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getting in the car I’ve left parked in the sun all day

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going on pinterest and commenting “hmm… i find this really.. pinteresting…!” on every single post i see

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speaking of larping as a knight u can get through basically any task by imagining that ur a knight or perhaps a squire undergoing various ordeals and such.

for example.

-car maintenance. a noble knight would never allow their steed to languish without proper care.

-laundry. a squire must maintain the wardrobe for themself and their knight and work hard to prove themself.

-exercise: a knight must train to keep their skills sharp and maintain their strength and stamina.

-conversation with annoying coworker? a knight must be gracious even in the face of provocation and maintain diplomacy and restraint so as not to make things difficult for their king and also not misuse their power by obliterating an unarmed man with sheer force of might no matter how much he DESERVES IT

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Barbie protagonists but make it My Scene

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everything. cost money

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I have found more recently, in reflecting on my own childhood in relation to growing up in a predominantly white area and institution as a black person, especially as a weird black girl; that there is this idea that we cannot achieve romance in the same ways as our peers. Black girls, in all areas, whether you were at a nearly all-white institution like myself, or in a place with more diversity, you are expected above everyone else to be “older.” Girls as a whole are told that we are more mature than boys, and that we should excuse boys’ actions because they don’t know better. However for young black girls, we’re reprimanded for fighting back against those things or questioning those ideas. We are treated like the idea of a crush is something frivolous and not worth spending time on.

While girls around me were given gifts on Valentine’s Day by a blushing boy, or pretended to be boyfriend and girlfriend on the playground - I was asked by boys if they could have the n-word pass.

It is a crushing realization that not many people consider and when you grow up around white people only, besides your own parents, it creates a sense of shame and that you are not assimilating well enough to be desired. Something that is far too complex to be considering at such a young age.

This overall may have to do with the unnecessary pressure and idea placed on us, that we are expected to be more “adult” than others. These young, white girls and boys do not see us as equal at times so they see us as someone they can tease, not someone they can chase.

According to Psychology today, black girls experience earlier puberty than those around them. Rather than simply seeing this as a simple biological difference, it is used against us to justify mistreatment.

Not only does this lead to false stereotypes of promiscuity from a very young age, but it propagates the idea that black girls are more “adult-like” and “fast.” We are expected to control how we respond to others actions, how we talk, and how we’re perceived before we’ve even made it to 6th grade. This has been shown to lead to harsher consequences for black students in schools, and a general disregard for their feelings as whole. Asking questions in a classroom setting is seen as “talking back,” and sarcasm is seen as “sassy.” We are expected to be high-class and generally we are expected to skip the joys of our adolescence as a whole.

When I was in 6th grade, I had a friend named John. Like all of my friends, John was white. While playing with John after school, John said to me, “most black people make me feel unsafe when I go to bad places, but you’re different.” As a child, I didn’t know how to feel about this initially. Eventually, I took it as a compliment, that I was defying the expectations of my peers and challenging the stereotypes that me and my internalized racism has fought so hard to do, in showing them that I wasn’t like “other” black people. A child should not have to worry about this or consider this and a child’s existence should not be a lesson for other children to learn.

Representation of us in the media does not help either, and that comes from all races. We are depicted from white audiences as loud, sassy, and “loose.” Though, if we are depicted to be more eccentric or weird, we’re seen as “whitewashed.” Which, the damage of declaring a black person “whitewashed” from any race is dangerous in it of itself as it implies that there is a correct way to be black.

Irregardless, the current landscape of America has not faired well in helping black women of all background and personalities. Even as intersectionality grows, we are treated as a monolith. Us being represented in roles that were not typically assigned to in media is seen as “woke” or unnecessary. The perception of black women in America needs to change as a whole, to not only be more inclusive, but to begin with the simple step that needs to be accomplished first — to see us as people.

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I will forever be profoundly unimpressed with people who take pride in their unkindness to others

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shower gel label:  immerse your self in this new   “Me Time” luxury   fruity tooty.    abandon all sense of identity and dissolve  Your memories into this   soothing chemical broth    One billion melons are in this tube… use them wisely

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me (user since 2010) everytime this site is in a 50/50 situation of being nuked every 3 years

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Okay but at least now I know that moving into an apartment or house with my friends may not be a far fetched dream but a necessity lmao

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I think maybe when they said to love vulnerably and loudly, to take all opportunities, to take all opportunities for things that you love at your core, even when you doubt yourself. To avoid things that cause anger, or sadness, and despair. To drink water, to talk to those you love, to cut out talking badly about others continuously and to create in whatever that means to you. They were right. It does feel better and it gets better

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SINGIN’ IN THE RAIN (1952) dir. Stanley Donan, Gene Kelly

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Mermaids by Konstantin Makovsky (1885)

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There comes a point where it feels as though I’m put in the place of a judge when I shouldn’t even have a gavel. As a black person, no, I don’t personally think that a white person using the term “crash out” is a gross reclamation of AAVE. I think this one is okay! You’re good Nancy!

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bert and ernie go to ikea

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