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MY SHAYLAAA
018. CARNATIONS
Touya used to avoid mirrors.Ā
Naturally, his gaze would avert if he ever noticed one nearby. It was a habit. A quick, subconscious movement heād make that felt as natural as breathing.Ā
He used to wince at his appearance every time he had the unfortunate coincidence of catching sight of it. Whether it was in murky puddles on the side of the street, or within the glass bottles back in the Leagueās bar late at nightāthe subtle frown tugging his lips downwards whenever he saw his face would always appear. He found himself to be revolting, disgustingly so.
Found; past tense. Heās still not quite sure what to think of himself now.
Right now, he stares at his reflection quietly in thought. His scars have faded, sure. But they wouldnāt ever leave. He supposes the pain inflicted from them is the same. While it may subside, it canāt just disappear. And he certainly wonāt forget it. It would always be lingering, a reminder pressed into his skin and hot as molten metal.
Touyaās hands move to gently trace his scars. Theyāre not so bad, he supposes. They had been far worse at so many other points in his life. The scarred skin is easy to recognize just by a touch, and while he should be thankful he can feel anything at allāhe almost wishes he couldnāt. The scars become so much more prominent when he touches them, because there's no way he can ignore the textured flesh then. His skin is sensitive, tender in a way it shouldnāt be. But after months of surgery after surgery, the final product is better than he could've ever dreamt of after the war.
Itās surreal. All of it was.
His milky skin being revived made him look younger, and a lot more like his mother. Doctors are miracle workers, truly. Touyaās not sure who the person staring back at him in the bathroom mirror was, but he wanted to learn more about him. Youād mentioned something about self love (or maybe it was self respect, Touya canāt remember which). He knows heās not a mistake, you helped him see thatābut he still struggled. Internally, there were some wounds too deep to be healedādamage irreversible in a way that scarred ugly.
Baby steps. Heād taken the big ones with you in terms of healing, but he needed to make some changes on his own, too. Not just for himself, but for his family, and you.
So, heāll start with familiarizing himself with his face. Treating his body with more care and gentleness, just like you did. Touya pushes the pale strands hanging on his forehead backwards, giving him the most optimal view of his face.Ā
He swallows the lump building in his throat, and the pressure behind his eyes was beginning to build up until he heard Akariās knock on the door. Blinking away the haziness, Touya standsāgiving himself a once over. He was wearing all blackājust a simple sweatshirt and pants, and the clothing was casual and comfortable enough for him to relax in. He grabs the duffel bag laying on his bed, heart hammering as he grips the handle tightly.
He had your letters tucked into the bottom of his bag, but heāll get rid of them later. He doesnāt want you reading themāeven though they were all addressed to you, they were all written when he was at his lowest. If anything, they were nothing but physical proof of how much heād grown.
So no, you wouldnāt get to read the letters. But Touya intended to make up for his time apart from youāand heāll reiterate every word with his own approach in person. Akari had done Touya the liberty of mailing his cactus to the Todoroki household, so there were no partings due there.
He stands in front of his doorway, turning to look at his room one last time. The blinds are pulled back and welcome in the rising sunāit felt like the furniture and walls were glowing, thanks to the sun rays. And all though furniture and walls were stationary and unfeelingāhe imagined it was their way of saying goodbye to him.
Touya had made a lot of memories in this room with you. The only thing that encouraged him to finally leave was the prospect of making more of them with you.
Akari smiles warmly at Touya when he opens the door, greeting and ushering him towards the elevator. He gives his room one last glance over his shoulder, a soft sigh slipping past his lips before he clicks the door behind him close for the last time.
āI hope you understand that only family is allowed to come pick you up, dear.ā She comments, pressing the down button as Touya hums in reply. He wanted to meet his family first, anyway. He still needs to calm himself down a bit more before he sees youāand he can do that on the two hour drive back home. If Touya sees you now, heās genuinely afraid his heart will go into cardiac arrest or something.
āThank you, Akari.ā Touya finally says, giving the older woman a small nod of acknowledgement as the elevator begins to move.
āYou and one other person showed me kindness, and Iām grateful. Really. I didnāt deserve shi-anything, I mean. You helped my mother too, so thank you.ā
Akari offers Touya a wrinkly smile in response, and his gaze softens fondly at the sight.
Thereās a soft ding! sounding through the elevator. The doors open slowly, and itās like all the air is punched out of his lungs when Touya finally sees his family standing in the waiting area. It was near comical the way everyone's eyes widened at the same time when Touya came into viewāall before they came racing his way.
Shoto was surprisingly the first to reach Touya, quickly wrapping his arms around him before he felt Natsuoās arms doing the same. Then Fuyumiās, then his mothersāthe tears well in Touyaās eyes embarrassingly quick, but heās not ashamed in the slightest bit.
Relief. Itās all he can feelāevery fiber of his being is alight with pure content at the way heās pulled into their warm embrace.Ā
When Touya was sixteen, he had a dream remarkably similar to the reunion playing out in front of him. A certain half red, half white head wasnāt in the picture back then. But right now, Touya canāt stop his head from dipping forward, and he allows it to fall onto Shotoās shoulder with a shuddering breath before he finally smiles.
Sitting on Touyaās old bed, your fingers card through the bouquet of Carnations laying in front of you diligently. Thereās about two dozen of them, and they were all hand picked by yours truly.
The Todoroki household was empty, you were the only one home. Theyād gotten the highly anticipated call this morning. Touya had passed his physical and mental evaluation test, giving him the green light to finally come home after eighteen months in rehabilitation.
You pad across the house, pacing in circles and trying to keep yourself occupied. The weather outside was finally warming up. Spring was the perfect time for Touya to come home, you decide. The world outside is blossoming and anewājust like the life Touya was about to begin.
Only family members were allowed in the hospital to pick Touya up. Itās the only reason youāre waiting here at the Todoroki household alone for him. Natsuo had tried to bring you along, but the rules were quite strict. You keep the bouquet flush against your chest, breathing in the fresh floraās scentābut, it does nothing to tame your excitement.
Touya would be walking through the front door any moment now. You tap your pointer finger against the stems of his flowers, gaze flitting towards the open window you lean against as you keep a close eye out for any approaching vehicles. Impatient as ever, you open the front door and decide to sit yourself outside. The wind muses your hair, and the windchimes hanging outside the entrance sing a magical tune, almost like they can sense your hope hanging in the air.
You see itāNatsuoās car is about a dozen meters away. Your breath hitches and you rise on shaky legs immediately, clutching Touyaās bouquet for support. The car is still in motion as it prepares to slow to a stop, but Touya swings his door open regardless and jumps out. He grins sharply, teeth and allāand he looks just as beautiful as the day youād left him.
Touyaās strides are long and confidentāproud as his feet hit the pavement. You leave the bouquet on the stairs, stumbling forward to meet his embrace as his body collides with yours. Youāre swept off your feet in an instant, and he spins you around so fast that you canāt see anything besides the blur of ivory tufts in front of you and his heart stopping smile.
He repeats your name over and over againāpressing a chaste kiss onto the crown of your head. The tears welling in your eyes donāt sting, they feel more sweet than salty as they dampen your cheeks. Touyaās palm easily maneuvers to the nape of your neck, and his thumb runs over the crystal trail your crying leaves as he tilts your head upwards and towards him.
āYou kept your promise.āĀ
The words are barely louder than a whisper as they fall from his lips, but Touya doesnāt think anyone will ever understand how grateful he is that you gave a broken man like him a chance to feel like this. He breathes you ināyour familiar scent filling his senses, and heās about a second away from bursting into tears because you smell like home.
āTouya,ā You choke out, irises shaking as you press a tender kiss onto his lips, one which he reciprocates immediately with the desperation of a man starved of the one thing that gives him life. He pulls away after another moment, his hands quickly moving to your face. Your laughter sounds through the air as he cradles your cheeks in his strong palms, and he presses kisses filled with nothing but his utmost love and devotion onto your skin. No spot on your face was left untouched by his lipsāyouāre a squirming, giggling mess underneath himāand Touya can already picture waking up every morning for the rest of his life to the sight of your smile.
When Touya was a kid, he thought marriage was gross, and that having kids was a total waste of time, seeing how his childhood turned out. But when you hand him his bouquet of Carnations, when you take his hand and lead him inside the house, when you call out his name with the gentleness akin to an angelāhe wants it all.Ā
He wants to marry you, make you completely his and be completely yours. He wants you to carry his childrenāno doubt theyāll have your charm and diamond smileāhe just wants to be with you forever. To grow old with you and live the rest of his life away from the rest of the world. Away from the cruelty, the violenceāit was all he wanted. To finally let his heart rest with you, he can trust you wonāt break it like life often seemed to.Ā
The world tore him open rib by rib, and in the state where his heart was most vulnerable and exposedāyou were the one to steal it away.
Touya wouldnāt have it any other way.
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valentines !!
ā” : i. midoriya, k. bakugo, s. todoroki, e. kirishima, d. kaminari, h. sero
ā : gn!reader, slight fem!reader mention in one of denki's, established relationship, one mention of vomit, very small vocabulary omg, not edited so if you see a typo ignore it
ā : sorry this is so late!! i hate being busy and iāve been really busy recentlyš but there will be a new smau coming out later this week alsošš
- in which the mha boys ask you to be their valentine !
i. midoriya
asks you like the first week of januaryš
very responsible!
but hes actually so nervous to ask you even tho you guys are dating ??
almost vomits bc heās so nervous
was gonna do it in front of your friends but he was too nervous so he did it in private
it was after school and the sun is starting to set so itās that mix of pink and orange
he texts you telling you to meet him at the pond you guys hangout at
youāre sitting there for maybe a minute, waiting for him
and he comes up behind you with a little āboo!ā bc heās silly����
you turn around and heās holding flowers and thereās a little bit of snow on the petals
when he opens his mouth to talk he gets nervous and shuts up and his face is turning bright red
LMAO he turns around, takes a deep breath and turns back around with an anxious smile
āi know itās early but⦠will you be my valentine?ā
he shuts his eyes like he thinks youāre gonna say no loll
his heart is beating out of his chest when you donāt respond but youāre just awing at him bc heās so cuteššš
i donāt think i used awing right
he opens his eyes and heās like āplease donāt say no bc i already made a reservationā
you giggle at him and then you hug and say yes of courseeeee
and then you live happily ever after and he gives you flowers, chocolate, stuffed animal, smth youāve been wanting for a while, and takes you out to dinner and you spend the rest of the weekend togetherš
k. bakugo
wasnāt gonna ask you bc he assumed obviously youāre his valentine youāre datingš
until he heard your friends talking abt how their boyfriends asked
now he has to one up all of them
does it in private bc āthey donāt need to be in our businessā but itās bc no one else needs to see him showing emotion besides you
actually really nervous like izuku itās giving him a headache
begrudgingly asks his mom what to get you and how to ask you
he just shows up to your dorm and when you open the door he just barges in, shutting the door
you just stare at him confused and he huffs and rolls his eyes
ābe my valentine⦠or whateverā
heās basically whispering it
but if you ask him to repeat it heāll walk awayš
you ask him where your flowers/presents are and heās like āyou gotta wait for that, greedyā
but he takes you out to dinner bc heās had that booked since december/january but youāll never know thatš¤«
he gets you flowers and candy and all that cheesy shit but he gets you smth sentimental like omg you loserš©š©š©
very sentimental and probably gave you pictures from when you first met, first started dating, and now
so cute i love him
s. todoroki
also wasnāt gonna ask you but natsuo said he HAS TO
and mina was borderline harassing him abt it lmao
honestly pretty lost and scrolls on tiktok for hourssss looking for gift ideas
he asks you around the first week of february
nothing dramatic he just asked you on a study date at your fav cafe and he brings flowers and asks you as soon as he sees you
he feels like he should be nervous but really isnāt
nonchalant dreadhead shoto
pauses before he asks bc he gets a little nervous but he knows youāll say yes
omg if you say no as a joke he jaw drops slightly itās so funny
but on valentineās day he def takes you to this nice ass restaurant and you guys take cute pictures and everyoneās jealous
when you guys get back to the dorms he gives you your gift and i think he made you a boo basket bc he saw so many videos abt it
has like candy and stuff, probably a jellycat, and the essentials idk you get the point
super cuteness and you spend the rest of the night together and probably go out again the next dayš
e. kirishima
very excited he loves valentineās day
he just loves loving you!!!
just like izuku he asks you like right after christmas
you guys probably started dating bc he asked you to be his valentine and then you lived happily ever afterš
omg yes wait
itās the day after christmas and you guys are hanging out with your friends in the commons and he perks up randomly saying he forgot to give you a present and sprints to his dorm
most of you guys are looking at him weird but denki, mina, and sero are looking suspicious
he comes back, out of breath, and he places a medium to large sized box on the coffee table and sits back down next to you
you side eye him with suspicious and take the top off of the box
the box unfolds and thereās flowers and chocolate placed in the middle of a poster that says āall i want for christmas is you⦠will you be my valentine?ā in what looks like minaās handwritingš
you gasp and pull him in a tight hug, nodding with a little āof course, you loserā and a giggle
his hands shoot up in victory yelling, āSHE SAID YES!!!ā as if he just proposed to you LMAO
everyone (except bakugo bc he left when kirishima left bc he knew the present) cheered loudly and it was so sillyš
valentineās day rolls around and youāre greeted with him holding flowers in front of your door as so as you open it
āfor you mālady, happy valentineās dayā
after school you guys go eat ofc and go to the park, acting like fools but eventually you guys go back to the dorms and he gives you your presents
he also made a boo basket and has cute sentimental stuff like a handwritten note, a photo album of you guys, and other simple basic stuff
you guys had a romcom marathon and spent the rest of the weekend together with your āextended valentineās dayā
d. kaminari
iām torn between if heād lwk forget and ask you the day before or if heās had this prepared since novemberš
def asks you in public and does smth extravagant
like outside your dorm with a boombox
okay so itās february 1st and youāre finishing up getting ready for school and youāre just abt to head down to the commons
you grab your bag and you hear again by fetty wap blasting on a speaker and itās coming closer to your room LMAO
so, confused ofc, you step out of your room and see denki holding a poster that clearly wasnāt made by him bc itās legible, sero holding a boombox, and kirshima holding a bouquet of flowers
can you tell i think im the funniest person ever
most of your class is behind him, cheering him on bc power couple ofc
as he approaches your dorm, sero turns down the music and denki holds the poster in one hand and flowers in the other
his dramatic ass gets down on one knee
āgood morning, my beautiful goddess, will-ā
ādid mina make that posterā
āshut up, will you make me the happiest man alive and be my valentine?ā
you laugh and say yes ofc and he jumps up, drops the poster and flowers, and picks you up and spins you around while everyone cheers and takes pictures
very dramatic ofc
on valentineās day he comes to your door in the morning and gives you flowers and chocolate that he makes you carry it around all day so these mfs know you have a valentine
after school he gives you your presents and he also does a basket thing and itās very similar to kirishimas but def adds some pictures of himself for you to appreciate lmao
even tho he did a dramatic thing asking you out heās pretty chill on valentineās day and just wants you to feel your best and feel loved and appreciated
take insta pics of courseeee and everyoneās jealous and he takes your pictures and he highly trained btw
just like kirishima with the āextended valentineās dayā itās valentineās day until you go back to school
youāre attacked by the hip all weekend, everything is a two person job
even if you have to go to the bathroom heāll stand by the sink
if you kick him out heāll be curled up against the door while he waits and falls when you open the door
very cutesy very sweet makes sure heās the best and last bf you havešš
h. sero
asks you in a timely manner
very responsible
could do smth extravagant and public or personal and private depending on what you want
probably makes mina ask you abt it so she can tell him
bc of that i wonāt specifically describe how he asks so use your imagination to how your perfect valentines proposal would be
classic man, probably brings flowers but if you donāt like flowers or are allergic heāll bring an alternative like stuffed/dried/lego flowers or wtv
if you want smth public and dramatic heāll probably yell at you from down the school hallway, run up to you with a poster and loudly askš
if you want smth more private and personal heāll probably ask in the same place he asked you out and have a little cute and meaningful speech
heās pretty good with words if he wants to and makes you tear up a little bit tbh
use your imagination to fulfill the rest of your dreams <33
similar to kirishima mainly
if you prefer a fancy dinner heāll book one but if you just wanna get food or stay in the dorms itās wtv makes you happy bc you being happy makes him happyš¤©
but on valentineās day iām thinking he gives you smth in the morning like a cute matching bracelet and gives you the rest of your gifts after your date
he follows you around all day and has no shame bc why wouldnāt he
like i said earlier it depends what you want like if you go to a restaurant to eat or just grab some food or stay in the dorms
but after you eat you guys watch cheesy romcoms in his dorm and he gives you your presents
also does a basket and gives you the basic things like everyone else but he does hand write a letter makes a cute thing with pictures from when you first started dating to now
heās very sentimental tell me heās notš
omg yes he gives you a collage board to hang up on your wall and itās full of pictures of you guys and tons of memories
he does not play abt valentines LMAO
follows you around all weekend also but he does that anyways
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heyyy so i made smth for valentines but i never got the chance to post it bc its almost done but iāve been pretty busy these past couple daysšš
itās not an smau but iāve been thinking abt still posting it or trashing it idkkkk
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WTF IS THIS IM TIRED OF SEEING IT IM DISTURBED
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can you please write something with showing the mha boys our new piercings.. (such as tongues , eyebrows, or even belly button piercings š)
i just like piercings a lot.
piercings !!
ā” : i. midoriya, k. bakugo, s. todoroki, e. kirishima, d. kaminari, h. sero
ā : gn!reader, a little bit of fem!reader but not really mentioned, fluff, crack, most of them donāt have the piercing mentioned so itās up to you����, denki's is painfully unfunnyš¬
ā : youāre the absolute sweetest and support my stuff sm so so sorry this took forever im a huge procrastinator luv uš½š½
- in which the mha boys react to your new piercing !
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im TRYING to post the new smau but school wifi sucks so new smau coming out when i get home where i have good wifiš
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that performance SUCKED!!
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i miss my iphone 4
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hii just wanted to say i love ur weird girl series cuz im a weird girl too šš we need more weird girl representation š£ļøā¼ļø ur seriously funny tho like i giggle at those whenever i see them
AHHH THANK YOU THANK YOU!! btw i love when you guys send me stuff like this i thought all these ppl were faking it tbh and didnāt care but i actually love it so much yall have me kicking my feet
and iām gonna try to be more consistent with posting ik i say that all the timeš but i wanna post like twice a week im working on another one rn bc i have old requests i never answered bc i suckš
so if you requested smth a while ago iāll get to it soon thank you for being patient i love you guysā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøš½š½š½š½
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I just randomly found you and binged all of your weird girl series I beg of you please moreššš whenever I read them it was like did somebody put the essence of my soul in this post like what?š your work is greatly appreciated.
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weird girl: e. kirishima edition !!
ā : crack, suggestive jokes bc im immature, a bit ooc, this isnāt that weird bc im kinda running out of tbhā¦ā¦.š¶
ā : thank you i appreciate the love it makes me giggle and kick my feetšš sorry for disappearing randomly they were not lying abt junior year!!!!
- in which youāre kirishimaās weird gf !
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weird girl smau kirishima edition coming out hopefully todayšš
#are you excited#donāt get your hopes up it kinda sucksš¬#ą³āā· e. kirishima#mha#bnha#bnha x reader#kirishima x reader#mha x reader#ą³āā· cosmic yaps !
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kirishima would do your curly hair routine for you when you donāt want toš
#diffuse it and everything#can you tell iām procrastinating again#when i shave my hair off#i wonāt#but iām tempted#ą³āā· e. kirishima#eijiro kirishima x reader#kirishima eijiro#eijiro kirishima#kirishima x reader
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016. CARNATIONS
The first month Touya spent without you didn't feel real. He felt like a kid waiting by the door for you to come back every night. And with every day that passed, your absence was a cruel jackhammer into his heart that reminded him you weren't coming, no matter how much he wanted you to. His mind felt like it had been unplugged, a dull melancholy beating in place of it instead.
He spends a lot of his time thinking about you. Touya knows how much people can change in so little time. So, he wonders what will have changed about you when he sees you again. It's like a fairytale playing out in his mind whenever he thinks of youābecause all he can see is himself flying through these next few months and straight into your arms. He's not afraid of forgetting the sound of your laughter or the way your eyes crinkle when you smile, because those very things were permanently etched into his soul. You were a tattoo kiss that couldn't be erased, serving as a silent reminder of what he was fighting so hard for.
His mind is a broken record player that only shows him moments in time with youāmoments where he had felt true happiness for the first time in his life. He'd wake up with his heart beating fast and his eyes stinging like they'd been washed with the hottest of spices.
The second month is when the chilling realization that Touya got you fired finally settles in. He never really thought past the fact that you didn't have a job here at the hospital anymoreāhe chose to stay blissfully ignorant rather than thinking too hard about it. He felt the guilt bubbling and burning in his chest, how had he not been more worried about your well being? Truly, Touya was stupefied. Why hadn't you expressed even a shred of anger towards him? Just a few sharp words would be fine, Touya wouldn't mind at all. Because it would make sense. You were jobless, thanks to him.
And it's not like you'd been fired from just any job, it's not like Touya's father had placed him in just any hospital. This hospital laid in Japan's most beautiful lands, on acres of endless greenery. It was the best institution for hundreds of miles in every direction.
Touya can't help but go down the rabbit hole in his mind, crawling deeper and deeper into the infinite number of possibilities your kindness made. And Touya was unfamiliar with being around people who didn't have ulterior motives, so much so that he had trouble simply understanding that maybe you not getting mad at him was just a show of humanity. Something he wasn't familiar with.
The third month is when Touya is handed a calendar. The numbers and months are all scripted in cursive, spanning multiple pages that felt like the softest silk between his fingers. After flipping through the calendar, Touya decides he wants to hang it on the wall. Your gel pen hangs loosely from Touya's lips as he bites down on the end of it, his hands working to carefully pin his calendar to the wall. Gradually, the boxes fill up with red marks crossing out each one of them. There's still a great number of pages to go, but Touya's release day is regarded with a small smiley face he drew.
The fourth month is when Touya has his first nightmare since you left.
He went to bed that night as he always did. He did his nightly routine of washing up and combing through his hair until it was a fluffy cloud atop his head. He stared at his slowly healing scars in the mirror for at least fifteen minutes before changing into his night clothes and settling down to write his letter of the day to you. Some days, his letters would span pagesāstray papers would be strewn all over his bed as he tried to organize his thoughts. And other nights, he'd only write down a sentence or two before folding up his letter and filing it away. All the letters he wrote were kept in a small box Akari gave Touya to keep near his bed. Touya has a feeling you'll be proud of how much his handwriting has improved when you read his letters.
His nightmare was unexpected. It was dark and heavy in a way that made it feel like his lungs were collapsing and someone was stepping on his throat. He woke up the moment it became too much for his heart to handle, sitting straight up in his bed with a strangled gasp as his hand moved to clutch his night shirtātrying to ease his breathing.
A bead of sweat rolled down the side of his face, and Touya's tongue darts out to wet his dried lips before he glances at the emergency button beside his bed. He's not completely sure if he's having some sort of a heart attack, but his throat is closing up, and he feels terribly dizzy. He swings a leg over the edge of his bed, cradling his head in his hands as his eyes squeeze close.
But, he'll be fine. Because he remembers your breathing exercises. Like clockwork, Touya breaths in and outāhe counts and he thinks about his senses; what he feels, hears, smellsāand then his erratic heart slows to a calmer melody. After that, Touya is able to lay back down, though shivering, and go back to sleep. It takes him a bit of time, but his head feels like its been stuffed with cotton. Soon enough, his pale lashes are fluttering close.
Dabi would have broken down. Dabi wouldn't have gone back to bed, he would've stalked out of whatever shitty hideout he was camping in and find something to burn. Maybe an abandoned car lot so he could melt the cars that sat stationary and forgottenā because melting metal looked like liquid gold sometimes. An illusion of a drug all in its own, destruction had been Touya's escape at one point.
But now, Touya sleeps like a baby in his roomāwith a trickle of drool running down his chin as he snores quietly. His bed head was a mess, tooābut despite it all, he resembles an angel that had regrown its own wings. Touya has shed Dabi in the same manner a snake sheds to reveal the new layer of skin beneath, untouched and pure.
The fifth month is warm. Touya walks in the recreational garden a lot more as the sun begins to shine more, and his cactus has been growing a lot, too. Touya feels strongerānot physically, though he is proud his body isn't anywhere near as weak as it had once been. Mentally, his head had ceased its constant screaming. It was like all the noise had come to a screeching halt. And although he doesn't know what change there was in his chemistry that made him feel this way, he's grateful. Every day is a day closer to youāevery breathing second a second closer to the home he knew.
The sixth month is when Touya starts getting emotional. He's so closeāhe can almost hear your voice calling out his name. He daydreams about you constantly, wondering how hard he's going to hug you once he sees you again. Tonight is one of those nights where Touya pours his heart and soul into his letter. He only had a few more days left until he'd see you again. The doctors had run multiple tests and evaluations on him, and he'd exceeded their expectations. Just like he promised you he would.
Touya's eyes squint when he realizes his words weren't forming on the page in front of himābefore realizing his pen had run out of ink again.
He fights the urge to let his eyes close as he quickly caps the old pen and tries reaching for another oneābut his hand misses the pencil case twice. His eyelids were heavy with sleepāblurry too, and he couldn't even manage to grab another pen for himself. Touya didn't even hear Akari enter his roomāall he felt was a gentle pair of frail hands helping him stand. His legs felt like jelly, and he regarded the older woman with squinted eyes.
" 'm not a baby, Akari." Touya mutters as he gently removes Akari's hand from him. His voice is hoarse, and Akari laughs lightly at the sight of Touya's sleepy smile. If she didn't know better, she'd say he was drunk. Simply put, he was acting silly. But he was just high off of the prospect of seeing your face again.
"Let's get you to bed, Touya." Akari responds softly as Touya nods groggily. He's about a foot away from the bed when he speaks up, the worlds tumbling from his lips in something close to a whine. He was delirious from lack of sleep, but even thenāhe was only thinking of one thing.
"I miss my Y/n,"
Akari mutters a quiet oh dear when Touya suddenly loses all his will to stand. Touya crumples against her completely, his larger frame moving sluggishly as his head fell with a quiet exhale. Akari lets out a started yelp before carefully helping Touya lower himself onto the bed. His words were slurred with sleep, and it was clear that he hadn't gotten enough rest these past few days.
"She's waiting for me out there. I...I really can't wait to see her," Touya admits breathlessly, and Akari hums as she pulls his blanket over him. Touya doesn't move an inch, resorting to staring up at the ceiling above him as he presses the back of his forearm against his forehead.
"Night, Akari. Get some sleep, yeah?" Touya yawns, finally rolling over to get comfortable in bed as he presses his cheek against his pillow. Akari rises from her chair, gently patting Touya's shoulder as she bids him goodnight. Touya keeps an eye on Akari until he can confirm she's safely left the room before finally allowing his eyes to close, succumbing to his fatigue as he falls asleep.
Touya feels like a little kid all over again. He felt like he could face the world and come out on topāand it was an incredible feeling. He hadn't felt this type of hope in a long time, but you inspired something youthful in himārekindling a flame deep inside he thought had been put out so many years ago.
CARNATIONS MASTERLIST.
a/n; everyone say thank you taylor swift. carnations would not be a thing without her, this girl got me through every chapter š i can't write a single word unless she's playing...i think i'm crazy...š alsoo touya is so in love in makes me fawking sick. OH btw, y/n cried cause she missed his b-day after getting fired. but this guy was giggling in his room while writing u love letters because he literally forgot it was his birthday and was just minding his own business completely unaware until akari brought him a cupcake. anywho we are getting close to the end of carnations... i can feel it š„² i'm still not sure how i feel about this chapter. hmph.
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#carnations my love and roman empirešš#this fic is actually canon bc im horikoshi and i said so#ą³āā· cosmic recs !#fic rec#ą³āā· t. todoroki
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thinking of adding more to the weird girl! series⦠who should be next???
#mha#bnha#boku no hero academia#bnha x reader#denki kaminari#mha smau#denki x reader#kaminari x reader#denki kaminari x reader#kirishima x reader#eijiro kirishima x reader#hanta sero x reader#sero x reader#hanta sero#sero hanta#eijiro kirishima#kirishima eijiro#kaminari denki
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i think if you didnāt wanna take your makeup off denki would do it for you while you lay in bed
and i need that rn
#can you tell iām procrastinating#okay but i do have to get up bc itās a school nightš#ą³āā· d. kaminari#denki kaminari#denki kaminari x reader#kaminari denki x reader#kaminari denki#denki x reader#kaminari x reader#ą³āā· cosmic yaps !
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LMAOOO I WANNA DO THIS NOW
slighty 'acoustic' (mha boys)
feat. kirishima, tokoyami, denki, bakugou, shouto, shinso,






please send in ideas for smau... my brain can only handle so much (this is not a way of me asking for more asks)
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the way he looks at you with love UGGHHGMGU omg itās sickening honestly. his eyes are so soft and his face is relaxed, brows raised ever so slightly but he still looks so calm and content. heās so sweet i love himš«š«
his favorite thing to do is just stare at you when youāre rambling itās his love language tbh. hes such a listener like urgghffggmgj
todoroki is genuinely the sweetest boy youāll ever date. heās kind and considerate but a little dense sometimes, but itās okay because he genuinely means well. heās the type to unintentionally hurt your feelings with how blatantly honest he is sometimes, but heāll get you flowers and sincerely apologize when he realizes he made you upset. another thing is that heās not really used to affection. his family never was affectionate so when youāre suddenly holding him, caressing his face and hair, and giving him so much attention heās sorta awestruck. now he demands for it lol.
#i think abt this a lot#can you tell#bnha#mha#bnha x reader#mha x reader#shoto todoroki#todoroki shoto#shoto todoroki x reader#todoroki x reader#shoto x reader#ą³āā· cosmic yaps !#ą³āā· s. todoroki
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