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Pretty sunset I drew

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This is Boe a OC of mine that lives in space among aliens

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Got reminded recently that clothes don't equal gender, when I wore the same outfit to work on two separate days,

On the first day, the person giving me my locker keycard gave me one to the girls locker room, and on the second day, the person gave me a locker keycard to the boys locker room

So I had to awkwardly ask for a locker keycard for the girls locker room because it was going to be very awkward to change in the boys locker room

I also find it interesting considering that I wasn't even trying to look more Masc, so if you're worried about people not referring to you as a guy, it's all about confidence apparently

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A conveniently timed fall

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Rebloging because more people need to see this

hot artists don't gatekeep

I've been resource gathering for YEARS so now I am going to share my dragons hoard

Floorplanner. Design and furnish a house for you to use for having a consistent background in your comic or anything! Free, you need an account, easy to use, and you can save multiple houses.

Comparing Heights. Input the heights of characters to see what the different is between them. Great for keeping consistency. Free.

Magma. Draw online with friends in real time. Great for practice or hanging out. Free, paid plan available, account preferred.

Smithsonian Open Access. Loads of free images. Free.

SketchDaily. Lots of pose references, massive library, is set on a timer so you can practice quick figure drawing. Free.

SculptGL. A sculpting tool which I am yet to master, but you should be able to make whatever 3d object you like with it. free.

Pexels. Free stock images. And the search engine is actually pretty good at pulling up what you want.

Figurosity. Great pose references, diverse body types, lots of "how to draw" videos directly on the site, the models are 3d and you can rotate the angle, but you can't make custom poses or edit body proportions. Free, account option, paid plans available.

Line of Action. More drawing references, this one also has a focus on expressions, hands/feet, animals, landscapes. Free.

Animal Photo. You pose a 3d skull model and select an animal species, and they give you a bunch of photo references for that animal at that angle. Super handy. Free.

Height Weight Chart. You ever see an OC listed as having a certain weight but then they look Wildly different than the number suggests? Well here's a site to avoid that! It shows real people at different weights and heights to give you a better idea of what these abstract numbers all look like. Free to use.

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Finished my good omens re-watch!

I disliked the ending to the second season so much I drew it!

Crowley after being saddened and hurt

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We need Crowley speaking french. I bet Aziraphale would've stayed if he had confessed in french.

Bestie he wouldn’t have understood a word 😭😭😭😭😭

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Up to Season 2 in my good omens re-watch!

I don't want to watch the ending to the second season again, it's so sad I just want them to be happy together :(

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Most recent drawing

Vs a drawing from idk when, maybe a couple of years ago

The clear difference between the level of drawing

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Now I want to re-watch good omens again

Is Crowley already the new Supreme Archangel?

A few oversights made millennia ago, and suddenly we have a demon archangel on our hands.

Caution: I came up with and wrote this in the last few hours so potentially crackpot theory ahead. Apologies if this has been proposed before, it’s not one I’ve seen. And I’ve seen A LOT.

So supposedly the miracle Aziraphale and Crowley performed together was something only the mightiest of archangels could have done. Everyone assumes it was Crowley because they think he was a high ranking Angel formerly. Or that it was the two of them together. Or that Jimbriel amplified it. But what if…

“There is always a supreme archangel”

Michael says this in S2E1 when talking with Uriel about who is in charge now that Gabriel was missing. Gabriel was removed from office in the trial we hear, he’s no longer Supreme Archangel. If so, Michael’s statement would imply that as soon as Gabriel’s removal happened, a new archangel already existed. Now obviously the Metatron is making a show of choosing Aziraphale as the new Supreme Archangel. But is that within his power to do so? Or is he suggesting working with Crowley for a different reason, possibly unknown even to him?

“I am the only first-order archangel in the room, or you know, the universe”

During the “2nd Armageddon-that-wasn’t” discussion, Gabriel says these words. As he says them, it cuts (ominously isn’t the right word here, pointedly maybe?) to Crowley leaning against the desk, and lingers there just a bit too long.

“How do you know it wasn’t me?”

Another clue to the powerful angel Crowley was. It was clearly said in a teasing manner throw Shax off. But much like the barrel of red herring in the intro, is it a red herring to something else?

“Can you send lightning bolts and get them to report back to you?”

The only other time we see someone calling lightning or using it is, you guessed it: Gabriel in S1 on the airbase to port in and out. I’ve read the theory that Angel!Crowley was the lord of lightning, which I’m not opposed to, but to me this is another link.

“Never change their passwords”

We have one HUGE instance of Heaven being sloppy in their record keeping (passwords), and lax in their security protocol (Crowley bopping about with Muriel). Whereas Hell is meticulous in their record keeping, as shown by the bills, admissions process, and S1 contract.

So what if: when Gabriel was stripped of the title, a new Supreme Archangel was automatically appointed. Except instead of someone else, because heaven neglected to double-check their logs after The Fall, Crowley was still on the books as next in line? This would absolutely play into “God playing games with the universe” and “just think what would have happened if we’d been at all competent” themes running through both seasons. It would also follow the theory that people noticed Aziraphale and Crowley were on the “wrong” side for much of the season. It would also explain a few continuity errors along the way (how did Crowley know Muriel’s rank? He knows it through the knowledge automatically given to the Supreme Archangel).

“Funny ol’ world, isn’t it?”

Caveats and potential weaknesses:

I have no idea how this fits into the fact that S3 will be the actual continuation the Neil and Terry planned, as to my knowledge S2 was essentially a “Neil’s chaotic angsty ineffable husbands fanfic”. But clearly S2 has to play well into the plan for S3. I also kind of hate my theory because Crowley specifically declined to be an angel again, and his hand has been forced too often already.

Now I am a staunch advocate of the body-swap theory, and I’m not sure how this would play into that. Does Metatron know? Does he think he has the power to appoint? Does he think the title went to Aziraphale because of the miracle? Does he try to get Crowley to come back with Aziraphale to exploit his power? Does he know about the body swap in S1 and if so, was he trying to trigger another one to get the right “soul” to heaven?

There are a few other things I haven’t figured out how to incorporate into this post yet. I’ll try to put them into coherent thoughts in the next few days, but thought I’d throw this to the wolves universe for the time being.

Thought 1: “How have your lot managed to stay in charge all this time?” “I’m not so sure we have.”

Thought 2: I need to do (another) rewatch before I nail this one down (such a sacrifice I tell you), but does Crowley have a visceral reaction like he does in S1 to being called “good” in the current, post Gabriel-removal timeset? Obv in Edinburgh/Job, but that’s in the past. He denies it, sure (with Jim), but he straight up flashes a smile and thanks Mrs. Sandwich when she says “You’re a good lad” (after the denial).

2.1: No one calls him “good” in present day except these two instances. Vast difference in the visceral reactions of season 1 and flashbacks.

Thought 3: Crowley is the only one who can trigger Jimbriel’s recall memory.

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Every time I see something like this, I get reminded that I gave up figuring out the exact labels that my gender is.

So I ended up calling myself agender because I told my friends I didn't care what people called me and they said that I was agender.

So good job for figuring out what your gender is, because I couldn't!

gender big

I am mostly male, partially female or non-binary, and a little bit non-binary or female. I sometimes experience a lack of gender or minimal gender experience. I embrace a strong masculine aspect to my gender identity. My gender experience fluctuates both in identity, shifting from one gender to another or to none, and in intensity, ranging from full to partial gender feelings. My gender varies over time, sometimes shifting from one identity to another. I often feel a lack of gender, whereas others typically experience a sense of identity. My gender is like a fluid version of being a man, as I prefer to be seen and treated as a cis man, while my gender can also shift between various identities. My gender is fluid or in flux, but it is always at least somewhat related to a masculine gender. I am somtimes exactly half male and half another gender. I shift between various genders, including those associated with masculinity, femininity, neutrality, and genderlessness. My gender fluidity expands as I discover and accept more genders, unable to experience genders I'm unaware of and only fully embracing my gender fluidity. I am sort of a girl, but not quite. My inner sense of gender doesn't match the gender I was told I was when I was born. I can switch between being male, female, or non-binary, and I might lean towards masculinity. I am always some degree of maleness or femaleness present.

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I'm not gender fluid myself, but I love how so many people had the same response of ditto the Pokemon.

I also like this response because Crowley would be such a good one too.

If genderfluid people had to have a mascot, what should it be?

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I know this has been said before here, but it depends on the person for example:

while I consider myself an agender and trans (transexual), I use those terms as two separate things

So, in the context of gender modality, would anything other than identifying as cis be considered trans? So if someone identifies as agender, would their gender modality be categorized as transgender? /genq

I understand that terms such as cis, trans, ipsogender, ultergender, isogender, absgender, utrinquegender, sensgender, adgender, and demicis exist, but I was specifically referring to the question above.

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Whenever I have dysphoria about my hair I just remind myself I have Wesley's hair cut from the princess bride.

Yoou know I really feel like a stupid bitch because all of these years I was like, 100% agreeing with the very simple fact that men can habe long hair, but I was refusing to let my hair grow long again bevause I had mad social dysphoria and wasn't applying my own beliefs to myself

And all I needed

ALL

I

NEEDED

To finally accept that me letting my hair grow again wouldn't make me less valid as a trans person

All I needed

Was to discover one (1) long haired guy character and become completely obsessed by him to the point of wanting to look like him

What.

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I love being agender because you can just identify as something you saw on a pintrest post

or a group of OCS that just sit in your head doing nothing and are never going to exist in any other form.

I do not identify as agender. I am agender. I identify as a bastard of epic proportions. (This is a reference to this one thing I saw on Pinterest)

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Why does growing up have to be so scary?

like what do you mean I have to spend my money if I want something, and everythings so much more expensive than I remember it being.

I just want to spend it on things I like and hobbies not overpriced food.

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I'm at the point of figuring out my gender where I know that I don't care about it and I want people in my life to know that I don't care about my gender however,

I'm too socially awkward to come out to most people in my life because they've spent so long referring to me as the one thing