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Love yourself

Put yourself first

Don’t worry about the opinions of others

Take care of yourself

We only have one life

Live it to the fullest

When you are down

Try something to calm you

Whether it be a book, music, podcast

Maybe a walk.

Just remember there is always better days ahead

Never give up on yourself

Keep pushing

❤️❤️

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See life has so many ups and downs

Just when things start to pan out

They can seemingly fall apart.

The important part is

Is to know these are tests

These are lesson

Designed to strengthen us

And be who we are destined to be.

There is something greater in us all.

I see it so clear

When you put yourself first

Lord,

It’s the most amazing gift

You see your future clearler

You focus on yourself

You know, I’ve been through a lot

I experienced the worst type of

Relationship as a young naive girl

Me being who I am, I’m not one to victim shame

I know my heart is big and I know who I am

All that he did and all that he said

Made me lose a lot of people

Yeah that is hurtful but they weren’t real friends

Because If they were real they see the truth

But I’ve always been different

People don’t understand asrtand

Some question my intentions

But my love is just pure

I never needed validation

And I didn’t need to fit in

See my ex, he was taunting, he was mean and he was controlling

He silently abused me, manipulated me

That is something I can’t change

It doesn’t matter what I say because that pain will never go away

But I know who I am

And I don’t like the drama

So I keep my mouth shut and I let the lies arise

It makes me shake to talk about the hurt

I’d rather leave it all

Because I know who I am

I’m a good person and those that see

Are the ones meant to be surrounded by me

I don’t need no sympathy , I don’t need no pity

I have a mind of my own and I can get through it

Had to fully lose myself

So that I could be free

From all of those

That only used me

You see, I’ve always been me

And I’ve always been kind

I was so naive

I didn’t realize people were different

I thought the world was just like me

With loving hearts and real intentions

I didn’t see the evil that was ahead

My mom always told me

I need to stop seeing the good in everyone

But it’s always been what I’ve seen

I didn’t understand how much hate there was

So going though what I did

It hurt and it broke me

But I was to good for all of the hate

People don’t care when you are in pain

I literally thought that they did

I do… I’ve always cared… to much

For the ones I loved

That’s what makes me different and I’m easy to break

That’s why I have my guard up

And I try not to let them see

I realize now I am different for a reason

There’s people like me

I just gotta keep believing

I don’t want the fake

I only want the real

So I keep my circle small because I value who I am

I put myself first because I know my

Worth

I don’t like to fight, I like people who see the world how I see it.

People who are kind, real, compassionate.

See— life, it’s very weird, you know.

I had a lot of friends growing up. I mean, I was still bullied by certain people in certain situations

I didn’t always handle it the best way.

I’ve always been really kind. From the time I was young

I always stood up for people.

No seriously,

You can ask my family.

I’m a good person.

I’m not someone who is fake.

No, I’m going to tell you exactly how I feel.

If you ask me a question, I’m gonna be honest.

If that hurts your feelings, I am sorry. But I keep it real.

When I had any friendship, I always talked highly about my friends, and loved them.

I was never one to be like, hey.. this persons a “mean name””

I like to have good friends, who are good people in all aspects.

respectful, mature, honest, loving, genuine.

Real friendships.

A lot of people, I’ve found enjoy getting really wasted with a bunch of friends, who aren’t really friends… I mean, they all talk shit about each other …

When they’re sick, their friend isn’t there to take care of them.

When they need someone to talk to, it’s “fuck that person” let’s get hammered!!!!

And go clubbin and fuck shit up

Legit…

There is people like that.

No morals,

Always seeking a man,

Needing approval of others,

Feeding into drama,

Associating with bad energy

Drinking practically everyday

Attracting the same time of men

Doing drugs socially

Spending most of the money the make, on partying.

Not thinking about a future, what they want.

I think a lot of what happened here

Is social media.

I think seriously, a lot of these young adults they sit here and they have to be popular, there so into social media, they are not paving a life for themselves

Back before social media was a thing,

People moved on with their life’s.

They settled down

They had families

They focused and envisioned what they want there life’s to look at

Friends become old faces

And you meet your neighbours or your call leagues

You’d grab a beer once and a while

And your get back to life

Now the problem is

Especially girls. But guys too

They crave this social media. They crave friends, romances, drugs,

Realistically that’s for people I’m there 20s

We gotta grow up some time

But these people never will

These are the same people who will

Believe in lies

Instead of asking for the truth, or searching for the truth themselves by analyzing behaviour

But the problem is.

1. these people like drama. They are drama, but they like drama

2.. These people love to party, and shut off emotions.

3. They love to avoid life

3. They Avoid getting help

5.Ignore boundaries

And then like to think that people who don’t paritcape in the behaviours , are drama

This generation forgot to grow up

And that is what’s wrong with a lot of the world today

How do we survive in a world where people are more concerned on how they look, who they are dating, and how their friend see them then making a plan for a future.

That’s where I’m different

So I struggle a lot

You know

Truthfully

Like I said earlier

I’ve always been a really nice person

I remember, coming home from school. In KINDERGARTEN and telling my mom she needed to pack a lunch for a girl at school , because she didn’t have food.

I was that girl.

I was the girl who in grade 4,

Seen a little girl being bullied because she was different.

, I went up to her after that class and asked her if she wanted to hang out with me at recess. I made sure I was always nice to her going forward and made sure she didn’t feel alone.

Yes I’ve always been that girl.

In grade 4,

I told my mom my dog shadow didn’t seem right.

she said that’s weird , why do you say that

I said he just seems different

Well, the very next day

My mom took my dog to the vet because he couldn’t poop or pee.

Turns out my dog had cancer and soon after passed

My mom was amazed at my intuition.

In grade 8, I had a younger friend. His name was tristian. Tristan Walsh.

He was great at taekwondo. We did taekwondo together, he was very talented.

We went to the same school, he eas I believe 3 years younger then me so he would of been in grade 5

When I witnessed an older boy pushing tristian around

I walked over, and I sternly said, stop picking on my friend . Or we’re gonna have a problem. I said , listen buddy, I know you, Your Kristen’s brother

If you ever do what you just did ever again I will kick your fucking ass

And tbh with you tristian should

He’s a beast at taekwondo

He could kick your ass

So if I was you

I would back off and leave him alone

And he did, just that.

So where I’m at in life. Im not necessarily judgemental

But I feel because of my mentality, I’m going to always look like a problem.

Why is she always alone?

Why doesn’t she have a boyfriend?

That’s what makes someone in todays society

Not who they aren

Ur who they are dating, and how many friends they have.

Like no, I have friends . Maybe not many

I went through so hard ass shit, for a long time with someone I have no respect for

That person participates I’m things I was always better than, but couldn’t quite escape

I’m not worried about people’s opinions

I want to find my future, my beautiful future.

That I made for myself

Not some rich man I used to get to where I need to be.

Not by sitting there laughing drunk talking about other people to make myself feel better.

No.

I have goals

I’m gonna make life happen

I’m going to have that beautiful dream house I’ve always wanted.

I’m going to have a nice pool in the back yard

And a pool man to take care of it for me.

I’m gonna find my passion, make my money

Plan my life.

I will love me, and only me until I meet someone worth settling down for, someone with as much passion as I have.

Someone who thinks business, thinks smart.

Has a mind of their own.

Doesn’t need validation

Just what’s to grow and be happy

I need a man that doesn’t feel like he needs the paparazzi.

You can all be watching, but we won’t be watching you

I will find that perfect person.

But until I find what I want

I don’t want anyone else

I have gaols

I want to achieve so much,

I want to become a billionaire

So I can take care of my sister.

So I can give my mom and dad lots and lots of money.

So I can take care of my one true friend.

And so I can make the world a better place

Full of love

Laughter

And joy

We have a bunch of people walking areound destroying there own life, bar hopping, dick hopping, chick hopping .. etc

All getting stds from the same people

Everyone knows each other

There life is a competition

That shit must be exhausted

For real though.

This is some people’s life’s

Isn’t that crazy??

My life is me

live like not one is watching

No one is judging

I’m not famous

Why do you care?

Why do you stalk me?

Why do you talk about me?

I’m not famous, why do you care

See, I don’t associate with that. That’s waste energy. I’m above that energy, which is why I’m a queen.

I’m real, some hate it

Some love it

It’s me.

Im just a girl

Trying to live her best life

J-D-R-F —“””:,) F@44😘