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The morning after

I love drawing Wilson, the lil teddy bear

House: coyote

Cuddy: spaniel

Wilson: yellow lab

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Lisa Cuddy is simply fucking brilliant, no notes.

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It's Thirteen Thursdaaaayyyy! What better day to start the Pride Month Poll for my blorbo of all time and THEE canon bisexual of all time?

As per usual: if I am unsure of a ship name, I'll write out the full pairing. Please rb to increase sample size!

ICYMI, previous polls:

WLW Ships Day 1: Cuddy (poll open until 6/9)

WLW Ships Day 2: Cameron (poll open until 6/10)

WLW Ships Day 3: Amber (poll open until 6/11)

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sometimes i see people say that cameron's crush on house came out of nowhere and that's simply not true. there are so many moments where they interact, connect, all those glimpses of how cameron believes in house and sees the good in him (and how broken they both are).

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"huddy sucks cuddy deserves better" BOOOOOOOOOO TOMATO TOMATO TOMATO GET A NEW LINE

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House’s two moods be like:

1) i’ve barred the door and am currently hiding from Cuddy on the roof but maybe i should change my name and flee the country just to be sure she never ever finds me. if i ever have to talk to Cuddy again i will cut my other leg off

2) if i don’t annoy Cuddy in the next 15 minutes i will explode and die. i’m going to burst into her office for the 6th time today and say something obnoxious so she will get close and yell at me. i will be placing myself directly in her path at every opportunity so she has no choice but to interact with me and also i will be making a comment about her breasts while looking pathetically into her eyes like a starving dog

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I love your art so much….please post more wips, poopsie. I beg of you!!!

I’m not usually the type that draws on daily basis…..but since you asked, enjoy :D

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man i love house i wish medical malpractice was real

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sometimes my notes for episodes are like. 2k words worth of analysis. and other times they're like. "wow this episode was good. Cuddy was there. and House was there and the ducklings were there :) so awesome." and i just have to accept that as my reality.

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house md rewatch: 1x13, "cursed"

daddy issues o'clock + doctor robert chase making me weepy

man, i just really like this one. no matter house often house md makes cancer into a plot device, it gags me every time.

i think i'll lead this recap with why i'm so excited by it - this is an unconditional love episode, even if so many people claim to dislike/hate one another. and this is a trait inherited from failed misanthrope number 1, of course. i'll build to that!

i adore all of the character work done with chase here. all of his strengths and weaknesses ebb and flow so well, also on account of the highly efficient flow of this episode. we see him at his absolute strongest so far - bonding with the patient, gabe, over his anxieties, secrecy, and fear of his dad - and then at his worst - testy, snarling, and petulant (UNDERSTANDABLY. heavy on the understandably). the degradation from kindly taking gabe aside to talk away from his parents to claiming that throwing diagnoses at the wall till something sticks "works for spaghetti" is STEEP.

i have very old but kind memories of having doctors like chase from my Dying Child Era, so i'm extra affected by his scenes with gabe.

chase's decline is, of course, inspired by the sudden appearance of his dad, rowan chase, whom he hasn't seen in a Long Time. All at once, we're thrown a lot of chase lore - his mother "drank herself to death," died ~10 years ago (which house somehow knew), chase was left to take care of her, and he and rowan have fundamentally different understandings of how their relationship devolved. we've also got another interesting trifecta among the ducklings: how they deal, or don't deal, with their past.

cameron, while hesitant to reveal hers, lets it inform her work and wears her feelings on her sleeve very righteously re: 1x07. this by no means makes her an open book, ofc. she also pokes back when house tries to needle his way into her head, highlighting their similarities, their opposition to being vulnerable, etc.

foreman just rejects the premise of divulging anything personal outright. even with wilson relegated to a borderline background character atp, we know more about him than we do foreman. i love that, especially knowing the weight of his story upcoming.

chase, meanwhile, gets nasty. he mouths off to house, throws some caution to the wind, and, when push comes to shove, gives in just to rip the bandaid off (he's a big bandaid-ripper, in retrospect). despite the similarities between house and chase so far, emphasized a little more in 1x13, they are not alike in this respect, in my opinion. this informs house's decision not to tell chase that his dad is dying of cancer.

this episode actually does a lot to deconstruct any tacit similarities we've drawn between chase and house and places house - quite obviously - in the fatherly role. amazing irony for someone who claims to be better off without the relationship at all. my personal favorite is the red mug:

rowan also wears red throughout the episode, if that adds anything here.

and in a scene soon after rowan chase arrives, house makes a jab at the obviously strained relationship, noting that "i know how protective kids can be of their parents" while handing chase his can, which chase receives without a second thought:

house also says sarcastically to chase: "prove your dad wrong. it'll solve everything," a remark whose tone implicates house wayyy later in 5x04 when he's so insistent on proving that his father is of no biological relation to him. seriously, do all roads point me back to that episode? we obviously don't know about house's poor relationship with his parents yet, but it was a weighted comment to make, and hugh laurie always lets us know through the eyes that there are around 3 more layers of machinations to house working at all times.

even the final diagnosis, leprosy, holds bearing on father and son. not only did gabe inherit the illness from his dad, but the historical/religious significance of leprosy implicates chase's upbringing. leprosy was often considered to be divine punishment in the bible and a mark of permanent social isolation and separation, so to inherit the "sins" of the father is doubly unfair. it's no fault of gabe's that his father gave him the illness, just like it's no fault of chase for how his childhood turned out. there's a terribly kind message buried in there.

re: unconditional love, chase all but spits on the concept when cameron confronts him about his iciness toward his father. she tells him that "all this hate is toxic" between chase and rowan, to which he replies: "then stay away." very superficially house of him, and obviously meant as a warning away from romantic interest (haha), but we know that's just it - it's all superficial.

small note: i always like the moments they seclude to this MRI observation room; the coloring usually implies a tense exchange is about to happen, and someone will inevitably get the 2nd act cold shoulder -- this all makes the time when wilson gives house an MRI infinitely funnier.

if chase had truly moved on from his father, he wouldn't make such a meandering speech to house about disappointment. he wouldn't feel disappointed about those disappointments. he would be able to talk about his past in a calm manner, thus making him a lot less human, a lot less like robert chase, and a LOT less of a disaffected misanthrope-lite.

i also think the scene between cameron and chase highlights cameron's persistent belief in love's absolutism, which was super present in 1x07.

this is where i think house and chase are conjoined. house is such a fake "I Don't Care Guy," he's just had a lot more years of practice, loneliness, drug abuse, and tragedy. i don't think house is aware of this about himself yet, but he does see a glimmer of himself in chase's speech about disappointment, which is what truly motivates him to keep the cancer diagnosis to himself. after just claiming that he likes meddling "because i like to know things," he puts a pause on that meddling for a greater good (thanks for the quick moral lesson, wilson). VERY IMPORTANT FOR THE FUTURE OF HOUSE MD.

1x13 lays this on pretty thick at the end, but i don't mind. after learning about the extent of his father's lies, gabe tells chase that he doesn't love his dad anymore. chase shoots this down, insists that gabe does, and that there's "nothing you can do about it."

the final tragedy of the episode is that, when chase does submit to a very intuitive sense of unconditional love, rowan can't meet him there.

he flies back to australia without telling chase that he's dying. he's dug himself too deep of a hole, full of conditions, excuses, and supposed reasons for leaving chase that chase was prepared to leave at the door! rowan can't uphold unconditional love, and it'll be a brutal lesson for chase to learn as the show carries on.

good episode! foundational episode, even! when i started house md, i didn't expect the blonde australian to get to me, but he did then, and he's doing the same right now.

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may a humble woman lover request thirteen 🙏

WOMENNNNNNNNNNNN

Thank you for requesting <3

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uncommon moments [59/?] ⤷ 4.09 — “Games”

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Wolfdog house & golden retriever Chase🐾🐾

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Things get broke When in my hands And I destroy The best laid plans I like the truth But love a lie I'm not the man you think I am You'd best just say goodbye

huddy song.... huddy song..... who up thinking about Help Me

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stupidly invested in the dichotomy between cuddy's wardrobe and the way she decorates her house.

she's so... warm-toned with her wardrobe. so many pinks and reds. but those are barely there in her home. a few throw pillows, the curtains, the accent of her carpet, not much.

what there is an abundance of, though, is yellow. similar to her office. it's on the walls, the curtains in her bedroom, the decor in her kitchen, the bright yellow followers on her coffee table. the pale yellow (cream, almost) of her bedspread.

i am absolutely reading too much into it. probably means nothing. but i like to think it's the difference between the way she wants to be perceived, and what she truly wants for herself. the passion and aggression of a deep red vs the joy of a bright yellow.

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ok so i'd never heard of our word or 36 questions but i looked up the song after reading the tags on that post and OMG YOU TWO ARE SO RIGHT ABOUT THAT SONG AND ADAMS I HAVE CHILLSSSSSSSSSSS

OUR WORD IS SO GOOD. AND IT WORKS WITH SOOOO MANY BLORBOS!!! God Our Word + Adams drives me insane. The rest of the musical is pretty different from Our Word (but still enjoyable!! and really good!!) but oh my god. Our Word. Our Word. It's on my Thirteen playlist and Bird's Adams playlist for many reasons and it destrooooyssss me. I'm glad you liked the song!!! :D

I don't want to say a ton about Adams + Our Word right this second only because I know Bird can say it better and with more detail if she wants to share :3 @x-birdsong-x (she's SO, SO good at analyzing Adams, it blows me away). But since I'm a Thirteen analyst and because Bird and I usually analyze Thirteen and Adams in tandem/parallel to each other and it's a song we match to them both, I will say that the last chorus especially is not only SO Adams and her parents ("Our daughter Judith? You must be mistaken. You mean the girl we raised as if our own? We loved her so much, she felt like our child. But eventually we had to send her home." I am killing Adams' parents with hammers), but it's has some of the most Thirteen lyrics ever to me. It so perfectly describes her relationship with John (her dad), based both on what we get in canon (Let Them Eat Cake, Lockdown) and on my headcanons.

"I saw my parents hearing the news: your only daughter drowned today. I thought about what they might say: 'Our daughter Judith? No, she moved to Austin. She's very happy there, or so we hear. She's always been so goddamn independent; the years go by and now we barely see her.'"

a few word swaps and you end up with:

"I saw my father hearing the news: your only daughter drowned today. I thought about what he might say. 'My daughter, Remy? No, she moved to Princeton. She's very happy there, or so I hear. She's always been so goddamn independent- the years go by, and now I barely see her.'"(<- fits perfectly with her 'it's better if I stay elsewhere' from Lockdown)

Thirteen and her dad's relationship genuinely makes me insane and Our Word makes me insane and. Thank you for the ask Em (<3) and I'm so glad you listened to the song and can see it with Adams!!

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how can you not love this guy. carrying and checking the time on a pocket watch