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sorry for eating that wasnt very i’m willing to do whatever it takes to reach my ugw of me

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The legacies people leave behind in you.

My handwriting is the same style as the teacher’s who I had when I was nine. I’m now twenty one and he’s been dead eight years but my i’s still curve the same way as his.

I watched the last season of a TV show recently but I started it with my friend in high school. We haven’t spoken in four years.

I make lentil soup through the recipe my gran gave me.

I curl my hair the way my best friend showed me.

I learned to love books because my father loved them first.

How terrifying, how excruciatingly painful to acknowledge this. That I am a jigsaw puzzle of everyone I have briefly known and loved. I carry them on with me even if I don’t know it. How beautiful.

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me [completely out of touch with my feelings, trying to describe an emotion]: I feel, um, glittery? buzzy. like peeling my skin off

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i just want to be like her

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been doing terribly for a couple days but I'm ready to get on track today

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reblog if ur an ed blog and 20+ need moots <3

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Reblog to make the tummy not hurt of the person you reblogged from.

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the feminine urge to get worse

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you may be in her dms but in skipping every song that reminds me of her

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sorry i sexualize myself so much, that’s the only way i can get people to like me

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I have made a meme to explain how Millennials aren’t destroying industries, the industries are destroying us:

Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

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Her01ne chic/goth th1nsp0

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did pretty okay today considering it was thanksgiving.

yesterday at friendsgiving I ate..... a Lot. I'd estimate at least 3200 not counting alcohol. but I had kind of expected and planned for that.

today at my family's thanksgiving I was waaaaay more controlled. I did honestly eat a bit too much before I left because I was nervous, but I took small portions of everything at dinner except for the roasted veggies, and filled up half my plate with that.

I drank a full bottle of water over the course of the meal. I filled up on all the veggies and ate about half of each 1/4 cup serving of sides I'd eyeballed for myself. then, I split a serving of dessert with my mom, and only ate about half of it. no one commented !!

my grandma did ask me "why are you so skinny?" which was very satisfying too c:

all in all, not the worst turnout for thanksgiving. I am so bloated though. I took l-x tbh. I cant stand the thought of all of this sitting inside me. and I want to get an accurate SW for my next diet.

that being said, 100% fasting tomorrow. then the AIT diet starts Saturday c:

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i love romanticizing ana so i don't quit