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Heart Pills

It was such a normal day for Victor as he gobbled up the heart pills down into his throat. Everyone is taking heart pills because why not. The sweet tsunami of dopamine crashed into his brain.

“Wow! This is some fucking good shit!” Victor swallowed down more pills with a huge grin as he was in love with the rush of that feel good chemicals. Call it a drug or the fuck whatever but hey everyone is still doing it anyway because why not. He stared into the bathroom mirror taking all the dopamine to have a normal day. Victor left the bathroom onward to his living room thar has the spotlight staged up, so he can do his next MeTube video. He pressed down the video camera as it switched onto the red light beginning to record. He then sat down onto his white couch with the large green screen stand behind the couch shielding away from the dull, beige walls. The spotlights flickered on being commanded by the sound from Victor’s double clap.

Victor huffed out as he put on with a smile towards the camera. “Hey what’s up guys it’s Vic-Tastic here! Today we are gonna check out Holy Row IV if we are gonna blow off the Pope’s mistress’s head completing this hitman mission!” Victor snatched off his T-box controller as soon he started playing the game for the let’s play video.

After couple of hours playing Holy Row IV, Victor smiled wide again with a salute saying goodbye to his viewers. His expressed turn swollen from his energy depleted playing off the game to have more likes into his MeTube profile. “Another day, another likes” Victor reached overturning off the camera and tossed his T-box controller away onto his couch. He took out an SD card that contain his video recording of his game playthrough. With a deep sigh as his legs trudged along up the stairs where his computer room. His dopamine level increases as he reached out of his phone observing over the amount of likes he got in his previous video uploads.

“10, 000 likes, 5,000, 11,000. Argh! I need more likes damnit!” His fist slammed against the his computer desk after he sat down with his teeth gritted. “This next video better give me more!!!” Victor’s eye twitch feeling the burn inside him by forcing himself shoved the SD card into his computer tower. He edited the video trying to steal off anyone’s attention with a splash of sound effects, dramatic background music to intensify the game boss battle, and throw in memes to squeeze out people’s attention to keep watching through an hour-long video. The moments Victor believed would dull out his audience which he threw in carelessly to make it less boring and more riveting. He cannot wore a proud smile feeling exhausted from editing the video as he noticed the time to be 12:00PM realizing he has been editing for four hours. “Come on I better stay on track with the schedule!!!” Victor bit down his lips he was going to be late uploading the new video up into MeTube. The mouse swift over in the intense clicking like a woodpecker typing onto a tree bark in a quick motion.

His finger slammed onto the Enter key finally the video has been uploaded into MeTube. “People better like this now!” The sweat dripped down from his forehead every time Victor refreshed his profile page hoping the like count increases. So far there is only 103 likes in his latest videos with his fingers clenched onto his keyboard keys feeling the boiling point inside him. “Give it to me more! More! MORE!!!” He shrieked at the computer screen and he smacked his keyboard across the room causing the keyboard broke in half.

“I can get more likes later! It better go up while heading off to the pill dispenser.” Victor tried to rationalize the less amount of likes situation, he grabbed his smartphone as he dashed down the stairs and flung the door wide open heading outside. Into a giant sprint heading towards to the city from his suburban neighborhood. The neighborhood looked normal in the 50’s style with every home have their own picket fence with the houses look modest. A perfect place to make vlogs with natural lightning. Not now though as Victor used up his last of his heart pills that he needed more. While the suburban neighborhood appeared friendly and serene, the city’s landscape got their own contrast tone.

As Victor traversed down into the city, cars beeping and honking left and right with the booming sound of vicious yelling. Cars packed up into the street like cows standing doing nothing shooting out methane in the back. Multiple of people squash in together onto cracks of sidewalks like sardines swimming together in garbage filled ocean. Holographic screens of ads shouting out to everyone to get a brand new video camera set to make any Outernet posts better in pristine quality and other one advertises for the future upgrade of heart pills that would increases more dopamine than ever before. Victor smiled at a thought on the upgrade maybe he can stay in the blissful high for week top or even a full month. The crowd kept their heads down being glue down onto the phones. He was able to see people scrolling along every post tapping onto the hearts and move on. He wonder if he should make shorter videos or just do photos at all capturing off more likes in easier and faster way. He shake his head he can think of that later hurried along into the sea of crowd. People never mind bumping against each other too focused with the Outernet. Some of the people took selfies or videos as they are also wishing to have more likes. More holographic ads pile up against the buildings and more shouting into traffic.

Victor noticed police officers circling around a bloody corpse with their head smashed splat along with the brain parts in the middle of the crossroad with a truck smashed onto the streetlamp with the car split in half. A neck snapped in 270 degrees onto the truck driver with his eyes wide open. The police officers shouted at the pedestrian to walk around and whistled at the cars to remain calm. It is not such a bothersome as most people took video and photos of the violent accident. That is better way to get more likes and attention from the audience. After all if everyone is doing it, it is alright. Victor took out a camera from his phone taking a shot at the accident. He smiled as he might get more likes while typed along how the accident is unfortunate and urge his followers to mourn for the drivers and asking the legislature for having better traffic laws. His smile transformed into a wider grin hearing beep noises being notified people support his scripted mourn and agree whatever Victor said pouring out crying emojis. It is already trendy so I might get more heart pills on my way!

Half an hour onto the busy street, Victor witnessed people fighting amongst themselves in front of the clinic. They were scratching and punching each other trying to enter into the clinic, the very same place Victor needed to refill his heart pills. With a huff, Victor barged into the clinic all he ever needed get an extra boost of dopamine thrill. Pushing through into the bursting crowd of fists and scratches, Victor knocked out a man’s face and saw a tooth flew out of his blood-filled mouth then gave a woman sucker punch right into her eyeball with her eyes swollen ended up with a black eye. His mouth bit down onto another man’s neck digging dip into the skin. His teeth thrash around like a hungry dog tearing up fleshes onto its prey. A person yelped out trying to push Victor out of the way, but Victor pursue further as he kicked right into the person’s scrotum. He thought he is lucky enough wearing sharp nails underneath his shoes as he figure the clinic would always have fights every time the clinic is open. Normal day as usual especially get injured or even die in front of the clinic anyway.

“Get the fuck out of my way!” His shoes pierced further onto the scrotum as the man yelped further whimpering ended up collapsed onto the floor being trampled by the many. Victor pushed down further into the harsh wave of the people at the same time punched through and bit more against anyone. Many huff and puffs as Victor finally made it through inside the clinic though people was a lot more violent than on the outside. He watched the chaos exploded as he watched people trying to steal each others’ pills and banging onto the plastic window where the nurses standing behind being safe from the violence. The nurses remained calm not being afraid of what is happening around. To them, this usually happens and just went on their day. As soon one of them slid the bottle of heart pills under the counter of the plastic window, the ravenous crowd charge toward the bottle screaming at top of their lungs. Victor is not worried for he got himself a planned to keep all the heart pills to himself.

He swam into the crowd readying to grab off the heart pills hoping he could scored some of the upgraded kind. Unlike from the outside, the numbers grew larger as he needed a breath of air from this tight space. Victor forced himself to persist further and further using his shoes kicking into the men’s penis and women’s vagina nailing them down onto the ground especially onto their stomachs, waist, anywhere as long the people stopping him fell down. His face planted onto the plastic window with a sigh with Victor reached onto his final destination. He opened up his phone showcasing the current video like count to the nurses.

“5,000 likes in the today’s MeTube video. Please one moment sir as I will bring out your usual prescription.” The nurse replied without adding emotions into her voice giving a nod to Victor.

“What!? 5,000 li- wait I better have more! My video is always fucking perfect come on! Listen bitch I’m Vict-tastic so I better get more pills because I worked my ass off making this stupid video!” His teeth gritted giving a piercing eyes toward the nurse who remained calm.

“I’m sorry but this is amount of likes are 5,000 as of May 20, 2054 at 5:04PM in Eastern Daylight Time. I will be giving you the standard version. Please wait one moment sir.” Remained in her calm demeanor as the nursed was about to find the heart pill bottle.

“No wait! I actually made another post today! Look!” Victor quickly opened up his post with his phone slammed again onto the plastic window. “And give me that upgrade the ad is talking about right now! If not I will tell my followers to burn down your house!” His eye began to twitched every second matching to his heartbeat with his stare turned grimace than before.

The nursed checked onto Victor’s post he created about the traffic accident giving another nod, “80,000 likes on your latest InstaPic post. I will be giving you the premium heart pills combining the amount of likes from your InstaPic post and your MeTube video. The doses will be at 85,000 mg with an extra doses for premium will be at 100,000 mg. Your new prescription is at 185,000 mg. Would that be all sir?”

“Yes yes  yes yes give it to me right now!!!” Victor watched the nurse left somewhere in the back of the clinic as he readying himself grabbing the pills before anyone else does. The nurse came back holding an orange bottle with a diamond cap instead of the usual white cap. She slid out the premium upgraded pill bottle under the plastic window caught everyone’s attention onto the shiny cap. Victor took out six pill bottles on his left hand from his pocket as his right hand grabbed the premium bottle slid into his right side of the pocket. He dove out into the crowd leaving the decoy bottles behind. The crazed crowd focused onto the bottles attacking each other trying to steal from each other while Victor kept sliding out of them heading towards the exit. His ears perked from people gagging dropping left and right not noticing inside the fake pill bottles were full of red tacks. His gleeful smile wore onto Victor’s face smelling the car fumes arrived outside of the clinic while people fell for his decoy pill bottles. He ran out of the crowd while hiding his premium bottle escaping into his home.

Arriving into his house, Victor reached out of his premium upgraded pill bottle in quick speed wondering if this would lasts a month or maybe his entire lifetime! In awe as he opened up the diamond cap, inside the bottle contained golden pills. Without wasting time, he swallow all the pills down into his throat without even bother grabbing a glass of water. Victor tossed the pill bottle away from his as he began to wait for the dopamine lead him out to blissful land. Within a few seconds, beneath his chest felt a sharp pain with foam bubbling out of his throat then straight out of his mouth, nose, ears, even his eye socket due to the pressure pushed his eyeballs out rolled across the floorboards. His body twitched and squirmed onto the ground like a dying worm. He couldn’t see it, but he can felt his brain began to twist itself inside his skull. More so everything inside his body twisted further into knots and his skeleton cracked into odd positions appearing like shape of broken tree branches. So much for the dopamine rush but hey that happens to everyone right?

I wrote this story up as part of my writing class assignment in college. It is about Victor who want to gain more likes just to get drug up by the heart-shaped pills just to get very high from the ectasy and dopamine. This reflects off social media how people get drunk up over number of likes and I will admit I also did gotten drunk up from seeing the likes back then. That made myself and everyone else a heart junkie. I went overboard with the violence when Victor is trying to get more pills and wanting more like count in his social media. The like count is connected to the amount of dosage the pills would have. The higher number of likes, the higher amount of dosage that Victor doesn't realized what would happen if he get very high dosage.

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Heart Pills

I made this art when Victor, the protagonist from the story Heart Pills, lays down dying after he took some of the heart shaped pills. I like to make it disturbing for Victor's death by having his own body contorted while foam came out from his ears, nose, mouth, and his eye socket that pop those eyeballs right out! I used the colors based off the app icons from the very well known social media that are Instagram, YouTube, Pinterest, TikTok, X/Twitter, BluSky, Facebook, Reddit, tumblr, and Snapchat. From looking those networks of hearts, now I realized how very dull and boring the app icons are just being a cheap shit imitation between each other even Instagram has Thread trying to be a copycat bland of X/Twitter. Especially those pills make cocaine appear tame and mild for what happen when Victor gone overdose.

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Riapsed

History

The country is called Riapsed located near the west coast of the United States. Riapsed was formed when California seceded the United States in the year 2190 by the god-complex state governor. This was due to the United States passed the law allowing the federal government have more power than the state government. The state governor, Jerry Lee, manipulated the citizens into believing that the government will remove their freedom and control the lives. In reality the federal government passed the law to gain more power due to the rumors of the incoming World War IV. After the secession, the 10.0 earthquake caused Riapsed split off the United States and became a giant island. Almost all of the population were killed by the earthquake and almost 99% of food were destroyed including the crops. After few years of rebuilding, the citizens decided to have Jerry Lee as their leader thanks to propaganda. In this year 2220 fell into despair and some of them either left dead or mind-controlled.

Government

The government is in the form of dictatorship and only Jerry Lee’s descendants lead the country. Only the dictator can make and pass laws, however the dictator have subordinate leaders to control cities. The capital of Riapsed is Hope which is where the dictator reside and meet other subordinate leaders. Riapsed is a military state with their highly advanced military weapons. The dictator controls the military police who they patrol in all the streets and search any criminals breaking the laws. Police brutality is actually allowed in Riapsed. Furthermore the government use technology for high level security by monitoring the citizens. Few years after Riapsed being rebuilt, flying spy cameras were invented and they patrol every streets and buildings. As the result the only 500 people were either dead or mind-controlled.

Laws

Due to the food shortage by the earthquake, the law was passed by Jerry Lee that the acceptable population is exactly 750,000. If the population reach more than 750,000, some of the citizens will be kill to stabilize the population capacity. Marriage by through free will become illegal and citizens can only married other people arranged by the government. Every family has to have one child and if they have more than one child, the children will be executed. If the children became orphans, they will be forced to work and live in factories. If the parents are unable to have child, they will be banished. Criminals can only have three optional punishments which the government choose for them. The first punishment is banishment which a criminal leave the island and been informed to never return. The second punishment is death. Brutal death punishments are allowed in this country and most of the punishments are torture. The third punishment is brainwash. Some citizens consider the third punishment worse than the second punishment. The criminals who are been given being punished by brainwash will be sent to the mind-controlled facility. It is unknown how they become mind-controlled, but there are rumors claimed that they will watch a disturbing video causes them to lose their sanity and become a blank slate.

Demographics

Before the disaster happened, the population was 100 million and in the year 2220 it is now 750,000. The acceptable population is 750,000. There are 50% females and 50% males in this country, also there are only 0% lower class, 99% middle class, and 1% upper class. Everyone has the family and all of them only have one child. Senior citizens are very rare due to dying from exhaustion in factories. There are only 71% of middle-aged citizens and 28% of citizens are youths. All middle class citizens have low paying jobs while all upper class citizens have high paying jobs. 40% of citizens are brainwashed and work in factories.

Entertainment

All the form of entertainment from outside the Riapsed and old entertainment made in California are banned. When the country was formed, all the previous works before Raipsed were destroyed. Propaganda entertainment are allowed in Raipsed, however if any works insult the dictator the author will be either executed or exiled. Every books, music, TV shows, and movies glorify the dictator in which everyone has to enjoy them for example, the national anthem is called “The Sweet Raipsed.” There is only one sport in Raipsed which is Sparta. Sparta is not only a sport but it is only a military entrance exam. Every 5 years all the incoming soldiers competed against each other to join the military. The games are very rigorous and competitive with a high percentage of injuries. There are only 1000 competitors and only 500 winners passed the military entrance exam while the rest of them become factory workers.

Education

All the children at the age of 19 or under have to go to school unless they work in factories. All students have to pass K-12 without failing classes. If they are unable move on to the next grade, they will be expelled and work in factories. The students who achieved a high grade, will be given high-paying jobs as the students who who almost achieved will be given low-paying jobs. All the students only learn the information what the government wanted them to learn. They learn Jerry Lee is their messiah, Riapsed is heaven, and ruthless, bloodthirsty humans live in hopeless civilization outside of Riapsed.

Economy

After the devastating earthquake, almost everyone became poor and homeless. It took years to rebuild the economy. Everyone still uses American currency along with a new Riapsed currency called Comfort Bond. All citizens can be granted a Comfort Bond by giving up their children to the government which the children will be sent to factories to work. If they give up their children, the citizens will be move up to the upper class status. Ever since the country was rebuilt, all the poor people were killed because Jerry Lee believed the economy can be stabilized by eliminating poverty. If anyone become poor they will be eliminated immediately. The upper class citizens only received luxury by having expensive things, but they live in the same area as the middle class. Upper class citizens work in high paying jobs like a scientist, an engineer, a professor, a military leader, a subordinate leader, and a CEO. Middle class citizens work as factory work, store clerk, a janitor, a soldier, and a business employee. The factories are very unsanitary and hazardous which the employees are very likely to suffer from exhaustion, diseases, or death. The factories manufacture weapons, flying spy cameras, etc. Once they work in factories, they cannot quit and they work in factories for the rest of their lives. Due to the fear of major food shortage and mass starvation, the government setted up a giant food storage building which in reality are storage of dead bodies. If mass starvation happen, the government will use the food storage as an alternative food source. The alternative food is called mystery meat and all citizens believe the mystery meat is ground beef which in fact are corpses.

I fucking wrote up this information about the dystopian place called Riapsed as part of a high school assignemtn. I actually enjoy dystopia genre especially the book being read in class 1984. I fucking even enjoy created a worldbuilding to make the place as cruel as possible such as making one child only in the family which is based off the real world one child policy in China. I even made the fucking population limited based off the dystopian book series that I read called the Shadow Children. I am huge fan for dystopian genre that I would even try to find dystopian movie titles that I could fucking watch it over later.

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Riapsed Map

This here is my fucking old map design of the harsh dystopian world called Riapsed. Yes I am fucking aware there is a misspelling when written in backward. It is part of an assignment to create your own dystopia city for an English class while reading the fucking book together called 1984. I fucking tried to make the world as cruel and harsh as possible such as making privacy a rare thing in the past and have psychological torture to make a citizen become a blank slate for the government to take hold of control.

After fucking writing up about the state's history, government, education, and etc., I drew a map of the capital city of Riapsed named Hope. I made it on purpose to make the name of the capital city becoming ironic. I fucking added in the stadium as there is where the military entrance exam being held for the incoming soldiers to compete against each other. The blue triangles are the business centers where the middle-wage jobs being held. The tiny squares in the upper left corner are the residential houses that the square foot areas are very fucking cramp. The giant green circle is the dictator's house fucking contrasting to the tiny residential houses. The rhombus shapes are the shitty factories where both adults and kids worked there. There is a tiny red theatre with yellow lights next to the business center that the citizens can only watch propaganda movies. The school is where are the selected information that the students can only learn about how "great" and "amazing" Riapsed and the dictator are. Finally is the mind-controlled facility called Happy Land there where the psychological torture happened when the citizen fucking broke the laws and being taken to have their individuality being stripped away becoming an empty husk.

I enjoy reading up dystopia novels including 1984 in the class for fucking taking a look at the cruel what-ifs in society especially I like the type more when freedom or individuality being rip away by the government or evil dictator. Other than books I would even fucking watch over dystopian movies that I would try to fucking browse through in Wikipedia and take note to fucking watch off the dystopian movies later.

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Me Being Lazy and Irresponsible Capricorn

For most of my time, I enjoy dabbling in books about astrology and I found out a cool thing called birth chart. I even did one for myself which turns out to be I am Sun Capricorn, Virgo Moon, and Gemini Rising! Turns out I am actually more than just a goat head!

So I then found this Capricorn meme as I only circle the traits that match me very well while the rest I didn’t because that does not match my personality.

As you can see here shows off that I am not really the same like all other Capricorns. There can be some who are not ambitious or moody like I am. Because nobody have the same birth chart. It is obvious because none of us are born in the exact same day, time, nor place. In the birth charts, each planet as its own Zodiac signs depend where and when the person was born.

The person explain it better why Capricorns do not act the same way as anyone else which has to do with the planet placements.

It is quite facinsting as astrology is not simple like those trendy pop culture astrology. Zodiac signs and astrology goes a lot deeper than you can imagine. Only anyone who didn’t study enough on astrology missed a point that not everyone is same. Otherwise, the signs are 5% pattern recognition and 95% guessing using the most frequent personalities that 60% of the population has. Then create terrible assumptions about everyone sharing the same sign.

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Following Along with Algorithm

I will interact with whoever I want because the more I learn about how algorithm works in tumblr, I realized tumblr asking for everyone to interact with everyone. Tumblr said it not me which I will abide to that since I don’t care what everyone thinks of me, but I will damn like posts and follow up everyone I like! I am not invading everyone’s personal spaces when tumblr is an all open book that means everyone can interact with each other in public. Just be honest and like art you actually like if you do.

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I feel sick from the toxic positivity, so give me the black but real negativity!

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I am a proud villain and I love it!

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Me being DMK fan and Hot Topic shopper goes hand in hand together! Unlike the wannabes too scared to go to the store.

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Worthless

Street lamp shining on my head

But what’s the difference anyway?

With my rib cage open is all the same.

Pipes enlarging in my eye socket,

The dead metal coldness caressing against my veins and cerebrum

Not sure what to express showing nothing more

Than my naked gums and rigid teeth

Not sure the difference if I have a mouth

Not sure how I could be a use.

For all I am ever good at is standing around

One small action becomes one large issue

Or is this all in my head

But it doesn’t feel like I am imagining things

Does a lack of effort or humongous amount makes any difference?

It will still lead to the same result

No matter what I do

A jellyfish can do anything as I cannot

Or an amoeba or a snail

What’s difference does it make?

All I can do best is standing around

Why does it matter anyway?

That’s the only thing I am best at and if not then what?

I made this very gorey art and dark poem because I do like anything controversial and intense as this piece of art reflects what I enjoy like Battle Royale, Matyrs (original not remake), Happy Tree Friends, Saw series, Hostel, and Guinea Pig 1 and 2.I know people call themsleves horror fan, but still too scared to make any gore, horror art. Well I don’t.

There is more to it as I based off my own old feelings from high school when I was discovering dark and depressing music that I alter realized I am being a real emo. I would ended up dressing myself up in all black with plaid jacket and listen to songs such as ones for Creepypasta, Get Scared, and Set It Off. So if I went to hear something depressing, I will choke myself down with sad music and swallow it down to become a very dark emo. That I would even go dull and mellow I fucking enjoy it a lot. I am not super happy person, I am actually very cyncial and dark person even I will drink black coffee with a cream of misery to it!

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Colorless or Plastic?

Look who gives a fucking shit in all of this dumpster fire landfill As it is nothing but bullshit everywhere I see and hear Could you actually believe in everything if it turns out to be a wool lie? I would rather roll my eyes in this plastic world than succumb myself to civilization Never-ending chitter chatters that people eat up horseshit they want to see and hear You would even dart off towards the bullshit or do you rather see how it really is right? Colorless perspective is what I rather see away from the bright and shiny world

I wrote this poem as I don't agree with how society is running in my own cynical eyes. I know am very cynical and can be consider too negative, but I rather stay being cynical even living in this plastic world cover in bullshit.

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I fucking sketch out a pyramid with giant ball that shoots out laser that I saw from my dream. It wasn’t fucking much because I wanted to color it with Sketchbook app.

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I was watching off YouTube videos off over top 10 crazy anime girls as Anna Nishikinomiya is one of the crazy wacko bitches! So after an accidental kiss from a male protagonist that Anna ended up became overtly obsessive and crazy like yandere over Tanukichi Okuma. She is super ass crazy that she gave cookies to Tanukichi with her “love nectar”. Yeah not a fucking very romantic gift that only an obsessive psycho bitch praise over to Anna’s shitty antics.

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Pretty uncreative if you ask me to redo in the same base model without bother making anything unique. It comes off very meh and boring from very lazy bum who don’t give a shit over originality.

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The art teacher fucking taught the class about converging lines along with placement and size overlapping. I can see why it is fucking call the vanishing point as the objects get smaller the closer it get to the vanishing point. That’s fucking also include not realizing that you can make the objects appear very fucking far aay by just drawing them smaller with those converging lines.

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I actually fucking took an art class in a beginner level since it is one of the fucking requirment I need to take before I switch out my majors. Despite this as I actually didn’t fucking know using the putty eraser would make smears and white spot on the pencil shading which does look interesting to look. Then I learn about the fucking pressure of the pencils by either make it lighter or darker lines. I even uses my personal sketchbook to fucking take notes basically drawing during class.

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This is a fucking WIP that Internet over into a digital art called Misery. Of course as I didn’t color in as I already got a fucking idea what color it should be and what the background would look like. That is fucking why the WIP look very bare.