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“One person's crazyness is another person's reality.”

Tim Burton

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Never fully celebrated, never fully loved always giving more then what they get — silly me for loving someone who loves themselves more than they could ever love on me … stop putting myself in these positions it’s killing me more and more

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They say choose happiness

When everyday it rains — just dance in the rain

But when a flood happens am I to build a boat of soaked materials and survive?

I am strong but I am tired

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― Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart

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“are u ok”

bro i am completely disconnected from reality right now

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Let’s smoke a joint here?

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There are so many waves idk if it’s even worth it.

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Hiya! It’s been a minute and I plan tomorrow to start making content schedule, mainly just eye looks and fits!

I also have old video dialogs that I may edit and start sharing as filler — but also not sure yet since I haven’t fully started that work. 🙃😸

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I feel so low .. this was supposed to be fun now I’m just homesick

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I fear my distance has made me a solid loner — I have my partner but at times I feel that the relations I once had (female energy) has depleted and the ones I tired to associate with are no long interested in my likeness … I fear there is no hope for me in connecting with my friend as she has either blocked me or maybe disabled her own accounts I am not sure..

She went through a break up and I wasn’t there really for her — I wonder if she thinking I’m not worth her time as well

I do want to work on my ability to socialize and feel normal in a group or just with other people but I never make it fully since I stay inside my shell

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My last post was quite some time ago, I still have plans to share my art, ideas and just personality in a way.

IRL I find myself more and more focused one what it is that I want in life — I’ve been working on a learning a lot of software development and general computer science concepts, as I have a year left til I complete my degree. I am enjoying my internship and the field of study that I have picked.

I am excited for what is all to come and happy to live out the journey and that is something I haven’t always been able to say or just feel.

Outside of school/career, I am also still working on arts projects — I want to work on getting a home studio set for fashion photos and even videos, I’ve been interested in possibly doing a Timelapse of me painting. There’s a lot brewing and a lot that I want to do so yeah..

I may end up posting more regularly as I also just got an iPad, but I can’t make a promise how soon I’ll post something. I get ready I just haven’t felt like taking any pics as I really want to get my space set up and reorganized to better suite what I am needing to get done as well as how I want to share — I need to make a better schedule.

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ganja

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