preoccupied by the post-surgery pain to even care about eating.

As a last hurrah, I'm gonna eat everything I want before tomorrow.

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I like watching all the Lethal Company gameplays lately. It's the game that made me finally watch a livestream and stay until the streamer ended live.

But I'm already sensing that the game's popularity is dying out because there's no definite ending. The quota seems to only keeping going up and if all the players do is just keep gathering scrap for nothing, then I'm starting to think "what's the point?"

It was fun while it lasted though. The fun scares together with friends is the heart of the game and I think it's the reason behind why it's still being played.

Hoping they'll do some updates. Like new monsters or items to interact.

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Made my sister watch Into and Across the Spiderverse for the first time. Seeing her going "what? What??WTF???" at the ending of the second movie's cliffhanger was so fun. You have now joined me in this agonizing journey of waiting for the next movie MUAHAHAHAHA