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Girls will say "this is my beautiful wife" and their beautiful wife is just a weird looking man

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Angst: Ticci Toby

TW: Car accidents, survivors guilt, overall angst (you get it)

Toby has major survivors guilt. He feels guilty just for living, breathing, still having the opportunity to (somewhat) enjoy life. It shouldn't have been Lyra that died in the car accident, but him. He was the one to grab the wheel, he drove his own sister; the only person that showed him pure love, into her own death. He feels an overwhelming amount of guilt, the emotion swallows him whole. No matter how hard he tries to escape it, the thought of "it should have been me" always finds a way to snake it's way back into Toby's head.

He can't live peacefully, he is constantly thinking that Lyra should be here. She should be the one enjoying the company of others, warm food, soft blankets, all of it. Maybe becoming a proxy is his own form of karma. At least that's what he tries to justify it as; maybe living a miserable life, slaughtering people for a faceless entity, and having a mind full of unregulated mental illness is what he deserves.

Of course, Toby knows that Lyra wouldn't want him to think this way or live this miserable life. Lyra isn't here anymore though, Toby will never feel the comfort that she provided him through his entire life. He will never again have that shoulder to lean on, no more going to his big sister when he's upset, no more comforting hugs, no sweet whispers and reassurances that he would get out of that horrid place in his mind. All of it is gone. He will never again experience the warmth of her hugs, her laugh that was filled with nothing but pure joy, he will never again experience her. The only source of comfort that he had was ripped away from him the moment his hands hit that steering wheel.

Ps: posted this in a server, if you know me NOOOOO YOU DO NOT BRO 😭😭

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Toby angst (kind of)

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Toby has extreme attachment issues. I'm talking will not leave you alone at all and to a certain extent it maybe (definitely) is unhealthy.

He'd be like this to his friends and partner. With his friends it's more of an "I don't want to share my favorite people" kind of feeling and he gets jealous quickly. If he's not too upset about it and is on the lower scale of the jealousy meter then he'd probably feel upset and try to forget about it after a while so he no longer feels that way. He'd might also slip in a sassy remark or just pure shade at the person or people his friend is hanging out with.

With his partner it's different, more obsessive and overprotective. He doesn't want you to leave him, he needs you with him. You don't respond to a text? He's completely freaking out and wondering if you're ignoring him or if you're losing feelings. He'd completely flip the fuck out but not express it to you in an angry way because he doesn't want you to feel bad. Of course something will slip out and he'd somehow blab or accidentally make a snide comment. It gets especially bad if you're hanging out with friends and not paying attention to him at all. He instantly goes to "am I not good enough" and "do I need to do more for them?".

He feels unwanted to an extent. He feels like you'd rather be with them instead of him and it makes him violently upset. However he can't quite put it into words so he just sits there and wallows in the mix of overwhelming sadness, anxiety, and anger. He doesn't want to tell you how he feels because when he does share his emotions he feels embarrassed to a certain extent, partly because of how horribly he was treated as a child, and partly because he has trouble communicating his feelings.

He can't quite put it into words, of course he wants you and loves you dearly, but he feels hurt and irrational. He wants you and only you, but he also wants to push you and everyone he knows away so he can sit and stay in this sad state of mind. He craves you and your comfort but refuses to ask for it.

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A/N: Sorry for not posting, life has been FUCKING ME SIDEWAYS. Also this was like lwk a vent post because I am going THROUGH IT RN and feel like crap. I will probably be here more because writing helps me cope :)

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"You can call me Toby...heh...everyone really calls me ticci Toby.."

I am not calling you by your street name Tobias

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"You can call me Toby...heh...everyone really calls me ticci Toby.."

I am not calling you by your street name Tobias

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alex knocking tim unconscious while he’s taking a piss is arguably the worst but funniest thing he’s done

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"How can you like these very toxic and horrible characters that have done despicable and unforgivable things?" oh it's quite simple actually, this is fiction and I think with my dick.

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gender is NOT the same as sex. gender is what you identify as, while sex is what i'll be having with toby rogers tonight. Stay informed.

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Chat I'm so sorry I keep ghosting you all like I'm your situationship😭

My phone broke and I haven't had access to another one until right now :3. I AM CURRENTLY ON MY BROTHER'S SHITTY PHONE BUT WE WILLLLL BE MAKING THIS WORK

More posts coming soon 🔥🔥🔥

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mh but it's entirely minecraft roleplay

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Creepypasta height/build headcanons

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IM NOT DEAD!!! This is js a little something to hold y'all over for a bit, so enjoy, cutie pies!!! :3

I've also decided to hold off on doing requests because I've realized that I've been focusing WAY TOO MUCH on the requests instead of writing my own ideas :P

Included creeps: Eyeless jack, Ticci Toby, Ben drowned, Clockwork

TW: Mention of self harm scars, open wounds(?), and scars in general

Eyeless Jack

6'2-6'5, very broad shoulders and just broad in general. Also heavily muscled, my man has some GUNS on him. He has some man boobs (foaming at the mouth and drooling writing that). He'd have bigger hands, they could literally wrap around yours like nothing because of how giant this man(?) is. He also has stretch marks all around his body because of how quickly his body changed from the whole demon transformation thing. I like to think that he has a tail, kinda like a lion's tail. It's grey like the rest of him but has a little tuft of black fur on the end of it. It has little peach fuzz running along the grey parts of it. He also has pointed ears. They're mostly like elf ears, pinned to his head and pointed at the ends. Definitely has retractable claws too!

Ticci Toby

5'10-5'11. Seems pretty lanky at first but has a major sleeper build. Has a decent amount of muscle on him. Pretty skinny, long arms, legs and fingers for sure, always warm too because his body heat doesn't regulate itself, so that can be a major benefit (or disadvantage LMAO). He's pretty proud of his body and general build because he used to just be just skinny, he feels like he can "show up" his past bullies with how he looks now and is actually able to defend himself properly. Toby would also have scars from getting hurt because of his job as a proxy and from hurting himself. He would have some self harm scars because he just wants to make himself feel pain for once, but ultimately fails everytime. He'd have scars all over his fingers from biting the skin off, a couple on his torso and back from work, and self harm scars. I think that the gash in his mouth would start to heal but then he'd end up chewing it off again, so that one isn't a scar just more of an open wound if anything. He would definitely have some piercings. An eyebrow one, lip ring, and his nose. He would definitely chew on his lip ring without realizing it and totally prevent it from healing correctly or even at all.

BEN drowned

Like Toby he's also skinny. His duties as a proxy don't need him to have as much muscle as anyone else in the manor, so he's just lanky. He's pretty average height 5'6-5'8, nothing too major. I like to think that he has super long hair, down to about his lower back. Most of the time he just puts it into a pony tail and calls it a day. Whenever he wants to spice it up he does little braids in his hair and leaves it down. He's basically the epitome of the whole "lanky gamer boy" stereotype. Most of the time he's freezing cold (it's a ghost thing). He also has elf ears, it's a given considering it's Ben. He would have a couple of piercings, snakebites and an eyebrow!

Clockwork

5'10. Very muscular and pretty broad. Definitely packing when it comes to arm muscles, the rest of her body is also really toned and muscular but she tends to focus more on her arms and back. Her hair goes to a little bit below her shoulders, some simple light brown highlights in her hair. The highlights are mostly worn out but she makes it look HOT. She has a couple of scars from incidents that she's had during missions or training. A decent sized one on her shoulder, a pretty big one below her ribcage, and some other ones here and there.

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I'll pack the spaceship I guess

If trump wins I'm moving to Mars and starting a space society with my friends

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If trump wins I'm moving to Mars and starting a space society with my friends

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as someone who has accidentally hit a civilian with a wrench over and over until the writhing stopped

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I want everyone to know that this is me every time someone drops a comment on something I've written: