delicate1dove

[delicate1dove]

My love for you feels like a Hozier song

[delicate1dove]

I see you in everything I do

[delicate1dove]

Y'all is it gay to be super gay for your best friend

[delicate1dove]

I just want to take care of you and keep you safe and happy and warm

[delicate1dove]

You had a nightmare and I wanted to bring you close. I wanted to remind you that you're safe and that I'll never let anything hurt or scare you like that. I wanted to hold your face in my hands and let you look into my eyes and see how loved you are. I wanted to hold you close enough that you could use my heartbeat to slow your own. I wanted to kiss your face until your anxieties were replaced by a smile. I wanted to put on one of your favorite movies and cuddle you until you felt grounded and happy.

Instead I texted back that I was sorry and offered the normal comforts you'd expect from a best friend.

[delicate1dove]

I have such gay feelings for you

[delicate1dove]

I keep dreaming about you, about what we could be. When I wake up I feel like I haven't slept because I'm left mourning the life we had

[delicate1dove]

I fell asleep thinking about your eyes

[delicate1dove]

You're so perfect

[delicate1dove]

I hope I can always look to my side and see you as my passenger princess

[delicate1dove]

when you’re in love, and you know you can’t tell them

you either become reckless

or bitter

or content

Reckless, with the way you try to catch their attention. The way you hint at your love, hoping they’ll catch on even though you know the consequences if they do. You just want them to see you. To look. Because maybe, just maybe then they would see you the way you see them.

Or bitter, because they look at others. Every time they find someone new, and they talk about their beauty in a way you’re certain no one has about you. The little green eyed monster growling each time you feel their attention shift away, even though you know they are not yours to keep or be possessive of.

Or content, the one that is the most kind. You cannot have them, so you must embrace having them in the only ways you can. Love them through the conversations and texts, the little things that show they care about you even though you know it’s not the way you care for them. Because it’s ok. You can have the stolen glances and the friendship and live through the sadness when they show interest in others. You can live and love and cry and they never have to know.

There are thousands of reasons besides fear to not be able to tell them. Whether it’s because they love someone else, or the timing isn’t right, or they simply don’t love you back.

Sometimes you have to let go of that love before it consumes you.

But sometimes, you can hold on.

You can love them from afar and wait

until one day when the stars might align

and you can find happiness in each other.

for now, i can wait.

[delicate1dove]

I think

I could love you

for fifteen lifetimes

and still never

tire of you

I hope to

meet you in every

lifetime after this one

For knowing you

has been one

of my greatest blessings

You complete me

You balance me

Even on my darkest days

you light my soul on fire

[delicate1dove]

I keep catching myself looking back at pictures and videos of us even though I just saw you because I already miss you 😫

[delicate1dove]

I love you so much

[delicate1dove]

You literally have me smiling at my phone like an idiot oh my god

[delicate1dove]

I have felt myself fall for you countless times. I'm in love with everything about you. I'm my best self when I'm with you because you inspire me to be better and make me feel safe. In every single dark moment in the last 12 years, you've been there to give me light. Your laugh and smile are like gentle music notes that make me happy. I want to give you everything. I want to give you everything the same way you've given me everything

If only I wasn't too much of a coward to tell you just how deeply I love you

[delicate1dove]

I'm so sorry for falling in love with you but I just can't help it