disabledameron

[disabledameron]

i genuinely think ocd is incredibly underdiagnosed bc i will see people posting what are obvious rituals, compulsions, intrusive thoughts, spiralling, hyper morality, etc and its like Have You Considered This Might Be An Issue

[disabledameron]

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[disabledameron]

like what I mean by I have privilege over many other autistics is that I've seen a fully grown adult thrown in an isolation room for not working on his AAC with an abusive 1:1 paraeducator whereas I'd only been thrown into an isolation room last when I was in middle school.

I was working as a substitute paraeducator in a transition classroom at 21 and I met a young woman between the ages of 18-21 (didn't ask, she looked younger because autism) who dreamed of being a veterinarian but was praised for buttoning up shirts the best at Value Village for monopoly money.

When I was being assaulted by teachers/paras and locked in seclusion, they were frustrated at me for "wasting potential". The kids, and ADULTS, I worked with had paraeducators and teachers who thought of them as useless eaters.

I can't tie my shoes or work (at least a normal job, at least currently, etc.) but I can leave my house when I feel capable of doing so independently. My colleagues living in group homes have to wait for "community day." I can go online and get support. My colleagues need support with using the computer and they're not getting it most of the time, except for self advocacy meetings.

I feel I'm worthless because of what happened to me. My friends and so many of the people I've worked with feel worthless because of what HAPPENS to them.

I was institutionalized for two weeks once when I was 7.

I know people who were in the state institutions for 30 years.

Yes, I have privilege. Many autistic people have disability related privilege over other autistic people. For some reason people think this makes me "just quirky." And some people want to deny that these are privileging experiences at all. If you got called high functioning, even as a tool of abuse, you have relative privilege over people called "low functioning," or even just "low." That doesn't mean you're not disabled or not a big target of ableist systems.

Whatever we mean by "low support needs" and "high support needs" (I think the disability field I work in has a more restrictive definition of this than I see in Tumblr), we do have more in common with each other than not.

The terror I saw from my students was immediately understood by me. I feel extremely seen when I read Mel Baggs' blog. I use AAC more and more often now. I struggle with ADLs and this will likely get worse as I age.

I know that the world I need is a world that liberates nonspeaking autistic people who require 1:1 professional support for behavior and activities of daily living. I need a world that values nonspeaking autistic people who can't use AAC. I need a world that treats every single autistic person as a human being. Centering the most impacted is a disability justice principle.

What we're not going to do, though, is build a dichotomy in our mind of "those people with the serious disease that means we can treat them as less than human" and "quirky assholes appropriating real struggle."

[disabledameron]

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[disabledameron]

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[disabledameron]

yall are pro mental illness until they hallucinate

yall are pro mental illness until they dissociate

yall are pro mental illness until they self-isolate

yall are pro mental illness until they're paranoid

yall are pro mental illness until they split

yall are pro mental illness until it's too Scary for your comparatively neurotypical brain to handle

[disabledameron]

Some individuals with AD/HD, especially without hyperactivity, have an activation problem as described by Thomas Brown, Ph.D. in his article AD/HD without Hyperactivity (1993). Rather than a deficit of attention, this means that individuals can’t deploy attention, direct it, or put it in the right place at the right time. He explains that adults who do not have hyperactivity often have severe difficulty activating enough to start a task and sustaining the energy to complete it. This is especially true for low-interest activities. Often it means that they can’t think of what to do so they might not be able to act at all, or, as Kate Kelly and Peggy Ramundo say in You Mean I’m Not Lazy, Stupid or Crazy?!, they might experience a “paralysis of will” (pg. 65). “The clothes from my trip—a month ago—are just still lying in a heap in the suitcase.” “I spend a lot of time in bed watching TV but my mind isn’t watching TV. I’m thinking about what I should be doing, but I don’t have the energy to do it.”

- Sari Solden, Women With Attention-Deficit Disorder

[disabledameron]

Folks have got to understand that they probably aren't messed up by some Secret Big Trauma that they just can't remember; but rather by a million tiny microtraumas that they do mostly remember but don't even register as traumatic because nobody actually understood that these things would cause trauma, much less stack on each other over the years.

[disabledameron]

ADHD

[disabledameron]

this obviously doesn't apply to every disabled person but one of the things you don't really hear about for being disabled or chronically ill is the boredom. being stuck in bed and like. not having the ability to do anything meaningfully intensive with your hands, not being able to sit up, not having the concentration to read or watch things (from pain or brain fog or something else) and just kinda. lingering around online and hoping for something to happen or someone to talk to even if you have nothing good to say bc nothing has been going on for like the last day, week, month anyway

[disabledameron]

Shoutout to leftists who are too poor/disabled to give back to their community.

Shoutout to leftists who are too poor/disabled to shop at local/small businesses.

Shoutout to leftists who are poor/disabled and have to buy things from Amazon and other megacorps because it’s the most cheap or convenient.

Shoutout to leftists who are too poor/disabled to reduce their environmental footprint because they need the single-use plastics.

Shoutout to leftists who can’t go vegan because of dietary needs, disordered eating, or neurodivergence.

Shoutout to leftists who can’t volunteer or go to community events/protests/noise demonstrations because of inaccessibility.

Shoutout to leftists who can only be politically active online because they’re housebound.

Shoutout to leftists who are disabled and are rarely politically active because they simply don’t have the energy.

Shoutout to leftists who can’t be politically active because they’re under the care of a guardian or are trapped in an abusive situation, and they don’t have control over their finances/belongings.

Shoutout to leftists who can’t read theory, or who have trouble reading theory, but still do their best to learn.

Shoutout to leftists who can’t understand theory at all because of cognitive/intellectual disability.

Shoutout to leftists who want to be more active in their community but can’t because they struggle with anxiety, socializing, or maintaining relationships.

Shoutout to leftists with personality disorders, complex trauma disorders, conduct disorders, OCD, psychosis, and any other leftist whose personality or thoughts often unwillingly go against their beliefs due to a trauma response or chemical imbalance.

Shoutout to leftists who don’t have any “practical” skills that would be needed in a commune (i.e farming, building, sewing)

Shoutout to leftists who are too busy simply trying to survive to even think about being politically active.

Shoutout to leftists who have to always ask for mutual aid but can never give back.

Shoutout to all the leftists who can’t do this and can’t do that and can’t do the things that leftists are “supposed” to do. No one person is perfect.

You aren’t a fake leftist for not being able to do these things. All that matters is that you put in the effort, in whatever way that you can.

It’s not about your abilities as an individual. It’s about our power as a collective.

[disabledameron]

I do not begrudge anyone for this because it's a phenomenon that comes from a lack of information, not any kind of malice. But guys, so many of the problems I read about y'all having (including the ones y'all specifically come to me with) are just like "my system is XYZ and does ABC which is unlike all of the other systems we see and idk why and it makes me feel fake" and my buds my friends my fellows that's because you're describing a median system you're a fucking median system comparing yourself to multiple systems no wonder you feel different your system is literally structured differently than the systems you think you have to be like. Please. I'm begging you all. Consider the possibility you may be less separate than other systems and that's okay. You can have headmates that feel like different forms of the same person, and headmates that feel individual but have a shared core identity, and headmates that don't feel like entirely separate beings but rather several different flavors of you. That's okay that's normal welcome to the median gang have some popcorn and chocolate chip cookies.

Again, I don't begrudge any of you for this. You're struggling with something and you have my full sympathy. But your headmates don't need to be completely separate for you to be a system – you can just be median. Please look into median systems.

[disabledameron]

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[disabledameron]

In-system relationships can be so intimate.

Waking up together, opening the same eyes, and stretching the same limbs. Yawning in time and saying a good morning that only you who are involved can understand what it's for.

Sharing a meal, not only from the same plate, but with the same hands and the same senses. Deciding what to eat together, something that fits all of your tastes.

Curled in the same bed, in the same blankets, in the same body, drowzily mumbling about nothing and everything to each other. Joking around and feeling their sleepy laugh as if it were your own.

Living life, and inviting them to share yours and your time in it--performing your daily tasks in the unison of cofront. Seeing and hearing and feeling everything together.

Feeling them blush when you flirt or compliment them. Feeling their joy when you get them a gift, or how safe you make them feel simply when you're around them.

Enveloped in the same love, from the same brain, with the same feeling of care for each other palpable between you. Feeling the emotions you feel yourself, coming from the other person. Feeling their love for you, in the rawest, most direct possible way.

[disabledameron]

Friendly Reminder that having a high number of introjects is actually pretty normal. Media we consume affects everyone, not just systems, and as it continues to grow, so too does the rise of being introject/fictive/factive heavy will increase and become more so the norm.

So don’t feel ashamed of being an introject heavy system, media plays a key role in society as a whole, and in turn, plays a role of who you, and the system are, as well.

[disabledameron]

Like. Autism doesn't come with an automatic love of hearing anyone infodump about anything they love. In fact sometimes it comes with the opposite. Sometimes restricted interests are in fact restrictive enough to make anything else boring. Sometimes it's just hard to process that much speech. Doesn't mean we get to be unkind about it either but yeah. This fantasy people push of autistics having endless energy and appreciation for each other's special interests is just not realistic.

[disabledameron]

girls when they were doing really good and are now having not fun and funky times: oh boy..