delphi-system

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any of y’all ever have that feeling that you are speaking a different language in headspace and it’s a language that the body doesn’t understand but somehow you are speaking it in headspace??

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It is not selfish to want to be loved. It is not selfish to want people to care about you. It is not selfish to want to be allowed to heal. You are deserving of love, no matter what

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me, watching sci-fi tv: wow it would be so weird to have amnesia that would be wild

the 12 years of childhood i have no memory of: haha yeah

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i am an alpha male (i love and cherish my friends and thrive when i am in a pack)

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it’s so weird being an introject and a trauma holder because i’m almost positive my source memories are stand ins for something else but fuck if i know what so i’m just sitting here as a silly little cowboy who is also apparently holding some dark shit

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I hate having DID and not remembering my childhood because I barely know who I am. I was packing up christmas ornaments today and there are so many that have my name on them that I have no memory of making. My childhood feels like some lost lost story I only have scraps of and I hate it

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i got my flu shot and my covid booster in the same arm at the same time and im suffering mistakes have been made

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i need more then i weighted blanket i need my body to be put in one of those hydraulic press things

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not to be gay on main but she’s pretty

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currently downloading overwatch on my switch so i can play while on vacation i definitely don’t play this game too much this is fine i’m fine

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Friendly reminder to all protectors that you're a person too and you're allowed to just exist. You're allowed to front when something non stressful is happening. You're allowed to have hobbies or interests that aren't tied to being a protector. You're allowed to chill and relax a little, you're not stealing time from anyone I promise. You're allowed to cry or be sad or upset, you're not weak or a "bad protector" for doing so. You're a person too. It's great that you protect them but remember, you're not a shield, you're a person. You matter as much as the rest. The world won't end if you let yourself relax and live a little, I promise. You don't have to be strong all the time and I'm sorry if that is your current circumstance though, I promise it gets better. Just let yourself live and be a person. You've already done so much for them. You deserve some breaks and affection too

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Me, experiencing one singular negative emotion:

Jack: HEY KID YOU WANT A DAD??? TOO BAD YOU HAVE ONE NOW. ITS ME IM YOUR DAD CONGRATULATIONS

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this one hits

song is growing sideways by noah kahan

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trauma is so funky and weird cause i can watch a movie with a ton of gratuitous violence and not be phased even a little but then i watch half an episode of bluey and sob uncontrollably

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holy fuck man DID is weird i have not had enough coffee for this

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shoutout to all the systems out there who have to go back home for the holidays. y’all are doing great and you got this <3

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Having more alters than other people doesn't make you a bad system, same the other way around. But wanting more alters is very unhealthy. Encouraging heavy dissociation and memory gaps is very scary and anti-recovery.

Splitting alters can't be helped, but if you actively try to split and make your system bigger (hell, i've even seen competitions on who's bigger, which sounds a lot like ED/SH competitions), it's very unhealthy.

Don't be ashamed of splitting, though. That isn't the problem. Promoting anti-recovery is.