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gonna make a carrd with all my silly ocs / self-inserts ~ and then maybe i'll write more backstory behind my main oc~

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thinking about how dr ratio would comfort my oc/self-insert, iris (she is #traumatised) they r so silly

established relationship, potentially ooc? idk if i write ratio correctly lol. will have to go into iris' backstory at some point~

at first dr ratio's confused. he’s never seen iris so vulnerable before — she’s always been so closed off with her emotions, so it’s odd to see her near to tears.

“i’m fine.” her voice is cold, distant. but he can see that she’s not fine — the way her body trembles ever so slightly, she’s biting her lip, her eyes dart about the room nervously.

“clearly, you’re not fine.” dr ratio says, huffing as he draws close to her. his gaze softens as he takes in her appearance. he hates to see her so troubled. his voice is a touch gentler, “you can trust me. i promise i won’t judge. it would be counterproductive to judge you.”

iris hesitates.

“i’m sorry. this is unbecoming of me.” she bites her lip, looking away from him. “i… didn’t really want you to see me like this.”

she walks away, ignoring his looks of concern.

iris has always relied on herself to pick herself back up, because she believes that she isn’t allowed to rely on anyone. she feels that she is not enough for him. that… she shouldn’t be allowed to feel.

he only realises this just a bit too late.

he wants to feel disappointed at her most recent presentation, but... he can't bring himself too. the way she's slumped on the chair, as if lifeless...

he wants her to be like herself again. unsure of how to deal with her state, he falls back into familiar patterns, as if she's a student who's scored a less than adequate score on a test.

“why didn’t you come to me? you've made a complete fool of yourself. it’s foolish of you to not depend on me— you can lean on me!" his own frustration bleeds into his words. he doesn't understand - why isn't she trusting him? are they not close enough? he though...

"why are you being so stubborn? you-” he stops, noticing her fearful expression. just a few words and she’s already shirking away from him. he recognises that maybe he's being a bit too harsh on her... perhaps it's best if he takes a different approach.

“...my apologies." he murmurs. iris' gaze snaps to him. it's feels rare to see him apologise, but dr. ratio is smart enough to know when he's in the wrong. "i care for you, you realise that?” his voice is soft, unlike anything iris has heard before. “it is important that you’re taken care of… otherwise, how will a genius such as yourself flourish?”

a silence. iris still looks afraid of something. he can't tell what, though.

“i’m not allowed.” she whispers, her voice holding a slight tremor, “mother and father says i’m not allowed to feel. that i shouldn’t be so pathetic. that i am not worthy of comfort. seeking out others will lead to ‘punishment’.”

it’s enraging. the fact that she believes that she can’t rely on him, the fact that her parents have driven in the belief that she is not worthy of anything. her words allow him a glimpse of her past. it’s enough for him to realise that she’s experienced something truly harmful.

he wishes he could heal her from her traumatic experiences. but all he can do is hold her close and whisper words of comfort.

“don’t say that." he gently takes her hand and stares into her eyes, searching for any hints of emotion. all he can see is fear, shame and apprehension. "of course you're allowed to feel, don't be foolish. ignore your parents words. confide in me."

she still looks hesitant.

"i'm sorry." she murmurs, nodding at him, giving him permission to hold her close. immediately, he wraps his arms around her, pulling him into his embrace. so what, if the people are watching? her comfort, her emotional state is his priority right now. they can gossip all they want. as long as she's okay.

"don't apologise." he scolds gently. "you're not with your parents anymore, you know that, right? so their words hold no weight."

she nods, feeling her throat tighten, knowing that if she tried speaking, her voice would come out as a pathetic sort of croak. instead, she leans into him, feeling the tears escape her eyes.

it's been so long, since she's cried. it's been so long, since she has indulged in the comfort of another...

for now, dr ratio is simply glad that she's allowing him to comfort her.

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she's a fictional character to YOU. I know her personally

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resist the urge to write fics of my sillies.

oka y maybe i wil write.. and post… and be silly

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AW YEAH MY BLORBOS PHOTOCARDS ARE HERE

but i’m not at home (i’m finishing of my finaly days at uni) SO IM. i can’t even have them until i get back RAHHHH

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thinking about my s/i / oc…

tbh idk if i’d class them as a s/i ??!?!? what even counts as one. help me out here self shipper community

cause like… my silly oc my blorbo. she is so silly. she is filled to the brim with trauma (i love injecting trauma and angst into my ocs) she is very much separate from me but at the same time i’m living through her but at the same time we r so different…

erm anyway. yeah. what counts as an self insert. please explain. i am a novice self shipper🙏

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my reality tv addiction gave me a good idea for a question actually

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Imagine your f/o lending you their sweater, coat, rings, or something they wear often as a way of showing their closeness and affection for you. It's something they may not normally do with just anyone, so gifting this to you is something personal, it signifies something deeper to them.

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need more soft smiling ratio… actually adore him so much he’s so silly. i will eat hjm

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f/o who doesn’t usually receive compliments and finally gets one from you and their brain just. malfunctions on the spot and doubts your words… voice going a little shaky (asking ‘…really?’) and the redness on their face showing their embarrassment to be on the receiving end so suddenly. eventually they learn that this will happen way more often with how much you do care for them, though they don’t think they’ll ever get used to it…

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Made some Self Shipper Blinkies!

Dumb Tumblr still only allowing 10 images >:T

[PROSHIPPERS/COMSHIPPERS DNI!]

🩷Taglist;

(@fading-bisexual-queen-milkshake @ava-ships @toasty-self-shipping @mrs-bluemarine)

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maybe i’ll write something silly w my s/i and ratio…. now ghat i’m free from university assignments 🙏🙏🙏🙏😭😭😭😭

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Shoutout to selfshippers who aren't confident enough in their art/writing to make content around their F/O's. It's okay to be frustrated but if it's a skill you want to get better at, you just have to keep going! Your F/O's love you, regardless of how much content you make of them.

Proship/variants DNI

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your romantic f/O looking at you moodboard

Reminder: that fictional character is annoying about you, they are infatuated with you, and yes they are madly in love with you 😀

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followed you with my main blog, my self-ship blog is aoi-memoriae if you wanna become mutuals ^^

ofc!! <3

(oh yes also i’ll be following w my main blog @birdloverr)

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For my self-shippers out there...

Do you know that feeling, when you look at picture of your wonderful, gorgeous f/o(s), you just keep falling in love again, over and over?

Do you know that feeling, of thinking about them at random moments during your day, making your stomach get filled with butterflies, and mind simply melting at the thoughts?

Do you know that feeling, in your heart, deep down, that you're bound to be together, no matter how far apart you may be. Made for each other, your purpose, will, soul, simply... Feeling right to belong to each other. Even going beyond the word 'soulmates'. To feel love, to yearn for each other to the very brinks of insanity?

Do you know that feeling, when you think your f/o(s) is just... Perfect. Ethereal. Otherwordly. In every way. Every single detail, trait, anything your mind thinks of, makes them just more and more beautiful in your eyes, if that is even possible. Your scale keeps breaking, conquering even the infinite?

Do you know that feeling, that you just admire them so much, you have literally no words? No words are able to describe the beaty of your lover(s). That they are so wonderful in your eyes you are left speechless?

Do you know that feeling, that you want to spend the rest of your life together, with them? It doesn't have to be marriage that will get you to stay with each other forever. Think of it as an oath, just between you. Knowing that YOU will always be their choice, and THEY will always be yours?

... Do you know that feeling?

I think you do.

(for my beloved, Hanami <3)

dividers by @xiaonyc <3

Pr0shippers/c0mshippers/neutral, dni. This isn't for you. Thanks.

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Me with my grumpy/asshole f/o(s)

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