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I haven't had any energy for like three months. Ever since I got back home I've been...idk how to describe it. Like i didn't want to do anything. Not even the things i love. I've also been sleeping like shit.

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So I’m actually going. Tomorrow I'm leaving for the trip. I hope the people will be nice. From what I heard, they seem to be a bit strange, but I think it's just me being scared.

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My friend invited me to some festival-like event. Its supposed to be some people just getting together every year to meet each other,play music and cook food. So its more like a friend meeting but with tens of people.

I don't know if I should go. It's a nice way to get to meet new people but there will be so many people and I know only one.(⁠๑⁠•⁠﹏⁠•⁠)

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The friending event was really nice. I was extremely nervous, but after meeting a few different people, I met really sweet guy. We started talking, and I can say that I see ourselves becoming good friends. Sure, it’s still too early to call him my friend, but I hope we will be friends. 

He is the extrovert I always hoped to meet. Yk kinda adopting me. xd

How to make friends...? :<

I really need to find a friend irl. How does one make friends? You can’t just go up to someone and ask them, ‘Hey, you wanna hang out or something?’ like making friends as an adult is hard. Plus adult who is very socially awkward. I guess going to college/university makes it easier to make new connections. Well, it sucks that they accept only a few students :/ 

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Creative block

I am inactive here, and it makes me mad. I created this to boost my creativity and transform my energy. But I find myself tired and incapable of posting something interesting. I post about my dreams, but I haven’t had a dream in a long time. It’s like they vanish the second I open my eyes.

Soon, there will be the friend date event, so I hope that will be good

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So in my city, this event is for people to make friends. It's something like a blind date but for making friends. Even tho I don’t like events like this, I am not very successful at making friends naturally, so why not this?

How to make friends...? :<

I really need to find a friend irl. How does one make friends? You can’t just go up to someone and ask them, ‘Hey, you wanna hang out or something?’ like making friends as an adult is hard. Plus adult who is very socially awkward. I guess going to college/university makes it easier to make new connections. Well, it sucks that they accept only a few students :/ 

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I appeared in the middle of the galaxy. I was floating among the stars and planets. Each object floating around me had a face, but not a normal one. It was more like an essence of the face than the face itself. I was in awe. All the lights and colours around me felt ancient as if I was in the presence of a deity. I was especially drawn to one of the smaller planets. It was calling to me, so I started swimming towards it. Its face shifted to face me, and it smirked. It felt evil, yet I didn’t have the strength to float away. I started panicking and wanted to go away from it, but it released some weird dark gas and trapped me in a gas bubble. I was lying in my bed. The bedroom door was open, and the planet’s face was watching me from the hallway. 

I was pretty scared when I woke up and saw my room. I thought for a moment that I was still dreaming.

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How to make friends...? :<

I really need to find a friend irl. How does one make friends? You can’t just go up to someone and ask them, ‘Hey, you wanna hang out or something?’ like making friends as an adult is hard. Plus adult who is very socially awkward. I guess going to college/university makes it easier to make new connections. Well, it sucks that they accept only a few students :/ 

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dream drawing

A couple of nights ago, I had a nightmarish dream. It felt strangely calming and scary at the same time. 

I was walking through a dark forest. It sang a haunting melody, luring me deeper into the forest. Before I knew it, I was lost. I sat down and started crying. I felt scared like never before. The forest was locking me in, suffocating me. Then, I appeared in a different forest; it was much lighter and more welcoming. It calmed me as I started walking around. I walked into a small clearing, and I saw it. Between trees stood tall white deer. I walked closer, but the moment I took a step, its face shifted. The deers snout fell to the ground, decomposing in a second. The space left by the snout was horrifyingly beautiful. 

I don’t have the words to describe the creature. 

I woke up in shock, even tho I wasn’t scared.

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Work so much I dream of it

I don’t know if it’s bcs I hate my work or bcs I spent so much time there but I’ve been dreaming about it a lot. My last dream was about my work I work as a server. I was in the building all alone, and there was no sound. Felt like a liminal kind of space. I was super freaked. I started to walk around, trying to find someone but there wasn’t anyone. When I entered the kitchen, noises started coming from the dining area. Like a switch kinda, just some much noise. The dining room was full of people, and they were all screaming at me their orders. 

It felt pretty scary, both with and without people. I felt so lonely at first and then I was overwhelmed and wanted to be alone. I want to be alone and feel lonely at the same time. My life story, heh. X_x

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From my walk in city(⁠◔⁠‿⁠◔⁠)

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I wanted to start this blog for channelling my negative energy into something creative. I assume a lot of people feel this way. Like they are all alone and wasting their youth at home doing nothing. I hope to transform these feelings into something that I and maybe others will enjoy. 

Living in post soviet country is not helping feeling happy either. Like all the buildings look so depressing, you earn shit money, and the politics just make you want to move. I am kind of ranting here. I guess that’s what this is for. Rant and some creativity once in a while.

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Should I get a cat?

I’ve been dreaming about cats a lot. My last dream was kinda silly goofy. A cult of cats hunted me down. They were so cute but looked really angry. ฅ(^•ﻌ•^ฅ)  At one point, I was swarmed by them. They were really soft, but they bit my ankles. I feel like those dreams mean I should get a cat. It would be nice to have some company in this flat. Cats also mean kinda feminine energy, or I heard. What can that mean…

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 Hii ＼(^o^)／

So today is my birthday and I wanted to celebrate it by finally starting posting. I will be sharing my thoughts, dreams and some of my art here. I will be happy for anyone to interact with my small corner of Tumblr. (＾ｖ＾)

Btw english is not my first language, I’m slavic guy, so ignore errors.