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You might not know this, based on what I normally post, but I actually do touch grass.

Frequently.

Gently at first, just brushing the tips, letting them tickle my palms as they tremble in a faint evening breeze. Then, more firmly, combing their slender blades between my fingers, stroking them into langourous relaxation. Then toying with their bowed heads of heavy seeds until they fray. Tugging on them until they finally yield to my touch and scatter.

Oh yeah.

I touch grass a lot.

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Character Asks: Airport Edition

Someone hears your character’s name announced over the intercom. What are they being called for?

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I really want Flins and Diluc to be friends they both have that dead look

And while I'm not sure how true it is I read that Flins has to fight against the abyss and hates the Fatui if it's true you know who else does?? DILUC

I need them to be a sleep deprived goth emo duo

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never let anyone tell you that trawling through mediocre victorian poetry isn't worth it. we just happened upon an absolute BANGER of a worm poem. go read it or else 🪱🪱🪱

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we need to be doing everything in our power to acquire and consume tiramisu

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Hm... last Halloween at work, it was spirit week and I felt like being silly, so my new assistant and I put ourselves in these cardboard boxes and cut out holes near the eyes (which I crafted these sticks onto so I could push it out and "see" where he was), and waited for our VP to finish an internal meeting so we could surprise him. Except, it failed spectacularly and at one point my Apple Watch notified me that my heart rate was "unusually high for more than 10 minutes" - we were in those hot boxes for like 15-20 minutes waiting cause the meeting ran long. (Our big boss/owner of the company knew about the prank too and was in on it but he was long winded, which is why the meeting ran longer...) 🫠😭

I'm never gonna hide in a box again (unless my life depends on it). Everyone was so confused because no one apparently knew the reference to Metal Gear Solid 🤦🏻‍♀️ But our VP got a huge kick out of it and he liked our teamwork.

Tagging @trench-foot @kyoukoart1 @inhurtandincomfort @jaysc0ve and open tag!

TELL ME A CURIOSITY ABOUT YOURSELF. NOTHING DISTURBING OR GLOOMY. SOMETHING SILLY LIKE YOU HAVE BRACES OR YOU HAVE A TATTOO OF YOUR FAVORITE CHARACTER

I have a lot of bridge in my feet, I walk silly and I'm not a good athlete for that lol

And tag your mutuals!

@agoodpretender, @angiem03, @tiberious-possum, @fukitche

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Shame is one of the hardest things about ADHD for me. I'm back and the book is finished but instead of feeling proud, I feel ashamed for not having managed to stay active, manage my household better or even shower regularly.

I wasn't sure what comic "would be good to come back with", so I just wrote about what I'm actually dealing with right now.

I’m so happy to be back and hope someone still gets some value from my comics!

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It seems like the only way I can rest from work is if I get sick or if something happens to me physically... 😕

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It's a crime Diluc doesn't have flame wings with the amount of bird themes he has

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My friend said this about AO3 and it’s honestly so true

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At the frontlines.

Sometimes I remember that Diluc was really young when he became captain, wonder what it was like...?

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Anyone else having this issue on the Tumblr app? The Continue button doesn't work. And it's weird because I haven't updated iOS in a while so this was random.

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I love women who can kick my ass

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the ADHD writer's guide to actually finishing a draft (no, seriously) 📝

okay, tumblr, writers... we need to TALK about how to actually finish a damn draft when your executive functioning decided to pack its bags and leave for a permanent vacation in the bahamas.

i'm not here to give you that basic "just set a timer!" advice that makes me want to throw my laptop into the sun. we all know those productivity hacks that work for neurotypicals make us want to scream into the void. (been there, screamed that.)

so here's the ACTUAL guide from someone who's written three novels while her brain was actively trying to sabotage her the entire time.

FIRST: accept that linear writing is a capitalist construct designed to torture us.

i'm serious. whoever decided writers should start at chapter 1 and proceed neatly to THE END clearly didn't have dopamine playing hide-and-seek in their prefrontal cortex.

write whatever scene has your brain chemicals SINGING today. that climactic fight scene that's six chapters away? the tender moment between your characters that happens in the middle? WRITE IT NOW while your brain is actually interested. i have finished entire novels by writing them in chunks and stitching them together like the beautiful frankenstein's monster they are.

SECOND: the 10-minute lie (that actually works???)

tell yourself you're only going to write for 10 minutes. that's it. no pressure. your adhd brain can handle anything for 10 minutes, right? the secret is that once you start, momentum becomes your best friend. sometimes you'll actually stop at 10 minutes (congrats, you still wrote something!) but often you'll look up and realize it's been two hours and you've written 2,000 words. and yes i've seen this a lot, like everywhere, where they tell you "set a timer for 5, and by the time you realize it's 2 hours" i've seen this many times before, and it actually works. at first i thought it didn't but boy, i was wrong.

THIRD: use your hyperfixation powers for good, not evil.

we all know that adhd comes with the superpower of becoming obsessed with random things for unpredictable amounts of time. WEAPONIZE THIS. create artificial urgency around your project. tell people about your deadline. make elaborate aesthetic pinterest boards. create a spotify playlist that you only listen to while writing this specific project. trick your brain into making your WIP the shiny new hyperfixation.

FOURTH: body-doubling saved my writing career and it can save yours too.

find another writer friend (or any friend who needs to do focused work) and sit together - virtually or physically - while you both work. something about having another human witnessing your work process bypasses the executive dysfunction. i swear it's actual magic. discord writing sprints, zoom sessions with cameras off but mics on - whatever works.

FIFTH: embrace the chaos of your natural writing cycle.

some days you'll write 5,000 words in a frenzy at 3am. other days you'll stare at the document for an hour and write "the." BOTH ARE VALID WRITING DAYS. the only consistency we need is returning to the document, not some arbitrary daily word count.

SIXTH: create external accountability that doesn't make you want to die.

deadlines from publishers? great. deadlines you set for yourself? your brain laughs and says "or what?" find the sweet spot - maybe it's a writing buddy you check in with, maybe it's a public progress tracker, maybe it's promising your sister you'll take her to dinner when you finish a chapter.

SEVENTH: the frankendraft approach.

your first draft DOES NOT need to be good, coherent, or even make sense. it just needs to exist. leave yourself notes like [FIGURE OUT HOW SHE GETS FROM THE CASTLE TO THE BEACH LATER] and keep moving. your adhd brain will thank you for not getting stuck in research rabbit holes for six hours.

EIGHTH: find your optimal writing environment through shameless trial and error.

maybe you need complete silence. maybe you need to be in a coffee shop with specific ambient noise. maybe you need to write standing up. maybe you need to dictate your novel while pacing around your apartment. there is no wrong way to get the words out.

i personally write best when i'm slightly uncomfortable (weird, i know) so i often end up writing while sitting on my kitchen floor with my laptop balanced on a chair. whatever works, bestie. a finished messy draft is infinitely more valuable than the perfect novel still trapped in your head. your adhd brain is simultaneously your greatest challenge and your greatest asset as a writer. the connections you make, the unique perspectives, the creativity - all of that comes from the same place as the struggles.

you've got this. now go write something, even if it's just for 10 minutes. i believe in you. ✨ -rin t.

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Somehow I survived today...

Work is haunting my narrative and my dreams, apparently. I fell asleep absolutely exhausted at 9:30... woke up at 5:45 and I still feel tired 🥱 😪 then I find out my phone is going crazy and not getting messages, apps aren't working... since I ran out of space on my phone.

Yup, if this is any indication of how work is going to go today... I am cooked.

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How I felt when I met some of my mutuals on Tumblr and ao3 🩵 you know who you are~